Desert deeper deep Desert darker dark Desert deeper dark Desert darker deep Desert dark sea sailwards dialectic dialectical demons demon abstract concrete Christ crushed car compacted Cross cross cask cross desert Desert divine dark deep cross Moon mystic moon mystery her moon initiates a blast furnace hot passion blonde blue dew / blue dew desert (What connects something to another thing What connects something else to everything else What connects everything else to everything else) (The Book) (Book The Book) Library of Babel / Book of Sand Library of Babel / Book of Sand / Zahir Zohar brilliance binds benjamin brilliance With a large enough Book (and a large enough Library), everything else connects to everything else and everything else leads to everything else A physical hypertext manifested as human bodies embedded in Book (books x books) I go to the desert to writer deeper Book and darker Book / Book bloodies bandit Book of Sand CG Jung in Liber Novis writes: Who are you my Child? My dreams have represented you as a child and as a maiden, and I found you again only through the soul of the woman With a large enough Book (and a large enough Library) everything eventually connects to everything and everything eventually leads to everything (Jacob Frank prophesies of the Maiden) Jacob Frank prophesies of the Maiden: And that is exactly what I told you at first, that the True Maiden is in great distress, and hides and preserves herself at the time when the other takes power… Nevertheless she shows herself sometimes in the shape of a dot, so that she might not be recognized in her form as she really is. That maid servant knows well that when the other one will take over the rule, then she will fall. When that one is filled, then the other is emptied and God set one up against the other…) KING FELIX Kenosis Kenotic Khora coral Khora King Krystal Desert crisis call stretch sting scorpion skin bring on the dancing girls Crisis copper conflict conflict core kenosis Kenosis the cave Kenosis the cavern (Christina crowned spheres Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil teams my body her tusks / Maiden dead mall moon malchut) (What connects something to another the thing What connects something else to everything else What connects everything else to everything else) (The Maiden) (The Woman and the Maiden) (KRYSXTRYN and Asia Rain) (Asia Rain) Conversations With Asia Rain 4/24/2020 4:54 AM I ended up changing my mind, says Asia, and that was because I had little doubts for awhile that I had suppressed, and then when I saw how certain dogmas were hurting people and myself, I started to change. I think this is where the sorties can come into play. Stories help people empathize, but they also aren’t threatening to people. They don’t put their guard up. They just listen. It won’t be instantaneous but it can plant seeds… I’m still mad about my family, but I know my own journey, so I KNOW that people can in fact change. Not that they always, but they can and I think kindness and empathy are the best tools and skills that we have at our disposal. No amount of apologetics could have convinced me that homophobia wasn’t hurtful after I held my little sibling as they cried because my family didn’t accept them, says Asia Rain. I story tell and myth make Asia Rain connects my stories and myths into something coherent and cohesive Asia Rain ransacks my writing and makes the desert and sea converge (I converge at Cross Christ Christina) Cross conversation copula my cup clicks chrism / cricket clicks convergent city crucifixions (everything that rises must converge) I am a victim of your carnivorous lunar activities / I carnivore vertigo vision I swallow vision horror body basket batches Body batch snatched baker’s dozen desert saturated sud sand sap bodies body stuck stitches moon amputations (splatstick staple guns gonzo gore nail gun gonzo pornography paintball bronze sea bullseye feral hog hoax) Werewolves in a girl’s dormitory Dormant desert dormitory werewolf woman Woman hour of the wolf Wolf warp write worm wrap restless desert Wolf radial motorcycles (potato pornography and other root vegetables) Desert werewolves on wheels Book requires an absurd Book acquired absurd absurd horror horoscope hour of the wolf Desert drift werewolves on wheels wobbly goblin girls Desert sea desert dream Desert sea desert dream rhizome willow tree tree taryn spheres knowledge of good and evil I falter fail UGLY writing I continue to write my UGLY I continue to prophesy my UGLY Yahweh yardbird bebop gods I make jazz myth swung-rhythm monitor lizards I do not stagnate but sail ugly clipper claptrap heretic hustle I claim this UGLY as my own This UGLY belongs benjamin and I accept ugly disaster desert prostitute parousia Prostitute parousia parsnips (potato pornography and other vulgar root vegetables) Werewolves in a girl’s dormitory Dormant desert dormitory werewolf women David S. Ware woman hour of the wolf witch hourglass Witch hourglass bewitched benjamin My throat traces her threshold / rhizome heretics Heretic rhizomes heterotopia Taryn topaz tabletop roleplaying Roleplay ugly rhizome spinning tire rims / hubcap capricorn helios Sunspot speculum snapshots upskirts (consensual upskirts) Most motorcycles run on petrol… This one runs on blood! I bought a VAMPIRE MOTORCYCLE Motorcycle sundial oil drop desert I shape Book of Sand soul fire blur black bark hourglass and hourglass projects horror through the glass darkly Dark dress diaphanous walrus tusks truss trucks shooting stars Star strikes invisible extinction event uneven central nervous system Sympathetic nervous system hieroglyphics Parasympathetic nervous system handprint petroglyphs God peacock petroglyphs neural glia glass glint abominations glass glint newspaper abominations Tupperware warg gia carangi
Month: October 2023
Metal Molten Sea Sabbatai Sevi
Content Warning: mentions of suicide and suicidal ideation Five and Sevens: seven sermons to the dead I reiterate the sermon in irregular groupings I sign the sermons my signature a surreptitious signature (her hourglass) Repeat sermons serrated sevens and I prophesy dead to dead I prophesy dead Christina god to dead christians and their church surrenders certain death / desert disintegration tummy tuck Christian tunnels A straight-up rhythm-and-blues holler starts his fourth chorus Choruses chorea chaos / I shake serpent splinters Choruses kassandra khora, an eclipse Ender ink gnosticism gnostic no syntax Gnostic no syntax bone tumor Taryn non-ossifying fibroma of tibia Seven sermons sometimes no symptoms Conversations With Asia Rain 4/24/2020 4:32 AM I never experience god as a woman, and that’s probably one of my issues, says Asia. After dealing with my sister and brother-in-law with their casual misogyny and just the church in general, I ended up feeling like I didn’t have much to offer because I was a woman. My twin told me, I always knew you would struggle with submitting to a husband. My aunt told me that men were the leaders because Eve was easily fooled so all women are just naturally gullible and naive and needed men to help them, says Asia. When Eve saw her male partner on the ground, she felt sorry for him and said, Adam, live! Get up from the ground! At once her word became an accomplished deed. When Adam got up, at once he opened his eyes and saw her and said: You will be called the mother of the living because you have given me life. Asia Eva Other Asia Eva Other entre entrails Entre entrails other oxen Other oxen molten sea brazen sea cast metal sea her sea sword word hourglass Sea sways whey bath benjamin barley and I sway wheat word wheat wyrd wheat woman She makes the molten sea, ten cubits from one brim to the other: it was round all all above, and her height was fie cubits: and a line thirty cubits did compass it round about. It stood upon twelve oxen, three looking toward the north, and three looking toward the west, and three looking toward the south, and three looking toward the east: and the sea was set upon them, and all their hinder parts were inward… Bronze barley bitches brew Brass barley bitches brew broth boil I boil my body blood steam starch bloom Algae bloom benjamin one of Picasso’s weeping women I weep sleet blue slate oxen women My weeping reveals wheel the ox charting chariot silver moon fire Moon mars micronesia Moon mars candy micronesia nail polish remover Moon maximumrocknroll molts mara, weep bitter weep bitter benjamin Moon miasma moloch mass psychogenic illness My psychosis does not cease but settles summer suicides / joy buzzer jumpers Lobster claw lunacy Lobster phone freak out Freak out frenzy flat forceps (The Prophet has become a fool, the inspired seer a madmad) Psychosis folds five into me, a true mixture of Sabbatai Sevi illuminations and falls / I fall Eli Eli Lema Sabachthani (I am numbered with those who go down to the abyss; I have become like a man beyond help, abandoned among the dead, like the slain lying in the grave whom you hold in mind no more, who are cut off from your care…) Yahweh abandons absolutely Yahweh abandons absolute abyss / an angel who watches with keys Abaddon and Apollyon Keys cast crash khora Khora cast metal molten sea Moon metal mercury lurks lunacy benjamin moon lunatic mad hatter holy heretic (In his manic states, Sabbatai often did strange and even forbidden things, which became both a hallmark of the man and the movement) Moon impossibly mad murk mad Only mad oxen Impossibly more mad than pseudomessianic Sabbatai Sevi and I muddy ruddy rood blood red random other suicides (On the night of December 