Aggregate angels Arpeggio angels Appoggiatura angels Sharp angle participates anticipation angles and I approach stepwise serpent from below I approach angel below black ash and black paintings I mutiny monochromatic obstreperous black and occult black, and her black bottomless bursts bone abyss/ abyssal black bone and abyssal blaze bone black fire I draw dark distal black purproximal prayer I pray black pigment darkness, distal desert drive doom derive My skin soma psychogeography My skin sows what the sower sows seed psychogeography gods Undecidable dark daemon gods In the subsequent exhibitions of the incoherent arts (also in the 1880s) the writer Alphonse Allais purposed other monochrome paintings such as “premiere communion de niege” (First communion of anemic young girls in the snow,” white) or “Recolte de la tomate par des cardinayx apopleltiques au bord de la Mer Rouge” (“Tomato harvesting by apoplectic cardinals on the shore of the red sea,” red) I like pure color and I want pure color: red awful angels and black bitter Yahweh I like pure pigment and I want pure pigment: unwavering whorl white woman and purple pink surplus tesla laser beams branches PKD’s boiled then broiled brain Pigment perfects pregnant pigment pink Pigment perfects pregnant pink pigment permutations Pause pregnant pigment Pause pink pigment / pink public pajamas Pink public pubic bone pajamas Paciic pigment panic panic pink pink pearl pubic bone bastard angels I swim pink pacific sharp angel angles replaced with simple aerodynamic curves / aerodynamic curve caravan desert aerodynamic curve cunt cavern desert I digest desert slowly I digest desert slower slower sludge surgery systems I slow systemic slow virus and passenger virus pink wild pink deserts Wild pink woman Wild pink woman no wavering ink and I palm allwhen woman, her WHO, quite exactly WHO, this exactly (there you will discover that the concealed one, susceptible to questioning, created these – who is that – WHO) Who worship Woman Who Worship Woman and Woman worships Woman, many mirrors but not a mirage A mirror not a mirage moon demasking sun We cubists have only done our duty by creating a new rhythm for the benefit of humanity. Other will come after us who will do the same. What will they find? That is the tremendous secret of the future. Who knows if someday, a great painter, looking with scorn on the often brutal game of supposed colorists and taking the seven colors back to primordial white unity that encompasses all, will not exhibit completely white canvases, with nothing, absolutely on them (Jean Metzinger, 29 July, 1911) I prefer primordial black unity to primordial white unity but the Woman who wombs black mixes white white mixed black, supernal bright darkness Black mixes white white mixes black bride bright darkness and I Dive deep dark different deserts and deserts deconstruction I create new black rhythm I create new dark rhythm, bethel babel bedlam / I embrace Taryn Babylon I develop desert dark rhythm dark woman (do not gaze at me because I am dark, because the sun has gazed on me) Dark Woman dark rhythm derterritorializes railway roadshows / 70mm film Dark Woman dark rhythm reconstructs robin robin and rock around the clock Yahweh’s cock / Yahweh cock-a-doodle-doo new rhythm root canals Root canals mars a network of long straight lines in the equatorial regions from 60 degrees north to 60 degrees south longitude on Mars, observed by astronomers using early telescopes without photographing (1877 map of Mars by Giovanni Schiaparessi) christian canale canal channel desert duct garden gully gods Dark rhythm different dunes dark difference divides dome water in the middle of water or water diving water middle waters / Who Woman Who this Woman: This Woman, HER New rhythm as remainder or reminder, robed darkness rotary dial darkness pay phone pink pigment pale man pink pigment pulp magazine play Primordial black unity and primordial dark unity Ovulate albumin aluminum universe Universe originates non-orginary many darknesses / darkness plural primordial pink I urge toward primordial black unity / I urge toward primordial dark difference I urge uric alan ovum universe universe aleatoric Who Woman Aleph Light is enough for us / Dark enough for me, Woman Winter Music and Woman Who Winter Music, and I lift up my eyes and see: WHO created these I lift my eyes light-darkness and dark-light, the side towards which all eyes gaze: opening of the eyes I open radically open the cut circle’s radius I open unconditionally open vulnerable vision to which all eyes see her Sarah, and I come from that first mystery, that last mystery, that four hundreth and twentieth mystery: her mystery, maiden of maidens and maiden between maidens I listen delicate light and delicate desert, black square stardust I listen light delicious and delicious desert, monochrome tonality diamond I meditate mystery I meditate mystery of mystery and mystery in mystery, mystery multiplies I meditate mystery medicine, minimalist magic I want more flexibility with rhythm; I want to study more rhythm I deconstruct reconstruct rhythm religion I deconstruct reconstruct rhythm romantic religion and I write epic theopoetics tariff taryn traffic Theopoetics tenor saxophone saturation saturated surfaces and I write flat surface rhythm textures taste tables (Rauschenberg applied everyday house paint with paint rollers to achieve smooth “blank” surfaces White panels were exhibited alone or in modular groupings) I write paint patterns flexible shaped canvases canvas cross Christina Her white whistles light rhythms Her white wings Yardbird Yahweh light rhythms and light textures (I play light and dark, deep light and deep dark) Uninflected all-white eliminative gesture surfaces Uninflected all-white universe eliminative materialism moment-matte surfaces Moment matte surfaces Movement matte surfaces Moment matte surfaces moment matte surfaces I come from the first mystery the last mystery the four hundred and twentieth mystery and I radically reduce content to the cross I radically reduce content cross crossrhythms crossroads I radically reduce rhythm the region of the savior If the twins, the child of the child, and child combines crosses Child comb jelly combines cross christina not a crisis but a cathedral Savior twins Taryn monochrome paintings white paintings on cross-shaped canvases Twin saviors savor surface Taryn last supper monochrome paintings / monochrome minotaur matte black myth (images of Jesus from the Last Supper cycle, 1986, Warhol made almost 100 variations on the theme, which the Guggenheim felt indicates an almost obsessive investment in the subject matter) The region of the savior of the twins cuts neighborhoods, points compact gnosis Points compact gnosis a non-empty connected open set in a topological space, and savior etches space excess sheets of sound Any non-empty connected open subset of the real coordinate space or the complex coordinate space, and space species counterpoint points compact gnosis Taryn’s Name Her non-empty name nets residue, the remnant region cut residues coptic codexes Codex nag hammadi hunts the cut, the domain of scripture She hunts the cut and her non-empty name births new nonstop newborn, a natural gnosis (amen I tell you, no one can see the kingdom of god without being born from above) Above, non-empty alchemy Above, I nurse alchemy, her alchemical name nigredo, and I continually burn hell I continually burn hell and hell hardens as Black Paintings The Black Paintings (1951-1953) incorporated texture under the painters surface by the way of collage newspaper that sometimes indicate a gridlike structure I burn open neighborhood hell nigredo / nude nymphos and naked young nubiles (A married woman… a secret lover… a remote bayou rendezvous. The frankly told story of an erotic passion that explodes into lust and violence! NUDE IN THE SAND third large printing! By the author of Sinful Virgin, The Couch Care, and Swamp Hungry) Nude in the sand non-empty narrow normal Nude in the sand night gnosis gnosis nocturnes / I name nude the night nigredo The Red Paintings (1953-1954) incorporates still more materials such as wood and fabric under the heavily worked painted surface Empty room red and empty room RED red rivals rough surface Empty room red rhizome reaffirms red Empty room red rhizome reaffirms renegade red and red resonance replays random Sharp angles replaces red Sharp angles replace robust red / COLOR ME BLOOD RED Even Van Gogh would lend an ear I color blood red hard boiled books Book darkens red beetles (I liked what you wrote the other day, says Asia. Which one was that? The one about bug collections. What did you like about the writing I sent you? Is it because a large part it was about you? Boosts your ego? Christian says she enjoys the go boost when I write her. I like the imagery of picking up little pieces of a friend over time and stashing them in your pocket like precious little stones. Also: bugs. I should write more bugs then you’ll like everything I write. BUGS, says Asia. I keep listening to that song about Charles Darwin and the beetles. Haha, very Asia thing to do. I swear entomologists never change. I have this really cool book, says Asia. It has lots of diagrams about biodefense mechanisms in insects, but it’s also a bit of a memoir… FOR THE LOVE OF INSECTS BY THOMAS EISNER. In the book he puts a bombardier beetle in his month, says Asia Rain) Red flat bark beetle (Cucujas clavipes) I slim sharp angles elongates body small tree bark openings and I open book blood red Spotless lady beetle (Cyclomeda sanguinsa) I electron red elytra and I dome dark desert real I red real raw chewing aphid aleph, the sacred alphabet orange open tetragrammaton tetras taryn California red beetles (Coccinessa californica) I city california cross copious carbon and carbon carapace corvettes west coast racers I rabbit red carapace and a black cephalothorax / I tip tangent taryn thorax Taryn deep throats red beetle thoraxes hidden tetragrammaton Sharp angles replaced with similar aerodynamic cures Exotic woods and stones replaced cement and glass and glass gowns ghosts Glass gowns gem ghosts Glass gold ghosts gulfs gods and I gobble gods Pac-Man molecular gastronomy I gobble gods sphereification of juices and other liquids / cubes deep fried hollandaise sauce I gobble gods sphereification of juices and other liquids / cubes deep-fried hollandaise sauce I hard gabber gods devourment, and I cook gods california lady beetle, a very low temperature cooked octopus fusing using transglutaminase, dipped into an orange and saffron carrageenan gel and suspended on dill flower stalks I have to study rhythm some more: I want more flexibility in rhythm rhythm plastic time and rhythm expanding time Something taryn time Same thing non-empty but the sex savior twins regions, a child of the child close chasm chasm opens Chasm opens rhythm flexible flesh flexible book body / color me blood red More open rhythm More open rhythm simultaneous compact and expansive Restless rhythm rhythm resting Real rhythm train robbery
Month: September 2023
Son Of Man Sheets Of Sound
