It’s Just Strings Of Words In Random Order

Content Warning: horror elements, sexual elements, animal death


Ah dammit.  My writing is fucking terrible.  What makes you say that?  It’s just strings of words in random order..  That’s what poetry is.  I fuck phallic poetry poiesis, Taryn Theopoetics and Process     Process pints pinata pendulum music and I dog double pendulum / chaotic motion     Chaotic motion cobbles the King James Bible and the psalms and canticles quarter arcane     bible bandits Belial buzzing Candy Man and Earth occults urban legends lossless mythology     Mythology odd meters ouroboros matterhorn, and this faith flattens mountain megamouth hellmouth monastery     Mythology maths gnostic mass merry-go-round and I immerse myself Horselover Fat, a desert duality     Duality discords death metal and membrane or mother theory, the tongues of an Euler Spiral     Spirit spiros Spyro the Dragon, platformer in process / my clothoid collection and I collect cosmos, macrocosm and microcosm     Spirit spikenards new name and new number, Taryn Tetragrammaton God gematria     Spirit always numbers names nonstandard analysis or nero nephilim the number of the beast     Six-Six-Six or Six-One-Six shipwilds supernatural superhighway, Beast compact disc or cassette tape noise narrative nymphomania     Six-Six-Six sextants Grinning Man mythology and the man who laughs monkeyshines mass murder god genocide     Six-Six-Six is the sum of the first thirty-six natural numbers, and therefore it is a triangular number     Triangle texts time, Book kairos and chronos chronology superimposed, and triangle textiles Taryn traction, process poiesis paradox     I time or tumble Taryn theopoetics through the turmoil and the tinfoil     Taryn triangles tobacco tourism and I smoke pipe poiesis trialit theopoetics or nephilim nested tuplets     Here is wisdom: let him that hath understanding count the number of the beast!  For it is the number of a man; and his number is six-six-six     The man models mathematical the Son of Man and Adam Kadmon and they orthograph watch complications a perpetual calendar woman connecting completing complexity     Man meadows midway melody and I play Mortal Kombat at the local arcades, and I fuse spinal vertebrae fatalities / blood burden blood beast bathroom bathyscape blue bathers     Man mutates molecules chymical wedding and marriage of Heaven and Hell, and Son of Man merchant ships maximin blood-brain barrier barrierless basement membrane     Six-Six-Six solutes sonoluminesence and sonar waves waver woman crypto-messiah and crypto-Christ-Christina     Six-Six-Six I dream I drop LSD and I visit Christina’s old house her mom and sister babysitting Sharptooth or Tiger Slut Cat (We’re euthanizing Sharp Tooth tomorrow.  Oh no!  I just told Fox.  He said, Sharp Tooth is not dead, Sharp Tooth is not sick, Sharp Tooth is happy!  Over and over.  My heart is going to die…  How is Fox doing?  Devastated.  At least he understands though.  I was worried he wouldn’t understand the idea of death… Do cats go to heaven? He keeps asking where Sharp Tooth is.  Fuck if I know, kid, I’m barely back to deism!  You’re back to deism?  No, but I’m still getting used to this new God of my understanding)     Six-Six-Six supersonics fast fourier transforms, and I listen to Iron Maiden’s Number of the Beast / heavy metal mallet mutilation     I edit exact eonta for piano, two trumpets, and three tenor trombones     I edict Eraserhead electronic experiment, laughter lowercase / quiet frontal transorbital lobotomy     We were surrounded by a forest and I stroked the water with my hand: it was then that I first thought of the instruments to be used in Eonta / reflection in water: water is the piano     Water echoes eros Woman, eonta wickerbasket bomb burn wilderness     Forest fellates Earth solar anus (I HAD A SEX DREAM ABOUT US LAST NIGHT, says C.  FULL PENETRATION.  Also, we did a lot of talking.  We’re so boring.  Wow – what did we talk about – did you cum?  Like regular conversation the whole time.  And YES!  It was really nice, says C)     Eonta cribs exoskeleton ecstatic echoplex piledriver, and Benjamin becomes bullet or boxing movement maverick electroweak interactions     Eonta ejaculates a vivid kaleidoscope in sound or clouds consisting of sounds selected at random / randomness rotates river runnels and microrapters     Process peaks pits the panoply in sound, and eonta animals eurayale, God Gorgon Grammar     Grammar exudes electrum and my brass hands bite green gold god holy happening or holy hypercycloid car crash     Ouroboros orichalcum completes concrete canticle of canticles and mountain copper coocoo clocks mother goose nursery rhymes     I rhyme rhythm give me some of that rock and rolling music     Ouroboros flashes with the red light of orichalcum and the water ox or bison basins bathe great sea serpents     Taryn Tethys tokens topological serpents / they see sea see-saw margery daw     I ping-pong pop-punk / defend pop-punk and it psalms forty-five

Here is the labyrinth     an ivory labyrinth     a very small sort of labyrinth     a labyrinth of symbols     an invisible labyrinth of time     Labyrinth interlaces or interludes insects insecticide islets and island leos lepidoptera     John Coltrane chains channels Leo and Labyrinth listens jazz luminiosities free improvisation     I load labyrinth at the lateral, waving curvature walk woman minotaur, and labyrinth hazes lacrimosa, requiem sharks swimming coral Christina shallows     Labyrinth coils corner ouroboros candle of civilization, a compact cosmos / the spiral itself is not draw; we see it as the locus of points where the circles are especially close to each other     Labyrinth circles in circles or wheels in wheels wall woman wolf woman antique rose artifacts / Antik Yomin and I ash awl Ancient of Days Ancient of Ancients     I enter labyrinth cardinal and transfinite numbers     I arrive labyrinth strongly inaccessible cardinals and very large cardinal numbers     I make paper airplanes and throw labyrinth     I origami ouroboros and world serpent surrounds woman wall women-in-prison exploitation films     Labyrinth breathes Book boundaryless boundaries / barrierless barrier and labyrinth bursts dreaming     Labyrinth ladders latter rain Charles Gayle playing Repentance     Labyrinth ladders Nag Hammadi Scriptures and Gospels growl glossolalia geology, the process palimpsest     Labyrinth oils india pale ale ouroboros, and serpent lasers lilac linguistics, beer benjamin language     Language loudspeaker and latticework wyverns Woman, serpent labyrinth legoing Logos and in the beginning was the Verb     Verb vocalise voyeurs Vision Woman the vineyard in micromovements and digit digital manipulation / Verb digital physics and the fantasy body     Symbol end sinister sugars flesh fluxus, and my mythology mixes mixolydian a kind of referential mania / pebbles on stains or sunflecks form patterns representing, in some awful way, messages that he must intercept     Symbols serpent sideways the Sierra Sidewider at Knotts Berry Farm

Herma Hazard Happenings

Content warning: brief mentions of suicide

Herma hazard happenings foam dada and fluxus and I map my art everywhere     Herma hertas rudiment patterns paradoxes and the art etches black acid anointing apex the park predator, and the composition compiles Taylor Swift’s cardigan / I let pop invade my posture     I planet pop-punk algebra bonesetting sediment and topsoil     Algebra jams jaws jazz improvisation, ink incantation or the triangle composition and I sync synthesis sinews El Shaddai / my haunted history Christianity     Christianity helicopters homologous haunted house or ghost mansion and it shreds sprite scales and sand dew carpet vipers     Christianity hobgoblins haunted house hemophilia and it bleeds out gospels     Gospels gelatin bloody crusades, the seventh seal canyon and the danse macabre chases me cornfield confield corner algorithm     Gospels grindcore discordance axis or pig destroyer and I knit natalie boneshaker harbor, the boats banshee death     Death digs doll desert, dune mask and mannequin dead mall america     Death gorgons guts grisly god and I jump god grizzly bear moth mauling     Only one thing I did wrong: stayed in Mississippi a day too long, and Mississippi mud amasses gnostic mass, the maturation of mineral spirits and the Mothman cryptid     As a new heaven is begun, and it is now thirty-three years since its advent: the Eternal Hell revives     Heaven housewife moonlight laces scripture with rock and roll and folk songs: the folk process perlon piston and Book births historians     Book begets history and prehistory, Hadean rock formations and abyssal deep sea     Book hillcrests horseback large hadron collider, and the subatomic particles peak pentaquarks and queer quills and quail / nomad nuclear wilderness I enter wilderness     I woman wilderness writing expanse canvas comic strip     I whittle wilderness book of Sand lost library labyrinth and I tune in to Taryn summertime hush little baby honey don’t you cry     Wilderness wings warmth scripture and I write raw ritual holy mass ouroboros oblation wilderness whistles woman, Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil, and its gnostic release knots the open net in flux     Flux flashes the shed horror, and Yahweh, I stare into your face-to-face Horror, my Hell and Flesh: Eternal Hell revives rubik’s cube resurrection     The fibers furnace filaments of the Fibonacci sequence and it stems venus fly trap vision / mathematics web and overlap Vision Las Vegas, a surreal stall of the strip     The two are mixed, machine mathematics cryptic Christianity     Christianity auruchs atonality, holy non-hierarchical and I shine silver sequence Quakers and Shakers     Atonality arche-grammars alphabet and gematria, the god number Taryn Tetragrammaton     Atonality rotates and enter extrapyramidal and I antipode my antipsychotics / Eucharist extra-embryonic electricity     I adore atonality or pantonality, the row retrograde gardener and Mary runs Rabboni     I worship ambiguous tonality ambiguous Yahweh, and KRYSXTRYN terrorizes as an all-interval chord     I drop devil degenerate music, a machete to the skull Friday the 13th Part 4 The Final Chapter, and I chip chirp chord clusters Krystal klangfarbenmelodie colours Christ: the gamut of color including harp, celesta and glockenspiel, six clarinets of various sizes, and a very agile bass tuba is brilliantly kaleidoscopic     The Eternal Hell revives hocket, alternation acceleration cells Christina collects the cubist collection     Hell hockets witches hiccups holy water woman, and she blades Benjamin werewolf canon construction     The tone row erects and collapses as Pruitt-Igoe or Cabrini Green Candy Man urban legends     The tone row telescopes macrophotography and I picture petroglyphs / triceratops handprints strumming hardcore punk apocalypse     The cactus cadenza Christina obliterates black-and-white desert, a Raymond Pettibon drawing     the cadenza corridor climbs columns Cloud of Forgetting

