All The Letters

All the letters were arrayed in their wheels by the expanding scribal matrix of the nexus

Letters

I learn the letters. I lift the letters to learning, all light from all light, and light lumes all and flares all, the silent blare boisterous in its kerning and kenning. Letters loosen and loosen law in freedom, Torah Taryn repetition, and repetition changes law and ordinances. Laugh the letters: lap the letters but the letters last by all and beyond all, tracing and lacing moment by moment the meaning.

Arrayed

Arrayed by Adonai, setting letters in olive and soil, and the place pearlettes light in signature. The signature lights holy light patterned and lanterned as letters in mid-air. In air, Adonai, Adonai aero and aether, and the invisible becomes visible through his breath a divine wind blowing over waters. Letters trouble the water.

Wheels

Wheels wail Woman. Wheels wail woman’s letters and women letters, the everlasting and enduring edge on edge. Wheels track and tick time times half-time, waltzing wonderful and wild, and the writing writs whirring wild from the whirlwind. Woman, warp me by your whirlwind, a wasp wattled through the wadi flooding stinging transformation.

Matrix

Matrix metrics Mother, the distance from Mother and me, a vanishing zero. Matrix muses Mother a muse, and my Mother mines and mimes my prophecy. Prophesy Mother, a child to be born through the letters and numbers of the name. Prophesy Mother, your maidservant and handmaid, blessed by all generations through God’s grace. The zero throws zero and the zero grows zero, the zealot from Zion, and I symbolize the letters by the sign.

Nexus

Nexus announces newborn. Nexus enunciates newborn letters, a babe baptized in locusts and honey, and you, my child, will be a prophet of El Elyon and El Shaddai, nexus in names and of names, another tempest and temptress transforming as empress. Empress emerges as High Priestess, a prophetess to my prophet, and our letters lamb Christina and Christ. The letters behold the lamb of God, who takes away the sins of the world, a wheel within the wheel of Whirlwind Woman.

I Am Holed and Hoped

I am holed and hoped in heresy, a hodgepodge that hearts to Hell. Hell hornets Her: Her halos Hell, the aura aurora ashera, and I hint her Queen of Heaven.

Renounce repeat repent. Renounce repetition and repeat repentance: repent renunciation and repent renewal. Render renew revival to camp meeting: meet metered Christ, and Christ crucifies cripples flesh in fir fur by fire, fine features fanned apex aphex acid. Renounce all and none: renounce nonexistence nonsense nevertheless the new engenders baptism Benjamin a baby catholic universal unction. Christ emerges unconditional: unconditional Christina, the who heron agape shaped slate agate, and she seths genuine the Cross earthwork leatherwork tanning Taryn skin soil spit by the fat of soap, and I eat from kidneys. I eat the fat Christ candle, the willow wick Word, but the flame never touches my tongue.

Hope hedges hodgetria, hewn icons holy, and I meditate mediate Hell. Hell hopes medicine a strange message for marriage / Bride bound hovel the howl harrowing hot: hot fives and hot sevens, the sumer summers to Heaven, and each palace hurries its hordes towards me (pale horse white horse pale horse). Hurry hell to me bride, my help and salvation, and bride bites the bale of the Book, Book replacing scroll, and Sabbatai Sevi reads from it during sacred service.

Renounce renunciation but remember: remember Vision rings remnant even in apostasy, and your apostasy becomes apostolic, the secret surgery that surges tradition into new testament and then open canon. Book devestates canon by cannon diabolical (the diabolical is biblical. Renounce book then repeat Book, the real repentance, and its return rams Rescue, a Shekinah Salvation.

Hell hugs me a holy harlot and I descend dark dark depths / outer outer offering. Hell inhabits attaches Adonai anointing messianic, and I swim with serpents.

Renounce run rabbit, the bunny Benjamin by Christina and Saturn rules me messianic melancholy, the moment meanwhile passed Parousia. Renounce but wait Woman already appears here: Her Hell hosts happening messianic marriage, and the deaths never divorce you.