5, 1907, just before that night’s performance of The Truth, Bloodgood disrobed in her Baltimore hotel room and then shot herself in the mouth) Nearby lay a copy of a book entitled How to Shoot Straight and a 38-Caliber revolver and I dream the revolver as river bad flat buried basking shark Its decay transposes my skull onto the loch ness monster's body and my flippers flood fire Revolver Cain rises up a flattened hourglass sand flowing upwards weeping woman (Asia Rain weeps my future suicide) (Ravens slurp my body ravine Ravens slurp my body ravine flyer II woman water tank) (You have plunged me into the lowest abyss, into the darkest regions of the depths Your wrath bears heavily on me, you have brought on me all your waves) (I feel like a preacher waving a gun around Shake it shake it baby shake it shake now) I prophesy suicide / I want to die Disk desert desk desk dark Dark dual desert zero distance dark I don zero I drink zero twelve-tone row rhizome Desert rhizome zero open odd numbers byzantium Baroque blood a blast furnace hot passion blonde Blonde beetle without her breath Secobarbitol blonde scarab holy spirit spirits I spring shark cage closed coffin (They can orally consume 100 ml of concentrated syrup containing either 15 grams of Pentobarbitol or 15 grams of Secobarbitol, or they can choose to have 2 grams of Thiopental or 1 gram of propofol administered intravenously by a doctor, followed by a muscle relaxant) I try for a sweeping sound I think in groups of notes, not one note at a time Sweeping sound stretch armstrong sometimes suicide I slack sound sweep suicide desert rest surrender Desert rest the rest of desert desert decay cascade
Corpse Corpus Christi Carol Corpse, Part 2
Content Warning: extended discussion of suicide and suicidal ideation New noxious gnosis New near noise Tree Knowledge of Good and Evil Tree Taryn Luciferian Towers letter light knowledge of good and evil Noise narcotic stripped gloss blowgun black zebra Zebra at the zero hourglass Zebra zero wing hourglass all your base are belong to us I write ugly I write ugly UGLY counterpoint / unintended dissonances accidental consonances UGLY ground bass bureau bastard abandon DISCARD DISUSE DECONSTRUCT Again again desert and again between desert (archaeology as architecture architecture as experimental archive archaeology as archival experiment) (I experiment archive I collect barbed throat carpetsharks I collect stories about Golden Gate Bridge suicides) (I want to disappear, one man said. So the Golden Gate was the spot. I’d heard that the water just sweeps you under) (Survival of the fittest: Adios, unfit) (Absolutely no reason except I have a toothache) (Massive bleeding had occurred in both ears, along with apparent grayish brain matter in and around the right ear) I dream suicide like I dream a day at the beach My suicide several visions play parallel universes underground and every ben somehow fails regardless of the method (Horselover Fat slits his wrists, overdoses on digoxin, and attempts car running in garage carbon monoxide poisoning but his God fucks him over PKD’s God keeps his prophets alive because it enjoys inflicting pain and suffering upon them) Suicidal people have transformative fantasies and are prone to magical thinking, like children and psychotics, says Dr. Lanny Berman, the Executive Director of the American Association of Suicidology Sometimes suicide somewhen woman / I write UGLY and I write MESSY I embrace my MESSY UGLY my ugly me uranium umbrella universe Suicide consistently eludes me Discard dar draw desert DISCARD dar draw desert distal desert Discard A’dam dar drawn drip desert distal desert (I discard nothing) (I discard nothing draws drink dripping dream and Asia suggests I discard but I discard nothing I hoard books and texts I hoard windhover woman weaver veronica hell) DISCARD DISUSE DECONSTRUCT Discard Desert Disuse Desert Deconstruct Desert Desert discard door das Din daat das Din daat das different dream difference / book bell difference Book bath bell difference Desert difference discard airplane plank avalanche Ugly anvil avalanche ash Ash san francisco armory pornography I experiment iron gall archaeology Iron gall gallbladder redder black Sun Ra Arkestra archaeology atom bomb avalanche / solar son of man atom atomic mysticism Adam Kadmon I experiment archaeological archive temporary tack thunder Taryn Experiment tinsel inside Earth intestines junkyard adhesive / car door glue gaskets idea gas law gas giant immunoglobulins Ugly outstanding ugly umami octopus undulations Octopus undulations cephalopod umbra and monstrous moonshine (moon mimics mothlight) (moon mimics mothlight convex cave lens hand lacerations) (moon mimics mothlight convex cave lens lacerates my hand herd flu capacitor and orgy fiber optics) Wine woman orgies my vision voyeurs wine woman orgies ogdoad brain fiber optics Brain fiber optics jelly fish flesh filler eye floaters Optics OMNICORP fails reproducing Robocop and I detach my skull from my spinal column strange owl screaming I scream owl strange days I screech lilith laugh track tape loop Taryn Fiber optic energon cubes cubist Georges Braque hashbrown has function breakfast (Between Books) (Deccan Trap Tents) You are the one who writes and the one who is written I write but she writes I write her but she writes me I write her and she writes me You are the one who writes and the one who is written I write utterly other my other ugly ugly original but then she writes me She writes me other complete reckless shipwreck Book Baal Holy Spirit somniosidae / sleeper shark sinusoidal writing Sinusoidal solenoid star sequences / Sirius secret code specter syntax Secret cipher stenograph syntax and syntax tortures texts textures her hourglass writing Holy Spirit somniosidae dissent descent the shared shark desert / sharp sleeper sharks Sharp harp sleeper shark species counterpoint I write counterpoint (Christina) I write counterpoint (Asia Rain Christina) Her hourglass hell coal syntax Coal seam syntax syntactic sensual sampling I sample funky and futuristic with James Brown hits Other pulsations instant playback electric pianos pianissimo keystone keyboards Keyboard kenosis: her hourglass Kenta Kobashi Burning Hammer kenosis: her hourglass god extravagantly empty Syntax ventilated cigarettes cigarette sword counterpoint (A Marlboro Advance with perforated holes at the middle of the filter) Syntax ventilated cigarettes vision human circulatory system soda fountain Syntax carbonated cigarettes cigarette high fructose corn syrup (I speculate Asia Rain will despise these desert writing experiments experiences but she often surprises me) I try for a sweeping sound I think in groups of notes, not one note at a time I play arpeggios instead of straight lines I put the notes in uneven groups like fives and sevens in order to get them all in Five flexible fire Five fresh flesh flux Fire phantoms revenge real robbery Seven Sabbatai Sevi Seven Sakura Sabbath Seven solar deity desert cells seeps Water Woman into my brain salary salivary glands Stand gland gutter syntax Stand gland poetry slam syntax stab Stab syntax crab canon cortisone rhythm Candlestick cauliflower rhythm Syntax shards rhythm shreds Syntax shreds shards rhythm the lake / Asia Rain surprises me Asia Rain surprises me my dead don’t touch that dial the dead I cover dead simple stones stone stay axes Axes axle chariot axiom orange slush alphabet Orange slash alpine alphabet Yahweh robotics Yahweh rhetoric rote memory I attempt to forget my dead / Asia Rain surprises sheol Asia Rain surprises scribbles word salad sheol I scribble shaking stone I scribble shaking stone wall stall woman I shake sheol El Shaddai / syntax serpent El Shaddai
Corpse Corpus Christi Carol Corpse, Part 1
Content Warning: body horror and violent imagery (She was shot with a rifle and with a revolver, scalped, strangled, dismembered, raped, guillotined, quartered, burned, cut apart with surgical tools and lancets, cut into eighty-three pieces by an invisible spanish dagger, stung by a scorpion, poised with arsenic, devoured by a puma, strangled by a pearl necklace, and whipped...) My head hole hangs My head hole hangs umbilical hag hecate chiaramonti and she pairs my decapitation with torches She prepares my decapitation as performance, and Taryn tosses torch pairs pentacle fire and my head burns black painting tar pit poeisis My head witch hunts holy roller and my headless body animatronic jumping jacks rickenbacker bass ground bass pokehead gospel Asia Rain a member of the lightning bug church My head hip hole holy hanging haunts Oldmobile station wagon beware the witches Yahweh inflicts violence body fixed point fire Yahweh inflicts violence female bodies and her death has the scent of roses (Mary Mother of God Mystic Rose Like a rose among thorns, so is my beloved among maidens Eva Frank Maiden Iron Maiden Rose Assembly of Israel) Yahweh fucks fierce violence violent sodomy seduces Messiah Messiah Malchut Moloch presses through the arms fire ant colony Yahweh Yahweh profanes Messiah for its sins and my sins and Yahweh's sins kiss at Christ's Cross My vision endures die my darling die desert violence / I the King of stag movies I cain KING FELIX still stag movies Stag staccato picking slow-as-molasses power chords Woman violence Woman violence surreal slime / serpent saves Yahweh yokes woman violence but serpent saves Serpent yokes woman violence but serpent saves Serpent-As-Woman saves (Sophia lets a drop of light fall It lands on water and at once appears Androgynous Human) I participate violence