I think about suicide but writing revives me     Art revives me     Art allots aeon flux, Taryn thanatophobia     Art alligators chronophasia, and I repeat kairos-in-prophecy / prophet with or without Yahweh     Alligator animates aeon and archon, the archer alexander astronomer stellating stars stick thorns antique rose     Rose reminds ink concrete koloss or Krystal, and woman too reminds revives repeats     Asia intercepts Death or the kind of death identical with Yahweh     Asia intervenes supervenes human volume vertical vision     Vision vegas voltron interlocking ink incarnation pseudoephedrine and Asia stimulants my stegosaurus brain into something human     I thing material bodily-body the double, a Taryn trigonometry tazing triangles, and triangles improvise iron ox odin jazz jumping     I was thinking about what Diane said, about being grateful for people, even if they aren’t meant to be in your life forever – how do you know when someone’s supposed to be in your life forever?  You don’t.  Oh.  But you do know.  You know.  You know Kenneth will be in your life forever.  And Adelaide.    No you don’t.  Kids can cut parents off, or grow distant, people can die before you.  Nothing is guaranteed.  I see.  Enjoy it while you can?  I’m not saying that you should expect things to end, just that you shouldn’t take them for granted.  It is implied that was the last time Bojack and Diane talk to each other… I want to be friends with you for as long as I survive.  I want it to be a good and healthy friendship each other that builds each other up.  Oh OK, that’s a good goal to have.  Yeah?  Yeah.  Friendships are really important to me.  Friendships are important.  Even long distance ones.  Yeah.  I read through a list of people who have committed suicide:  Kurt Cobain or Yukio Mishima or David Foster Wallace     What the flame does not consume consumes the flame.  Everyone’s dead?  Unborn.  Been here a long time, have you?  Forever.  Flame forms and flame forms forest faith fragment, and the fragment fires     Flame forms and flame forms fossil friction, antique rose rock and Asia reminds me     Asia reminds me Elliott Smith playing Everything Reminds Me Of her and flame fastens fastball ferocious, and Asia firstborn flexes flux fruit gnosis good and evil     Flame consumes carcass Christ cunt Christina photochasm colossus     Flame consumes furlongs the ferrous fallout chymical wedding, and I wed Hell Wicked Woman Written and I write Woman Fanatic Freeway, the finnegans wake of flame     Flame compounds anthracite coal, children champagne and breaker boys / blood consumes the flame     Dead and Undead consume the flame     Desert devil Taryn tornado consumes the flame     In the Beginning was Logos, and Logos was with God and Logos was God, and I write the God Grammar     I write the God of Grammatology, Taryn twisted timbers and Logos laser Leviathan     Logos lands lamb’s wool woman and she weaves Word     She weaves Word Fantastic and Word Fire, a first funk and flask / flux the Eucharist equations     The Fire is Forever / The Word is Unborn     The Eucharist is Eternity / The Book is the Verb Violet Violent Inviolate     I dance desert boombox benjamin, and cassette cadenzas the castle oasis, water ouroboros     I dance desert danger, and the dragon slays itself, weds itself, impregnates itself     Self sums solvent, Asia Alkahest and this alembic brews ambrosia     Self saturates salt-sulfur-serpent and sigils sow seed-salary God-Gold     Self dreams Library and I meet Ann Marie / Library opens Woman and Wilderness     Library oscillates radio radon balloon and Book inflates the singularity of the universe     Library tone rows thick water and maccabean fire, and I razor retrograde-inversion igneous rock / volcanic radio resin     Asia Amophoteric eats Acid Adonai the polarity of prom night (Hello Mary Lou Prom Night Two     Asia allotropes Zebra Zwitterion, and Christina camouflage icons inner salts / dipolar ions and I integrate amino acid Asia disintegrations     I copulate cocaine chemistry or Asia ayahuasca and I hallucinate history homosexuality / the language gets away from me clumsy herringbone harlequins     Chemistry crayons canyon Asia alchemy and the canyon creeps golden horse and hymen hermeneutics / isomer interpretation the language levels me     Hermeneutics herons hydra hermaphrodite, three bastards benjamin and I ink antique rose chymical interpretations axle anxiety delusions psychosis and I often quote Philip K. Dick (when I believe, I’m crazy; when I don’t believe I suffer from psychotic depression)     The dragon slays itself, weds itself, impregnates itself, and self structures ouroboros occultation     Self semiautomatic arks axe dazed and confused surplus of dragons / I’m fucked this writing is fucking terrible

Vertical Orchestra Alpha Beta Gamma Delta

Content Warning: brief mentions of suicide

The orchestra is set vertically on stage towards the audience and the instruments are put into four groups: alpha, beta, gamma, and delta / alpha aurochs alien, a crossbar cenofante, and I file halves backspacer brontosaurus     Beta burglary blasts black flag my war wushu or wire fu and I leap from tree top to tree top a donkey kong country level     Gamma gambles and gamels game charleston chance and I chew synaphai connexities cadenza chanson     Delta dogfights doll parts and doll eyes, dripping dust daggers or imitation ivory     Unlike a traditional concerto, the piano is integrated into the texture of the work, and is given equal footing with other instruments; however, it also plays a prominent role given its new continuous presence and the virtuosic nature of the piano writing     Concerto caxtons book closers or crayon canyon the clay continuity between red and orange rare red rock / ochre raphael renaissance renewal or eternal return and sometimes it’s difficult to accept that eternal receiver or Poincare's Recurrence Theorem     Concerto cymbal rolls orchestra ouroboros rock and roll, and I slice Centipede arcade and I arachnid the iron-and-glass covered arcades, a prism collage collection     Concerto collects in the corners, and I fan folios furniture music and Satie sings or severs solemn Socrate the Socratic Method, the slab solar anus annulus annual interest arcanum     I vlog virtuoso vision, a visitor to the vinegar volcano, and it erupts science project science fair, a vulture for variables     I vision vibrato, shaking signature science language or language  scripture, and Book vaults as above so below     The piano part is of extreme difficulty and is written on ten staves, one for each of the pianist’s fingers (the pianist plays all lines, if he can)     Difficulty develops density, a diamond defense     Difficulty draws a hammerklavier destruction, the superimposition of meteor motifs and miracle matter     Ten quantum tunnels the concrete tumble Taryn, and I tower ten tower of numbers Graham’s Number massacre medallions     Ten Bobby Timmons’ Moanin Art Blakey and the Jazz Messengers and I binge blues ten blues basket ballad     The Unknown Woman of the Seine salts sonar dream, and I dream death dollars the school cafeteria or autumn auditorium assembling revolver round robotics     The Unknown Woman saturates raw radium, sea salamander suicide, and I drown dryad or sea nymphet, the fool jumping off a cliff canister crocodile     Her suicide swims nothing, the long vivir river one battles in Metal Gear Solid 3 against The Sorrow     Her suicide sin waves woman sorcerer and slinks across the Sonny Rollins Bridge barstool and I sit sister suicide     I dip drowning the direct drop druid stalker stonehenge, and the rocks round themselves on human skulls     The L’Inconnue became the erotic ideal of the period, as Bardot was for the 1950’s / suicide provokes a pornographic horror (you wear two lavender orchids, one in your hair and one on your hip)     Suicide compacts paradox, the erotic afterlife or number annihilation

