content warning: mentions of suicide



Bones buzz and shove multiplicity

Bone buzz and shove multiplicity / Skull crowds rounds sounds skulls

Bones buzz an incessant writing as a repeated writing      Bones work writing bare rhizome ben hinnom body without organs / Book floods rapid vision and vision multiplicities of hosts     Bone Book flood form three deluge attack tomcat theaters: an experimental Bone Book theater

Bones buzz and shove multiplicity     Bones work word work experimental Book theater     Bones work word work experiment: an experimental salmon suicide (Bones borrow a creative suicide… On one occasion, when he was being interviewed, he thought that the interview might be culminated with a dramatic and creative suicide)     Bones buzz and I imagine my suicide as a creative suicide, an experimental theater fueled by innumerable cups of black coffee     I record and archive bone x bone shaking (A man tells a story over and over so many times he becomes the story.  In that way, he is immortal.)     I record and archive bone buzz bars and bone original oracle

Bone buzz and shove multiplicity / bone buzzes shove ben adam twelve bar blues    (I worship bone.  Bone vibrates cosmic sound and platonist sound and I worship bone.  I worship bone Tree of Knowledge and the tree doubles Taryn’s body.  Tree Taryn branches bone and bones, and bones buzz cosmic body.  Bone Tree of Knowledge buzzes Ben Adam.  I worship Tree Taryn black box body embodies knowledge.  Taryn Tree gnosis branches cosmic Ben Adam and I worship the bone ben body.)     Tree Taryn tip cow talk box knowledge door knock

Is Pando a unique connection? I say.  Are me and you the only Pando friends?  I’m inclined to say yes, it is a unique connection, I say.  I mean, I don’t use the term Pando to describe other friendships, but I don’t think the concept is something that can only be applied to us, says Asia.  When do you think the concept can be applied to others? I say.  Whenever someone is on the same wavelength, she says.  They should get their own term then! I say.  I’m surprised because I thought you’d say it’s unique to us, like we are Pando.  Two trees does not a forest make, says Asia.  A forest is more than two trees.  I see you use Pando in a more general way than I conceive of it, I say.  It seems to me you’re using it in a way that means something like “best friends who connect deeply.”  I think that’s a pretty good description, says Asia.  Would you be OK with us only using Pando for our friendship and not other friendships? I say.  It’s not that I was planning on using it elsewhere but I am a little concerned with the fact you want it to be exclusive, she says.  I was thinking of how Christina and I have used the term “Kindred” for a long time, I say.  It just sort of means a unique connection between Ben and Christina.  I originally thought Pando means, the unique connection between Ben and Asia.  As a shorthand for our friendship, similar to how “Kindred” is shorthand for me and Christina, I say.  Because the concept of “best friends that connect deeply” isn’t exclusive and it feels like by making that term exclusive you want our friendship to be the only friendship with deep connection, says Asia.  I see, I say.  I feel I have other best friends I connect to deeply like Christina and Taryn, so I definitely don’t think our friendship is the only one with a deep connection.  I do think those connections are different with each person even though they are the same depth…  Do you feel the way we deeply connect as best friends is unique to us?  Like no other pando is quite like our pando? I say.  Why are you so fixated on having a unique experience? says Asia.  I’m trying to find a way to combat my brain when I have negative thoughts that I’m replaceable or no one would miss me, I say.  I thought us having a unique connection would be helpful.  I feel like we have a unique connection and I was pretty sure you’d think so too, but I see you have a lot of concerns about affirming that, I say.  I can see that, says Asia, but I think that you can still convince yourself it’s special without saying there can’t be anything else like it.  Could you say a little more about the difference between “it’s special” and “connection that can’t be replaced”? I say.  There doesn’t have to be a difference there, says Asia.  I’m saying that something can be special without being the only one.  Do you think “pando friends” and “best friends with a deep connection” are interchangeable? I say.  Yes, says Asia.  As far as combating your thoughts go, I don’t think working from the angle of whether or not you will be or can be replaced is helpful.  Think about other relationships in your life, acquaintances, people you didn’t get along with, etc. and compare those to your lasting friendships.  Your lasting friendships have qualities that those other relationships don’t, says Asia.  So you’re saying look more at the relationships themselves and what has made them successful instead of focusing on myself in it, I say.  Yes, says Asia.  Because what makes them special is the work you and your friends collectively put into it, the time spent foraging it… I want to be clear, I never said it wasn’t unique or special.  I was just wary about focusing on that as an inherent quality instead of the characteristics that made it special to you, says Asia.