contra Woman Christ and I crucify Asia Christina / Asia Christina redeems me She redeems remolds recreates Ben Adam (When Eve saw her male partner on the ground, she felt sorry for him and said: Adam, live! Get up! At once her word accomplished the deed) Her word deters detour deconstructs violence vivid verse vapor She violins her vapor into my vapor, my head hole hevel Descriptions desert violence Labyrinth violence Library violence (shot with rifle and revolver, volver viper vision My long vowels vision I do not discard violence but transform it Anarchic violence against hierarchy, structure heaven hell, authoritarian gods Woman weakness hegemonic structures, her host holy ghost flat ghost gods) I open again the Book I open Book violence and exploitation (Strips the gloss and mystery from the sordid depravity of the living death! Scene after scalding scene never before depicted on the living motion picture screen THE NECROTIC STORY) Strip glass holy ghost host hourglass giallo Strip string stress fracture flesh gloss holy ghost human bodies my belly open open Book (This violence an abnormally dilated vessel) (Yahweh violence on the longitudinal ridges on the surface of a gastropod shell) Strip gloss glow grow alligator gar holy ghost ghost everywhere Holy ghost ghost everywhere when woman and her violence lamps the Cross unconditional Yahweh slaps me and I see the sun Yahweh slaps me and I see the Son of Man paper-mache mutilated Child of Humanity Child of Humanity hemiola hell eschatological tape loops (not a consistent except Yahweh violence) Looking glass last hourglass Looking glass length last laugh gas hourglass / gods differently hardened I differentially harden gods temperatures towers hell Hell her frequent violence lent larvae mysticism Hourglass loads god shotgun shells tags frag Yahweh in her flesh (Two hundred nights in a row, she simply decomposed on stage in front of an audience which wouldn't have exchanged its seats for all the gold in the Americas. The operation lasted for a good two minutes during which the young woman transformed little by little into an abominable corpse) Corpse escapade Corpse curtain razor cotton gin and tonic atonal (In vision I see her corpses I see her many body bodies book I record her corpses I catalogue bodies belly millipede maiden and her segments secrete Book leaves violence vellum book skin scorpion) Go to the mountain-top and cry for a vision / He who loses his dreaming leaves lost Christina leaves splatter latter light a ladder to Her Book (Vision I visit her dead Underworld waters her word submarine spirits Spirits spread something anarchic Her dead erupt into surface millions then billions sheol shakes her legion laboratory fire) Lighthouse lesion Laboratory legion Library legion Labyrinth legion Language disintegrates she my word disintegrates She her word my word disintegrates My language language lady lady legion deconstructs Book several civilizations / several several sinew several skin sinew splash disintegration Language integration disintegration: video remains Video remains vision remains remnant church (I shed my Christianity serpent skin) Conversations With Asia Rain 4/24/2020 4:14 AM I'm wrestling with weird stuff in my own writing, I say. Writing really do be like that sometimes, says Asia. There has been several times where I did some free writing and I ended up a little scared of what I wrote. Like that poem I wrote about my mother. I was like, where the hell did this com from? What are you wrestling with? she says. The idea of pornography and incorporating it into my work again. Sh here's a story. I once got kicked out of a discord for having a mental breakdown and sharing some homoerotic work about Jesus and God. After that experience I exorcised all sexuality from my work for awhile, but I have this feeling I want to return to a queer sexuality and pornography mixed with Christianity. I can see why that would ruffle feathers, she says. Yeah but sometimes one must ruffle feathers. I researched queer history and sexuality and I am revisiting my research... Maybe I should say the erotic instead of pornographic but I hesitate to neuter the power of the word. Are you trying to poke at homophobia in the church? says Asia. I'm trying to explore the queerness of Christianity in all ways. In the mystical tradition, there is often the imagery of Christ as the bride and the soul as bridegroom. St. John of the Cross wrote poetry of him longing for his lover, the soul for Jesus. That is the sort of queer eros that is ripe for opening up. I see where you are coming from now, says Asia. I'm for it but feathers will be ruffled. Most Christians are all about the inherent maleness and straightness of god. To be feminine is to be weak or sinful and to be gay is to be an abomination (not they are right but this is who a lot of people feel even if they won't say it), says Asia. I'm about the inherent androgyny and weirdness of God, I say. I have often experienced God as a Woman. But I'm also curious about the queer eros and erotic that is on the outskirts of the bisexual male loving a supposedly male god as well. And human sexuality in general plays into all of this as well. Christianity at its origin is already multiple... I will not shy away from being a heretic Christian, I say. Language laugh lamp heretic Language lamb legion heretic (I discard my Christianity naked heretic pornographic) (I paint porno black paintings cunt and cock pigment) (My writing stalls but I find hope and comfort in my conversations with Asia Rain) Language stalls wall woman whirlpool disintegration
I Prophesy Something Else
Content Warning: some body horror imagery I prophesy something else I prophesy something different I prophesy the shape of jazz to come and the shape of punk to come I prophesy no end ending no end free improvisation (a flatter jazz a flatter free jazz object-oriented ontology open opening open Khora Christ Khora Christ Krystal no collapse except flat) (a more flexible fire open artifact ouroboros open artifact ouroboros Norea’s ark ouroboros hyperborea frozen supernova Supernova otter pops supernova goes pop) I prophesy new psalm hermeneutics / Steve Reich’s Tehillim theme and variations I prophesy psalm radical hermeneutics where I invent ancient tradition and past present future interplay improvise interpenetrate plume of immanence I prophesy PURE PULP and PURE PROCESS Process plays prophecy, psalms for solar gods / Atem Adonai Advent I prophesy lighthouse hourglass god-haunted horror Haunted house hourglass set to the Hind of the Dawn Flattened hourglass showers sandspit holy spirits disrobed desert Naked deserts deconstructions / plural prophecy Plural prophecy and plural process sand flowing upwards Upwards parlour games gazelle stag films / houseglass homosexuals haunted house homosexuals homosexuals hourglass wormhole Yahweh I worship the homosexual god I worship the bisexual god I worship god non-binary (When a doctor finds his wife’s lover in his operating room, he performs a graphic brain surgery, rendering the adulterer a hallucinating semi-zombie. Now insane, the lover / patient hammers a chisel into the doctor’s brain) Hammer hourglass holy spirit Hammer hourglass god chisel Christ varying degrees of bone char bone char arrowhead hammerhead shark chewing godhead and Taryn opens my head completely, hidden sophia spark spilling sand upwards and otherwards Taryn scraped my skull tohu wa-bohu benjamin golgotha woman benjamin gethsemane woman Skull sketches psalm Skull sketches flat psalm hand hourglass palm tree garden Skull skips stone smooth primordial waters water woman skeleton Skeleton scar tissue Taryn torrent tiamat torture Clock torture and water torture / white room rat king KING FELIX Skull skips rips skin from stone bloody waters and bloody woman Bloody woman births bloody benjamin afterbirth / placenta palm hand hourglass palm tree garden Generous god gore gore genesis Graphic god gore gore genesis and my horns funnel hourglass sand upward upward woman water My horns funnel-filter mesopotamia myth into priestly genesis creator myth / monolith machine monotheism Global brain genesis generates gore god in human and its horns prod hourglass projections Hourglass projects Hourglass projects aporia my porous skull black pigment Desert black seeps sand upward under skin and Taryn tunnels tabernacle Adam Kadmon khora Brain gore many bereshit Brain gore oozing gores bara benjamin bereshit Conversations With Asia Rain 04/24/2020 2:54 AM Asia officially in the Book, I say. I’m famous! says Asia. I’ve been thinking of writing a couple of narrative essays, she says. One of your journey of becoming vegan? That might be one of them. But I could write about my mother, the two very different paths me and my twin took, homophobia in conservative households, growing up as a twin, and some not so personal things like writing about the daughters of the confederacy, schools used to assimilate indigenous peoples, and the social programs that groups like the Back Panthers put together, says Asia Rain. Recently, Asia and I have discussed how to give my writing – and the Book – more cohesion and more structure, and I tell Asia when I wrote through The Gospel Of Mark verse by verse, and how the return to the verse provided a kind of imaginative scaffolding I also suggested that our catalogue of conversations could provide a touchstone for renders, a theme to return to between free flight free jazz fancies Asia approves of both ideas What looks like a deadly herb on the surface contains a life-giving herb within, says Jacob