content warning: contains sexual and pornographic content Write a slower spirit slow god sewage her sperm insects indigo insects Write slow blue holy spirits / someday I will tackle that formidable text pistis sophia Slower blue rain showers Showers shiver blue rain ram skin raw covers wood word wrapped tabernacle Slower slower still, stoma stigmata midnight migrations blood butterflies beer blood butterflies Slower sighs Asia mothlight housewife word Slower sightline sharp angles replaced with simple aerodynamic curves My clothes cloister curves My clothes cloister curves Coltrane sheets of sound a three-on-one chord approach I appear different Approach I appear different triangles trimmed trinity I trim hell as hooves and I trim hooves as hell and three ticks slower amen Slower signal three-on-one open chords open chords chalice chains Chord chalice chains Christina me (Hey Jealousy by the Gin Blossoms plays on the radio and I immediately think Christina And you know, it might not be that bad / you were the best I ever had / If I had blow the whole things years ago / I may not be alone) I kiss Christina porneia any particular perversion I pray perverse kiss kiss psalm salt peter and Christina papers me kisses flash pepper Do you like feet stuff? says C. Like a foot fetish? Not necessarily fetish. But are feet sexy? Sometimes. What makes you ask? I assumed they weren’t sexy, but I just thought about someone licking my foot and jacked it! Weird. Really? Now I will jack it to you giving me a foot job! NOOO. I don’t want to have a foot thing! So many germs. Aderall has decreased my libido even more than it already has, so it’s all the weirder. Just think about me and that will get you revved up. Haha, apparently it doesn't even have to be a person! Just a dismembered tongue, says Christina. I porno pap smear I porno pap smear sexual insects / I kiss Christina’s cunt porno parentheses Pornography plays exploitation body entropic earth body erosive earth body ergodic earth erotic massage exploitation Porno parentheses paraphilias place pamphlets between doorways and taped to lightposts and electrical poles / perverse Chick tracts I porno peacock and I porno pelican I porno pelican skeleton she kills her young when they gnaw and strike her face, but she laments them for three days, after which she strikes her side and brings them back to life with her blood Pelican pokes porn riot riot reconnaissance / erotic earth espionage I write theology without underwear I write theopoetics underground and without underwear / I worship winter music woman I worship woman noise narwhal nostrils and her horn as holster fires watchfire wildfire Taryn theopoetics power electronics Theopoetics write benjamin underground underneath noise and she strips me underwear / I wear only little black dresses Sometimes I wish I wore dressed like Asia wore dresses but I dress different dramas dramatic desert Theopoetics without underwear water wasps / woman taryn theophany Women lemon renders in Buenos Aires arrow dynamic alchemy Arrow dynamics alchemy ash wednesday I alien ash attack allen wrench hex air Air all allways animates, an ocular stop-motion animation ace air Air apartment aria allways allwhen time tuned theopoetics / time tuned tin pan alley taryn Ash wednesday alchemy appropriates pornography and exploitation films Christina’s furious footjobs how beautiful are the feet of those who bring good news I spew ash fire breathes brothels brothel baseball immediate ash coating outside bottle episodes Avian ash hails secret agents original ash Approximate ash aspirin Approximate ash aspirin acetaminophen hooked on phonics and the killer with a hook for ah and attacks a couple in a parked car (her legend might have roots in real-life lovers’ lane murders, such as the 1946 Texarkana Moonlight Murders) I spew sprite spray holy spirit spangled spit and she spits and mews wildcat I spew holy spirit sitra achra ash / asshole annulus amulet I shit holy spirits I shit holy spirits god’s divine shit abject sonic artifacts Yahweh’s holy hook telephones as phallic symbol and its amputation oslos symbolic castration Yahweh’s hinge hook interrupts the sexual experimentation of the young couple / Yahweh hooks kissing homosexuals Yahweh’s disability dovetails his own lack of sexuality, and Yahweh’s hook threatens not the normal sex drive of teenagers, but the abnormal drive of gods to keep them apart Sharp angles shape my body Sharp angles shade shape my body black painting barcode poaches egg ball lightning I catch crate coca puffs pill vice magpies nad sharp sits seagull sequoias Wrestle writing I wrestle writing roma riddle wreckage I write the wreck I write wreck runner random I write random pseudorandom ice rink roulette Writing wrestle Writing wrestle ladder match chase hell in the cell Cell sink sequesters seattle sound sutras Cell sink sundial several systems clockwork and I work clock cells sommelier woman Sharp angles anti my writing rope cut test tangle entangled photons I figure photons flag flash / flesh flash flag seafoam infomercial floater air From now on, awake or asleep, remember that you have seen the Son of Humanity, and have spoken with him and have listened to him I human her hunger I harrier heiress her human Her human horror haircuts and hairpins double pendulum doppelganger My doppelganger daggers desert deserts Son of Humanity hemlocks hypoxia and I suffocate holy spirit I suffocate son of man fat soap syndrome (The Son of Man with a sword among the seven lamp stands, in John’s visions. From the Bamberg Apocalypse, 11th century) Son of Human hangs out other homilies Canticle of Canticles and he belongs my beloved / as a lily among brambles so my beloved among maidens Son of Man ben adam history human and her human hobos happenings Her human ho huios tou anthropou pauses body: she pauses my body built-a-bear bride bride blood bridal chamber Air adam anthropos alicial glacier gods god bird barter branches / bird bebop Bird bebop bovine insects: insect improvisation grasshopper jazz beetle bird bebop The use of the definite article Son of Man knocks novel, and before its use in the canonical gospels, no records of its use exists in any surviving manuscripts of Greek antiquity His human left-hands my human but her hiccups hijack human hymns I hymn her human Human as four humors and four helicopters horse hooves horror Horse hooves horror haunted habitats inhabited by octopus ink incarnations Human many Christs and Mary crosses cross haikus ice cream corner human I would set up the line and drop groups of notes – a long line with accents dropped as I moved along. Sometimes what I was doing clashed harmonically with the piano – especially if the pianist wasn’t familiar with what I was doing – so a lot of times I just strolled with bass and drums I set up a line and set up the line not nonlinear I set up the line knot nonlinear loop anthropos human hyena I shiver line nonlinear snow I shake line snow asymmetrical asymmetrical ambient ambient asymmetrical anthropos Son of Human hamlets Adam Arachnid / aria ariadne alembic labyrinth The foxes have holes, and the birds of the sky have nests, but the Son of Man has nowhere to lay his head I set up jet set radio nonlinear lines limes lime limbs human I set up upholstery ironless listerine limes and adam alcohol evaporates Adam ethanol evaporates erasure her shoulders line my coffin I set up her line and dropstone stoning stephen her girls group nodes Girl groups doo wop women bessie smith smear smoke blues Smear smoke Son of Man almost human eye music Almost human I AM music I drop groups of notes names gruppen gods I drop groups notes gruppen gods nag hammadi gospels I drop groups girls her hands useful enough to sustain a rose a child some beads Her girl mother of god / Taryn Theotokos Girls gather garden roses Girls gather palm tree garden roses I rent rosary rowboats a resting shaman’s rattle Girls generous roses rosary and sometimes I hold and study my rosary with stainless steel beads and a St. Benedict’s Cross cloned Christs I clone Christs sheets of sound (irregularly grouped girls jamboree gelatin) Similar cells son of man sheets of sound Similar stem cells Son of Human smelts stone steel sheets of sound I throw threaded stone sound nemesis noise More noise More noise waxed nylon Waxed nylon woman near noise More nested noise antisyntatic gospels Gamma ray ghoul gospels Groundless ground ghost gospel, a gospel of ghosts and girls rise rinse roses Gethsemane gorge gospel: gethsemane engorged gospel ghost gluttons (hungry ghosts hunt Son of Humanity hospital bones black broth) Black boned angel black bone broth bottomless pit Pit participates son of man macular degeneration and cross creep khora Cross and khora corrupts any rigid Christianity
Fuck With Syntax
Fuck with syntax Fuck with syntax syntax fucks Syntax Christianity fucks cross multiplies cross Cross squared and cued india ink indestructible Cross squares and cubes india ink idempotent / an omnipotent isosceles triangle A process god scalene triangle Fuck with syntax my long hair as heresy / humboldt squid headaches Hocket heresy fuck syntax with with whey giant ghosts ghost giants Grant ghost silly shit holy spirit holy spirit sniper rifle a bullet accurate adventure A bullet accurate adventure punches air in apostates Hocket hatchet fuck syntax slime slurry I sleep heresy (The Gospel triumphs over Heresia and the Serpent. Gusaf Vasa Church, Stockholm Sweden, sculpture by Buchard Precht) (A statue in Vienna portraying Saint Ignatius of Loyola trampling on a heretic) (The burning of the pantheistic Amalirician heretics in 12010, in the presence of King Philip II Augustus. In the background is the Gibbet of Montfaucon, and, anachronistically, the Grosse Tour of the Temple. Illumination from the Graded Chroniques de France, c. CE 1455-1460) I hunger heresy syntax with fuck and I sleep secret gospels and secret epistles Hocket hookers frankenhooker habitat heresies and my heresies hunger simultaneous repetition and rhizome Repeat rhizome fuck syntax with butt fuck hair cut Hypothetical band names: Evil Enchilada and the Terror Tamales Babylon Bitches Bukkake Buddies Ouroboros Orgy (Asia and Kenneth love the phrase ouroboros orgy) Gay Glock Butt Fuck Hair Cut Hersey as hairesis, choice and thing chosen I choose an unfamiliar cross an alien and foreign face christ Christ invisible syntax secret symptoms and idiopathic syndromes my skin scraped scaffolding (Massacre of Waldensians of Merindos in 1545) (Between 1420 and 1431 the Hussite heretics defeated five anti-Hussite crusades ordered by the Pope) I desire to explore every possibility that calls itself Christianity I explore every Christianity always-already contaminated by other Christianities Plural Christianity plenum pleroma I pray porneia plus parousia I experiment Christianity Christianities and my experiments endoheretic empty alto exaggerated SOUND (But on average, for the last fifty years, the field hasn’t tested dinosaur orthodoxy nearly enough) (The illustrations by the author show dinosaurs in very active poses, in contrast to the traditional perception of lethargy) dinosaur orthodoxy dinosaur orthodontics dinosaur osteoporosis and broken bone setting (Do you like ice cream? I ask Christina. Do you like eyes cream? I am working on writing and I write about dinosaur orthodoxy and I misread it as dinosaur orthodontics and now I’m obsessed with the image of dinosaur with braces. LOL my phone told me you probably used the wrong homophones, says C. That’s my entire writing shtick, I say. Puns and malapropisms and wrong homophones) A compact Christian catastrophe A cockpit cavern Christianity vacuum catastrophe (I listen to Patrick Bartley talk about jazz: people are too concerned with the changes and not enough with the sound inspiration…) (Patrick Bartley also says, You have ot play what you like… I hope you’re playing what you write…) I find sometimes I have to write what I don’t like – I have to write ugly to discover what I like But perhaps that’s what Patrick means too about the importance of sound, of blues, of not fearing the dirty and bent sound I write too comfortable – too much autopilot automorphic and not enough pilot wave woman woman wake awake apostasy Carpenter Christianity John Cage compact my music discarded different apartments Write slowly but more deeply Write slowly but more deeply Christianity fucks syntax gospel secret secret secretions Christianity tracheotomy coughs corpses soft thick secretions (FRANKENHOOKER she’s hot. She’s sexy. And she’s sutured to please. Write slow Morton Feldman deep length Rothko Chapel / I inscribe a Greek cross inside an octagon Slow sharp angles an alphabet flying buttress broad brush broad brushes irregular octagons brick building with rose stucco walls and a skylight Christianity chapel close cell syntax super Rothko Chapel a bridal chamber secret, soft sound sharp angles / blowfish barbed wire lionfish razor wire rain and I often frustrate Asia Rain (I left my phone in my car – what did I do?) Christianity cathedrals from corpses decentered Ash Wednesday I collect book ash I collect book ash bone army I snort ash amy apart and I divide bones byzantine I separate bones baroque almost-black chiaroscuro / a series of black paintings which incorporate other dark hues and texture effects I ariana ariadne ash wedesday / repent and believe in the gospel Remember that you are dust and to dust you shall return Ash sharp angles replaced by simple aerodynamic cures I curve clay spare spit cures blindness squares in squares I curve ash atom bomb asia my face splatters rain ash melt woman Slaughterhouse Five splatterhouse punk orchards Slow slower A slower Christianity fuck with syntax sea lion woman low swimming Slow slower secrets: cryptic crawl gospels and codexes, and in the courtyard, mercury and sulfur Slow slower sulfur strutted smoke Christianity My sometimes Christianity