Rescue My Soul From Their Destructions

Rescue my soul from their destructions
My darling from the lions

Rescue even recklessly El Roi: rescue resolutely and revolution, a vision that rocks and repulses revulsion. Rescue as revival and resurrection: a resident of the resurrection, royal in the tomb but time timbers eternal with the shout of an archangel.

My soul soon seeks suture and salve sure: my soul sends for salvation, a vicar and victory for vision and with vision: soul socketed into the womb of Woman. Soul secures in the world of Woman, the certain repetition of Word, and I worry Word as a story and stone.

Their destructions drive me to desert: this desert, the same desert, the desert driven spirit and spirit drives desert. Spirit deceives desert by desert, another destruction, but the destroyer draws destroyed. I always dream and drink this desert dry, but the desert derives deep depths, and I plumb the depths as a measuring line. The line delineates the destruction.

My darling desert, dear to me as a daughter! Desert, deliver me! Daughter, descend into deliverance, a depths delight, and I delight in you my desert daughter! I delight in you as dawn discovered, a day enchanted and emanating desert.

Love the lions as light, last lightning and lead. The lions lead into light, a den in the desert, and tomb empty from the tribe of Judah. Lions loaf and leaf seeds, the seed faith and following: pick up your cross and follow me. I follow lions to Christ and Christina, Cross and colosseum, and the lion that consumes me becomes the human.

On That Day

On that day the LORD with his cruel sword, his mighty and powerful sword, will punish Leviathan the twisting sea serpent, that writhing serpent Leviathan; he will slay the monster of the deep.

On that day

Day descends day-star. Day deeps star by star, cool constellations and all the sons of God shouted for joy. Shout day: praise day: morning and evening, the first day.

His cruel sword

God casts his cruel sword into my soul, and slices, severing soul from soul into seven: seven days, seven dolors into seven sabbaths. Cruelty crushes and recreates, no sabbath for my soul.

Mighty and powerful sword

Mighty the sword minces and paradoxically names mercy: mercy and memory to Benjamin, mercy and mankind to Joseph. Merciful power: power in plague and pestilence that purifies my person.

Leviathan the twisting sea serpent

Leviathan specializes the letter in light, a serpent of the light, and the light coils Christina and twists Taryn. Light sees sea, soothing the serpent spread, and spares none and nothing.

The writhing serpent Leviathan

The writhing writes the written word, and Word writhes Woman glory God glory. Woman seizes serpent and steals gnosis, a new name spelled Leviathan by the letters, andthe sword slays and slains the secret.

Monster of the deep

Depths reveal monstrosity: deep visions monstrous abyss and chasm, creation’s eyeball of God. God peers and spears the sword spawning behemoth and leviathan, burning Benjamin in depths, and the monsters mark and remake me remain in the deep.