Frank The stone the builders have rejected has become the chief cornerstone / I give my flesh pharmakon I fold my flesh a more flexible fire pharmakon A more flexible first fire and first Adam Adon Ancient (protoss of preface) (Protocol of preface pierces future anterior anterior to-go Taryn / her flesh hugs my flesh) (her flesh fire hugs my flesh burned as Book without being consumed) More open flesh radically naked naked name Nude body bath breath burial deserts (More – more as MORE More monstrous more monstrosity my myth between gods and colossus) Naked nuit nets name nude near nude name animal Naked mineral animal more anarchic acid flat flat blue (blue film repetition) Book naked pornographic prophesies photo parousia / second coming as cumming orgasmic Second coming as secret cumming serpent semen (I tell you everything and nothing, I tell you nothing and everything, says Jacob Frank) Hourglass horseshoe god glutton prophecy Glass glue brain gelatin (Sabbatai Sevi battles with what might now be diagnosed as severe bipolar disorder… He understood his condition in religious terms, experimenting his manic phases as moments of “illumination” and his times of depression as periods of “fall” when God’s face was hidden from him. While at times of depression he became a semi-recluse, when “illuminated” he felt compelled to contravene Jewish law, perform bizarre rituals – ma’asim zari or strange acts, and publicly pronounce the proscribed name of God) I wrestle with my bipolar brain I wrestle with my bipolar brain binomial formulas numbered flesh belly beast from the sea I wrestle bipolar grizzly bear gods gulf word salad and I clang klang krystal tlön cross (code in cross secret spirit) I synchronize spirit saturn sabbath with Sabbatai Sevi, and I too hourglass horror heresy heresy body horror heresy cosmic horror wholly Yahweh Yahweh illumination hallucination abandonment abaddon I fall fell felt hell Sabbatai Sevi I field feldspar keystone Christ and Christ copulated in the Bridal Chamber with Jacob Frank I burn barb wire they’re coming to get you barbara vulgar vision Vulgar vineyard vision porno prophecy (a romance in the nude! Tender love and inspiriting sacrifice in a modern eden THE UNASHAMED actually filmed in a nudist camp) (I still feel ashamed of my sexuality and body because Christianity castrated me with its puritan Cross Christianity keeps heaps catacombs sex workers and homosexuals, and church curses them hell hike height hell) (I need a greater pornography Vision demands a pornographic) My skull swears serpent slime Sabbatai Sevi My skull sweats slick dead sea scroll skirmishes / my skull schisms with Sabbatai Sevi Subtle book fractures book fraction fission radioactive skin (my skull sloughs other skin stretched parasites pretending symbiotic) I dream you Sabbatai Sevi I dreamfall body farm illuminations our prayer Albert Ayler jumps into the river Dream desert river Albert Ayler emerges air armless caravan Sabbatai Sevi and her fortress feints fuse stonehedge crooked forest Jacob Frank dreams many, even Sabbatai Sevi, and his dream demolish Sabbateans (my dreams deconstruct Christianity until only empty cross and empty tomb remain) Skull slaughters slain in holy spirit stacks of crushed cars Skull sly laughter stations of the cross silver car crash (double disaster) A body twisted in the mangled interior of a silver car Death and disaster dog star desert Projection of a flattened hourglass sand flowing upwards Extreme magnifications made the effect excessive, with the grains of sand forming a wave – I like patterns Stations of the cross station to station Book of Sand swordfish upward Sand seer I seer sand station to station (references to kabbalah, occultism, gnosticism, paranoia and other fixations that affected Bowie's mind at the time) Stations of the cross station to station seer sand I seer via crucis Christina Sand I seer via dolorosa desert Christina / only write the impossible I seer shaman star sand hourglass / my god impossible I shaman seer star sand stone and my stone steeps steppe tableaux scenes the Passion of Christ (the opening sound effect is a red herring meant to represent the stations of the cross, along with a juncture connecting two different stages of his career; it combines the funk and soul of his previous album Young Americans with the experimental sound he would explore on his Berlin Trilogy) Transformation tunes my skull antennae threshold (Tannin threshold Train threshold Taryn threshold) Transformation tunnels trickster time into my vein harpoon tabernacle / my blood inflates terror train transformation autobot transformer I write the messianic optimus prime optimus prime twin prime conjecture prime gap grammar god (On April 17, 2013, Yitang Zhang announced a proof that for some integer N that is less than 70 million, there are infinitely many pairs of primes that differ by N) Naked name number Naked number name Math myth malchut Keter to malchut station to station Stations transform me Her stations transform me writing Book writing I write sand flows upwards overward woman transforms me Flattened hourglass snakes sand flowing upward (Adam entered blithely, hardly knowing it was the ancient serpent, a silent screaming temptation) Flattened hourglass whore horror strings serpent sand flowing upward (Adam's desire rose to her siren; he lowered himself to the strumpet) I lower other harlot her wholly holy Lower interior other whore dreams me eaten alive / alice with crocodiles alice with alligators Often Adam ben I son son of man meet metal serpent copper psychosis (my psychosis Sabbatai Sevi psychosis strain straw alien hand syndrome) (Manic mixed multitudes meet serpent Sabbatai Sevi and we choir Tetragrammaton Taryn YHVH) (I pronounce the name as written acute triangle psychosis) Lower listen harlot hell her and i descend desert sand queer quicksand serpent slivers I shiver shaker I shake quicker serpent shiver Whore hobo fall flat hourglass her pornography projects projects sand flows upward / parousia flows prostitution Parousia pomegranates picks open palm prostitution Parousia pomegranates picks open palm prostitution Prostitutes populate parousia / Jesus eats with tax collectors and prostitutes Porno pale pinion pretty pinion play prostitute arcade pole position More mad open magicians and mystics / a world of Jewish mystics, thieves, and mad men More mad manic benjamin More mutually absurd destruction maniac benjamin mothers against drunk driving but holy ghost drives me desert Holy Ghost drives deserted desert derive decoupage dental work Mad more porno bastard honeybee pillowbook porno Grandiose manic naked grand guinol god god genus genius loci splatter spell other and fear of other / her woman her woman and asherah pole and I worship her body place porno but Yahweh fear and fantastic fear (fear of the proletariat, fear of the unknown, fear of the foreign, fear of the contagion – for all the blood spilled, sperm ejaculated, and sweat dripped there) More porno manic ben mad oracle I orate and narrative pornography / hourglass projection parousia panic porno apocalypse A pornographic mysticism and a pornographic mystery antinomian gnosis libertine light (libertine light a desert light dark light cloud of Mount Sinai) Poiesis and primacy human process Pornographic as original plural body body rhizome zebra-in-process Play as primordial performance, benjamin between between bereshit Poem plays horror exotic erogenous earth woman earth poetic body woman earth poem body process Shaman poets technicians of sacred Vision gong myth process Rock real rhythm Shaman-and-Magician language cultivates communalism anarchy egalitarianism flat hourglass god ben body Asia rainforests enfleshes my anarchy animal Asia rainforests transfigures my animal anarchy arrival, flat rain row raw sand hourglass gods flat flow sandscape all-animal all-human (What fascinates them most were the last convulsions played out on the decapitated face) Flat horror bodies bathed in sand flowing upwards Flat body figure with meat mutilation and the Seventh-Day Adventist camp meeting attempts to flay my bisexuality alive My bisexuality seeps bone seeks my machine unarrow and the pornographic Christ impales his cross as phallus into the calcium Poiesis Language process Sacred action I create re-create circumstances and experiences of the very real I enter into the landscape peopled with fantastic monsters and dangerous animals I enter her uterus the doe of dawn suffering in childbirth I drink the double vision Her Son of Man meets my Son of Man: the Messiah The Messiah Sabbatai Sevi and the charlatan apostate Jacob Frank I perform the poetry porno poetry paraclete poetry parousia I prophesy the androgynous body erotic, bisexual and nonbinary Child of Humanity Thou shalt not suffer a witch to live / thou shalt not suffer a shaman to live Christianity kills me many but more Christ resurrects / resurrectionists steal my body from the tomb and apply Dr. Frankenstein laboratory lightning My body jolts orgasm My body jolts gyroscope ouroboros orgasm great god pan orgasm grand guinol My gorgeous guts open church revival My genuine genius guts float holy ghost fire great awakening woman Woman awakes me The woman of spirit comes to me and speaks saying, Arise Ben Adam (She is my mother she is physician Woman, one who has given me birth) She midwifes my word She midwifes my word wild word wilderness (What if my prophecy is primarily your prophecy? I am concerned with writing you and our conversations. So your prophecy is transforming me and the book transforms me. Maybe, says Asia Rain) A bigger Book and a more gruesome grand guinol guts, gore splatter gods carousel circus cross carousel crucifixion roller coaster golgotha radiant red radiant red chariot work I work rawer woman magic I train taller Taryn Tarot Dense desert divine dew My secret salt-fire opens up the metals I salt the magic silver mirrors mercury and I drink poison / pharmakon passion I pinwheel woman passion for the stations of the cross Station to station From keter to malchut Jacob Frank's maiden Magick metals her maiden / through a glass darkly malchut Steve Reich's Mallet Quartet Mallet Quartet figure with meat mixed multitude i claim my seed of cain and serpent seed, and I Crown serpent Christ KING FELIX