smokes slower slate, Asia Rain blue sleet sleep I sleep slower heresy her in the courtyard and yardbird yahweh I sleep superstitious signals silence silence singular Sleep slower her heresy voila rocking chair children of men Her swims heresy syntax slut schisms and I worship many Christs I worship many Christinas her chymical marriage Her chymical marriage Nag Hammadi Codex Heterodoxy her, hen to pan in her courtyard Heterodox her, cobra kiss hermeticism and Hermes Trismegistus egg hatches body horror, yak milk yahweh metamorphosis In the courtyard, connecticut cobblestone jazz / bartleby perfect blue In her courtyard, slower slice blues and I sink sulfur she she serpent such stingbug cyclindrical Surreal cylinders sleight-of-hand misdirection Messianic misdirection Sabbatai Sevi fucks syntax serpent Syntax with teeth Syntax with teeth and razorwire cocks / Yahweh’s barbed phallus Rewind repetition rewind rhizome tenor saxophone traditions Supper slower syntax syntax sword disintegration Deter disintegrates my dust dial courtyard and here, a deer Here, her deer, and I measure baking mercury I mellor many baking mercury mediums I medium malt melt medicine I medicine mercury mercury mer mathematics Slower surfaces slower saturday surfaces Surfaces slower Surfaces saturday slower I slow into sabbath writing sin syntax I step into some strange shit fuck / slower slaughter sinkhole for museums Museum martyr mercury Mercury monads modicum monsters I search something slower faster simultaneous I surround shitting books surgical shit shards prison shanks… I search something faster slower simultaneous cyborg sharks cyclops An obsessive urge to write and rewrite everything / an original copy I collect call copy copy cross christ carburetor drive-in (C’mon and drive on in… They’ll make you want to come again! THE CAR-HOPS) I copy cars slow soda I copy cars Taryn says COWS GO MOOOOOO slow cow clusters Slow cow comic conventions Caution: killer cows revenge for cow tipping / cows stripped stop sign naked I miss writing conversations I will write Asia conversations Again once I determine how to integrate / disintegrate / rewrite them in a way that hints her heteroglossia body horror hyksos body horror hittites I copy jazz jenga and body horror hungry hungry hippos I photograph future photons Slower slower haggard haphazard A slower simulated syntax: a slower simulated haphazard syntax, scare crow syntax happenings Slow slower haze herds hundreds infrared hell Hell horses horses horses slower horses hegel chariots Slower spirals dirge dialectics I dip chrism then baptism / abyss abyzou abyss I spiral usher ash wednesday I spiral speech scroll oozing ash wednesday peach orchard I ooze peach orchard slower prayer circles
Adventure And Adventure And
content warning: some sexual imagery, specifically body fluids used metaphorically Adventure awkward arrs toward an medium intermedia and I river meander underground waterfall I repeat waterfall woman I repeat waterfall woman different books the same book and book attaches so my brain prayer parasitic prayer parasite pommel horse groin injuries I adventure wound word icon injury stained glass spittoons / adventure awkward aardvarks and anteaters Termite Taryn Subterranean Termite Taryn subterranean stiletto starfish stardust Termite terminals artificial adventures duck amuck and what’s opera doc / prosthetic memory fashion photography Termite Taryn Total Recall an adventure in advertisements and I write inauthentic sometimes selling out is waking up Machine museum Strange matter museums Pomegranate orchard arts porneia postmodern I illustrate Christ’s incarnation in Vogue and Vanity Fair (I try to replace “OR” with “AND”: AND IMPROVISATION and FREE THEATER) (AVANT-GARDE THEATER) I illustrate Christ Crises core sheets of sound retro gaming / I play Earthbound via computer emulation I compile computer music and alice algorithms Alice aleatoric algorithms and alchemy Artificial alchemy always-already alchemy Artificial alchemy always-already artificial and I absorb artificial I absorb artificial amplifiers artificial harmonics altered chords altitudes Alchemy appreciates compound interest insects cycles (I continually cycle alchemy I continually cycle bible alchemy nag hammadi I alchemy allway path plays the path aleatoric) When Ghosts When Ghosts Alchemy when fly-by-wire spirit medium modem When internet ghosts meme memory chalice charlie challenge (basic set up for the two pencil game, with the top pencil balanced the same way as the other such that minor air movements can cause it to rotate) I divine god game winter music and when wipes When windshield wipes windshield tabula rasa / blank slate whey sleet When Ghosts When Ghosts I water ghosts abandoned underwater animatronics (20,000 Leagues Under The Sea closed in 1994 as Disney World, but the animatronic stayed abandoned underwater in complete darkness until the lagoon was drained in 2004. All were severely water damaged and unusable) Ghost arrives when when soothsayer sharp seer and I write ghost I write persistent ghost arcades architectonic glass concrete wire animatronics / I write and colonies sim ant coloring book Elizabeth reads an excerpt from the Book entitled Body Human Bolos Dense Brush Machete, and she heaps copious praise on the writing: WOW such a riot of words, that power imagery and the incredible way to stitch it all together. It reads with such speed, so urgent, and its pulling from so much. It’s like so many pics flashing before my eyes. I feel like I couldn’t keep up. Like some dizzying jazz piece, says Elizabeth. That’s a great compliment! I take a lot of inspiration from jazz. You are most welcome. You r writing is very much like jazz music. You explore and experiment and find your way through it. Your work is raw with emotion and such intelligence. I feel like I almost need a PhD to read work. I find myself googling all kinds of things and then I end up going down a rabbit hole and I just love that. I need to send you my work more often I say. We jazz june we die soon Jazz jism jeep we jazz june we die soon Jazz ghosts holy guardian angels I jam grandiose jazz gods When ghosts When ghosts long lamp vertigo vision and I envision Aleister Crowley engages in anal sex magic sheets of sound I cum Coltrane Changes When ghosts I cum Coltrane Changes sheets of sound semen seed broadcast black cats blood clots (Listen! A sower went out to sow) A sower went out to sow see ghosts A slower went out to sow saw ghosts when when winter music I musick magick marginal and I sow Other Parable Other Christianity Other Parable Other Christianities pool blue ink blue pigment pie in the face I Love Lucy When ghosts When ghosts wind jazz rhizome Christianity I worship Other Christianity decohering into christianities the delaminated cross caravan A sower went out to sow holy ghost Holy ghost slows guillotine electric guitar gods / Elohim gigabyte graffiti Modern Baseball’s Holy Ghost Modern Baseball’s Holy Ghost museum sand and muscle cars Sometimes I sow chrism Christianity the cross and sometimes I sow the star Sirius and Satan My Christainities sow polystylistic music and postmodern music / pulitzer prize-winning porneia My postmodern music combines parable and porneia (Can I talk to you a bit? I ask Christina. I feel depressed a bit, says C. I’m finally showering today. I’m a gross person. When is the last time you showered? I don’t know. 2Ish days ago? And yesterday at least. I hate showering. Because of the piranhas? Shut up! Now all I can think of is piranhas coming out of the drain! Aww I’m sorry. The more I learn about ADHD the more I think I just don’t have enough dopamine to do boring things like showering. You have ADHD? Yep! Officially! I thought I told. You probably did but I don’t remember. Tell me about ADHD. Asia also has it. It makes a lot of things make sense that didn’t before. It’s improved my depression because I don’t hate myself as much, says C) Often depression that lowdown dirty blues thing / my baby’s lowdown Often Saint John of the Cross’ Dark Night of The Soul: not a niche night but night near night then immersed double night double dark continual desert nigredo I tire of dark nights although I do not tire dark nor night / dark drives – no, dark derive sacred desert and night names renewal with or without Yahweh Yahweh abandons frequently Yahweh abandons frequent flyers in acute psychiatric facilities I struggle again with the shadow, as with some older night / name night network nigredo and I work word nigredo (a common term for the nigredo: “corvus”, crown or raven, perhaps because of its black nature / a continual carrion eater) Crow close Christian nile eden nigredo aleatoric I pray piranha nascent nigredo / nigredo nita nail ghosts ghost margarita tequila talon Taryn I fish flesh my piranha body prays putrefaction / black books and black bodice Corset christian Christianity many griefs god I grieve god god grieves me my gauntlets gun god as galactus / planet eater immediate earth Immediate earth and the spirit immediately drives her into the wilderness wild warehouse woman wild warehouse woman winks birds burst from her eyelids and she sees all breasts I pray disappear disintegrate I pray disappearer dime novel disintegrate I pray possessor piranhas peeking out the drain drain draw desert and brain drain draw desert immediately her spirits spool linen spirals I study spirals I study spirals spiral cords curved she shakes skeletons (cutaway of a nautilus shell showing the chamber arranged in an approximate logarithm spiral) I thread spiral rainbow nautilus shell / our bridal chamber KRYSXTRYN bridal chamber shell chalice / Indian Jones and The Last Crusade I study spirals I strike stone Nag Hammadi (I desperately need to read Pistis Sophia but it intimidates me) Spiral sprechstimme stops spiral but the cross explodes N-dimensional Cross explodes N-dimensional nigredo neon sign Taryn Tetragrammaton / the total expansion all the regions Great Invisible tripe three-powers four-and-twnety invisibles when ghosts when ghost winter tale Spiral stretch indigo sheets of sound and I try long rapid lines arranged ghost spirals Open sponge spin spell radically open I open open sheets of sound rapid rhizomes and long Christianities Spectral spiral spectres ghost-filled speakeasies Aleatoric alcohol woman whiskey Adventure or controversy – adventure and controversy My Christianity transgresses Christianity proliferates porneia and I prostitute my flesh to writing Adventure and controversy… Do not cut but recollect, re-remember, rearrange, remix, rewrite… Do not discard but transform real rain rhizome Adventure or controversy – adventure and controversy – rewrites I rewrite ghost when god and Yahweh longer Christianity crumple zones zebra / black books bumper to bumper traffic Again adventure against amen Again adventures alice against amen and amen I say to you, a sower went out to sow A sower went out to sow Son of Humanity, and Son sprouts marriage of heaven and hell Adventure ara ama eva Adventure ava ama eva / she adjusts alien serpent Serpent spiral press start and select Adventure San Francisco Armory Adventure armory armadillos a kind of linear approximation of any animal and animal adventures asshole backwards breakfast line breaks Adventure ghost when all awl I animal medium I animal medium large animism and I anima sophia sapphic oblviion (Happy birthday Kryptonian. I give you oblivion) I do not avoid but attack adventure almost absence and certainly obscene / my adventures flesh play piston pornography Porneia pits me skin stars scars old scratch fuck whore hooves hodgepodge hell Adventure allosaurus nard alms on armories when the moon hits your eye like a big pizza pie that's amore I adventure apostate apostate other Apostate apostle other opposite opposed other woman I adventure affairs additive accidental / accidental under water animatronics Cyclotomic circuitry circuit bend la bamba