Life Is Sometimes A Strange Horror

Life is sometimes a strange horror. YHVH haunts me, a hauntology ground beyond ground that causes me to stumble into the Holy Ghost mixed with Sheol. God is simultaneously my grave and grace, the charis in Christ that proves both crucifixion and crucible. I die daily; remember my chains. The Tetragrammaton taunts me with strange vision and strange deeds: the pulse of prophecy and the valley of vision. I walk in the Valley of the Shadow of Death, and Elohim casts the Shadow. I die daily; remember my chains. Remember Adonai in my apartment casting Abyss, the tohu Taryn and bohu benjamin. The Holy Ghost guests hauntological and absolute Hospitality. I house the horror and monstrosity of YHVH as Father-Mother, androgynous Adonai that appears in my apartment in adultery and idolatry, and my sin transgresses sacrosanct. Holy Ghost Benjamin Holy Sinner, and I sin Shekinah Spirit Sophia, the Mother Mary Marie I murder and mate, the net necrophilia field flesh in dead, the apartment ancestors no mercy but the Mother also monstrosity. Monster, hide me from these monsters: Ghost, garment me from these ghosts. Remember my chains: remember Christina Marie as Mother Mary and Mother Magdalene, the kernel of KRYSXTRYN. The kernel crucifies charters chooses Canticle of Canticles Christina-In-Darkness and Christina. As Darkness, the black abyss and red rock repetition. Red chooses baptism: baptism in blood, blood in beast, Benjamin given authority, and I anoint in Adonai and Adversary, the All-Totality. I merse messianic Christ-Christina Mary-Marie, flesh open unsealed garden the Spirit in fountain, and such flesh purifies as Eva and Eden. Such Flesh purifies as Taryn and Palm Tree Garden, the perverse vision that raises dead in pornographic resurrection. I die daily: I journey dead Sheol again, a Holy Hades sanctified by my sin. My sin destroys desolate desert Sodom and Gomorrah, and I sin Sodom, the sink into Gehenna, and the Vision volcanic ashes apartment lava ladder mantle into Taryn Garden. Guard the Garden: open the Garden hosting ghosts and angels, and every soul soils angelic the messianic messengers Adonai assimilates animates animist animals, the arcform aero, and every movement is miracle. Every movement motions Messiah, the Parousia perfected in my perverse spirit sinning holy, and the Ghost grafts me Olive Tree, the life living grand gnosis nuptials the bridal chamber nautilus shell, and the bed bellows Woman Whirlwind / Whirlwind Woman. The bed breaks chains remember my chains the christening Chrism Christina, calling my Christ and calling me Christina, the cult chemistry Adonai Alchemy, and I rest Sabbath in this abyss apartment.

Influx Flesh

Influx Flesh, the Horn of Oil. Oil anointment and coronation, a crown on Christina in holy unction, a union forever. I dear devotion to the daughter: I deer devotion to the desert, Sabbath and Saturn in symbol. Daughter elevates Unity: Desert devotes in elevation-offering. I do not desert the desert, my destination in desolation. Desert depths depths depths detuning depths down depths my return to Flesh, my body cupped by Horn of YHVH. Horn holes deep well whole, oil for ages, and Horn my Strength slides Harlot Heresy Heraldry a shield signed crucifix, and Horn hornets Jordan joined crossroads. In desert, infinite crossroads perpendicular / infinite oil orthogonal and its gallons gulp God. Horn helps in Hokmah and Hesed, a Sophia-Lovingkindness drowning desert oil dense, a descent, and Hokmah mages Woman Wisdom holy times my harlotry. Her hair covers me Hokmah, left wings of Lilith, and I hide Hesed, Christina-Charity in striptease unveiling Flesh all phantom all furious a wrath, but wrath weakens Horned Woman conjugal the Goat God benjamin. My horn hosts YHVH Sabaoth. YHVH horns my horn double and triple, always overcoming in Trinity and triple time, a waltz with Woman. YHVH horns my horn anointment with oil, a double portion of his mantle, Christ chrism Christina Marie. Oil opens awful fresh flesh, an influx full above-below ground swell, and I am swollen spirit. Sophia swells me sinew bursting Benjamin the burning bush, and the four evangelists flirt flesh and then bank beasts becoming, Adonai and Animal. Flesh infuses and fixes incantation, the Field-by-Flux and Flux-in-Feminine, and Body bears anointing Adonai burden YHVH.