Bones buzz and shove multiplicities / two trees does not a forest make     Bones buzz oracle branches / a forest is more than two trees     I worship the Tree of Knowledge two trees and more than two trees     I worship the Tree of Knowledge forests sermon the same wavelength     I worship the trees a forest tree collection forest forage     Worship two forests forage more than two trees (The ants go marching two by two the little one stops to tie his shoe and they all go marching down to the ground to get out of the rain)

Bone buzz and shove multiplicities and I worship tree traveling circus sermon secrets     Two trees tiptoe black tea ballerina tangent bodies (I fantasize suicides: I fantasize multiple suicides and many bodies ben.  Every body is a ben body for suicide.  Two trees do not a suicide forest make.)  Tree towers Taryn I hang from her bodies suicides

Bones buzz shake adam twelve bar blues (And I rolled and tumbled and I cried the whole night long)     Bone buzzsaw shakes tarpit camera activity machine     Camera machine action section string ritual (skull ritual bone magic camera   multiple camera little scars and little stitches   camera works in every direction and every plane of the sphere)     Sphere drones skull surveillance devices (I open my skull and find camera cataracts.  I trepan skull and find the tetragrammaton cast in bronze and the name implants surveillance devices in my brain gyri.)

Two trees does not a forest make but I worship the tree.  (I tell the same story over and over so many times I become the story.  I tell the story of the friendship of Ben and Asia.  In that way, we are immortal.)     I take the tree as a tomb and I walk up trees treadmill tightropes     I work the Book tightrope suicides

Bones buzz and shove multiplicity and I work tightrope suicides (I belong to the woods and I have always done so.  No one will understand the reason for this anyway.  To give some semblance of an explanation I’m not human, this is just a dream and soon I wake.)   I wake to the incessant work of the Book     Every time I die, I wake up to the work of the Book and every successful suicide adds a page to the Book     I wake the sleep and take my waking slow (Light takes the tree, but who can tell us how)

Bones buzz and shove multiplicities

content warning: mentions of suicide


I eat the name numbers and I eat the name number without what

I eat slow what star fragments     Slow what flow transmigration of souls     Numbers surprise: numbers subvert son of man many deaths

I eat slow what and my skull subverts skull     My skull subverts tattooed urban sprawl smack my bitch up bebop     What bebop number Alice changes body disintegrations   (Ben body disintegrate disintegrate hard bop hard onwards)

I eat the name number and I eat the name number without what     I eat subversion is the very movement of death     I construct construction subverted suspension bridge bulkhead barrelfish (I fish numbers.  I fish numbers with what: natural numbers, integers, rational numbers, real numbers, and the closed field of complex numbers.  I fish for number without what hyperreal numbers and surreal numbers, and I treat my body rigorously in infinitudes and infinitesimals.  Numbers name and arrange my odd body and I inscribe my body with inverted skull and skulls that subvert towards numberless death.)   I eat the name number slower and slower son of man

I scribe the movement of the holy spirit subverted by the holy spirit     I scribe the movement of the holy ghost subverted by the holy ghost

Holy spirit holy ghost moves between movements numbers numberless human bodies

Yesterday, I taught my coteacher classes about logical fallacies and when I was trying to get them to come up with an example of a stereotype.  One kid said, “All teachers cuss when they aren’t in school” and I was like “No, that’s just a fact.”  The kid looked at me like [surprised face], says Asia.  You definitely do cuss sometimes, I say.  You cuss more than me for sure.  I’m a liberated woman, says Asia.  You are a wild and feral woman, I say.  I’m afraid if you’re brain leaves your body it will come and attack me.  It might kill me too, says Asia.  One kid told me the other kids were saying my haircut made me like look Adolph Hitler and our super sweet ESOL student was like “But you don’t have a mustache,” and I was like “Not yet” and she was like “You are growing a mustache?”  Then I said I was messing with her, says Asia.