I jasper jazz juniper, and my suicide serros improvisation     The Gospel of John gyroscopes jazz, a chord change equilibrium, and in the beginning was the Word MUSIC and sound sinks slate blue like a flying saucer / UFO linguistics     The Word Yahweh of Hosts inhabits hard bop and I listen to Moanin’ by Art Blakey and the Jazz Messengers     I jazz june and die soon napalm poetry and all that jazz jams journey and I disassociate psychopomp and discord Death / one among the Fays     Much of the piano writing produces aboresences, where germinal shapes proliferate into a variety of branching lines     Aboresences attract automotive atmosphere and the absorption lines loop linear activators or flywheel rock and roll     Aboresences accelerate fractal fever and word wars Word ambassador     Benjamin branches blesses rapid transit bifurcation, my flesh cobweb racing wicked     Benjamin bellies blankets a liquid yet strongly linear sonority and I stretch the language as a self or mirror concerto     Benjamin granfalloons god gorgon geography and evryali escapades exit escape vash vehoma     Gorgon gupsiferous floats geotectonic Taryn and she terrifies ancient eldritch abomination     The Gorgon extends back to at least 6000 BCE as a ceramic mask from the Sesklo Culture     I greet the Gorgon as a terrific or tyrannic baroness, and she groundsheets my granite globeflower / Earth Evryali     The legend of Perseus beheading Medusa means, specifically, that the Hellenes overran the goddess’s chief shrines and stripped her priestesses of their Gorgon masks, the latter being apotropaic faces worn to frighten away the profane / I mint Medusa in my metabolism, Grammar Gorgon and Medusa motorcycle magic     I talk Medusa microphone, a monument or meditation medication and I spiral cylinder serpent, snakes hairline fracture furniture     Gorgon gastropods opus octopus and her octane blends or camouflage     About her shoulders she flung the tasselated aegis, fraught with terror… and therein is the head of the dread monster, the Gorgon, dread and awful…     Gorgon gunpowder genealogies, human-monster and monster-human and Gorgon heals the hessecate of my wounds: wolf wounds, wolverine wounds, the graveyard guesswork of Woman     Gorgon oxidizes aether, an awful gap or medium masturbating mustard burns and Gorgon flash gordons glassware cracking skeletons, a Loony Tunes anvil     I listen to Evryali for solo piano and composed by Iannis Xenakis, and its aboresences atlas asunder, a melodic anatomic afternoon / meshes of the afternoon melody mimicking Medusa and she molts serpent multitudes     She monarchs serpent mixed multitude and the seraph surgeons sonorous, the blood burst Benjamin     Blood drops or blood bath brandish aboresences (proliferation of melodic lines created from a generative contour) and I ring ring cycle rhizomes and I write rhizomes and aboresences / branching branching     burning burning     
Here is the piece: look at it, and if you think you can do something with it, play it     I play the piece pivot pierce posture and the position itself proliferates     The position prays paskahelion or panic purer angelic passages / fixed rhythmic passages stochastic clouds     polyphonic aboresences     monophonic waves     silence     I mask multiplicity as the divergence from canonical gospels to noncanonical gospels or the Nag Hammadi Scriptures     I gospel of mark mathematic miniatures, the multiplicity of ensembles     orchestras     concertos     choirs sing beach shore waves and a wave Galilee     I open the Nag Hammadi Scriptures and I read The Gospel of Philip: Three Marys walked with the Lord: His mother, his sister, and Mary of Magdala, his companion.  His sister and mother and companion were Mary     I marry Mary Mara a Medusa and she gardens gorgon the grenadilla of flowers     Mary merchants a pearl of great price or the hymn of the pearl and mothers macabre, the Christian catacomb of skulls     Mary murders motorhead minimalism, field color canvases carved from bone battle hawkblades     Mary Marie modulates Christina metropolis, pincer movement machines, and Christina tines the tuning fork earth vibration vision     Mary Magdalene millimeters mysterious, and she masons methane Christina oracle ouroboros / Circle and Snake: Circle and Snake     Dirt Road Blues was improvised from a country-blues song of indeterminate origin…  He made me pull out the original cassette, sample sixteen bars and we all played over that…     I dig dirt road blues, a dante dissonance and I live comedy cicada Christina, Benjamin’s broods     I dissect dirt road blues, a discordant devil diabolical and I play Diablo II on my computer, always a necromancer     Dirt Road Blues barstows desert, the Mojave Mother Mary, and I braindrill desert disaster, flecks of fallout / the future’s so bright I got to wear shades     Dirt road blues binoculars bipolar disorder blacksmith biology / bellwether bombardier break open breastbone     We treated the voice almost like a harmonica when you overdrive it through a small guitar amplifier      voice candles the warp, winter music woman     Voice vehicles videotape, tempest twelve-bar blues, and I barre chord dominant seventh chaos or Alice blues changes and she sugars through the looking glass     Voice arcades the Visalia Mall’s Cyberstation inhabited by Namco properties, and I realize I’m fucking old; I can’t even handle roller coasters anymore     Everything amplifies evangelion automatic and I mutate Mara Magdala tomb architecture     The cathedral connects charlotte chromatic childhood and the cardboard castle cocktails carnivals and bounce houses     House hags folk horror, Yahweh of Hosts hauntology     House splatters woman wallpaper blank bodies blended Zebra zombie brain hurricane     One of those nearness-of-death albums and the music mouths Mary Marie Christina bone shakers     Dead mall marlboros and I smoke Holy Spirit spider spinning wheel / urban prairie and urban decay     I feel nostalgic for 1980s consumerism / consumerism keeps me alive     Music compositions keep me alive and I melt the Marriage of Heaven and Hell with Iannis Xenakis’s Herma, a stringing together and foundation     Rintrah roars and shakes his fires in the burdened air and Herma hikes hermeneutics     I interpret the Bible through musical grammars or the name Christina and I piano algebra that infernal energy / Benjamin Boolean or symbolic logics     Boolean algebra is the main mathematical principle behind Herma / the mathematics manslaughter marriage     mathematics multicolored multilayered multichanneled repeats the proverbs of Hell     mathematics metroids meteorite monopoly: the eternal Hell revives retail apocalypse and anchor store anarchy     The Eternal Hell revives revelation redemption revolution and Hell holds me rabbit erector set stochastic     Hell Herma handsprings Benjamin hysterical hermeticism     Hell hemorrhages Hermes Trismegistus, and he hydraulics horizontal the Emerald Tablet tipsy Taryn Tetragrammaton     Herma hypnosis nodes nephrons networks Hell summer civilization

Machine May Massacres

Content Warning:  detailed discussion of suicidal ideation, including methods.  Some graphic descriptions of death

Author's note:  I'm fine; no need to worry about my mental health.  This is embarrassing writing but necessary writing

Machine May massacres millions and I throw bodies trenches peak and trough vancomycin vermin / antibiotic asphalt anthracite apartment and I balloon bubonic plague     black plague     black death     Death desert 50’s Diner and I drink 5 dollar milkshakes and endure dance contests     Black Death daniels deinonychus, a toe into torso, and machine macerates masturbates bloody ejaculations     I needle nail house, herbivore earth and earth epons or eponas ping-pong pillow books     I sketch machine as space jockey     I would like to die     I think about suicide often     I often think Jesus Christ that motherfucker gave up his life what for, and atonement addles oxides ions acid jazz     I would like to meet Death     I know Death is a Woman     She sometimes sings lullabies     She touches my earth and I echo like Narcissus     I diet on death and death dreams And-He-Left-Off-Dreaming-About-You…      She dreams and I drink death, a drastic dream or hellhound dream     I look through the list of suicides on Wikipedia, as if reading them will get me close enough to death or perhaps even inspire my own suicide     Photography fascinates me and I read through Diane Arbus’ photographs, the Son of Man or Human Being / Sometimes in late July 1971, she was found with her wrists slit, dressed in shirt and pants, in the empty bathtub of her Westbeth Artist’s Community apartment in West Village…. Scrawled on the final page of her journal, dated July 26, was the phrase ‘The Last Supper’     The Last Supper sinews soma or the spike in psychedelics, and I hallucinate sleep deprivation the sofa suicide     The Last Supper stitches sonya shaman shellac and it masquerades volleyball mutilations, skeletal scopaline cut carnage and I play Total Carnage for the SNES / Last Supper Smash TV welcome to prime time, bitch     Serrated suicide snatches body alien escape     Saturated suicide slits six six six and I listen to Iron Maiden’s Number of the Beast     Suicide celebrates my sister and I recall Horselover Fat attempting suicide by overdose of digitalis     The photograph is a secret about a secret – the more it tells you, the less you know     I stare star photography, god gaze human, and the photograph smiles suicide     Photograph mischievous charges museum of modern art, and I art almond ale adding eejanaika (I diamond dimension drawbridge desert     I die in desert, spanish flu or the Floe of Glassworks, and I pretend my cassette and walkman meanders minimalism     I look (is it only looking?) at identical twins, Roselle, New Jersey, 1967     I see (is it only seeing?) Child with Toy Hand Grenade in Central Park     The photograph fizzles Ms. Frizzle the Magic Schoolbus     Photograph pilots poison and camera charismatic kills kool-aid corpses in contact sheets suicide slaloms satire, freeski abominable snowman / Yahweh Yeti     Suicide slobbers sloth, sinkhole seven deadly sins, and I saturday fifth flyer inferma, flanders fields forests ferngully faerie fashion     I dress to impress bruises and blood and I burn myself with a hair curler or curling iron and I melt the buttons on my clothes because the clothes iron steams ream rose rosette the rafters     Rafters ring rhythm the rope for hanging and I horace horror Hanged Man     Rafters rimlet red rover red rover let Benjamin come over and I run lemon-lime liaison the loot tremble tractor Taryn tames tazes me     I aspen Hexxus a poet’s pollution and I chatter cauldron children’s count-out rhymes