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content warning: brief body horror imagery I write transparent I write transparent naked, nude curtains process Reminder Son of Humanity hellhounds on my trail I write transparent naked hell hell bellhop hell happening Hell happens me Indeterminate hell happens me mecha moca old murder Humanity human hell four humors earth wind and fire soul funk filament light bulb Reminder hell Hell hawk hawn hues hell I write transparent naked hell I wrestle hell hell wrestles I wrestle hell hip-hop samples I research sound and I research sound writing and writing rhythms autumn rhythm Music mirror my face / you're pretty face goes to hell Mirror music my face retrograde highway merger Humanity highway hammelin hammerhead shark carded at the bar Underage sharks and teenage sharks Immune system slime climb kum bay ya my lord Research sound kyrie quick canon / counterpoint rattles Yahweh an algorithm but I heuristic hermeneutics Yahweh euclid’s algorithm gluts my guts greatest common denominator blink bones blink bones weeping angels Anticipate Yahweh optimus prime algorithms Matrix of leadership Yahweh algorithm autobots Autobot bullets Algorithm an Yahweh approaches loop library library sheets of sound (I simulate sound over and over amain) (Every algorithm simulated by a turing machine / an algorithm a computational process defined by a turing machine Algorithm antacids Yahweh thought experiments (logical NAND algorithm implements electronically in 7400 chip) Algorithm secret agent auto ozone Yahweh / computer espionage enigma edward nygma bridles north I generate POEM YAHWEH palm mixtures (a minotaur, an unconscious female matador on an injured horse, a young girl holding a candle and flowers, a man scaling a ladder, and two women watching with doves from a window) I generate Yahweh poem pinprick ghosts I transparent write wrestle transposed gods and I divide god into different equal divisions of the octave difficult you Yahweh yes and I write yet you I struggle transparent Yet write you wrestle Yahweh benjamin snow burbank pinball banks Transpose transparent writing rib restless rivers Yahweh Rivers Yahweh rake wrestle wrestles writing Writing researches me sound son algorithms Algorithm armies against Algorithm against armies Yahweh of Hosts Army apart hippopotamus helicopters Army hell parasite hosts Yahweh hospital and I mix-and-match remix repeats Yahweh top Yahweh and algorithm sets fire to the face on fire She sets fire to my face on fire fire flagrant foul flams eye floaters The sets foreign fire to my face flat fire Flat fire future Flat fire future finish flower power punches Punch card algorithm (I forget the difference between algorithm and computer program) Punch card spiked prom punch (Random question. Did you ever go to the prom or Christmas ball in school? No. so sad. I went to homecoming a few times. How was that? Eh. I send Rainey a picture of me and Christina at Christmas Ball. Aww. Me and Christina were cute. She often said she regretted not going to prom with me. She went with Felipe who kept pining after Laura and refused to dance with Christina, I say) Work in Progress I write Work In Progress Work In Process Possible Process Probable / poisson distribution Processes animal carcasses tanning leather chrome cadillac chromatic magick Magick sigils saturate summer sausage pancakes paperclips Work In Progress photon finger horror Children’s horror something fell from aloft loft jazz modularity lifting techniques I like horror because it bends primal primeval medieval castles / feudal fugue fugue phantoms I like pornography for almost the same reasons Work in progress process heebie-jeebies screaming meemies call the neighbors’ cats and dogs will never more be seen, they’ve all been ground to sausages in Don Derbeck’s machine I adventure oddwork work altered other and I attend tentative tensive high-tension wire wing wobble I encounter different adventures on my isolated islars eggplant idols Idol icon ink engine – not engine but an indent alpaca line line lola Lola lolita lamb gant gaunt god hieroglyphics Adventure god’s pen asshole adventure god’s open asshole a divine anal vacuum An anal fulcrum and inclined plane / wreckage breakfast rectum real rectums real wreckages or real wreckages real rectums ridge cannon canyon residue I awl andrew animal adventures a long screw a long screw island island claws dirt clods a cylindrical screw scratch improvisation orchestra islands Islands Charlie Parker omnibook omnivore vera rhythms Ada or ardor adventure Adventure armpit dismembered arms My arm upholds another arm cut cloud rat adventures I adventure Asia Rain conversations occluded clout (I fear writing our current conversations because much through occluded; we reconciled but a question: how do I integrate conversations in this current iteration of the Book? I fear it will become episodic or disjointed – but the disjoint necessitates It lives human life, the multiplicity of styles, experiences, languages, dialogues hells heteroglossia Isn’t this what Ulysses, The Waste Land, the postmodernists and the polystylists discovered? I continue to experiment I continue experiments experiences Asia Rain adventure) I left my phone in my car what did I do? If that’s how you feel then go ahead. It’s a strange goal though because how do you even measure that? It’s also pretty shitty and manipulative to tell someone else that you don’t want to be friends with someone unless you can be the most important friend. I’m sick of the guilt trips and making me feel like I’m not doing enough. I’m doing as much as I can: I don’t think I have much more to give. What did I do what do I do I do write even through my asshole, my shit, my manipulation / municipal waste I do dirt desert dike lenny dykstra pitch drop experiment I do dirk desert devils and I experiment organ theft bootlegging langoliers Langoliers language I loop linga laughing hooks I adventure misadventure erratic egress ergot mushroom misadventure misalignment mistrial / I manipulate miscarriage I manipulate microchip Miles Davis Miles Davis dark magus magnetic how do they work / very work writing Very work witch writing raw written sewage (What Asia says tomes true: I say shitty and manipulate) Adventure armors animism medium I meditate oblivion Adventure arword animism meditates me oval obal oblivion Frequently oblivion endocrine frenetics / more fucking noise Adventure Asia augmented chord augments sharp five: five libraries and five museums Asia adventures museums: alien museums and Asia frequently speaks about the video game Outer Wilds (Your question about media that changes how I view the world: Outer Wilds and Grave of the Fireflies, says Asia Rain) My apartment a museum My apartment apprehends a museum museum material mystic No, my apartment phone operator a museum morse code and I manipulate numbers nile river sequences I river rush – no, I’ve written and repeated river rush many times – I go back to the apartment to write Apartment adventure scalene triangles landromat landers (I talk to Asia for three hours on the phone; we talk on the phone sundays now) Aleatoric andromeda / adder aberdeen Adder abderdeen eileen isometric / aleatoric apartment Alea elea experiments and Asia Rain… (Stuck in my apartment, I attempt to write not-stuck not a stuckist or conceptual artist but – as pretentious and self-improvement as this sounds – the seer-visionary, although I currently lack vision or seeing / Spirit of Elijah always leaves me) Apartment stuck sunday soda and I write stick-stuck dig-dug Apartment arcade Asia Rain complains about the wide variance in Georgia temperatures wear a lot of layers, she says, and she plays the platformer Celeste (The player controls Madeline, a young woman with anxiety and depression who aims to climb Celeste Mountain) Stuck stick figures I miss arcade simplicity I miss arcade simple nintendo hard hell her hair and I never play well but scribe konami code on Nintendo Powder Tips and Tricks / sometimes game genie alphabet chain chompers Video game god grafts Video game god grafts griffins Video game god grafts griffin girls, maze of mazes Son of Humanity, and Human One appears almost Human One appears approximate against Against approximate Paranormal panorama Spirit photographs / pseudepigrapha I forge flesh fire black smoke plastics Plastic paranormal normal vector vision and I seer songs of solomon seep sleet bedsheets I seer supernatural: sun son son sun sister O YH my sister Her voice reveals voice interior interior sotte voce voice and her voice volumes woe to those who have seen the Son of Humanity Humanity adventure of ideas Humanity adventure island ideas deer antler (I write human hasty – no, human hastens human) (I write a poor humanity and I struggle humanity my body bursts char of the burl benjamin writes bend down the branches) (I write a poor human Son of Man manichean hammer… I write a shitty Christ and poor woman work in progress I shovel shit animal work work writing the animal robe / my virgin venous in furs My vision tamagotchi torture garden) (Detach my retinas any result) Detached retinas any result I try to remember a passage from the Bhagavad Gita, so I open my copy (Its front page contains a note from Taylor: To Ben 3/13/07 a good friend on his journey to finding his way. May these teachings find you well and inspire you as they have inspired me. All my love – Taylor) I read: You have the right to work, but never to the fruit of work. You should never engage in action for the sake of reward, nor should you long for inaction… Another passage: Fulfill all your duties; action is better than inaction I imagine this parallels what Philip K. Dick called his kerygma Krystal kerygma chess caste she kings She king krystal She king krystal kyrgma, KING FELIX and KING KRYSTAL Fulfill your duties; action is better than inaction My duty: to write, to prophesy, to seen, to vision, to heal – one gesture and sound mass momentum Work without reward, even the reward of beauty or satisfaction in the writing and prophesy You still must write and fulfill your duty You still must write and fulfill your kerygma Wrestle and struggle all you want but still you must write I write cackle cauldron kerygma / prayer proclamation contradiction Prayer proclamation praxis contradiction contradict liturgy Liturgy limps contradiction coyote Liturgy limps liminal contradiction coyote and I contradict Christina I worship Christina Coltrane sheets of sound soon sound other syntax Syntax simplifies Kerygma krakatoa korakoram code K2 kiss / Christian kisses me Krystal kisses me kindness of crows / detective story starling starling strikes my head spit spike She starlings storytells tandem totem tea tulip tea talk and tea cups Kerygma kerusso crow salamander Krystal cinder: cinderella cedar cedar slipper salamander Stuck in my apartment, I smolder sliplock shoulders NEW sound new RHYTHM I rhythm parappa the rapper I rhythm parappa the rapper Pharoah Sanders free jazz fog machine refrigerator Free jazz refrigerator hum stuck higher static but the hum haddocks helium The hum no hindrance haddocks human Stuck in my apartment Son of Humanity sunrise sunset Sometimes I adventure shark summer and holy spear lances letter laugh track alphabet / she pours out immediately blood and water Adventure ativan aleatoric and I anchor ardwords – I acher other adventure I left the over or I have to do my hair I don’t think I like the word ADVENTURE: I write adventure inelegant and clumsy I write adventure awkward although everything I do and I write repents not its awkward I write stuck a stuck skeleton xylophone bones repetition staccato etcetera Cut to: Charlotte and bob lie a few feet apart on the bed I’m stuck. Does it get easier? No – yes it does. Yeah? But look at you. Thanks. It does. The more you know who you are… You don’t care about things the same way… I just don’t know what I’m supposed to be. I thought maybe I wanted to be a writer… But I hate what I write, and I tried taking pictures, but John’s so good at that, and mine are so mediocre… And every girl goes through a photography phase like horses, you know dumb pictures of your feet… You’ll figure it out. I’m not worried about you. Keep writing. Stuck, but at 38 years old dead end kind of nothing mid-life crisis? Crisis on infinite earths. Infinite crisis. Final crisis. Dark crisis on infinite earths. Stuck crisis all the same crisis cooked corpses boredom Stuck crisis all the same crisis cross and christ I keep writing I keep writing as a stumble over the Word adventure too many texts (SATAN’S SCHOOL FOR GIRLS what's behind all the suicides that plague a fashionable girls’ school?) I pray pulp I pray pulp god god sausage grinder gonorrhea gastritis Pray pulp orange god omentum omelettes (my only god: Optimus Prime) (my only god: Christina Marie Asia Rain) I pray pickled pig’s feet I carry blood and pus pouring out pockets Prayer malpractice insurance my collection of human eyeballs (The magic of 3D plunges into a weird world if diabolical terror! EYES OF HELL the pictures jumps right out at you!)