I eat number without what I’m a liberated woman     Number without what and she was like and then our super sweet ESOL student was like you don’t at school and feral woman

I eat number without what that is trying that is true

Human bodies body your brain leaves your body: my body leaves my body a liberated woman and a wild and feral woman     Woman bodies embody body and your body will come and attack and kill me

I eat the name number and I eat the name number without what     What number nothing now rotates room nocturne (my obsession with nights traditional-translations to my obsession with number)     Numbers with what: what when wild and feral woman

(Up to one hour you think about form, but after an hour and a half, it’s scale.  Form is easy: just the division of things into parts.  But scale is another matter.)   I move from form to scale.  I work from form to scale multidirectional.  I form no form but formless, scale and the controlled catastrophe of scale.  Scale here larger miniatures move miniature large scale.  Scale scales scale holy spirit Book.  The movement of the Book holy spirit subverts the Book holy spirit.

I eat the name number and I eat the name number without what (When Adam was driven from Paradise and came under the law of the Tree of Knowledge, he had need of clothing and raiment in his exile into the world because in his present situation he could no longer reveal his naked essence.)   I eat the name number and I eat the name number without what: what Adam Adam scale serpent scales Adam

I eat name numbers without what: they were related because they were mine but they weren’t related in completing the other     The numbers were related in that they were mine but the numbers collide tree fragments and without what bodies

Twice tree touch tree twice     Twice tree taffy train Taryn through touch tree twice     Twice tree third herd twice train desert disaster diverge apocalypse (a tree apocalypse)     Tree tremor Taryn nude herd porno paradise (A turquoise tree advocates for suicides.  I perform an imaginary suicide – I perform an imaginary suicide sword turntables turquoise turbulent touchdown – I perform an imaginary suicide.  I perform impossible suicides and I swear by suicide notes number without what.  I theater suicide without what hen to pan numbers.  I perform suicides under the Tree of Knowledge (Life is unbearable for me.  Forgive me.)  I perform a suicidal polyphony.)

I eat name numbers and I eat name numbers without what     The number relate because they are mine as they aren’t related in one completing the other     To relate: relate rampart rhizome rabid rhizome     Relate several skunks and not just one     Skull skulls several scraps cave fires     Skull cylindrical surfaces south south skull syntax     Syntax skulls taryn scrape landscape

I relate scaled numbers and law of large numbers.  I relate to numbers and the numbers don’t complete one another but spill over into scale and scales.  I relate to numbers without what and numbers do not complete but weird wild and feral woman word.  Number without what relates wild Tree of Knowledge

Tree of Knowledge deal death to drinking buttons ben hinnom     I translate Tree to Tree taryn tunnel tornado torah     Tree panic traffic attic barbed wire restricted area boiling water     (I boil tree water.  I boil tree travel lobster – travel lobster lobster telephone – tree travels double.  I boil tree of knowledge into balrog fulcrums.)    Tree of Knowledge travels number name and number name without name

I name too numbers without what and my names relate in that they were mine but the names didn’t complete one another (I mimic Honore De Balzac.  “Balzac’s work habits were legendary.  He wrote from 1 am to 8 am and sometimes even later.  Balzac could write very rapidly; some of his novels, written with a quill, were composed at a pace equal to thirty words per minute on a modern typewriter.  His preferred method was to eat a light meal at five or six in the afternoon, then sleep until midnight.  He then rose and wrote for many hours, fueled by innumerable cups of black coffee. […]  He often worked for fifteen hours or more at a stretch; he claimed to have once worked for 48 hours with only three hours of rest in the middle.”  I work an incessant writing and a repeating writing.  I work writing bare rhizome ben hinnom body without organs.  Book floods rapid vision and vision multitudes of hosts.  Book flood from tree deluge attack toward theaters: an experimental Book theater.  I work word work experimental: an experimental salmon suicide.)

I eat the name numbers and I eat the name numbers without what  (yesterday over taught my search classes about logical dumbos and when over was trying to get them to come in with an exorcised of a stereotype over the acres)   I eat the name numbers and I eat the name number what driven from paradise