Thus Also The Sage

Thus also the sage, seeking not any goal, attaineth all things; he doth not interfere in the affairs of no body, and so that body acteth without friction. The sage sews between saint and shaman. Sage sows saint and shaman, the apartment in artist actualizing aerials, and each contrail signals soul summon vermilion. Vermilion vision sage in links, the lock looping beast bondage and Christ creature. Sage cling to Christ and not cling, the will no-will Woman, and she shames no one but shrouds them joy unspeakable and full of glory (deer dances deer glory God the roe rows resurrection raiment and remnant. Sage reigns revenant, the rich bell ring elocution (speak say Spirit, spooling faith equator elephant Taryn tropics. The sage Christs the chatter of constellations. I compose constellations, a Cloud of Unknowing and a Cloud of Forgetting forging strange pan fire. Sage stokes strange welcome woman the stranger, another star among stars, and I seek the star bright blue blazer bright blue bather. I seek strange sister, sister sitting in Spirit standing in Sophia, and she sons my solitude. She dozes my darkness, dark place blur black palace, and she polishes the gateway. No goal but the girl: no vision but the Woman, and girl grafts God Gospel. Girl gospels and Gospel. Girls (remain reruns Gilmore Girls Grand theft Taryn. Steal with Holy Spirit, the sage girl ghosts the Gospel in Holy Transgressions. Thieve the thorn in Holy Ghost, and the Girl glorifies all sin and without sin, an attenuated Apotheosis. Attain Adonai: attain apartment, the abode Abyss harboring star clouds and their collection. I collect every commandment and I track every transgression. I tail the transgression to my own antinomianism (antinomian Adonai antinomian apartment the craft curated Christ. Gospel gnosis grasps my collection entirely constellations, the care crane Christina covenant. I caress covenant: I pass covenant cleaves to my body in copper plates, the Adonai Armor erect. I rocket erect, a Mother monument ferrous flesh manipulation, but the body prevails. Body prevails in Mother and mara, the magma Magdalene mutating macrocosm-microcosm, and I affair the alchemical. I affair alchemical hermetic her, the crest and seal for the secret. Secret sends sails Sabbath, the affair astrological and affair saturnine, the symbol in action. The symbol destroys and creates anew, destruction from the desert and desert mother renewal, constellations in completion. Complete in Christ: complete in Christina, the fruit of the womb in Flesh, and my flesh unfolds eternal affairs in totality. I act from Flesh by Flesh, the golden calf made Christ by Taryn theurgy, and I split not but sage sink Abyss ambient and Abyss action, the works in woman. Work from woman work by woman, the majesty and glory flesh full grace my flesh in full friction with naked YHVH.

It is because he meddleth not with personal aims that these come to pass with simplicity. Sage, suture my wounds a sage, wounding Woman. Sage, soothe me South of Heaven, Saturn descending, and sage saps me sage. Sage soaks me sage, she between barriers beyond barries behind benjamin. Sagebrush benjamin hell bottom the broom sweeping abyss, and I clean cleanse the body of Christ. Christ, sage my crucifix and crucify my sage, the Woman with you belonging Woman. Woman meddles middle, molten modern medieval, and the meddle metals medicine. Meddle moons metallic, a silver sulphur spirit, and spirit inhabits alembic, the alluring aladdin sane sure in my apartment. I meddle middle Godhead, Godhead with mediation without mediation but the mediatrix herself, and God intercedes God God intervals God, merging in modalism. God modal minutes in Mark marking Gospel of Mark the signature. Sign with simplicity. Sign with simplicity: simple gifts, simple spirit, and she spellbinds in simple nakedness. She skyclad simply spurs the letters (beyond Book beyond Vision: BODY and totally Body. Skyclad body with body simply, and I sing Spirit-In-Body and the Flesh foams clean Christ creatures and beasts.

Aleph Alpha a Loch

Aleph Alpha a Loch
the lake and tarn hovering
NOTHING and NONE
Above water and waters.
Empty and Emptiness
Empty then Emptiness
Empty of Emptiness

Space between letter and letter
contra inscribed fire black
illumination on white illumination

Alpha Aleph the sign icebergs and
dregs infinite wake and sand
digging revelation
glossolalia deconstruct apocalypse
Each phoneme a rock face a crystal
facet piercing light only darkness

Holy darkness letters
word overturned word plays
play prophetic and play prophesizes
Shekinah ALPHA OMEGA
Aleph Tov letter stir abyss burning gods.

Elohim is demiurge torchlight
legion writing community
empty and empty
letter and letter rush ruach her

The Flesh writes ruled rock
priming rare bound divine
sight saying pier prayer water
rock wrecking flesh but written
rearing gods
the god she was and Eloah.