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Water tamale tomatillo titans telemetry telemetry telepathy homeopathic super soakers / sorcerer water Water uncertain Christianity I static stochastic Christianities I child Christianities calcutta conspiracies Cool concrete calcium calcium concatenations I don’t think concatenations but by crayon combinations, melted wax water, conte KING FELIX Wait water wishing well yam yardbird Yardbird yam Yahweh and sometimes Yes Yahweh Yes Yahweh you blew with your blast the sea covered thin Yahweh curds and whey see sea rhymes shudder seizures sanctuary Seizures shirk shrieks Yahweh's sanctuary decenters / I psalm sanctuary I psalm sanctuary specular species counterpoint spectacle spinning thread I spin thread threat throat psalms I spin spit thread threat throat cobra car wreck and psalms sell Yahweh in my apartment parking lot Parking Lot by Mineral: But I know I’ve got to live my life and roll around on the ground and feel the strife and realize along the way that I’m nothing more than grain of salt in the salt of the earth and everything is grace Parking lot passion play play platypus particle physics felt flesh cross as apocryphon Cross Apocryphon Cross Pseudepigrapha Cross open apocalypse / Khora opposed to Logos Khora opposes Logos not as pole opposite position but a simultaneous simultaneous saddle point rupture entrer fun in rear contradiction copper chymistry contradiction / cross collects contradictions kelvin crawfish fish Christs Christs – no, Cross – codex contradictions, castle pigeons caldera coptic cropsey Remember that you have seen the Son of Humanity / Woe to those who have seen the Son of Humanity Human hold hundred hazard humanity Humanity I know Son I know Son Sun Sum Sissal sistral cycles (one of the soldiers pierced his side with a spear and at once blood and water came out) Sister spears Sodom and Gommorah Human heat haemagglutinatio and human clumps clayface frill muscle fascicles / frill face-to-face my physics french ruling flesh Human herds hiss heat kiss and Christ kisses contradiction Christ kisses Cross cock contradiction noncontradiction Human pornographic and from now on, awake or asleep, remember that you have seen the Son of Humanity and have spoken with him and have listened to him Son of Humanity half-goddess half-circle and Cross calvins conjure city spawn spill zerg-zebra Human hunt magician mathematician antithesis Human and Name / Naming as a primordial language happening Happen human continued fractions Happen human her name (he had visions of scrolls of complex mathematical content unfolding before his eyes / an equation for me has not meaning unless it expresses a thought of god) I feel fractured factorials continued fractions and writing – or I write riptide ripley liminal-river-rundown writing I write stall wall static and I don’t know if I don’t experiment enough or I experiment too much / I don’t experiment enough but the writing disconnects – undecidable deciduous dental surgery – I honestly don’t know what I write (write Cross and write Woman) I can’t wait until online shopping becomes nostalgic The Future becomes Metal Gear Solid 2 meets Robocop Super Soaker and Micromachine advertisements carry addition to nostalgic adult collectors The minute I heard the problem, I knew that the answer was a continued fraction. Which continued fraction I asked myself. Then the answer came to my mind. I don’t know any answer but only mess and contradiction I make mess murder at rue rogue morgue roses and sometimes I fleet flesh fragments fimma fit female bodies, and writing often doesn’t do mathematics I no longer grasp genius or even holy spirit (like PKD, the Spirit of Elijah has left me) If my mind missions kerygma fragments, then I’ll write fragments / logos of hidden sayings gospels I can’t wait until online shopping becomes nostalgic / I ship metabolic slash fiction but the drones hunt me for violating and misusing copyright copyists capybaras I feel rather unintelligent gone genius genius loci long layers lots among thorns my beloved bitter blood / wormwood woman wormwood wing waters Yahweh York algorithm and I generate gneiss genesis poem Yahweh Poem Yahweh genetics and ladder genetics jumprope javein I joust javelin jackolopes open ostrich I jump at the gesture of god I mix-and-match remix Yahweh wayva waves and algorithm sets fire to the face on fire (I had a character named Pete and usually had him encountering all these different adventures on an isolated island. But that night I was running out of things for Pete to do, so I just asked what they would do) I encounter experiment embarcadero I encounter experiment endothelial earthenware earthenware woman campfire I encounter extruded experiment extended / my experiments embarrass Erstwhile experiments embarrassed animal preamble benjamin evaporated esophagus I cough colon Yahweh Experiments expose anchovy algorithms Algorithm anchor against Algorithm against archon chisel chelsea chelsea girls girls gamma gunther gods / I encounter Gia Carangi: I bite birth bowie-mad Encounters urge easel nag hammadi explosions nag hammadi harmolodics seer sheets of sound encounter quiet an adventure quiet and I quake in quicksand chloe christ I encounter christ quite chromatic histrionic hyperchromatic and I erin intense microtonal Erin inserts intense microtonal rotations / cross rum rocks Encounter erodes evades Encounter erodes evades slide sector seven / seven swans sabbatai sevi Encounter erodes evades emem explosions (Nuclear explosion photographs less than the millisecond after detonating. From the Tumbler-Snapper test series in Nevada, 1952, showing fireball and “rope trick” effects. The fireball is about 20 meters in diameter in this image) Explosion intrudes human then almost-human / artificial intelligence YH From now on, awake or asleep, remember that you have seen the Son of Humanity / Woe to those who have seen the Son of Humanity I hasten humanity Hasten humanity hooks humanity hookworm woman Humanity hidden humanity heals horned Son of Humanity hermit psalms Psalms almost heal me Yahweh but Yahweh rents rack minne ripperton vowel tones Psalms almost heal age attic antic ancient of ancients Yahweh but Yahweh hazels human haunt harsh noise wall Harsh noise wall woman Noise wall woman names and she names me as primordial language event / event evacuate logos Human happenings and human bodies performance art My body human happens contact improvisation Cross contemporary dance bodies across bodies human Human history son of humanity my body moves military atilla and his huns Human hedge hammer holy roman empire / entire empire empty ecclesia Remember you’ve seen the Son of Humanity
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Sometimes in secret, I feel the influence of a Holy Spirit In secret, secret summer of secret, holy spirit shakers sharp, shudder rudder shimmers Sometimes secret I dream distal disc discus vertebrae vision Bad writing bad brands cigarettes Toxic waste tobacco toxic avenger sharp angles surf ninjas Bad writing tatters block boats books out I construct the cross with compass-and-straightedge I write poorly the cross / write work work the cross Write work work the cross cain camel bone no polish I polish bone baphomet an inverse image cross imagined cross concave cave Concave cave convex cave Writing performs Working activities performance activates performance ritual holy spirit I write ritual holy ghost gemini goons Write performs prayer phoenix performance art my flesh intermixed concrete plastics Write performance slam poetry hip-hop lyrics flex fluxus / holy happening profane happening ordinary happening I hopscotch chalk happening my body movement recorded documented sounds and I write and talk the texts I record and talk the texts cassette tape writing Sometimes I fear writing because the writing knows more than me Book blank binds bitch sapphic sophic her name gnosis (Helen Moller dance performance. Photo by Arnold Genthe, early theater century) (Georgia O'Keeffe, photographed during a performative process, 1919) I need more art all the time / my body valley burden My body vallied burden bears blur Yahweh black / I am the night – color me black Book black beautiful, blossom dark, and a spear opened his side and immediately there came out blood and water I awake water writing rose ram / ram rose assembly of Israel Water waters many waters water woman fell flood the writing Waters confront kontra-punkte pinion pointillist woman position waters I awake waters waste waves sheets of sound John Coltrane I sonar swim sound depth charge waters I slow search submarine the swim of different sounds / I sound similar to discover His playing dominated, as most 1950s jazz, by smoothly flowing eighth notes… Soon he would start to experiment dramatically with fractures and irregular rhythms; by the end of 1960, he worked with eighth notes again but in a very different way… I only use one unit, over and over again / I abrupt irregular rhythm to rhythm or rhythm again again rhythm differently different rhythm rhythm middle rhythm middle media res red rocket radio flyer I work rhythm fat render rhythm fat render red body middle of a body body rhythm and body book rhythm I obsess body rhythm rose dust racket Dust racket unreal different roses and I realize the rose as rhythm About this time, I was trying for a sweeping sound, says John Coltrane. I started experimenting because I was striving for more individual development; I even tried long rapid lines that Ira Gitler termed “sheets of sound” at that time… Sounds swept circular saw sound sweep Sound sweep sous vide soups sweep Sound sweep electric guitar strum sound sweep Sometimes sound only survives my survival I sinkhole sound stereo surround sound Sound sweeps skeleton sequence sequence similar flying saucers Octopus suckers sludge assorted noise Octagon octopus arrangements I assemble augment something else I assemble ensemble augment something else etta exorcisms The exegesis of Philip K. dick exorcisms exorcisms empty ghosts ghosts gibson flying v alligator amplifiers I amplify ampule rhythm / vial vision vile vision weil vision Ampule rhythm racer car sheets of sound surface desynchronzies sheets of sound sonar waters solar waters waters some sum It’s just sound is always more than just sound Sound seduces Sheets of sound symmetry lam interprets intercourse no imitation universe Sound seduces semitransparent semitruck holy spirit and sound simmers spectacle slap bass samples I experience Christ as collage, a collusion of sonic samples / arkestra artifacts Experiment Christ collage clamshell collection interaction performance Christ collage Kowloon Walled City tenor saxophone sweeps sound surfaces city tenor saxophone sweeps sounds surfaces body of Christ I experiment intricate bodies Christ body boxing blows Christ universal uppercut chariot work chariot Experiment myself idiot ides iron body of Christ Experiment myself idiot ore iron opposite and I experiment intimate body of Jesus Iron eye engine doll dyes I dye my eye emissary orange odd partitions I part my eye elegant divides and sheets of sound shade my sclera sewing machine green green gods machine gun gutter guardrails trenches trim tunnel electronics Sheets of sound sharp angles sharp angles sheets of sound slit curve open I trace curve contact microphone experiments Microphone music milk muscles Miss microphone milk multiple hotline miami sheets sharp sound chimney soot semiotics A sign resembles ACME advertisement A sign summoner silhouette ACME anvil advertisements My apartment advertised army ants My apartment advertises absurd army ants Sheets of sound sharp cheddar Christ / blessed are the cheesemakers Often absurd careful with that axe eugene Often often absurd careful with that axe apple orchard arcadia I’d cut the above paragraph / stanza but I learn to embrace my ugly, ridiculous, and absurd Absurd art dada desert I do not cut but process / Meister Eckhart nibmeister grinds cursive italic Do I write paragraphs or stanzas I write city-stretched stars stars distortion desert I wrote prose sheets of sound crucifix ground beetles Sheets of sound shaman and sorcerer (The earliest known depiction of a Siberian shaman by Nicolaes Witgen, 17th century. Witgen called him a “priest of the devil” and drew clawed feet for the supposed demonic qualities) sheets of sound supersaturate holy spirit and I speak underground sound mushroom sound I speak underground sound mushroom microtonal sounds sleet sheets My sound sweeps extended experiment eclipses experiments My sound sweeps the steep and experiment erbs different entrance (experiment as different entrance /haunted experience) Experiment haunts chains experiment and experiment eddies empty dan cooper’s missing body Sheets of sound shaman and I dream other world underworld spirits appetite my aleatoric apartment / classical composition compartment syndrome I experiment deep bone experience and sheets of sound shelf my marrow supper Sunset supper experiment and I work writing woman I work woman writing experiment isosceles triangle Legend tripping triangles sharp angles ambulate slasher revivals Other order animal ambulance I seashell sheets of sound: I soundspit sandspit sheets of sound before sunset synchros chronos kairos I started experiments because I was striving for more individual development / I still search identity I search identity identification impossible rolling cartwheels wasps in wigs I don’t know HOW experiment WHO HOW OWL and WHO WHO HOW HOWL wolf women Wolf women flesh digits photon