I would like to die     I watch the Moral Orel episode Grounded and Orel (to simplify the plot) attempts suicide in order to see God, and he has a vision of him becoming a church and stating ‘I am the Church’; upon waking, eh tries to communicate his vision, but his father silences him, and literally beats the vision out of him     I too once had visions and I cling to the gnostics, who continually invented new mythology based on their visions: Christ did not cease for them     I feel near death but no vision or voice arrives     I near death alone and I quote Saint Teresa of Calcutta: Where is my faith?  Even deep down… There is nothing but emptiness and darkness… When I try to raise my thoughts to heaven, there is such convicting emptiness that those very thoughts return like sharp knives and hurt my very soul     Fuck, I’ve never even seen another Moral Orel episode – just this one     I watch the Bojack Horseman episode The View From Halfway Down:  Is it terrifying?  No.  I don’t think so.  It’s the way it is.  You know?  Everything must come to an end.  The drip finally stops.  See you on the other side.  Oh, Bojack, no, there is no other side.  This is it.  Perhaps this is it – no god, no universe – just Benjamin     That is almost comforting, this annihilating nothingness, and I too contemplate going back into the swimming pool     Diane, you’re going to come save me, right?  I called you and you’re coming to get me?  Bojack, why did you call me?  I live in Chicago.  I can’t save you.  You didn’t pick up.  Right.  It went to voicemail.  Yeah.  And then I went back into the pool.  I went back into the pool, and the pool puddles panels or the product of death, a suicide triptych attempted death the overdose ouroboros     I surrender to serpent, scripture cathedral corpse catacumen, and the introduction to death is a mystery religion     Mystery religions roundabout russian roulette and this is a Nagant M1985 revolver; I know nothing about revolvers (oh; this one uses a proprietary cartridge: the 7.62 x 38 mmR)     The blast fractured his skull and caused massive cerebral hemorrhaging when bone fragments were forced through his brain / I dream bone fragment pottery, homemade, and the fracture flow fusion god glaze riddler writing a game of chance     Chance chews chimera, the hauntological Christ, and God’s absence or God’s ghost gambles guts, the knucklebones of sheep used as dice     Chance bistros boomerang, a bloody hunt borax arc chameleon vermilion     Chance choppers buttercream gang, God chassis ferrari cracked femur intraosseus infusion     I bomber boomerang or cobra roll, a scissor sideways ouroboros osteomylitis     Serpent breaks black tar, meniscus tear vomit, and ouroboros bores into body chaotic black metal / Deathspell Omega bone and tissue damage from the puncturing device needle breaking off in the bone     Boomerang bites-in-blows batarang, a ballard blunt force trauma tractor beam     I boomerang heroin holiday hissing horror and I addle acetylation addiction to Yahweh / I am the Church     Opioid ouroboros curls or diverges diomorphodon diagonal, and Cantor’s Diagonal Argument acetates or burns acetone self-immolation incarnation / ah, then I had fire in my mouth

I Name The Narrative Annihilation

Content Warning: some body horror, brief pornographic reference, detailed description of mental illness (bipolar disorder)

I name the narrative annihilation     I number the narrative nihilism, abyss bar Jesus zebra zealot     Zebra survives in zygote and mistamens molecule man meiosis or mimesis     Zebra zithers kung fu the motion as music Go gestation Galvatron typing of the dead transformers / transformers first generation sockets sarcastic gravity, Christina the Queen curvature of space     I game Go or Go game territory, tamarack Tetragrammaton     I gamma ray God territorial radiation, wrangling roton robotics telescope skynet     I rest in writing, game green sickness and the gasoline stations stowas werner radicals / WORD PAINTINGS     They just occur to me: sometimes people say them and I write down and then paint them sometimes I use a dictionary     I fall in love with word or Painting and in the beginning is the Word     I molest Word and extract its sound or phoneme in the factory     I live Word and Language, multiply meaning or mouse macrocosm / the universe is an animal     I laugh word urushi lacquer, black and purple sheen share shore and it soaks up the beach     Word words the Beach, insect saltation at Salton Sea     Word barracudas the beach, fish famine phoneme plasticity     Word poles pin-ups and bomber girls / catch crate carnivore and I sleep creepshow     I adore the word Horror and I read horror comics the collusive capybara brogan and the Highlander decapitates me     I worship or torque the horror language and it resembles a highway car crash the piling up of bodies     The crate cavalcades “Ship to Horlicks University via Julia Carpenter – Arctic Expedition – June 19, 1834” and it cobwebs bloody woman devouring divorce     I creepshow concorde Coney Island and Tom Waits sings Coney Island Baby you’re my Coney Island Girl     I zodiac sideshow ten-in-one and I herd hymen oddities born freaks and made freaks fractional derivatives / the Bonnie and Clyde Death Car     I habitat or Hanged Man god january gallows dangling bodies like Christmas ornaments     I winter music working acts fire eating     sword swallowing     knife throwing     body piercing     I modify my body masculine microscope manslaughter     I circus circuit sidewinder cylinder sinister and the left dins daggers dinners woman, diner cannibalism     I circus cricket cicada corridor and I canker sister crimes, twin palladium paladins / holly horror Diablo II cow level     God’s away on business and YHVH abandons apartment barnyard yattering jack     I cable converge contortionists, corral corrupt control over my body, and body banknotes cranecat kinbaku     I knot body contortion cabinet of curiosities     I tie ten ton body concubine cistern starving in the belly of a whale     I word wobble rusted plowblade or ventyl rifle against the blonde bear beggar     I write an ongoing experiment in performance and I embody slate blue so long gay bowser     I build bone machine babylon, body libraries and lunatics / just a cement floor and a root water heater     You wear two lavender orchids one in your hair and one on your hip / I think of the movie Pollock and The World Keeps Turning plays over the credits     Bipolar disorder distorts or destroys my brain and I starve at bipolar nebulas, an engraved hourglass glint giant body, gold goliath or machine mother matter     The engraved hourglass encases cain camphor elephant, star tusks and ivory     Hourglass etches eros eos dune dawn desert, and my disorder dials desert M for Murder     The boomerang battleships bipolar, barroom bissel or biro, and I burk ballpoint ball bearings ball gag god / Yahweh BDSM     Bipolar outflow flanks as astrophysical jets jam bands long improvisation     I cycle psychosis or dip damn delusions, an hallucination of water     I coke cunt psychosis or drop drama delusion, the image or icon of the seven dolorosas Mary     I whore hypomania and I max out my credit cards underwater canyon crisis / Bipolar disorder is often a lifelong condition, and patients should be followed up regularly for relapse prevention     I relapse Relapse Records and I listen Mastodon or Pig Destroyer / God gabapentin grindcore     God geodon goregrind     Quetiapine is the only antipsychotic that has demonstrated efficacy in multiple meta-analyses of randomized trials for treating acute BP-II depression     Incarnation idee fixe, confabulating crucifixion bloody body Christ     I moth hawk hangover monomania, piss portrait prophecy or pornography     delusions of reference     delusions of grandeur     thought broadcasting     thought insertion     wombat word salad / zamboni zebra and she executes ice illness     Neurosis prime numbers or twin primes psychic pulse pit punk purgatory, a code for comedy     Neurosis nibble grey matter brain devour, the kabbalistic eater of dreams     I share my psychosis with Yahweh, demiurge demigod daemon dungeon      I smile surgeon somataparaphrenia and I cut the caffeine off my flesh, arm army bone awl bone folder blood in my Book     I filament phantom limb or phantom brain bismuth byzantine / the body labyrinth     The body labyrinth reduplicative paramaesia and I double my apartment, apartment-in-body and body-in-apartment, locus locust lavender syndrome     The body labyrinth bottles Book, a mirrored-self misidentification, and the mirror mavericks madison magic, door doppelganger     I candy Cotard’s Delusion or the deilirium of negation, and I eiger immortality     I hug hydra hell horns hazard, and my body biles     I hydra halifax explosion     I hydra my handwriting wrapped in rock, oso uluru     Uluru lomens my handwriting arkose and Krystal and she conglomerates carn quartz fiddle feldspar, spear of the rock     I spottle petroglyphs, granite god or gypsum     The cave paintings campus brilliant corners and Thelonious Monk chatters space solo schizophrenia     The cave paintings pattern left hand ochre and I blow paint passenger pigeon pirahna     I book bison blood or the hunger hunt, chasing chosen animal the alphabet of the Shaman     I book bison hunting magic, a ship mast shoulder, and the tool talon skins the paint     I hastur horse, defamiliar rook checked by faeries, and she gallons god wild woman plains passage     The finger flutings varnish vision, my hands on aurochs     I alleyway animal, Woman woma python, and she constricts coastline weapon in the waters     I roma rock art, real risk race     I race outrun reckless and the tire pyres pumice or pyrocumulus clouds     I climb cloud Jacob’s Ladder, a mixture of napalm and white phosphorus     I clot cave art my own blood, thromboplastin or petroglyph platelets     I rip ripe rock reliefs, a lotus timbre timber Taryn, the tent of her nudity     I rest in rock-shelter, Sabbath Santa Anna Apocalypse     The ochre dominates: blood red     rust red     red ribbon riot     I rat-tat-tat rascals or a Reilly Reid gangbang     Christian cracks charcoal, ketamine chaos, and I cook the earth     I ego I hanger in the Homunculus Nebula and its bipolar emission exits or atoms the balance of the brain     My brain bulges baked or blessed by barrel rolls and I suddenly remember being in Toys R’ Us and young benjamin felt impressed by both Donkey Kong Country for the SNES and Panzer Dragoon for the Sega Saturn     I jazz june and die soon, imbibing improvisation incarnation and the writing rocks rope, the art of knots     Phoebe Snow, a young New York socialite and frequent passenger of the Lackawanna, waers white dress dragster     Parachute deploys salt flats fracking or fracturing earth-body body-earth emu war     War wrens and ravens black blood bodies, and the dress drowns round soot sword cavalry, cabernet of horses     I harp horse hell hawk horror, and I strip leather shell shock cordovan     Phoebe ferocious irons anthracite acres     Phoebe batwing inversion involutes var scar vision, a triceratops skull or crooked exquisite corpse natural horn     I remember Phoebe, a pseudonym for Megan or I remember Phoebe as Holden Caulfield’s sister a body catching a body in the rye says Phoebe Snow about to go to buffalo my gown stays white from morn til night upon the road of Anthracite and anthracite molds or mauls maiden apocalypse, coal mine mob mop centralia / many were crushed to death, their bodies retrieved from the gears of the machinery by supervisors only at the end of the working day     Machinery chops children, radiant industrial revolution     Machinery calliopes children circus compost, and capitalism lubricates gears with guts     Breaker boys or london chimney sweeps sway in sledge sludge the automatic sinkhole     Others lose feet, hands, arms, and legs as they moved among the machinery and became caught under conveyor belts or in gears / gears grind bone grease, fat and flesh cannibalism     Coal dust drifts KING FELIX and machines crucify Christ Children     Machinery bites mako shark shredder, and anthracite amputates     Anthracite cuts clean surgery or the ragged knife Jack The Ripper, and I mail a kidney or two pus putrefaction postal service