Headless Hourglass Insects
Content Warning: brief instances of body horror Headless hourglass insects eye heavy gore Heavy gore eyeball hevel eva dream bashed body bash body gash god postmodern goon squad body bash god gash greenland shark gimme gimme shock treatment new testament (Frequently, the special effects would be too realistic and often an audience member would faint or vomit during the performances) Headless hourglass heathens graboid gore hell hell horoscope hard problem of consciousness / a conscious Cross A conscious Cross superimposed on an unconscious Christ Hourglass hobgoblins ink imp impossible transhuman robotics bisector a passion for bodies / a passion for the Cross I deform the cross into an hourglass book body / wood woman winding number I stretch the Cross translated hourglass Book of Sand Secret sand topsoils serpent Topsoil serpent subterranean sweeps tail a third of stars / triangle trinity Taryn Serpent New York subway sweeps book stars tar towers tacked thirds I extend the triads into altered ninths and altered elevenths elfin forest language I seer serpent seersucker shaker and the Cross Hourglass turns over ecstatic venomous snake bite spasms (he got ju-ju eyeballs He one holy roller) Ju-Ju jungle jisms serpent semen no separation from Yahweh No separate Yahweh serpent but seed sequel abyss / Serpent snakes into bone sequela calcium searched into the cross calcium leaf light crucifixion leaf-cutter insects The projected hourglass flat god gone ghoul / engorged ghoul graph intestines imbecile (The Dead Man’s Hand: a tale told in medical and nursing schools In another variant, the victim is found dead with the dead man’s hand clutching his throat) (Dead Man’s Hand fail-deadly endless desert) (Then he untied the bonds the King of Babylonia and abandoned him in the middle of the desert, where he died of hunger and thirst. Glory to him who does not die) Project hourglass god gore MKULTRA lysergic acid diethylamide liminal desert and lamina desert desert light Desert light kitten litter LISTEN and I listen hourglass desert pagan gods I listen Pauline Oliveros Sonic Meditations mutations chain detached retina vaudeville revue / body horror body apocalypse body horror body apocalypse body parasite Project hourglass glasgow smile god lines desert human body parasites and a backbone worm battle pinched underneath my skin / a crime in the mad house (During her career at the Grand Guinol, Maxa’s characters were murdered more than 10,000 times in at least 60 different ways and raped at least 3,000 times) Hourglass god horror Hourglass shotglass god horror ethanol Elohim Elohim incarnation incest incest meteorite impact impact inlet K-Pg boundary Hourglass god geology rock rubber goo grey goo graphemes I invoke grapheme and glyph iron girder I invoke incarnation cryptid Christ ash and salt circles Horror hourglass horror inhabited horrific god body (body third-degree burns body acute radiation poisoning body cooked chymistry) Horror Hospital Hostage / Yahweh of Hosts as the body held cocoon hostage (metapod pseudopod metamorphosis) (flagella flipkick talisman) Yahweh of Hosts as the Body Cosmic Horror (The Skull of his Head three and one third ten thousand parasangs) Skull sculpture Krystal Khora Skull Khora creep katabasis my skull descends thousands Taryn My skull descends thousands deserts Taryn Taryn terraform golgotha agrippa Taryn Taryn terraforms terrify my desert doppelganger / Gengar ganglion golgotha Hatch hourglass horror several sages (My blood pressure is 190 over something, says C. I’m going to the ER. Are we both going to die? I think maybe. At least I’ll due by a bunch of hunky uniformed men?… Any updates? They're admitting me. Not sure what will happen… You alive? I’m all full of dye and might count as bionic?? Oh nice. Did they do a bunch of scans? Is that why the dye? Angiograms? Then stints. Like… Stints in your blood vessels stents? Permanent ones? Stents – the nurse just corrected me haha. Your nurse sounds cool. Did you tell the nurse your best friend is a shitty version of a nurse? Permanent stents? Two! I had an artery collapse and a dissection (?) of my aorta. Haha she says yes. HOLY SHIT. Right? She said, he ain’t wrong. How are you not dead? Good nurses, she said. You went into surgery? What happened? I went to the ER when my blood pressure went bananas yesterday. They admitted me and got me into the angiogram right away – they do them at the hospital I happened to choose for my ER, so that was nice. Then I was transported to another hospital at 5 AM today and prepped for surgery! It was wild, says C) Hatch hourglass horror several severs ages sage surgical alchemy Alchema El Roi deformed jaw features radiation fossy jaw features (Christina dies many times Ten thousand times in sixty different ways)
Guts Gospel Skull Splatter
Guts Gospel / Earth Emesis Evangelion Guts gospel infant iron gall / gore grinder earth eyeball evangelion Evangelion evangeline elephant ivory echo empty echo earth: lactating echolocation Cholera Christ cochlear implant partial harmonics / desert diuretic Guts twelve galaxies Gospel Guts gospel gas giants / gologtha splatter films gethsemane generous gore (Benjamin bios biopsy Benjamin biopsy black paintings borderless black black beat black broader black) Christianity and Gospel Christianity God gospel gore godfire engorges field Field engorged blood Taylor Swift Bad Blood Judas Iscariot bursts open engorged field flesh flood flutter Christianity and Gospel field recording godflesh ripped hand halves (Christ body left-handed Christ body right-handed) Christ hyperousias hypomnemata taryn tall heresy (Something more like a gathering of notes about the subject and his teaching) I desire deeper desert heresy I desire dark desert heresy Christian carpocratian antinomianism and sabbatean antinomianism I write New Torah and New Gospel hybrid heresy adversary apostasy antinomian anthropology ancient of ancients anarchy I road river rattle river rattle rhizome traveling showmen shaman christian conjurers sabbatean storytellers her lantern lattices the secret copper plate printing / burning process visions of bodies being burned I burn flexible fire I burn flexible fire pressed flesh Burning bush Book I stand naked under a wedding canopy wearing a torah crown on my head Nude Christianity / Atlanto-occiptal dislocation the ligamentous separation of the spinal colun from the skull base Naked surgeon for naked Christianity the fixation of a saint’s cervical spine to the skull base occipitocervical fusion paramedian rods and transpedicular screws with cross-links for stabilization More voices vertigo vision (mice jump into the mouth of a sleeping bearded man on a popular mechanics slide from circa 1870) I slide stone I slide stones tomb tour Christianity I tour the body of Christ as plastic surgeon and coroner Stone slides cornerstone cylinder key surface Stone slides soap spheres and she scratches sphere fire She scratches fire sphere scrolls and my speech stalks stick insect impossible book leaves I slide simple stone sin simple machine: light lever and prayer inclined plane I slide simplicity then lesser less than simplicity struck stone Struck stone stamp stone alembic still god stare God stares I stand stone naked / my wedding Our wedding woman women word Word wedges heavy stone stone sludge / stressed sledgehammer hummingbird Wedding ring wing woman of word (I wed Torah Taryn I wed Christina Christianity I wed Zebra Zohar) Wedding hall wall woman west beware alchemy I wed other alchemical Taryn ash ardor / antinomian arson and frankist flesh fire Frankist flesh fire five Wordless wedding two witnesses authority to prophecy for one thousand two hundred and sixty days wearing sackclock Wordless wedding wyvern language: two witnesses and two women prophesy animal ash two olive trees two lampstands Taryn Stone slides serpent cylinder Stone slides soap snake spheres and sphere sand she banshee signal secret coastline and secret combination She mine slurry banshee signal secret constellations and secret combinations / blue cobalt seat belt I sometimes wear a straitjacket full of stones I sometimes wear a straitjacket full of stars (Projection of moving frog legs, with the nerves and muscles of severed frog legs connected to electric wires) Project passage parking lot passion Project prayer psalms palm frond fire Project pulse pale horse Yahweh of Hosts hostages Projected glass ghosts mirror mirage hosts / horsehead hosts dappled pigments Project pulse pale horse polyrhythms / I worship the Void I worship Void Vision Woman projects pulse pommel pummel pale horse hundreds hundreds thousands Taryn tumbled stone I stumble stone tumble Taryn stone slides eva’s side She births me entirely void and empty Projection of moving frog legs / frog flies floor fragments Frog holograms inhaled halogens a fluroquinolone