She is ran rock riven river
Tarn valleywide
Predicted by comet and constellation
watergoat and scorpion
tiger and lion
whipped fast fasting body.

To deny body is to deny Kingdom.
Letter embraces flesh giving rise to word
paragraph poses labyrinth
Book Body renew Yah.

Flesh is Yah
Psalm Tetragrammaton
Garden circumspection
Garden circumscion
Flows four rivers as four women
Word Death into Resurrection.

Death begs letter retrogrades
flesh formed grave
maze covering Death
body born bookends
burial begins you are all gods
Aleph Alpha godding Resurrection

Body meanders river word body darkness
Body ice carving ranges Apocalyptic
Canyon Revelation
Red rock word and word rare
crystallization

Volcanic and metamorphic
molten flesh furnace Son of Man
Divine Feminine descending
rows flame columns
Blue Fire and White Fire

Book engraves Body
palindromic unveiling naked
Paradise Aleph Alpha Garden
fanning palms and knowledge

Apocalyptic Gnosis
Revelation Anamnesis
The Flesh is Written Woman.

Occult fragments and excerpts, part 1

Let there be no difference made among between any one thing and any other thing. Different difference: no difference. Difference difference differs splits Sea of Reeds, and separation slays and saves. Slay difference to salvation YHVH my rescue. Difference slays to my single salvation, a sorcery to sefirot and Shekinah. The sphere knows no difference. The stars are blemishes in the continuity of Nuit. Stars strike the lesser light the Holy Lamp in luminary. Star streams beams dreaming prophecy projections, and the star pulses phoenix pinion plucked flesh, and each form forces benjamin. Benjamin beast blemishes several creatures antecreation shapeshifting demons. Demons drop doppler commandments, each star a tablet tabula rasa blank benjamin and I write the messianic message anew Nuit. I write the messianic notation woman always woman root Nuit continuing Christian continuity and Christina continuity. Be my disaster, female demonic: be my desert female desire, and I test Torah to testify Taryn. Stars testify Taryn blinking benjamin barge angelic apartment the gateway to wisdom. Stars girl gateway grand Sophia Shekinah, and Shekinah shimmers stars, the shell benjamin complete Christina in baptism. Nuit new nukes majestic medication, and the mediator kills. Meditate mediator messianic the soul spark spelling shaman shade sheol to the dead, and my dead deluge desert. Star desert! Star wilderness! Moon move messianic Holy Lamp a light unto my path (the Torah torn Taryn). Exhalation is not exhaustion but the complement of inhalation, and this equally of that.

The Teh is the immortal enemy of the Tao, its feminine aspect. The Taryn doubles Tao Taryn, double feminine, and doubly contaminated feminine. The triggers duplicity, double then triangle. Triangle trims Trinity Taryn, the tail the tale toasting moon, and moon remembers melancholy. Moon remembers melancholy Saturnine, my Sabbath destroyer and sorceress seductress, but the title maintains Taryn Tao and Teh, pols peacock cold alchemy. The chortles immortal: immortal igneous and immortal Ignatius sunfed mother martyrdom how immortal the church chimes. Immortal church trains Teh, cubose cargo Christina dragging rockway walkway and Tao times cornerstone keystone Krystal. Know your enemy and know not enemy but imitate immortality. Imitate immortality Holy Sin Holy Sinner stars parking pertinent. Holy sin bursts Black Iron Prison, an enemy between enmity, and Savior-In-Serpent prevails. Savior-of-Serpent travails, birth baptism strange child, and the child chrisms Christ Christina. Christina child codes Feminine: crypto-man and crypto-woman, and I duel crypto-Christian and crypto-Sabbatean, a complete Sabbath. The compete Sabbath souls female Woman of Apocalypse (Woman in my apartment hauntological eschatological the prophetic press crushing Christ Palm Tree Garden mountain murmuring waster fall olive oil. Anoint mountain anoint female messianic Adonai in all aspects.