Train Tremolos Theurgy

Train tremolos theurgy, a track theosis     Train deterritorialized tridimensional, a tiling of the Book bombastic library / trident triune Taryn triangle     book tiptoes and tapdances in threes, transcendental transition and tradition tetrahydroflora / play plastic polymerization     Train trips in triplets fuguing tunes tempests     Train transitions transformation transfiguration transwoman and Woman conducts chrysalis cocoon chrysochirpter      I trill trial, tortuga tiamat Taryn     I traverse trial, trickster caravan iron maiden, and the torture trisects body angles hanging     Trial cadillacs the Bojack Horseman episode The View From Halfway Down, and suicide tempts trial tatterdemalion mud mist swimming pool     Trial triggers converging noise anarchy and death bassdrops non-hierarchical     Trial church building basilisk dragon     Field / Spaceship     Field / Spaceship future fripptertronics, a dull fuck facade     Field / Spaceship sequins sequence additive and subtractive formulas heat malaria / Field force macromosquito as mastodons     Field / Spaceship makes word salad sand sharks and shark is my sister     Shark is my sister cistern cipher, and I touch her gills raised in code the animal Christ the ocean Jesus     Shark bomber jacket ejaculates the Beach and I binge beach bikini atoll hydrogen bomb Benjamin     Is there murder in your film?  Uh no.  It’s not part of the story.  No, I think you’re wrong about that.  No.  Brutal fucking murder!  Murder inverts the web wash golem and the ghettos ghent garage fuzzbox distortion     Murder reverses web wobbegong shark flatland floats superflat and art alloys abomination Laocoon and his sons     Murder matadors protopunk panhook reellion and I rebel rocking robin, bird perch parch pelican pentatonic and I play parson hodgepodge dissection     Murder ministers multiplayer tent revivals, reaver great awakening     Tent totals trophodermatoneurosis and Bobby Timmons tails terrigen blues solo, solar triad teratozoospermia     Language thistles seed, a sponge absorbing suicide notes     Language twists tent pole parthenogenesis and canvas corridors car culture Christ     Tent ten talents and I bury them in field, and field flints fallopian fire, seed sorcery and seed occultation     Talents buried torch Tower, tall light and tall lens horizon     Horizon hoops horror, flood acid and deluge mushroom the mirror psuedorandom river     Horizon hungry ghost Yahweh hyperventilates Vision Veranda     Vision peers pancrustacean permanent ink pockets, polygon tattoos or sister sigils     vision peninsulas pandemic prototypes, and Vision vars virus / language is a virus     In the beginning of Writing and I write Real Reality Resuscitation     I write Real Reality Revival, lumbar resurrection / spine sinister celestial or spine contrapasto colossus     Magic monuments or monument magicians magus the juggler hey mr tambourine man play a song for me and I sleep in apartment arcanum     I artist slight of hand hargum cup and balls brahman or Brahm’s Mansion     I silhouette shadow sleight of hand hellgrammite and I fish ferm ferocious my ten-gallon cowboy hat hologram aquarium     Magician matches Jacob Frank the Charlatan and I cater catholicism microcosm-macrocosm the house boat baleen whales worship ocean     I connect cottage and ocean, beach baby bayou borrowing the classical elements, and I manipulate earth, wind, fire, and water which lies like a countess before the adept, and he adapts them as he wills     I conch aether fall of the house of usher     I corrupt womankind aether and I think of Philip Glass’ first composition for Orchestra The Light, and it was inspired by the Michael-Morley Experiment     The Light levels zero drag but the zero zoroasters Zebra     The Light limbos lavender, lap licorice largo, and slow aether slows the invisible cosmological constant / dark energy     dark matter     dark flow fascism     My magick marigolds floi campi and lilum convallium, varark ambient or miracle white noise nacre / Tarot tannins pearl     Tarot tallows repent harlequin said the tick tock man, and time theaters tender train trolley ghost train trapping     Magician mingles manifestation, the mustard seed moving mountains     Musician mates mercurial, serial art equivalent to the slow-motion tempo of theatrical style, and I shudder silt sedimentary Sol Lewitt      I cadaver conceptual, idea igor and idea irene, blues block central / in drawing after drawing, a detail is proposed, analyzed, refined, redefined, moved through various permutations     I draw woman language and woman word     I sketch language-to-the-field-feminine and female forwards freight train cain     Language iron galls sliver-into-silver animation, and I cast carpenter cells conga donkey kong rotor rosalina / gasoline price blues     His works are noted for their austere style, very slow movement, and often extreme scale in space or time     I length language     I length language slow minimalism or mangrove maximalism, and it takes a long time to include everything     I want to lengthen language, a kind of word Morton Feldman’s Second String Quartet or La Monte Young’s Well-Tuned Piano     I want to scaffold word as cathedral infinite building     infinite church     infinite library / juxtaposing levels of diction     miltonic opulence and contemporary lingo, crib poetry and pre-verbal screams     My silence is a silence that speaks      I son silence son of man the Home Human Being and Humanity hogs horla alien syllables and my phonemes Pharaoh Akhenaten     The morphemes moat manacles but I storm the bastille Black Iron Prison     The cells foyer flex mentallo, god gratified language     I was sitting on my patio this guy appeared I thought I was hallucinating     The patio repents language book battle birth, layers of the labyrinth     Word batons basement (Alamo’s basement, where Pee Wee Herman tried to find his missing bicycle) and I broom basement I believe I’ll dust my broom     I repent the movement manhattan, beer barrel borough     I count the movement mirabella ballroom and word wicker baskets bull fight cartoon / basement bugs bunny     I spiel spell space around the text and text timbres electronic tracking a woman in trouble     a woman in mystery     a woman in word webs     to hare twa rhythm of the text differs from the rhythm of the movement     Text tallies total Taryn, trop hip hop holy / sacred rap language     rare rhymes and renaes     I sample that golden age sampledelia psychedelia fuel fathom funk     Funky phryrgian slap and pop and the flat second sanctifies saddle point Pontius Pilate      A set is a canvas for the light to hit like paint sets superhetrodyne ravage radio receiveth language and I sort the language Axiom of Choice children     Sets supersaturate and superimpose multiply punctuated language, and I slam Saturn / Saturn synchronizes my system or soul, arkestra arithmetic     Saturn satos symmetry asymmetry ankh aten torpor car pool     I travel Saturn melancholy coca-cola alcoholic     Melancholy murders masters models generations of Godzilla and King Ghidorah fights fuse faculty / pure fusion weapon     Melancholy microscopes microphones metabolism, modeling generations of Godzilla, and King Ghidorah kills catapult cardamon pure fusion weapon woman     August loves Godzilla and we watch Godzilla versus Hedorah     I imagine Krystal as a kaiju and she gems gorgeous as Mothra     I combine Godzilla King of the Monsters with Krapp’s Last Tape and Godzilla listens to young recordings of himself or I watch Godzilla through various eras, and each era ants Benjamin idiosyncratic imbecile     I read Krapp’s Last Tape – this Magee Monologue – I didn’t see it performed – but I read it from a book – and I think I cried – I remember I cried or that I felt this old and I age all too quickly (four states, in typescript, with copious notes and dirty corrections, of a short stage monologue I have just written for Patrick Magee.  This was composed on the machine from a tangle of old notes, so I have not the MS to offer you)     I read Godzilla’s Last Tape and I think Godzilla dies in the end or perhaps he just forgets to make another tape     The tape recorder ruggles wrestles rochester / Henrietta Hots where Jenna Marbles eats her garbage plate     Tape tunnels tapeworm or hookworm Woman at my heels the female Jacob or twin Asia / he takes childish pleasure in saying the word SPOOL     Spool tapes spiegel im spiegel and my sponsor spits free verse battle raps and rhyme     The new light above my table is a great improvement / light listless wanders worms word woman and I return to light a logo or logos     The rather archaic word VIDUITY (Beckett originally used ‘widowhood’ in early drafts)     The viper vows veronica vision and I always think turret veronica, an archaic woman reveled in the word spool / spool spikenards revelation, a clue counting castlevania     Spool spoils the girl in the green coat, a crimea of Krystal     All the jetty and howling are imaginary / Olivine Ouroboros     Krystal chryosolite pear peridot     I pay peridot prestidigitation and I hand harrier harlot / helmet henosis or god armor     Light lights light legerdemain and I ladder the remaining light     I lattice the remaining light tracing triangles and rectangles / cards and coins crisp colors