fuck antibiotic and antifungal Adonai antiviral Ancient of Ancients Yahweh yersinia pestis plays plague pandemic (a scanning electron microscope depicting a mass of Yersinia pestis bacteria in the foregut of an infected flea) Yahweh Yaldabaoth projects pestilence / black pus plague (Yaldabaoth has many faces so that he could share whatever face he wanted when among seraphim and he shares the fire with him) My Christianity projects heresy / conglomerate of gnosticisms congregations of gnosticisms plural prayer rhizome ritual My pineal gland projects mind-body body horror dualism S-duality and T-duality mirror membranes membrane math mythopoeia I interpret the Torah through a radical western esoteric hermeneutics I ridicule traditional religion I invent new myth based on music, folklore, and base materialism Torah Taryn tacks towers, the tall tale length of alchemical towers towers distilling towers a taller tower trouble waters tool set Torah projects pan pestilence frog flat fire and Yahweh shares fire / thermonuclear weapons (bone seeker strontium-90 deposited in bones and bone marrow) (Yahweh bone cancer and El Elyon leukemia) Tannin Torah Taryn / Scroll Rahab and Leviathan Elephant Talk Torah Torah Tlön tome ticks transfer lyme disease desert electronics I tell Asia Rain a story: I was thinking of a story John Cage said. Arnold Schoenberg was his teacher for a time and he gave John a music theory problem. John Cage solved it but Schoenberg asked him to do it again. And again. And again. So John had 4 different solutions to this problem. Schoenberg asked what they all had in common and Cage didn’t know at the time. But upon reflecting later he said what they all had in common was the question. He said he thought Schoenberg would have accepted that answer. I bring it up because I think this is one possible answer of critique you have of my writing… The question of: How do all these different sections relate? What are their structures? They all relate because I wrote them. They come from me. They come from us. They come from the same question, I say. It’s interesting, says Asia, and part of me agrees with it but at the same time it sounds a little lazy. I feel there is a space for experimenting and processing things but there’s also a space for being intentional and curating the chaos into something tangible. I’m talking about intentionally arranging it in order to communicate what is that you are trying to say, says Asia Rain. Project unclear pulse propulsion prepares an unusual eschaton No escape anchor escapement a chaos double pendulum a chaos across double pendulum blooms Christ’s cross blue butterflies barrel dark blue butterflies I no longer pray but I write prayer Asherah Pole I write prayer Yahweh impaled Asherah Pole torture garden I pray goblin shark and megamouth shark share fire yardbird yaldaboath I pray vancomycin peaks and troughs anti other shore sharks share other fire other water fire underwater woman Other fire frilled water catshark woman / cat shark Christina (I lack passion for the impossible) (Only write the impossible, the very unknown passion play cross Jesus Christ) If I prayed, I would pray a similar pray to: immediately the father of the child cried out, I believe: help my unbelief; except I would pray: I have passion for the impossible: increase my passion for the impossible Project passion passionate play flashing red-and-blue porygon My passion projects amphibious desert and ambiguous desert / desert ambidextrous passion desert passion from the female left left light magic lantern laboratory Laboratory layers lack a superior light and my passion for the light darkens light dusk desert dusk desert daniel apocalypse / Michael the Archangel as alchemist What do you think I’m trying to say in my work? And how should I better arrange it to say better? I think that you are trying to define your place in the world and your experiences in it, says Asia. What does prophesying have to do with those things? It’s you communicating with God and other people. What's the structure that would be appropriate for that theme? I don’t think theme is one structure, says Asia. It’s just a matter of not letting your ideas get buried, she says. Variable vision vertical Variable vision vertical passion / orthogonal ouroboros Vision projects python and pythia / orthogonal ouroboros swallowing its own oracle The projection of a flattened hourglass shows the sand flowing upwards Hourglass glutton hell hell grand guinol acid bath projections Hourglass glock glow pistol gods gluten-free hellscape hellscape hemlock hellish heretics heretic hourglass hangmen Projection flattened hourglass gulf / globular abyss The Blob a 1958 american independent science fiction horror film directed by Irvin Yeaworth, written by Kay Linaker and Theodore Simonson, and starring Steve McQueen Projection flattened hourglass glade rogues gallery / glomerular filtrated abyss The Blog a 1988 american science fiction horror film co-written and directed by Chuck Russell Hourglass god horror god body horror god body cosmic horror terrible towers disproportionate god bodies that his height, from His Seat of Glory and up, 118 ten thousand parasangs terrible tower babel Book blow bondage Taryn, the terrific terror gods’ bodies the skull on his head three and on third ten thousand parasangs Hourglass gods Nag Hammadi Codex Hourglass gods Nag Hammadi Codex cosmic strip striptease pornographic / Elohim has a face of a bear elohim has a face of a cat cartoon hourglass hentai I project panther nurse shark lynx laboratory Project projects frog forests creature features her creatures stare Scratch eye open empty eye socket (Police surgeon’s drawing showing the mutilated body of Catherine Eddowes, Jack the Ripper’s fourth canonical victim, as discovered on September 30, 1888) Project projects passages passion passions for gods grotesque carnival Christ bodies Carnival Christ cross dark desert conic bodies Passion punctures my bodies new passages pigeonholes parking lot parking places Passion bolo punches novel passages my bodies high energy particle physics Physical playback vomit vampires bat I turnover the hourglass I topple hourglass carpal tunnel tunnel titanboa Titanboa tourniquet television torture (I briefly consider writing teletubby torture but it feels too absurd – next I’d be composing Barney the Purple Dinosaur parody songs) Titanboa Taryn Titanboa burrs birch baroque beltane Beltane bone bonfire brightens brass teeth / my adonai toothache My tongue spaced teeth timber carpal tunnel tunnel titanboa gospel as Taryn bios repetition I turn over other hourglass gods alien arbor bodies three bodies trees Asia erotic rainforest Asia rainforest erotic antigonic earth Antigone earth boa constrictor antipodes Lucca and Marle Antipode 3 (fire and ice magic combine to strike all enemies on screen) Hourglass as furnace fuses strange fire with queer ice, a Christina conjure magma mixture Hourglass splatters Taryn theater / desiring-machine masturbation desert Homosexual hourglass splatters biohazard electric harp spell and hourglass shocks penal colony pornography penal colony platelet colors Penal colony clotting factors pale flesh colors (Lion roar rainbow rent ragged red / her red my red my bloody valentine shoegaze vertical vertigo flesh) Hourglass splatters headless torso Taryn a theatrical beheading beheading as treatise and tehiru Cornelius Cardew’s Treatise indeterminate bodies and graphic bodies human bodies surface bloated deformed blobfish I inscribe hourglass glyphs in my graphic scores / Taryn tattoo aleatoric intruder vertebrae Intruder hourglass intense furniture (Many attended the shows to get a feeling of sexual arousal)
Logos Copper Cauldrons Alembic Fire
Fire feather fuse faust fast forest Fast forest fire fizzles Ms. Frizzle firewroks I work fireworks I work women fireworks water fire spin fox tails Fox fire sly fox Jacob Frank and I sometimes feel fear fire close to that charlatan and horrendous heretic and I create and or subvert submerge sabbateanism and frankism I create and or pervert and overcome christianities and gnosticisms Future fire Future fire stone speak spoke fire and fire buffers big muff fuzz Fuzz fire open skin flaps Skin flaps fire skin grafts torture garden Several transgressions Several transgressions genesis fire Fire excess wheel escape first: human corpses human children passed through fire Moloch mush magma Moloch music mashups / pornographic plunderphonics Forged carbon book fire Forged carbon fat corrode Book fire / Book ends breath belial Book bereshit Carbon copper cross sections Book flooded fire Book folded female / my flesh flat sophia My flesh fragged flat shekinah Cool carbon dreams organic Book plucked from the garden poison I also dream I dream carbon Christina chess checkers I dream Christina cageless witches’ coven Christ the carpenter Book carbon cobalt black bile Book black death blue desert Book nourishes itself by eating my soul / my soul dreams different Books one Book moloch fire Book metal moloch my sister is unconscious Book butcher bottle broods beetles moloch marie metals and her tophet song prepared makes ready for Melek Moloch muddy metals (The oracle invokes the imagery of a Temple festival where Yahweh reveals itself in the smoke and flame of the incense burned and lamp stands in the Jerusalem Temple) Some secret language or strange language Hidden Book: Apocrypha Apocalypse Write work earth language and Book language glass glue ghost garden jawbone glass glue gog and magog god ghost ghost mirror mineral repetitions mineral iterations