slaughterhouse sheets of sound Woman sheets of sound the Book of Hours hospices Hour of the Wolf Purpose of experiment: exploration Exploration new nuit nautilus names rainbow nautilus shell names / I beach bridal chamber I beach bridal chamber colossus channels Television channels snow: mammal snow the sky tuned to a dead channel I tune tenor saxophone channel Christina and I sometimes carry a crucifix Christ her image I experiment telos television sheets of sound cascades different channels: children nickolodeon, turner classic movies, college football / I dance downtown music creep into the vagina of a living whale I creep into the vagina of a living wheel, chariot woman with proboscis Chariot woman mist mosquito murders with malaria but I write mothlight magic I mingle magic midnight film most electronics / diamond curtain wall trio taped sheets of sound I need noise I need noise sheets of sound sonic cell artifacts I need noise sonic and knuckles (this gang thought it was tough… til it found a new type of hell… the bride of satan? WEREWOLVES ON WHEELS) Woman of wheels distortion feedback static hiss hum hour of the wolf / noise witches witch ghost improvisation Music: organized noises Sound noise five noise studies Six steam locomotives whistling trains accelerating and moving over tracks roller coaster trick tracks double down demons I need more noise noise more I need noise more more variations ghost ghost mechanics Christ’s gospel gulliver’s travel My music mess mutilated writing snow on a degraded video image I write white noise a random signal with a flat power spectral density I write the signals equal power intuit in it a fixed bandwidth at any center frequency Contemporary noise artists excite explicit language loft wire-recorders, the 8-track cartridge, and vinyl records I scratch records taryn turntables thomas the twin records the obscure sayings of the living jesus I awake the city in the city I awake the city the meeting of aeroplanes and automobiles Car coliseum or car choir symphony Luigi Russolo writes in 1917’s The Art of Noises: Today music, as it becomes continually more complicated, strives to amalgamate the most dissonant, strange, and harsh sounds. In this way we come closer to noise-sound… (I aspire to write a kind of noise-sound sound-scape scraped-drawing) (I suppose I want to write a kind of bereshit abyss: tehom noise noise tohu wa-bohu beguiling beatless the heart beats) (sheets of sound cicada noise) At the beginning of God’s creating the heavens and the earth, when the earth was an empty void, with darkness over the face of the deep, and God’s death weeping over the fall of the waters, God said “light!” and light came into being… At the beginning – at any beginning, a beginning benjamin barabbas noise barbarians I begin noise I begin noise name noise I begin noise found objects dynamo morse code machine mad magazine sirens (supermarket tabloids as noise) Sometimes I tinker typewriters and I run the ribbon through the airplane motor A phonographic playback of a nightingale recording A siren surges a continuous flowing curve of sound Anyways I experiment I experiment ecstatic exegesis Enthusiasmos hermeneutics hungry hungry hippos Such studs jackhammers and bones Anyways assemblage montage bricolage appropriation / sheets of sound sounds sheet incineration incinerator cinema structuralist film My flesh flickers prison bed sheets sheets of sound word salad Word salad prophetic noise and I prophesy a noise: new noise new beat the book not yet written Incinerator cinema intermedia Intermediate intermedia cellophane insect intercourse Sharp angles somme sinister Sharp angles answer omelettes spider sinister and I angle early afternoon I angle early evening sky apocalypse A beginning and another beginning bereshit corset bodice body I build body bodies in my basement breath bench beginnings I begin agayne myth amen amain I tell you and myth mirth mixes mylar mercury plastic alchemy Sharp angles signal separate noise then Taryn together Taryn together exposed terrace turck or trench steel Trench steel skulls skull tombstone piledriver Taryn trespass transgression algorithmic art (artificial intelligences aggregate my writing into criss-cross applesauce allophones) (I poke artificial intelligences with a big stick stickers in stereo) Sharp angles replaced with aerodynamic simple curves I curve Christ corpus sheets of sound turin shroud (I obsess over Christian relics, regardless of their questionable provenance Relic reveals another rest and Adam Kadmon’s rid residue I do not resist rest and my writing resides relics) (The reliquary and skull of Saint Ivo of Kermartin, 1253-1303, in Treguier, Britanny, France) I sort shrines sharp storms she storms stimmung I curve my voice cat purrs polly pocket Begin I differently again; again amen Again amen appalachians / aren’t you glad you didn’t turn on the light? Begin I difference deconstruction different deserts not distance but derelict derelict desert bereshit derelict desert rose breath bereshit and I break bread abyss I break bread abyss blink the babysitter and the man upstairs Begin I drive different begin again amen: like a rose among thorns, so is my beloved among the maidens I drive again amen differents and I drum shaman mystical rose mystical maiden I shaman share shape shape sharp thorns taryn rose restless Rose restless multiplicity X multiplicity Like a rose rhizome Like a rose rhizome sharp angles Yahweh of Hosts Yahweh of Hosts rhizomes rose roses rhizome Like a rose rhizome rhythms rhythm middle maiden middle rhythm Like a rose among thorns, Taryn my beloved and I use vegetables to create sound effects for the film’s increasingly gory torture sequences This difference the This difference the rose the The rose the sharp harp angles A rose among thorns earth threads tabernacles blue and gold threads spindle start stretto women weaving Women weaves roses Woman weaves wool roses and rose rylos rhizomes ribbons My rose ribbons simple aerodynamic curves Curves Christ crisis crossover Curves Christ carnival cape canaveral cape fear Space shuttle sheets of sound train track slasher snow I snow sounds I snow sounds disintegration Sounds disintegration deconstruction domed doll eyes (God said, a dome in the middle of the water to make water distinct from water!) desert dome doll eye deconstruction Curve climbs connect Cross y Khora Curve combines comet cloisonne Cross y Khora Khora card shark counts curves copies Christ's body Curves color copies Christ’s body xerox xenomorphs xenomorph zebra xenon Not xenon non-xenon but zero Coke zero zebra cocaine curves Curve hip creep nib noise and I curve noise Curve noise name: her name Her name herta hemiola / Elvin Jones’ polyrhythms Polyrhythm pornography pornographic theopoetics I curve porneia pickled punk pictures Curve porneia a peculiar parousia and any second coming copulates horror – horror body Christ human centipede – centipede centigrade gradient curves Curve any cranium kiosk cornucopia Curve concave my cranium Christ clones snow cone cone traffic shel silverstein a light in the attic Curve children of men sex maniac aftemath I curve grammar grammaire gods glen glade magick I miro magick Christ’s miracles curve grammar grammaire gods games and I play magicks most marle meninges math magick Meninges mesh magick molar methamphetamine Metal magick exotic grammar cement and glass / I grammar slut magick most mages I find lost play paw experiment but I feel faith experiment excretes extra echo echo mirror house music I find loss loupe lost play wolfpack exposed experiment, and permafrost melts play magic matc implosive improvisation I improvise experiment play curve poem parabola Parabol parabola poem porno and I play plus pornography and positive pornography Theology pornography poetics I invent inferno I invent invert inferno improvisation interior and interior / I play crater impact loose island lost lifer aft loot I loot midway upon the journey of our life I found myself in a dark forest / tyger tyger burning bright in the forests of the night… Night forests night forests forests nocturnal nude name / Taryn Taryn cassette tape aleatoric Cassette tape aleatoric warm water water warms miscellaneous music clusters forests maple syrup forests maxim maximum horses horses pantyhoses Inverted events convinces event envelope Inverted forest upside down root / rhizome mouth rinse rhizome riot my mouth escapes my mouth My mouth cheesecake my mouth sugar electric chair I choose chair cherubim nachtmusik covenant Night music music forests macromolecules / organic chymistry necromancers Night music necromancer nuance alphabet nuemes and I needle notches nock signatures When timbre, structure, and dynamics of two sounds ito eso enso DIFFERENCE, an avoidance of the traditional concept of melody: they become EVENTS When the timbre, structure and dynamics of two sounds summa serious fluid cesar salad (I write too serious scratched skeleton trading cards) (I write rib music and I smuggle secret soviet union inside a smaller slough – slough, slosh, pit slime, super surfactants – slough slope soviet union) Wait water Wait they become events Warm waters they become events incidents unreported I report Eddie Van Halen’s Eruption I repeat Eddie Van Halen’s Eruption dive bomb red delicious / red delicious peridromia saucia death disorder Water perturbs bipolar disorder dropa stones Soap stone stitches Water event Water Yam Yahweh my art also oslo water surface Art my I art open water whistle and I siren siren serenada serrated serenade tupperware
Apophatic Choose Your Own Adventure Aporia
Cross chicxulub crater cluster cenotes clawhammer crosshangers coat of many colors Chicxulub crater cross searches carbon circe / Zero Zebra Zero Zebra zero hour cosmic horror cross as Happening Cross happening performance art art body below dark blue / numerous cenotes cluster around the through marking the inner crater rim Crater copulates cortex coagulates into Christ’s bukkake body Crater kreqops crater Christ covered cordyceps (Here a wasp parasitized by the fungal cordyceps) (Grasshoppers killed by the entomopathogenic fungus Beauveria bassiana) Fungal flutters unfettered flood flesh Flesh unfetters unfinished the cross aqua seafoam shame Flesh floats fly parasitic fungus and mushrooms mutate my mind marbled fat melted Fat melted meteor foxes snowmelts earth mothra mosaic, and earth fat flows space fat Earth fat flues fungus fragrance Flows space fat father so bright I gotta wear shades Morton Feldman says: I never feel that my music is sparse and minimal, the way fat people never really think they’re fat. I certainly don’t consider myself a minimalist at all… Often, the minimal maximizes The minimal metric maximizes desert distance I mince minimal desert desert daemon minimal monsters stalk monsters minimal insidious sinister celery stalk yahweh Monsters minimal measles moist meat meal missile meat Not minimal meat but maximum meat mire wire mire myrtle / midnight meat train Minimal minestrone soup Minimal marxist minotaur and I minotaur myth I myth marrow minotaur inferno inches inferno and I section her circle in sevenths I section seen circles kairos castlevania, tendon time tectonics A minimal matrix A minimal matter prima materia and I do not construct minimal writing I cannot manifest material writing although I admire minimalism and the minimal inspects anarchic ink incal Minimal mapmaker molly and I map white goddess matrimony I map white goddess matriarch matrimony, a bone monarchy, and her scepter intercepts bone barter bollywood bone barter ballet and I minimal kung fun ballet bullet martial arts Minimal mammal merlot monarch butterflies Monarch butterflies continually migrate midnights / lavender haze hell I don’t consider myself a minimalist because I don’t minimalist but maquette matte maximalist collage monochrome paintings I write the maximalist black paintings pigeon theopoetics, and Yahweh's barbaric yawp lamps between simultaneous simultaneous between below underground balance I write the maximalist black painting blank page and all the rage and the black burns bone canvas I model maximum rock and roll, a maximum microtonal hardcore punk pornography Tonality diamond drives phre Taryn Tones and maximalism stacks sine waves / hell hip-hop harmonics I should write a choose your own adventure book, and learn to write in second person point-of-view narrative (Yeah, YOU, you asshole!) I write a choose your own adventure book and I mimic R.L. Stine’s (or whoever supposedly ghost wrote it) version of Choose Your Own Adventures, Goosebumps whatever (I bet it’s called Choose Your Own Goosebumps – Oh it’s called Give Yourself Goosebumps – a better title, I guess) I write a choose your own adventure about writing a Book and by writing I choose I choose the writing IT IS WRITTEN and I write the Labyrinth Trickster God Taryn Garden of Forking Paths I write labyrinth labradorite lattices Trickster God Taryn on-cut transorbital frontal lobotomies, my brain blushes burning bush garden of forking paths Paths fork animated android flesh and path forks dark forest forest flesh grenade margaritas at the mall Paths path fork felon burn flying loths ladderback chairs Paths part ein sof yam suf shaker furniture flesh and my unadorned body forks My psyche frigid phantoms haunted horse flux Paths fork haunted house haunted hospital Paths fork wanderer above the fog haunted house hammock ghosts hocket notre dame school polyphony melodies fork flounder voices Paths fork frequent frequency modulation Mechanized spiders slice open my closed eyelids