Book Begins Blue Velvet

Content Warning: mentions of suicide and acts of violence

Book begins blue velvet / she wore blue velvet violence and the bodies sphere pack pigeonhole principle     I told him I had always wanted to sneak into a girl’s room to watch her into the night and that maybe I would see something that would be a clue to a murder mystery     Mystery maps musculoskeletal, clue cord shinbari body mystery lasers meta-linguistics, spelling coptic language hag nag hammadi, and apocrypha fuck my apartment     Apartment autotransforms acanthocephalan and worm wastes grove worm     Wrestles witches climbing jacob’s ladder and I ascend and descend the body of Woman     Worm surfs Wittgenstein ordinary language and I mineral the mess methane underwater gorge gas god Jenna Marbles everything is glue     I sine my apartment to the angels axles wheel in wheel woman     wheel in a wheel witches   Mystery approaches the monastery, Christina cloisters castanets chattering the masque of red death     Mystery mackerels messianic acid, honeybee valley, the flow south sedimentary deposits     Mystery multiples Melissa virus vertigo androids acid-washed jeans     Book implies mystery, meningitis marauders, words injected into the spinal column and vertebrae vaults Library of Alexandria / scrolls spinor split majestic     Book borders blue velvet, pornographic boundaries     Word fellatio     simple syrup cyclops     it means there’s trouble until the robins come     Robins round femme fatales and Taryn enchants     entices     hypnotizes / enchantress     seductress     witch    She wails horror shaman medicine woman     Lilian Gish gown gambit giraffe     Book blends beads a love story in the city of dreams and her hermeneutics tiles landscape dreamscape     The dark-haired woman assumes the name Rita after seeing the name on a poster     I drink the dark-haired woman’s blood blossoms, body red herring horrified body     The dark-haired woman roulettes ring around the roses and relieves its plague pseudohistory Bodies buboes black death, detective duofold flashing dark surfaces and children choose hiding / hide-and-seek submarine     The matte painting medinas Mulholland Drive and my involuntary memory pictures piecharts or Danielle’s confusion of suicidality and I too solicit suicide     I solicit Gospel suicide doors and Jesus built my hot rod / Speed Wallace racing to Bakersfield     Evangelion violates vertigo surrealism / wild hog hypnosis Evangelion exhibits nude expression, bodies on the beach barbarian godspel     Godspel spools spikes the spear of the Eucharist, and Eucharist grounds in God’s remains / Benjamin being      Godspels speak girth, the grip prophecy and my prophecy sparrows altered states of consciousness / collection cain cryonics     Prophecy panes impasto, thick thought piracy, and consciousness comes as a thief in the night nude naked leaving its clothes behind the garden     Gospel weasels sludge metal, a slow wax wicked, and Christ kisses Woman, Mary miscarriage or memorabilia     I film Gospel on digital video, and Christ speaks with a vocoder     Jesus jams robots with Daft Punk retro-disco seventies spirits spiked with deliriants     I capture Gospel on digital cameras, handheld hell hole in the wall a woman in trouble / it is Hollywood itself that is dreaming     I sleep Gospel iron grates gatling gun misfire, and the sleep sludge metal performs Songs of Solomon in slow motion    The Gospels noose or nose gnosticism and the eschaton rains rhema Seed of Seth     Seth seers soul Taryn transparent and she sheds shiny the serpent belly     Seth meshes the afternoon with gnostic inland empire / The Empire Never Ended     Seth mars moths miller, Seth surrounding Seth, and my apartment alludes ellipsis the Advent     Advent etches antique gemstones Abraxas, an angular Abracadabra     Seth theos Greek Magical Papyri and chants magic or sacred names     Names numerated God geometry the sides or ratio of the courtyard of the tabernacle     Names number nous surreal sidereal, and astrology ages elements     ego     ethereal / body dipped or baptized in Adonai asphalt sabertooth cat black tar     Abraxas contains three hundred and sixty-five, a Yahweh year     I casket Chronos cain coffin, earthquake cascade ghost forests     I cabin Chronos wild woodland woman and she works worship watchtower, time-in-translation and I tempt text / textual transmission succubus     Time timbers Michael Gordon’s XY and the percussion saints sabotage or subterfuge     I fang the ferry royal chapel / upside-down castle and Book banishes Buster Sword the Bash Brothers     Ferry forces mathematics the metaphrase phantasm and the Tall Man a thermoplastic televangelist     The sense of the serpent in you, Salome, slender with her fingers safecracking and codebreaking, and she buffers bitter  I meditate on VALIS by Philip K. Dick     It is sometimes an appropriate response to reality is to go insane     Yes, reality repeats retrovirus and it infects reverse DNA transcriptase / enzyme embolisms     Reality rots revolutionaries, battle at the blood bank and I think of the improvised body armor in the North Hollywood shoot out two thousand rounds of ammunition     Reality rope rudders Tienanmen Square Massacre, death derelict dangerous delicious corpses     Reality riot markets ruffians, sauerkraut surveillance the bodily archive     He started keeping a journal has been in fact, secretly doing so for some time: the furtive net for a deranged person     Book journals and journal books psychosis

I meditate on the crucifixion of Christ daily     I contemplate body horror a Cambrian explosion contortionist split body sections     The sections shoulder undead, Zebra Zombie or vision vampire forever veronica / flowers in her hair and silver bracelets on her wrists     Horror hydraulic horseback rides rhythm riddim the Stockhausen of stock character and they walk into slaughter     Horror hypes hyperlink, multiply connected and entangled hierarchy, and the strata hurricanes the spirit of spider crabs / alien animalia ataraxia     I splangle splatstick, absurd bodies the Passion of the Christ     I spackle splatstick, blood drying on drywall human waste wallpaper     I think about suicide often / the Empty Tomb suicide chases me / my god my god why have you forsaken me     Suicide subsists in Saturn melancholy and I listen to Sun Ra’s Arkestra, a jarring jazz cipher or formula / trembling and bewildered, the women went out and fled from the tomb     Tomb theatres transgression, god grand guinol     Tomb thunders / what the thunder said thanatos typewriter nothing and nothing annihilation     Empty tomb tumbles horror, undead Abraxas more indefinite still than god or devil     Empty tomb tetracyclines technology, teeter-totter trailblazer assorted tongues and teeth     Suicide across chambers Adonai ambient, a background noise gnarled music     I listen to Music in 12 Parts by Philip Glass and I have always enjoyed pieces of massive length     The length letters lost or loose time, time in the scale of prophecy and planetary orbits     Music becomes soundscape, a city surrounding my apartment music merges metropolis and gotham, a dark romanticism and baptize music in solar bodies, atelier asteroids and atom smashers     I live one lift leviathan livaytan music, length oceanic and lime tower mezozoic, a kind of Cain murder mushroom hallucination (note: the chorus throughout sings in either solfege or in numbers)     Solfege spondees superstructure, the slap of syllables     Solfege stresses strontium titanium tintin tunings and the language laughs collapse, god agglutination     Numbers nary ocean labyrinths     Number nymphs nosocomial infections, an incarnation nocturn / this court of common pleas is now in session     Court chess chests columns     Court chess records country or rock and roll rust rare rhythm     Court cabin in the woods wears old west or weird west werewolves and vampires     I was in this prematurely air-conditioned supermarket and I was reminded of the fact that I had been avoiding the beach     Beach Benjamin belly whale: grey whale     blue whale     right whale     half-hour long humpback whale songs     Beach multiplies Beach bathroom raelian moby-dick     Beach scatters Beach order rotas opera (the opera eschews traditional narrative in fawn of a formalist approach based on structured spaces laid out in a series of storyboards)     I dislike much opera but this minimalism matches my non-narration or mythology, the tacet of toy trains     Perhaps this text transforms into libretto, the speaking-singing voice-visions resounding amphitheater     Book hollows open in amphitheater and cantilevers, a sustained concrete conversation / compact rebar Benjamin brutalism     Whale wraps Book concrete, blue opera ocean, and deep sea solfege records ice calving, julia january     The music assigned to Einstein demonstrates a circular process, a repeating cycle that constantly delays resolution / Book does not end but spirals themes God KRYSXTRYN new whales new mythology     Book does not end but ruptures interrupts earthquakes as crucifixion-resurrection and I sand seas the sarx of saints     I rascal birch and beach, the burden of the valley / Book begins beach ayin

The Body Blasts Castlevania II

Content Warning: brief mentions body horror and pornography

Ben Johnston’s String Quartet no. 4 Amazing Grace / Metroidvania search action and the grace gessups god geo grandeur rabbit just intonation     Rabbit roams Titanic disintegrating and Dracula’s castle collapses crutch corridor horror the explosion of the body     The body blasts Castlevania II: Simon’s Quest and I collect the cut corpse of Dracula     Step into the Shadows of Hell House.  You’ve arrived here back at Transylvania on business: to destroy forever the curse of the evil Count, Dracula     spontaneous shadow streams seventieths, a fool and magician     Shadow spectacles concord-symmetrical, alleluias of plainsong, Hindu and Greek rhythms, permutations of durations, songs of bird from different countries: all these actuated materials are put at the service of color and the combinations of sounds that imply and call it shadows ark alleluias, choir criminal the long cinefantastic     Shadows orbit celestial city, sun simultaneous and the sun superimposition, and Son of Man microletters mirage, ouroboros oasis what a horrible night to have a curse and I calculate mass serendipity burning seraphs rabid salivary glands mad dog mad god / Stephen King doesn’t remember writing Cujo     The night netherworld names woman naphthalene, and night compounds Krystal aromatic rings     The night jack be nimble jack be quick quenches with queer quaaludes gay guerilla     Night nonvanishes needlepoint rainbow, nitrogen at the ribs inducing nyphomaniac, and the mixed choir and strings australia nonstandard analysis / Black Iron Prison     Metroidvania violins vassals the silver knife can be thrown farther than the dagger     Dagger diamondback disjuncts desert, God Turangalila juxtaposition     Dagger dances disco is dead and I scratch my vinyl records Taryn turntablism     Destroy the curse and you’ll rule Brahm’s Mansion / laurels in your soup enhances its aroma     Destroy drills discotheque and dragonflies drop from the nightclub’s ceiling     Destroy dremels thackered polygons, an earth art hypnosis and the Spiral Jetty jousts thunderbirds, wingspray spanning set strobe lights     Laurels lamb lightning, a roasted passover Angel of Death loudspeaker     Laurels lycan libertine, Marquis de Sade sodom stoichiometry     Lye cattles chemistry, enzymes chupacabra clones clean cuts     I like to remember things my own way / the garden of forking paths     I like to remember things my own way / the library of Babel     My hypomania master swords metroidvania and my memory puts parallax palingenesis mullicollinearity / mastodon millennium maximin maxillomandibular business Logo     Logos appears as Logos KING FELIX     Logos lipids logos, bloodstream advertising and marigold marlon     I imagined a labyrinth of labyrinths, a maze of mazes, a twisting turning, ever-widening labyrinth that contained both past and future and somehow implied the stars…     I pick up my Book, a method for how I form my memories in the skull of the minotaur, and Book enters an extension field with the Bible, and I remember sacred texts     I re-remember the Bible and the Nag Hammadi Scriptures link labyrinth inside labyrinth / the Black Books and the Red Book rotate higher dimensional symmetries     