microscope and telescope Telescope Taryn tends mandrakes and exotic animals animal oval god Repetition – doubling doubling desert doubling – I rise in reach repetition and rhizome I write repetition abyss abyss rhizome abyss rhizome repetition the real The root mlk “to rule” but with the vowels of boset “shame”, which like Ashtoreth or as a qual participle from the same verb Vowel vision / Verb vision Vowel verb vision Verb vowel vision versions variations / scratch vocals In the beginning the verb From the beginning THE VERB Verb Verbum / Jacob Frank's Lady as Logos En arkei en ho logos, kai ho logos en pros ton theon, kai theos en ho logos (I repeat this ARKHEI archon nerve agent antimony armageddon ant hill armageddon arkham asylum armageddon) (I repeat these ARKHEI atomsmasher ark of the covenant liquor cabinet wine cellar serial killer) In the beginning existed the Word and the Word existed with God, and a God was the Word (exist erratic erotic exist eclectic erotic river compass exist eclectic erotic river compass exist eccentric erotic river compass and a river flows out of Eden to water the garden a river flows out of Eden to water the garden and from it divides and becomes four branches) Exist avalanche Eden / electric eel river rhema loch ness monster Loch ness knot gnosis goetic moloch Goetia gematria juggler Moloch gnosis moloch keywork moloch tumblers towers Exist avalanche Eden exist exit music for a film I film verb stone and word stone: separate fires one fire fires apart identical fire Avalanche accent attach apocalypse / avalanche attack apocalypse attach attack (One fire no separation Many fires no apart) Vision vowel avalanche / corpse cut acid Corpse cut quilt quiet / grease clogged clocks Clock candle and corpse candle wick magic Wick magic beware woman Beware Woman / miscellaneous magics Eden mists and a mist rides from the earth and waters the whole face of the ground (ground grimoire garage rock rock rent stone stone column serpents) Glass ground glue ghost grandiose hall grand guinol Not glass but god gelatin gelatin gestate pine paint needle placenta / glass births god shard gods sleepless Is that the hierophant? I say. Yes, says Asia. Your favorite card. Hahaha, I think we’ve come to an understanding. What is the understanding? The hierophant is also just a teacher. A good teacher isn’t trying to restrict or repress: they try to build a foundation so that you have the tools to find your way. I think I’m too grumpy to have a teacher, I say. You have spiritual mentors. I don’t listen to them though. I think a part of you does; it just takes awhile to take root. I feel I have been making way in my writing. I haven't been writing any of our conversations lately though. It’s been difficult. You have a very rigid way of doing things, says Asia. Rigid in what ways? You HAVE TO edit old works, you HAVE TO write our conversations. It’s very demanding and doesn’t leave much room to branch out. I was editing an old conversation of us, I say. We were talking about Andy Warhol. Andy Warhol said he wanted to be a machine. I resonate with that. I want to be a writing machine. A prophet machine. A seer machine. I want to make and factory vision and writing. But I’m curious about what you’d think the differences would be in a less machinist approach. Where flexibility would lead. What branches you’d like to see. I can’t make that direction for you, says Asia. It’s got to be organic. You have to step out your comfort zone, says Asia Rain. A more flexible fire a more flexible frozen fire / contradiction Fire contradiction the cross Fire contradiction the cross crocodile Flexible fire fused fog mystery religions and paschal mystery Paschal mystery plastic: plastic time and plastic play an expansion of time no target but torque No target but twist damascus (Target tangent twist Target turtle tangent twist taryn For entertainment they watch her body twist behind her eyes she says I still exist) A more flexible fire and a more frequent fire A more flexible fire and a more frequent fire I speech secret fire and certain fire Why fire Fire, like water, searches out the limits of its container Limits its container no container texts Text textual text text texture fire Fire UNERASURE Fire palm palimpsest Fire upturned palm tree garden palimpsest (secret prayer secret fire columns) Glass glues ghosts galley grand guinol guinol gore genesis bloodies gardenias detail anatomical illustrations onto glass and mica Glass goblet globules glass jazz jazz black barber jaw glass I jam glass god foreground forehead whore huddle Angel habitats Inhabit fire columns Habitat fire Frankenstein fire fuck I road ripley and ridley I road ripley ridley road rash chain fire Road riddle on the road / holy spirit sphinx Holy spirit sphinx specter glass travel Glass gunfire god travel tinted tinsel gold I travel genuine glass road runner and coyote showmen, conjurers, and storytellers, and I search story I search story flexible fire furniture music myth I search story a flatter fire flexible anarchy and lantern lids secret copper print plating Copper codex cryptic copper collect Collect cross collect Christina Copper codex copper alchemical still and I distill and then condense copper gnosis (philosopher's stone slingshot shoulder blade) Copper copulates copper salt-cured meat codex Meat codex and flesh codex human salami slices slick spit kebab khora salamander KHORA Khora copper collection questions the Book Which Book These Books lovers lane witches Lovers lane witches bitches brew / copper stew still Still frames flesh alembic still Copper still kill heterodox nag hammadi codex Copper start in the middle of a bar and end in a middle of a bar Copper chymistry start in the middle of a bar and end in a middle of a bar Start and end a phrase anywhere in a measure Start and end a text anywhere in a text Text Taryn Tentacles / bullet train torso transsection Copper stain phrases on upbeats often (upbeat intestines upbeat body-as-boat mater mechanics) (upbeat bone bellows human skin sailboats) I play rhythms that move texts through texts differences Secret copper plate printing burning process visions of bodies being burned I compose different sets of slides two hundred images in fifty-six frames of zoological figures classified according to the system Carl Linnaeus I collect and then classify copper amalgam and copper compounds Copper coats cooks chariot creatures Copper cranes creaks carousel creatures / merry-go-round river hair ringlets Rhema copper climate: climate khora Climate khora krystal cobra chassis red copper chassis char cross Char cross charred cross copper chisel Chisel copper cave charcoal I choose the copper carcass, creatures catalina cat-o-nine tails) Copper alloy allergies aes crypium Coprum cabot cabin in the woods / whistle while you work mining copper (Copper Christianity) (Coptic Copper Christianity)
Miles Ahead / Mixolydian Mode Stones
Moloch by margins my margins the maiden Matriarch maiden Christina Marie and her mercy manics many marys (Three women always walked with the master: Mary his mother, his sister, and Mary of Magdala, who is called her companion) Moloch Maiden Christina Mary Christina Mary Marie / porno polymodal Porno polymodal moloch mixolydian mitochondria Notochord mitochondria micropolyphony Micropolyphonic mermaid platypus porno playground gods gesture obscene occult borrowed bolo I begin reading Paul Tingen’s book Miles Beyond: The Electric Exploration of Miles Davis, 1967-1991 Some phrases that immediately stuck with me from page one, chapter one: Miles used to tell his musicians, When you play music, don’t play the idea that’s there, play the next idea. Wait. Wait another beat, maybe two, and maybe you’ll have something that’s more fresh. Don’t just play from the top of your head, but listen and try to play a little deeper. Don’t play what’s there. Play what’s not there. Don’t listen to what’s there, listen to what’s not there. Listen Listen what Listen deep then deeper: deeper than desert a deconstruction desert deeper than deconstruction Next desert then listen Next desert then desert other desert and alien desert I dwell desert deeper I dwell well desert but deeper and I listen wind woman I listen lady of the lake then oceanic swell woman Swell well woman dwell desert Listen Lady Listen Lady and Jacob Frank proclaims: I told you that there is one tower where the lady is hiding, and if she sees somebody she desires with all her might, she throws them down a portrait of herself… There is a lady and a tower, and there is a painting they call a portrait Listen lady desert light light translucent tower Tower lambert Taryn torches dark luscious leaf aleph desert Listen work wolf wolf woman Wolf woman wolverine worship (I worship Taryn Tower and Towers) (I worship Taryn Tower moloch local maximum dense desert lusk light) I listen stone I listen stone tophet Tower nested tuplet Taryn (Taryn track tack tome Taryn Tower and she trickster travel moloch munitions) I stay stone listen then listen, the portrait porno Christina Marie Marie magic moloch music music maleficum / moment movement Marie Witchcraft Molten moloch murals pillage play two-play toilet paper / Baal wanders off to find a latrine pagan god spirit shit Stone string and stone stem passover sacrifice I sacrifice stone stone Moloch to Yahweh and stone Yahweh to Moloch Stone to stone sacrifice all gods I prepare a stone cross I prepare stone cross crossing crossroads rib riddle Rib riddle rib rattle shaman stone Shaman stone subterranean I share stone strike Yahweh I sling stone Elohim goliath