light lampoons my irises My blue black iris roped iridium anomaly aurora Anomaly amorous aurora aimless arrow Paths converge diverge plants perilous chapel cadaver animal tunnels turtles Paths play plum patterns woman beware her wings Few forests few forests frozen frigate few forests few forests flack fiddle flesh / the devil went down to georgia gun gully Paths gully glades few forests dark I venture dark vultures gather palm tree garden I venture dark door deepens dark deepens door dusk dragonflies flay paths wall wheel flesh Paths pink beam beach butter few forests flooded by beach Paths beach babies Paths beach abominations my babies and I breach break the fire / few forests fire I venture deer dark forest flash grenade blinds then finds the fork benjamin / benjamin blends fork fumble choose your own adventure and Legend of Zelda: Link To The Past (the original Legend of Zelda turned 35 I feel very old) Garden of Forking Paths oros autor automotion anvil automobiles, and I often drive automobiles equipped with a train horns runs over Wile E. Coyote Garden of Forking Paths orders counting of the omer outdoors outbreak virulent venture fewer forests I find a garden los osos and black bears bat beehives honey monochrome paintings Monochrome monocles mermaid machines isolating a singular eye / circulating cyclops elephant skulls Los Osos orients east objects an orchestra overture I arrange Benedictus for orchestra and choir cuts wedding cake witch’s cackle Witch’s crackle silver bells and cock shells volume swells synchronizes dark / I like the dark and know the dark Garden of Forking Paths plays pink pythons macerating molar magenta oros oblivion oblivious oscillates oblivion Oblivion overlays overlaps oblivion obscure alchemy I store alchemy in attics I store alchemy in attic alembic Attic alembic auto alcheringa Attic alembic auto aleatoric alcheringa, the very drone dream the very dream daughter Garden gennifer garden guauntlet gods Garden gennifer jello garden granite gauntlet gods grounds coffee grounds cooked kabbalist coffee Gem garden generous genesis all gender and god Gem-inspired grin grinning ghost garden gamboles gangrene genesis and I remake gods my own genders sexualities topos pornos pile-up Garden of Forking Paths picks poem bones busby berkeley dreams and paths fork pork automatons interactive fiction Fiction forks fling flesh flintstone vitamins Fiction doesn't fake but forks my flesh phantoms farce / holy spirit satire Holy spirit socrate Erik Satie Interactive fiction fellates flesh further fuck fasteners Few forest fuck finishings (tired of being fat and ugly? Just be ugly!! BOXWERK 12 509 6543) Fur fiction Fur fir fiction few forests Forests fays fly me fiction and I write fiction fisting fiction fit metafiction focal lens fifths Frozen fridge fiction Fridge fiction friction flesh flambe Sometimes I fake the fiction with an orange flame I apply an orange flame and then a blue flame Then a blue flame fear street stuck stratofortress Garden of Forking Paths plays fat fog fiction and I create of maze of mazes, of a sinuous overgrowing maze which would take in both present past future, and would somehow involve the stars A maze of mazes more magazines mealworm medicine A maze of mazes wore experiment experience and I fail fiction forced fox fan faun my failure fentanyl (The way Merce structures his dances with the continuity and the discontinuity, simultaneous things going on) Not a sterile or stagnant structure but a spider structure holy spirit holy ghost rhizome I plant play the paths many rhizomes mayfly fictions microfiction miniskirts Maze of mazes barleys minotaur Maze of mazes barleys minotaur minotaur matchstick matchcut matchlock malchut and Yahweh abandons me mow materiality Yahweh abandons my materiality maze of mazes lavender larissa low labyrinths Maze mothers labyrinth my material as serpent molt and sometimes I molt ingenue insects Indeterminate insects: insect improvisation grasshopper jazz beetle bebop intersections snow winter music I noticed it has become melodic I noticed it had become melodic archaic, aleatoric arachnid araidne acid bath and I choose my own adventure ACME dynamite She names me nitroglycerin I name TNT Taryn Taryn Titanium Triceratops Taryn Titanium Tonka Truck She names me nitroglycerin night gods and I street gods goblin dark Night nuisance nameless noise nexts random gods aleatoric angels Monday Night Nitro wrestles narcotics and anabolic steroids my muscles mime heavy metal musics Adventure aleatoric acts my motion markov chains Adventure anteaters armadillos aardvarks absinthe / my adventure drinks wormwood woman This city, this Woman This city, this Woman faults and fractures Adventures at San Andreas fault / jet fuel earthquakes City mission monastery grotto god monsters / marian devotion marriage I do not marry but I marry Yahweh her moon a harsh mistress Mistress Moon Woman weierstrass function and I choose my own adventure Adonis Adonai and my Lord layers strange loops intersecting tangled hierarchies (the number of endings varied from as many as 44 in the early titles and as few as 7 in the later adventures) My adventure steeples sister city (in a single vast stroke – Sorer! My Sister. Oh YHWH – my sister. I meant to write Savior…) My sister Krystal Christina Asia, all aleph cardinal women, and I write my City Sister I write my City Savior is City Sister: Her Sorcerer These the secret sayings my sister savior spoke and my twin taryn teachers tor ten thomas / my thomas her thomas I discolor desert I discover desert different dig digital drive / twin turntables I scratch scan a hip-hop skit desert discourse and desert discovery The Living Jesus probably not the resurrected Jesus as commonly understood, but rather Jesus who lives through his sayings I say secret signs and secret symbols A cave bear’s pawprints patterns particular my body She buries my body sisters bear cult Christina capsaicin bear cult comma catastrophe aqua-aware care bear cave cults Varies visions Vision Theme and Variations Visions variations day massacre massage as message I vamp vision I vamp vision modal model sacred song I vine vision modest mouse little motel and death bulldozes dance doo-wop vision Doorway Vision my sister woman vaporwave varies varices I dip my intestines indigo ink, her hypermetamoprhosis / I improvise insect inkjet jewels jeweled beetle bebop No ending ending decimates doorway deconstruction No ending ending deconstruction dents din doorway open and deconstruction passios transgression Deconstruction passios trespassing possibility horizons and my horizons hint horror horoscope hypermetamorphosis Passion of the pas, pas of passion Passion play play passion khora and cross No end vision khora and cross I never end I defy death O YHWH where is thy sting I end not name but her name nude nuptials, and I defy death Yahweh locust elohim / Elephant Elijah Exegesis Yahweh Locust Elijah Eloah imparts my material mercury body a double portion mangle, and I improvise insect carnivore cave vision Vision body vision bodies Vision carnivore cave body balloons spin spindle speculum Speculum sisters moonshine moonlight momentary moths momentary moth mirrors momentary mirrored moths silver scare crow light Silver scarecrow lights Sodom and Gomorrah I pray passion for the Cross: I play passion for the Cross Cross carolines Sodom and Gomorrah cool cities summon Christ’s cosmic cunt Cross canopies copenhagen chewing tobacco taryn and her entrails tome haunted home sodom and gomorrah The cross multimedia / God Gesamtkunstwerk Brainchild of song scribe-comic Bob (‘Washington Square’) Goldsteinn, the “Lightworks” is the latest multimedia music-cum-vignettes to debut as discotheque fare The Cross multiple multimedia / God grasshopper gestamtkunstwerk Vaudeville vision vision ventriloquist quantum motor mechanics man o’war widow woman Man o’ war wisdom woman wears vision My vision language compass cross My vision language corridor cross crysis / sister secret saying I say cellophane sonorous sex sound Whirling gyrations grip my eyeballs my eyes bull black blanket fire / eyeballs as my eyes flash cast out torches Taryn torches tip-toe totem wolves and bears Listen language locust leaf loot language / golden age of piracy I pirate passion the cross piranha and I spear tooth Yahweh fish fool a dark-haired girl A dark-haired siren appears fishers of men and she the son of man entangles Philip K. Dick in her net Listen locust language lighter light and light lawns leaf blue loops lachensis I throw spear to tooth Yahweh Tyrannosaurus rex is for kids silly rabbit I throw spear spaghetti shiitake mushrooms and the mushroom speaks Mushroom speaks night train einstein on the beach Mushroom speaks night train night earth water langauge and my language nettles nest names sting holy spirit Mushroom speaks she seer shaman and I plant play passion dark row rhizome underground Mushroom passion play speaks seer America a prophecy Mushroom passion play plays poem prophecy / wah pedal woman whammy bar woman Mushroom her hymns hum electric elea alea Elea alea aleph / allen ken allen wrench other alea Wreath other alea Wreath wraith other alea my alphabet approaches My alphabet two riders were approaching the wind began to howl Cross howls owl Cross howls owl lilith Owl mount cross lilith lilies of the valley ben-hinnom her hymns hym hiss trap door / escape hatch back hatches hag Owl elijah Owl ontic elijah owl optic elijah eyes as origins Original eye and many-replaced eye another object abject I reject my eye gehenna My idle eye idol / eyedol a demonic bicephalous cyclops and undead ogre formerly human Sharp angels replaced with simple aerodynamic curves Exotic words stones replaced cement and slugs Sharp angles shipwrecks Sharp angles anglerfish the female absorbs my body completely Sharp angles shape shapeshifter Sharp angles shape sharkskin skinwalker and I walk women I walk woman women whale walrus wolverine I walk wolf woman werewolf women and her fut brushes black ire burned black paintings
I Model Paint Myth Myth Missal Paint
I like to model as much as I like to print I model paint myth myth missal paint Sometimes I visit the mission and I model it then paint pagan Pint pagan pantheism point pantheism hymn of the pearl I paint mission passenger pigeon models Model mapmaker prozac memory murmur myth I often make a copy in clay of an anatomical firebug figure / anatomy animated anarchy anatomy arches animism architecture Construct clay crosses Cross copy cross copies Cross copies I add colour until it bears a resemblance Cross adds colour I want to make an image Cross crafts clay copy nature a natural image / if one knows how to copy one knows how to do I copy Morton Feldman I copy copies as Morton Feldman I copy copies traces Morton Feldman fields composition / Bon Iver Holyfields Fields composition traces persian rugs regular irregular patterns freight train fauvist flesh salvation patterns braindead benjamin I feel through colour the cross I feel through cloud color the cross Clouds connect contact kontakte krystal, a cannon color canon color / from the crayon to the stars Surreal stars stack interstitial fauvist fluid Fluid flavor flak of physics I copy the physics I copy ragdoll physics car bodies thrown phenomenology I appear to press and lack Sonny Rollin’s compactness of impact Impact event indigo ink aisles Impact event eden inlet engel irregular inks I collage colors canvas cadaver daggers I continually attempt to understand and enjoy the music of Sonny Rollins and often fail at the task I listen anyways I listen lipids lidocaine corn fat frothy ethanol Compact kilograms Compact massive merry-go-round I play press sword pommel improvisation: I improvise anarchic carpet card kick sheets of sound Sheets of sound share single cellular singular cell tenor saxophone approximation tenor saxophone taylor series sometimes I recall my semesters of calculus when I desired to study mathematics but I studied myth instead I often miss mathematics because it reminds me of improvising and creating from a constrained set of parameters (axioms and theorems analogous to chord changes and melodic / scalar motifs) Tenor saxophone taylor series expansion of a function play presses an infinite sum of terms expressed in terms of the function’s derivative at a single point, and derivatives sum Sonoran Desert Derivatives sum distance indistinct dumah deserts and I want to die desert I want to die desert improbable impossible prehistoric panthers Underwater panther gods god girls Underwater panthers push press process play passing chords and I play big cat chords alice arpeggiations / the head and paws of a giant cat but covered in scales with dagger-like spikes running along its back and tail Desert dagger dialysis Desert dagger dinosaur Sonny Rollins and John Coltrane Tenor Madness I pause water underwater waterfall panthers plummet over cliff I pause water water wobbles wall wake panthers panthers different pitches / play it fucking loud I play loud uncompact underground underwater extreme noise A hard movement of the words allow equal solidity to the spaces between / otherwise: otherwise otherwise Otherwise such seemingly fragmented structure fall to the bottom No space No space know space cross and khora I continue to cleave-climb-Krystal-Cross no space but cross cross splinter spine pine pus, cells pouring pus autogenes autolysis I only weatherstrip cross only wounds woman passion Yahweh, pus out your hard pleasure and touch his bones and his flesh… Yahweh as Adversary puts out his hand, touches my bones, and