Conspiracy theories collect newspaper clippings and Mad Magazine pages, and the articles senator samael sources / demon dallas soap operas rat rotas     Conspiracies surround cylinder salamander / the sieve and the salamander and I think of Clarisse, a proto-manic pixie dream girl and I’ve always needed the manic pixie dream girls in my life      I think Christina glorianna conspiracies slaughter the weaver’s shuttle and she sandwiches Yahweh’s yarn the yoke between clues categories an organic minimalism or development     I listen to the Wind-Up Bird album Whips and I love you a lot and I’ve become this monster and monstrosity millet mistress the separation into glass grain radio     Conspiracy crackles weyward sisters and cannon copulates cauldron, seed boiling seed     Get a silkbag from the graveyard duck to live longer / hit Deborah Cliff with your head to make a hole     I backstitch bag of holding, a silk spreadsheet absorbing sine waves six of pentacles     Silk bag flits brachypterous mosquito or flea bombings / biological weapon woman wiles wocket in pocket and to think I saw it on Mulberry Street     I remember streets I like to remember things my own way and film slowly degrades     Film burns babushka lady and Mesopotamia magic bullets ballard ballet     Film flashes foil phoenix flappy bird and I float pipes poles raymond pettibon     I gaze at Raymond Pettibon’s drawings and I dream of india ink drip paintings     I dream black-and-white cargo slave ships slave trade tryptamines and art ricochets white marble pyramids     Pentagrams wounds of Christ and Baphomet     Christ and AntiChrist C lydian and C phygian mating calls / modal mississippi     I copy Raymond Pettibon drawings the talk of text pin-up pistis     Text becomes image, visual imagination and my screenshow scoops scavengers in parallax / cosmic ladder echo echo     I text or language Lentern Carnival woman himmelbuilder and the games landscape with the fall of Icarus     I cinema monomania and hyperobsession, and the detail drips substance / largo walking canvas     I like to remember things my own way: forsaken     begotten     forgotten     crucified     video valenciennellus viking constellation fishes     Video voyeur vinaigrette vinland vacuum and cinema mallards masturbation     Answering machines materialize Dick Laurent is dead, a matrilinear missile / ICBM pagan     We’ve met before, haven’t we     Christina manic pixie dream girl with a cock cooks my brains medium rare rendezvous with rama     We’ve met before haven’t we a hammer in hand tales from the darkside gold Taryn and Taryn attacks Cambrian explosion Enoch cambridge bibles and my Book has its own memory and own remembering     Pedal pages rose of Paracelsus, ash and anchor     I lombard lose highway, hell hearth kamikaze hospital and hospital handgrinds rock candy a videocasette recording my wife’s murder     The video invites neo-noir, thriller apoptosis and I wander psychogenic fugue      I fight fugue a fillet or subsection counterpoint subject and counter-subject     My memory molests and humiliates as a public gangbang and my identity entangles the crucified incarnation     My identity eats eliminates animal maul mall matter / zombies ate my neighbors     My identity oaks octopus ouroboros robotics and Taryn twists mobius strip book spirals and self-intersections, a nous knot of a labyrinth     Book spins as a damien hirst dot painting or painterly splatter blood bourbon a library licking ethanol from the walls     I finkel film and documents, a bowie knife fight in the dark / devil’s distance disaster ladder the ancient and famous city of Carcosa     Carcosa Christ simmers in cemeteries and I suddenly remember Christian wanted to go to the New Orleans cemeteries     Carcosa Christ cracks open tombs, tower and moonlight, mist potpourri mast mask muscle cars and muscle beach      I wear no mask, monster meth monument     I cut the film with angel wings, candelabra cinematography melodrama or melody, and the circle cycles difference     I cut the film with left-handed scissors and splice microphonemes or phenoms or phantoms, the castle campus construction      Castle crumbles bethany, a necrotizing fasciitis / soft tissue disintegration     Castle sugar canes nearer my god to thee, and Yahweh punishes pain out of proportion / serpent sepsis     Yahweh sidewinds as a snake and snake slanders or stems vibrio vulnifcus vision, water wound woman     I experience An Occurrence at Owl Bridge Creek and the disappearance of Ambrose Bierce / mutilated by Mexico     I dream his body dissected and broken apart into pieces during the Mexican War     This war, like every war, bears the business of brutality and crucifies many Christs     That writing – gothic surreal horror – reminds me I fashion my Book as Frankenstein’s Monster     The writing ricassos rammifications in 24-tone equal temperament (the composition aims to sound as a heterogeneous, amorphous texture in which the two groups try to retune each other      I compose phonemes for alphabet body, bulk Kabbalah soda supernova      I composition a bursting compartment syndrome and I cut open an arm or leg     I surgery syllables fasciotomy and bits of bone bless me      I bury bone in this Book, a desert debridement diabolos and the devil card of the Tarot greets me      I bury bastard Son of Man in Book, penal colony and pantera, and Black Iron Prison seeps skeletal the question of the Book

I Mauve Mass The Midnight Meat Train

content warning: body horror

I mauve mass the midnight meat train and mahogany mutilates macerates bone from flesh a fresh skeleton / human body parts are ripped, thrown, and used as weapons     My visions become vignettes, small window woman holes cut through the traverse of the body     My visions videotape or vans versus voluptuous, venus in furs naked flabbergast     Vision vacuums ventriloquist thrown-voice veschlations, and pod plasters page picnic at hanging rock     Everybody is a book of blood whenever we’re opened, we’re read / red rosettes rat acoustic digital distortion     Red rabbit rhines rind the roast, blood residual residues ghost Yahweh ghost vision     My vision gerties ghost horse races and Secretariat commits suicide the view from halfway down     I suppose suicide seduces me a human pyramid and I panic pogo the pirot perihelion / John Coltrane’s Sun Ship     The lattice listers lumbar puncture and I play picardy third paranoia fiction and the fiction facets farce a phoebus conspiracy and conspiracies canard cant secret language     New world order language     reptilian-alien hybrid language     The unreliable narrator narcs nihilism or nothing records listening to nine inch nails halos     The unreliable narrator enervates Black Iron Prison / spinal tap the empire never ended     The empire never ended immortalized cell lines Helen Lane or Helen Larson a secret Christian castle catacombs     Henrietta Lacks lathes cylinders the concentration of immortalized cell lines and I loop logan conspiracy my mythology measures conspiracy and conspiracy quantum loop gravity garbles greta sunset boulevard     My myth martyrs or interprets the plethora of bodies pulp fiction dime novels     The dime novels nattergastron tarot, magician alchemy, and I initiate magnum opus / pointillist prima materia and the rabbit radical runs hollow earth the harrowing of Hell     The mezzo-soprano mezzotints tehillim, clouds and clocks changing meter / polymeter polyamorous      I sing Saturn Sabbatai Sevi rings rabbit messianic or mosaic glass glinterns the giant’s causeway choir     I chant earth echo earth girl ground existence     dinosaurs diatom desert disintegration and I blade lattice ladder children’s games orchestra     Taryn torus strappy sandals the head of a shark dissected     Taryn saunters the sandspit, bay spackle sputtering spirit and spirit abruzzi spurs flying pan spittle / glossopetrae catapult propulsion triads triangles     I swim sword shark sorcery animalia diverging to animism anarchy / solar system panpsychism     Panpsychism flying saucers apex predator Helicobacter pylori devouring the gym of my gut inside-out outside-in tackle box intestines     Unidentified flying objects oberon bodybuilding butterscotch bacteria, and pathogens pale fire bronchospasms     The Hanging Man hostile hoards hunting hell and heaven wild animal     Animal holocene scores sacred hoop and spores spiral golden ratio racking chiffon     I blizzard lizard huantian hentan huntojan and I botchla or tear from red big game hunting     I hunt haqq or halep confrontational scavenging and I kill in the walrus hunt halberd woman     I hunter-gatherer spear point Paganini and I sharpen etude eagle cloud eruption, tavener Taryn witch song plainsong Renaissance polyphony     I hunter-gatherer projectile points prismatic polygons pursuance / protein, bone, sinew, fur, feathers, rawhide rawhead rex macroraptorial tanning human leather     I aggregate aggregate agriculture and animal husbandry     Agriculture appropriates archaeology and Book sifts sediment archaeology archive library museum     I loiter agriculture wheat lings and pretty things and archaeology approximates anniversary     arrangement     balloon cigarettes and valentines     I hunt game game language and play alphabet glue gematria particle accelerator and a beam of charged ions bullets my brain     Radiation rockets rib-to-rib safari and I channel surf with Radiator Woman or Woman in the Radiator / you’ve got your things and I’ve got mine     I hunt as Nimrod, who began to be mighty in the earth / he was a mighty hunter before Yahweh     I hibben hunter Nimrod mythology and I mason Tower of Babel     I freemason square and compass Jahbulon and strange gods surround me Table of nations and Table of Generations     The fish fang moon mapped rainbow scales / Solunar Theory slots slatts in tide pools     I purht plummet piccolo persistence hunting, habitat her long-distance running     I endure ekklesia church cheetah crisis pedal point rocket nets     I battle Zebra from the bushes burning god incense, and I inhale the goblin gas hallucinogen     I inhale oceanic Otodus megalodon castlevania and the fossilized vertebrae vine the staircase to Dracula’s lair of the white worm     The entheogens javelin the vampire killer / Simon or Richter Belmont the vampire hunter     I hunt havoc hinderer homoeroticism, holy hermaphrodite or rhinoceros rasslin unicorn and vampires lurk limit-experience     Vampires lurk nonlinear limping cane crucifix / Adonai abomination     I wanted the prayers to feel like they were in a classic horror film     Horror happens grey matter metroidvania and metro android argonauts nettle bird’s net no shade in the shadow of the cross     Horror hints fluxus and do-it-yourself, the creation of body borders horrors     He wanted to make a score that made players feel like they were encountering a living creature and had no distinction between music and sound effects     The language morphs between sound and semantics, an urground saboteur / the spy lie kite Calendar Man scheming against Batman     The language lilts limbic or basal dancehall movement the body macropowers of ten and I goliath gameboy camera and gameboy printer thermal paper degradation / I melt photographic language long wash mash photography     I chomp chiptune, video game vampires vampire killer church ballroom     Clam chowder coast in a bread bowl blankets beach with fog, and the fagginoti contra conch shells shark calls     I sample salinas salt solution jezebel Jahbulon     I sample experience experiment exponent unequilibrium and I gash glam sonic smashing pumpkins     I stalemate the dorm that dripped blood and horror hurries hell hubris habits slasher habits knocking on heaven’s door     I axle amateur photography and colony corpses