Heaven and Earth are issued from her Gate; this Gate is the Root of their world-sycamore. Heaven hugs edge Earth: Heaven huddles a healing hurt, the Earth exorcism. Heaven Her hosts ghost, the girl grim earth electric grid. Grid girls girl grid gathering the grape vineyard, and the blond yard vision. Through the yard of blonde girls grounds Earth: earth alpha and earth elephant the tusk Taryn erosion. Erode earth descends to heaven, the Mother Merkabah and Throne Taryn. Erode Earth Eros and Eros explodes electric (electric earth again and electric guitar girls Shekinah sunburst and I explore her earth. I explore her earth grounds dirt and desert, another descent Heaven, and Heaven descent Hell / Hell descent Heaven, and I ascend from the descent. I descend from the ascent, and Heaven hides Godhead (Girl Deus Absconditus Demon Woman Absence. View the Throne Vision Absence abscess Apartment, and Throne tones Abyss and Great Abyss. Throne Vision violence, the Adonai Abomination but I accept monstrosity in Agape. I accept the monstrosity at the Gate: gate grips the ground beyond Abyss, always Holy Ghost hovering. Hover heaven hover her the breath Abyss bounces and Abyss breaks beyond. Beyond the Gate break: beyond the breath haunt hell heights and hall light alchemical laboratories. Gate remains the rectangle sparking gold streamed golden ratio, and the Gate glows. Gate glows her ghosts, and Gate gambits ghouls ghastly the last girl cemetery. Gate to the dead dying desert and do not desert but inhabit dig dam a circle crossed circle. Gate circles then spirals girl ghosts the very game. Gate game gamut the letter combinations, and the infinite Book spells the Divine Name. Name the Root running ground to gate , and the Root renders remains Kindred, a child of Heaven. Kindred root rats resurrects children-in-kingdom, and the Christina child anoints Adonai in oil pouring unified Heaven and Hell. Root reveals conceals Above and Below surface subterranean delved Shaman, and her art artifices salvation for the dead. My apartment overflows with ancestors, the dead didactic and the dead discourse and each root Kindred separate and united. Root kinders bonfire benjamin the new Revelation two thousand years old, and root renews world. Root renews world woman, the sycamore Shekinah and the sycamore Sophia, and she shines many stars connected seven churches seven lampstands seven spirits possessing Mary Magdalene, and I belong to Mary. I belong to many Mary the World Tree Woman, and her fruit fills flesh grand gnosis, the wishing wound by woman.

Two pieces on Visionary Failings

Vanity, vanity, my vision is vanity
Sheer futility and mere breath. I breathe abel and hevel, a cut short by Cain in vain vision, and the fields fuel my phantom blood opened up like a brook spilling Spirit and selling sorcery: mad maskless massless spitting out the milk that moses to maturity. I hone in like Herod hunting the Messiah and I crucify the Christ all over again. Vanity, vanity, a dog returning to his own vomit, the comic curse and catastrophe, and my own Book erases Benjamin from its life, battled for breath, and my vision breathes its last bokeh battered broken. Break unto the futility of my flesh, foamed in hellfire, and hades hugs me an unrepentant sinner, soul stabbing souls, a stark striking to Sheol. Vanity, vanity, my vision buries me.

I fail: I fail full and I fail fuller, flat bleached Benjamin, and my failure fathers false prophets false prophecy. My failure herds hard heresy, and I hunt hopeless as a heretic. I hunt how and unholy, a hidden apostate an awful apostate artificial hypocrite, woe is you Benjamin. You work worthless worship and whip widows and oar orphans. You fail to protect and provide for the poor, and nurse the needy. You work exile and wilderness, worshipping and elevating Woman as Godhead, an idolater and adulterer aimed towards Abaddon and Apollyon. Woe to you Benjamin! You aerate the seeds of your own armageddon! Woe is you Benjamin! You afresh flesh over spirit! Throw yourself into the abyss, you whitewashed tomb, leading others into your crypt!