my flesh fuses to flashlight fragments p-funk / a forge horde horse hobble skirt Passion parallels Passion Passion parallels Passion: my Passion Emily Dickinson observes a python plays width with my brain cross as constrictor constraint Previous passion plays Present Passion and my skull mixes snake grass with funeral brain different feet different meters / I rejoice with gladness and joy because I find a grave, ground ghost sheol I seek sheol Passion parallels, Passion plural Plural phonics pneumonia Plural plunderphonics further physics, and I ether play or not play: I play passion passions pleroma Cross Khora Pleroma I christina crisis christ crucified and howbeit one of the soldiers with a spear pierced his side, and straightway there came out blood and water I frequently write water I frequently write the water winter music a long wire instrument and this wire buzzes just intonation crucifixion Water window white on white then blood stained glass wilderings cross cross cable cars Water window winter music mops malleable aleatoric chance cross or chance at the cross Water web crucifixion Water web woman crucifixion, a wine cellar wiretap, and I listen tenor saxophone I listen tenor saxophone crucifixion or Book of Job out of joint / why this light given to a Son of Man whose way hides, and whom Got hath hedge in? Hedge wedge whir whip woman / she shares sheaves crucifixion She shaves threshing floor threshold threshold Taryn turtledove tabernacle Straightway there came out blood and water, and water woodcuts cross web watt erosion I web cross woven wound waters and my blood births babel bruises I wed cross woman ways wake and I dream the wake Wake when cross crossroads crosscurrents crosstown traffic Wake what worship cross her when and why windows crosshairs I lathe lost no labyrinth I linger lost language languishes I write loose lost water nowhere and lost loots my letters written torah I listen lost city salt sodom and gomorrah a growler god homosexual holy hartia homosexual agayne hoarded hell himalayan pink salt Salt savors sodom the Hebrew gimel absorbed by ayin but still pronounced as a voice uvular frictive / flesh frictive friction my foreign fellowship with the cross Cross coma lost nothing looped library
Write Ugly
These the hidden sayings that the Living Jesus spoke and Judas Tomas the Twin recorded Sayings gospel cinder sorcerer I say sanctuary sorcerer I say sorcerer sanctuary sketches / sketch sensual syntax Stream syntax sayings sayings holy spirit (Sometimes I want to demolish my syntax altogether I want to destroy my sense into nonsense I feel nonsense I ear no syntax and nonsyntax John Cage critiques Finnegans Wake: despite all its semantic inventiveness, it preserved syntax John Cage thus took chance operations to Finnegans Wake also deconstructing its syntax I fear I attach myself too much to semantics and cohesion and I will be unable to reinvent or repeat the syntax rhizomatically) (I feel too attached to the outcome and not enough to the progress / process) There the hidden sayings Nothing accomplished by writing a piece of music Nothing accomplished by hearing a piece of music Nothing accomplished by playing a piece of music / spontaneous unpredictable Spontaneous unpredictable different languages Summer silence / he considered his work on transfinite numbers to have been directly communicated to him by God Unsatisfied with this writing – what to do how to write no stretched strophe alphabet but incomplete syntax Attack syntax Attack anthrax syntax Attack anthrax syntax synthetic Look Listen Labyrinth: the these hidden sayings vision itself verbs listen later latter listen later ladder latter rain / pentecostal forest fire pentecost pike arson / ada ardor hidden sayings Look bereshit brings sheaves hidden sayings, the these sayings birth bereshit, always beginning middle, motioning middle my motion middle body I feel my body wheel of fortune I fan my body tarot wheel of fortune TARO ROTA TORA I fan strange fire my body torso tarot wheel of fortune and her wheel in the middle of a wheel bereshit WOMAN hidden sayings Hidden sayings noise noise bereshit bereshit I breath breach I breath beach break breath breach break beach Beach blends bends blues beach (My brain has been mush, says Asia. I just come home and check out… Well actually I have been cuddling on the couch watching Bluey with Adelaide. She sits on my lap with a big soft blanket and drinks apple juice. That’s sweet – what’s Bluey? Bluey is a cute show. I’m so happy I found free episodes on YouTube. Otherwise I would need Disney Plus) My brain bluey bereshit boat beaches brain bluey bereshit row row row your boat blanket beaches beaches burst hidden sayings beaches burst blues beaches brew hidden sayings Jesus says present tense percussion Vibraphone vocoder vision present tense Taryn Open scores that require the performer to interpret them I’ll play it and tell you what it is later Play performs platform Play partakes participates Play performs paranoid android androit water droplets dropkick woman I’ll play and I play trivial pursuit pursue nylon pantyhouse long leg poetics / after all, that's what we did – came in and cooked Play simultaneous stream-of-consciousness geological strata B52 stratofortress He plays the other way sometimes He plays the other way sometimes and I play other interior Other text innards heterodox heterodox hex happenings happen house horror I play haunted I play haunted other text intertextual gods Dave Gibbon illustrates gods differently Jack Kirby illustrates new gods gasoline gumball gasoline alley I play other poison possum platypus pharmakon / He plays around under nad over I play underwear women modes mathematics I play around ground garden of eden around ground palm tree garden palm tree garden plays pawn shop porno I enter emma eden meditations John Coltrane Meditations and First Meditations I enter emma eden any meditations meditations meow murmur mammon eden Mammon eden mermaids mothway / barn owl hooligans I need more poetry I need poetry similar to Julius Eastman’s organic music / slow changes chance open change I meditate eden apotecary meditate eden apothecary ideal chemistry chymistry alchemy abstract I abstract eden fun a few jars I meditate eden beware winter music beware winter music woman but I worship Worship wear naked and worship Wilbur Ware playing over and under the chord changes John Coltrane sometimes loses his place I lose my place play eden Eden edge excite bike berry burnings Notation in space maybe freely interpreted as to time I time spurious space space invaders I time species space space counterpoint space khora and cross Khora and cross compact time time crush knot kinks Notation in space speeds spaced flesh: flag flesh frag flesh fresh free Free space plays haunted house hostage monopoly free parking No notation but space and space spars pseudorandom, a candle these puddles after out slices lilacs eyelashes Experiment eden Experiment eden entrance eviction Experiment eden erratic ensembles ugly Yahweh cherubim Ugly genesis hemoptysis and I other eden under laying around abyss arenas Experiment eden incomplete Experiment eden incomplete energon cube hectic hexus hexes I play around abyss asylum semi-silent Winter music Christianity crutches me Christianities crutch me orange crush Crutch orange crush christianity recycles corrugated cardboard Cardboard carbohydrates benjamin boreholes Cornhole christianity corn on the cob Popcorn Christianity microwave mullets Wordplay Woman Wordplay Woman wild warp revisionist western Wordplay woman somewhere beware aware wall wasps Wail wolverine wabash cannonball woman (I’m writing ugly writing and I’m not sure how I think about that. If it makes you feel any better most of my writing today was just me complaining, says Asia Rain. I have been thinking about syntax, I say. I wrote that I’m too attached too semantics and sense, and not enough with progress and process… Syntax needs to be deconstructed in my work, but I’m also afraid of it being nonsense and incomprehension. I think though I have to make the leap to faith and just do it. Just fuck it up. Make it ugly. Sort it out later. Trust the mess. Yeah just play around with it, says Asia Rain. It’s going to feel awkward and dumb but even if you get one good line out of it, it’s worth it, says Asia.) Of course I leave in my awkward and dumb, partly out of laziness and lack of exciting, partly for sentimental attachment to even my ugly writing, and partly to document my ugly and messy creative process Eden idiot eden imbecile imbecile implodes imbecile implodes impossible iron eye iron eye igor igloo / iron ice Iron ice femur frankenstein Femur female frankenstein p-funk myth matriarch eden Femur eden bone soup saline sea supper Saline sea sin and sea washes severed feet bay of blood and twitch of the death nerve I copy its kills for my low-budget slasher movie Eden St. James Infirmary I went down I went down to St. James Infirmary saw my baby there she was stretched out on a long white table so cold so sweet so fair Eden bob Dylan’s Blind Willie McTell and I can tell you one thing nobody can sing the blues like Blind Willie McTell Eden aleatoric Eden aleatoric AMM sometimes I click shine certain stones secret sayings I secretly say eden impossible infinite even primes I secretly say eden seven hymns horror episcopal hymnal / down with the masterpieces, up with the art Eden aleatoric essels espionage and I spy play as if playing played the gift I listen to Microphones in 2020 by The Microphones constantly: I keep on not dying, the sun keeps rising, and Phil Elverum writes not-quite-stream-of-consciousness lyrics that evoke my ow nostalgia reflection contemplation archive counterpoint copperplate eden Phil writes his archive more effectively and for most efficiently than my archive: spend all day and night digging in distorted bass, spliced tape singing lines like: there is no end and I won’t look for you in my room about my friends I don’t sing but ink Yahweh often often archive ARCHIVE EDEN holographic universe and I feel sure PKD mentioned something like the gnosis-as-information store studies score scorpions scorpion godhead / I live in the surface on an unimaginable large black hole There's no end no end eden eden prison Eden interplays intersexual androgynous Eden androgynous Christ I compose novel epistles I compose epistles catholic machine gun kick underground comix I compose messes elephant chords Elephant gun chrome bodies chrome dream dry orgasms Indeterminacy implies art as process: no beginning no middle no end each new performance each new circumstance created a continually variable process / indeterminate Yahweh indeterminate eden elohim immobile sion sirens siren conspiracy theories Christina created various conspiracy theories a process piccolo parousia cheese [section cut out of embarrassment] Alea eden eden alea elemen / aluminum pleroma thumb pick plenum punctum donut eden donut definition torus taryn torus taurus taryn torus turtle minor alea alternates ariadne eden I explicit eden perpetual energy eden and eden repeats repetitive rhizome eden repeats rhizome fugazi’s repeater I meditate on eden and I contemplate eden order disorder organic chaos-invault and vault vermins vision Vault vellums vision and vault violets violence vision Immediately eden echoes Immediately eden echoes energon cube emo revival and I listen to American Football I listen all three of their self-titled LPs and I thrust gas pump nozzle middle-aged I canteen contra collection middle-aged but middle-aged opens alligator appetite argon comic carbon monoxide (thirty-eight, older than I ever thought I’d live I survive all my suicide attempts because Yahweh fire hose foams fucking terrified to confront me) Arbitrary alea alicia allows doorway arrow and thus the alea compiles heaven and earth in all their array / Yahweh God plants a garden in eden, in east, and Yahweh puts the Adam eh fashions and eden urges emerges edom Eden urges emerges Edom and Jacob Frank evols Christianity / bathroom bathtub baptism My abrasions brush bathtub barbecue bacon fat fire baptism and eden / edom baptizes blood Christianity conflict minerals blood diamond tenor tonality Eden clarissa edom erupts interrupts interacts immanent eden immediately eden Crooked Christianity Christianity nib creep creep Christianity horn crooks coke keystone and Krystal cabs cool campfire Christianity cudgel chisel cauldron collect call Christianity I cling I cleave cling cross cross and khora cross I make a covenant with you, confession, circumcision, circumfession Christianity alea eden alliance and alliance cuts counterclockwise weening woman Woman at worship weeping woman Christianity cuts clamshell concupiscence (the first time I heard the word concupiscence: Wallace Stevens Emperor of Ice Cream) I cling I cleave cling cross call the roller of big cigars and I hijinx kitchen cups concupiscent curds / corpses catholic cardinals corpses catholic cardinals children’s street songs I study under the Cross Henri Matisse studies with painter Gustave Moreau Moreau morels rose cross prophesies: You will simplify painting… But you won’t simplify nature to that extent, to reduce it to that… If you did, painting would no longer exist… Don't listen to me, what you are doing is work important than I am telling you… I am a mere teacher… I understand nothing I simplify I understand nothing I simplify syriac serous isolated singularity syringe essential singularity slapstick painting slapstick painting color of blood and calvinist flesh
Vision and Mysticism 