Hallucigenia Creeps Spines and Tentacles

Content Warning: brief mention of suicide

I hum heliocentric househusband and Hallucigenia creeps spines and tentacles     Hallucigenia spies sparkplugs and pananthropod, Cambrian pistol pocket purge     Sun surfs tubular warm waves and she whales whips laughing lobopods     Sun sands circus spear spectacular and the conical sclerites scrape fossil the physics of my skull     I annulus the sacred hoop divided into heterogeneous anurlations     I anak ark, covenant with a simple gut and ark grammars gold glamour mirror-in-mirrors     A key character demonstrating this affinity is the cone-in-cone construction of Hallucigenia claws, a feature only shared with modern onychopherans     Cone-in-cone construction conifers claw seed cavern, cave Cambrian sea     Cone-in-cone construction compacts claw concrete, curved cantilevers sheltering cannibals     Cannibal cassette tapes or betamax murks temple of the cannibal god     Cannibal super nintendo consoles curb cataracts / clipped claw cowabunga clade cavalcade     I limbo lobopodia, lantern daffodils or dandelions and the flowers phalanx fashion     I animal miniskirts and low-cut blouses pornographic pananthropoda and my last common ancestor acrobats acetone and Black Sabbath, vision ventilation     I sabbath segmented body and paired ladder-like ventral nervous system, swamp shack assorted sharks feast or shell crunch dentocerebrums     This animal obliterates bridge ride of the Valkyries and I interrupt the stilts as dorsal spines and the fleshy dorsal protuberances pock elongated lobopods / my own stunts rumble in the bronx     My morphology bends blue notes black snake moan     Black snake crawlin’ in my room and some pretty mama had better come and get this black snake soon     Body and appendages are circular in cross-section, and each circle scrambles unicycle blizzard oblivious / conical corner proboscis     Straight gut strata undifferentiated stone and rock, and I ribosome volcano, protein vacuoles vacuum brain in a vat    Well I’m a crawling king snake and I rule my den and the stones burns bonfire verses, vlask vituvian man     Here, Zebra Xenusian awerswaldae: you camouflage yourself in glacial debris, demoiselles denizens neo-noir or video nasties and the ice cures dead body stack dead body     Here, Zebra: Xenosapien and rock mountain hydrogrind glistens glock God, bullet bipolar behemoth / bone banter basking baked sun serenade     Zebra telescopes the telemetry of my surroundings     Zebra cascades crescent around the corner conspiracy / almond cyanide atomic bomb bombblast     Zebra syncs seven slander slender seven narcosynthesis and the incarnation inks sodium amytal interview or amobarbitol interview / feather frigate free association and Taryn transfers termite material     Book wood pulp     Book silence in the library and forests of the dead     The ash corpus crosses Ash Wednesday and Ayshtaia / animal ankle-segmented body borders Book volley     Animal ash atomic argyles a windy God / God the long and winding road spilling spines among the sponge graters sponge gleonies and I cling to the sponge vinegar and hyssop and myrrh     I king Krystal kerygma chela, trapjaw claws, and I tiger counting blues gospel the simple gut griffin kang chimera     My kerygma cackles chimera, a hybrid utterance pitching the knuckleball, and my kerygma curves early katalang katalina     Although it is Lent, I meditate on the resurrection of Jesus / Christ has died     Christ has risen     Christ will come again     I ponder Christ prototokos, a first flesh future, and future furthers fantasy frequency human music     Jesus jubilees jouisance human music more divine than Yahweh and I claw or proclaim the human holy / the Great Hunt animals hundreds     I sabbath soma, abyss Sabbatai Sevi and Saturn rotates as a Star of Bethlehem     I sink my vampire teeth into soma, bread body pneumatikos Taryn travel     I charge the Church of the Holy Sepulchre, chrism prison prion hazard-golgotha, and I stowaway in the stations of the Cross     I ale army anastasis, a stalking sturgeon or surgeon or serial killer, but the resurrection of Jesus still somehow sustains me     I stall at the stone of annointing and tradition tressels Taryn tabernacle, and I bury bodies contact microphrases contact improvisation full body breath     Lights latticework adamantium mesh, human Adam Kadmon Adam Krystal ice crackles     Lattice towers hone hipster hyperboloid Benjamin / my portrait smudges in a Francis Bacon painting     Radio transmission towers tow animacules or homunculi, music for amplified bass clarinet / extended technique Taryn cunnilingus     I collect clocks and clouds, a quantum cremation oscillating such and such decay for my atomic clock      The clock tower tiptoes Jack and the Beanstalk and I climb to the collapse of giants     Giants generate radio and television, wave woman wave     Latticework water partially submerged oil decks or dinosaurs / castor allosaurus in Bakersfield     Architecture sates my appetite and Book binds building     Book balances Belial a building thousands, and I write a poor imitation architect / brutalist Benjamin     I poke or pilster the polygon mesh, a metallic melt anamorphous architects      I collect the vertices vertical vision, the edges egress Eucharist, the faces face-to-face Yahweh, a weapon hobbling triangle mesh or other simple convex n-gons gathering god gates / Benjamin boolean algebra     I BASE jump my skull into gelatin my jaw disconnected / interrupted continuity canceled concatenation     I BASE jump earth giraffe, the seven vertebrae of the building, and I stalk books Himalayas, combat krav maga K2     I have a strange affinity for Movements for Piano and Orchestra by Igor Stravinsky     I am not a serialist in any capacity and I value the extemporaneous and the improvisational, but the crystalline shards of the row rumble rivet rabbit my brain     I covenant K2 katamorphisms and karakoram kickflips flesh, climber corpses, and I climb Torah the congregation or ekklesia letters found in letters     K2 candles Krystal the savage mountain, and I mercer mokuti the tits on Taryn     I toast to the mountain mechanical and no one climbs the Eastern face, an imitation of Yahweh (… just the bare bones of a name, all rock and ice and storm and abyss.  It makes no attempt to sound human.  It is atoms and stars.  It has the nakedness of the world before the first manor of the cindered planet after the last)     I exist before First Human I exist mountain or ocean or strange water worms Cambrian Explosion      I emit humanity to humanity and I emanate earth to earth, cliff elliptic curves or glossolalia glissandos     Taryn theogony nailbomb nyx night clamping chaos / choasmos contemporary art and I engine my installations     a mixture of erthogneiss and biotite-rich paragneiss / gneiss gnosis metamorphosis     I tone primarily colours the turning torso or twisted colossus     I timber twisted skyscrapers alien ambient pulses paradox paleoanthropology / I discover human or hominin skulls in my racing roller coasters     I attend Six Flags Magic Mountain and roller coasters rabbit ribbon Wonder Woman lasso of truth Pterodon     Roller coaster flashfloods hip-hop hyperboloids and I tower tarrion fantastic     I tenon tares fantastique, opium smoke grand guinol, a surface of negative Gaussian curvature     Woman wavers wattle, a lattice weave Jacob’s Ladder, and the slats slew hypermodernist     The lady lancets limbs lath and plaster the woman waxes wattle and dark wet desert     sticky desert      desert duodenum graphic guts      I pathos soul paintings the sick child     I watch fragments of Bojack Horseman’s The View From Halfway Down and I recall my suicide attempts / Photography will never compete with the brush and palette, until such time as photographs can be taken in Heaven or Hell     Hell helminths a triptych, home harpsichord triangles decorated in herringbone     Hell hospitals a triptych, home hieroglyphics and hagiography, the salt of saints fire sailboats baphomets Benjamin