Giant cobweb Elohim and many gods jism joy diamonds flow ice from his forehead / dwell swell desert well wounds Many wounds moloch I bathe blue Elohim’s blood her Lazarus Pit I bathe brighter blue Elohim’s blued surgery sorcery usury cantos different counting of stones A different count of waters Well Woman Wave Weierstrass Function I machine stone maximum carnage I machine stone maximum carnage cloisters Cloister codes secret KING FELIX: secret stone secretes serpent slime cipher Stone cloister coheres decoheres towers: deconstructing towers desert discontinuous (desert discontinuous great attractor limitless labyrinth) (limitless labyrinths our lady) (liminal light our lady of czestochowa) Maximum carnage cloisters stone veil veil voces veronica Sotte voce veronica An unveiling that continually veils Yahweh veils my vision woman and she unveils my vision deeper veiling A veiling that listens Listen veiling our lady I have veiled visions black madonna / maiden materializes real material and raw material Real mason material ring rose babel Still more stone scratch graphite grimoire I sketch grimoire bird skeleton then bath skeleton several stones scattered (I count different variations of the stones I count different variations of the letters) I pin play porn pentagram parousia and Christ descends and ascends again stone hell (Man inscribed in a pentagram, from Heinrich Cornelius Agrippa’s Three Books of Occult Philosophy. The signs of the perimeter represent the five visible planets in astrology) Stone shell shade Stone shell serpent Stone share shell Sophia Stone shell serpent slime Stone scavenge skirt vulture venom vision Stone lasers magic lantern and the image imitates stages three stooges polyphony Stone slapstick splatstick god gore / I kick arse for the Lord! Play what you know and play above what you know Play as above so below bitter psalms / mary moloch Christina Marie, for Yahweh and made her exceeding bitter (Call me Mara for Shaddai has dealt bitterly with me I went away full but Yahweh has brought me back empty… Yahweh has testified against me and Shaddai has brought calamity on me) Play above what you know and stones speak peak fire plume pomegranate (Outer fire in the form of a cherub guides sulfur and mercury into the labyrinth of material transformation) I feel still steel stone searching (Listen) (LISTEN) (Who cares if you listen?) (The Writer as Specialist) Listen differently to these stones and count them differently Count stones among deserts Count stones among deserts between the deserts Desert deconstruction dance stones Stones steal fire salt desert Stone wheel wall Fire Woman / listen to the letters permutations Listen to the letters secret combinations / I crown Cain Christ KING FELIX Outer fire other inner fire My skull fights fire fog outer fire other inner fire Stone burns burning stone Stone burns burn stone blue streak draw drags stone over stone firing rain Rain fire broad blue stone brush and stone towers magic lantern Stone towers taller blonde blue Taryn and her magic lantern leaks vaudeville vision video video various stages shakespeare sparrow video varnish horsehead harness, her whores various video vixens stages of undress polyphony and polyphony and polyphony Stone cement and glass Stone blood and lace Stone apparatus approaches Stone stations of the cross Stone stereo stations of the cross Stations swell stones Stations swell kidney stone gallstones god gout guillotine Stone stomach stations of the cross crucifix by kilo I count the crossed one cross Crosses one cross no shade in the shadow of the cross (a page from Willem Gravegande’s 1720 book Physices Elementa Mathematica with Jan Van Musscheubroek’s magic lantern projecting a monster) (A monster projects a monster: the cross) (a monster mirror monster: the cross moloch monster Yahweh) Stone steps stone steeped stone stone several / spectral stone Spectral stone spirits glass glues ghosts (if he would know about the invention of the lantern he would surely frighten the cardinals with specters) Stone fire spirits then water spirits / moloch woman Stone fir fire spirits fox fractal fire (field fire pharaoh fire physics fire phantom fire phoenix fire)
Moloch Matterhorn / Disneyland Desert
Stone slots serpent slime, the semen streak of Christ’s cross Stone sleets double-split experiment and serpent slime stands wave-particle dual desert / desert dross cross serpent samael I drink desert dross cross sequence difference Sequence difference stone brush barb serpent belly Sequence difference stone burning bush brushes consumption / Taryn tuberculosis stone colic crib death Crib death chaos / Yahweh a baby-eater Yahweh the baby-eater and Christ defiles Topheth, which is in the valley of the Son of Hinnom, and Yahweh passes the Son of Man, his son and daughter, to pass through the fire to moloch Yahweh consumes humanity, Jobs and Christs defiled desolation of abominations Tophet Taryn, and I seer valley verdant vermilion, blood builds blood Blood builds Blood Blood buries Blood Blood babels Blood solar barge bodies I seer vision sphere volumes screech Lilith superluminious Light Taryn Tophet Yahweh slowly chews human carcasses, and Christ’s sabacthani teases sacrifice / Saturn devouring his Son Yahweh chomps Christ clam chowder, moloch molasses Shell swells harp hinge, and Yahweh defiles my body holy spirit sodomy Shell swells stone stinking stone secret valley and valley stings blood battering ram ram horns shofar scrams Ha-Satan Yahweh chops chord clusters pythagorean comma coma dreams moloch: I dream moloch with war taryn tophet tehom Moloch void moloch milled metal children of men dreams moloch moloch Moloch multitudes Moloch mixed multitudes Moloch mixed multitudes mixed wine woman / your navel a round goblet which never lacks mixed wine and your belly a heap of wheat fenced about with lilies More moloch: more Yahweh More moloch: more Yahweh Yardbird robber rhythm / moloch not lake but an ocean I defiled desert I defile no desert nothing needle and I needle name I needle name names and a dream came before the Book I dream Moloch Yahweh comes before the Book and to give a name to the Book (to give THE name to Book) opens Book I defile desert undermined disintegration / desert deforms diagonal diagonal domes interior waters I defile desert overdetermined occult superstructures and the Book speaks to me Name and Names (Moloch Yahweh Christ Cross and Moloch Yahweh) (Jerome Rothenberg in his dream says the Room and thus the Book calls and calls out CREATION and CREATION circulates circumfessions KRYSXTRYN CREATION) More Moloch slow motion march fire a march match figure with meat fire Whosoever he be of of the Children of Israel, or the strangers those sojourn in Israel, that giveth of his seed unto Moloch; he shall surely be put to death; the people of the land shall stone him with stones... I also will set my life against that man, and will cut him off from among his people, because he hath given of his seed unto Moloch, to defile my sanctuary, and to profane my Holy Name… I sting stone him with stones I sling stone with stones I sling swung wing woman stone with stones the Song of Songs, which is Solomon’s / my stone sprouts erotic My stone sprouts erotic earth early earth empty (You will take up stones and throw them at me and a fire will come out of the stones and burn you up) He took him and withdrew and spoke to him three words (You will take stones and stone me, and fire will come out of the stones and burn you up) (You will take up stones and throw them at me, and fire will come out of the stones and consume you) I sling stone with the stone holy spirit / holy spirit song of songs, which is Solomon’s I sing psalm stone fire I psalm sing fire stone stone sprouts erotic fire Stone springs spell erotic fire erotic fire other fire Fire flips other fire stone Fire flips other fire stem stone stars Stone star serpent Star stone the song of songs, which speak Solomon (Solomon speaks Serpent Solomon sculpts Serpent woman worship I swear my serpent seed tent Tophet / my offspring swear Moloch) Moloch mirror moloch iron maiden Mooch monounsaturated fat month moloch motorhead heretics heretic hectic powerdrill holes horror holy fire / holy magic fire Fire moloch music messy magic / punk pagan gods brewing witch fire (Music moloch miniseries or serial movies) (Music Moloch Yahweh Yersinia pestis and her black death drives dungeons / black iron prison) Music Myth Math / Moloch Moloch matterhorn bobsleds / material blowjobs ajar jehovah (I invent Jehovah sacred name and sacred insects) More moloch meteorite music I mix remix music magic and I construct moss mountains (1962 from Fantasyland side: The Matterhorn hid the central skyway cable pylon Waterfalls visible on the left and right side) More Moloch misty mountains / black materia meteor but the lifestream intercedes The lifestream intervenes ferngully bullshit faerie boat magic Magic median moves middles, a Fantasyland truck and a Tomorrowland truck I imagine Moloch as an abominable snowman / Yahweh Yeti I imagine Moloch as a monstrous mothman / Christ cryptid Christ cryptid John Coltrane sheets of sound sound symbolism Sound symbol sigil Sound symbol sigil second spear Christ cryptid Nag Hammadi coptic and I scribe sound symbol sigil cluster seconds tone cluster seconds tone Taryn cluster klobb seconds / stacked seconds grain god silos grain god missile silos / sacrifices for Moloch Yahweh Moloch mutually assured destruction Moloch bootleg bebop strategic space lasers Moloch bootleg Mixed Davis’ Lost Quintet
Vision and Mysticism 