A vision i received yesterday: 

This spiritual transformation wants to drag me into the Greek underworld.  It wants to take me to Hades to meet the dead.  It wants to inject paganism into my Christianity  This God beckons me beyond the boundaries of Christianity.  Can Christianity limit me? He laughs.  Are you too not a pagan, associated with pagans, and dined with pagans?  Are you also not a Gentile?  Embrace your worlds!  Christianity is one world and paganism is another and Judaism is another.   Embrace your worlds, for here the Divine has no limit.  This is part of my underworld  Is this truly God speaking?  Or the Adversary?  Yet does the Adversary stretch out its hand without God not knowing?

There is a passage in The Red Book by CG Jung where he states: no one knows what Christ endured during his 3 days in hell… I have experienced it.  He also wrote, whoever ventures unto hell becomes hell.    I have become hell.  My body has become a chamber and purgatory for my own soul.  Furthermore, I fear I am becoming a terrible pagan and polytheist.  I feel the singular God and YHWH sprouting and growing into multiple gods and goddesses in my soul.  I feel the Trinity become a plethora of Trinities.    I fear for my Christianity.  It is molting, shedding, changing, into something I do not recognize.  Thus this Hell is especially painful because I have only recognized Christianity my entire life.  My Christianity is dying, being planted as a seed in my soul, dying, and becoming a Tree I do not yet recognize.  Christianity is being resurrected into a strange pagan Christianity, an Ancient of Ancients Christianity, where the old gods are allowed to roam free, and express themselves.  What a hell indeed.   

…..    I feel I’m becoming closer to a Magician or Theurgist now, and the Divine is actively acting upon me and through me.  And I have to write it down and share it.