My Body Up To Horror

Content Warning: discussion of horror fiction and body horror and SA


Immediately making up to sound Immediately this gospel making up to sound I try to make each sound after I have completely forgotten the one that preceded it

Stylized nude portrait of voluptuous female bodies Raw unaltered female form Bumps, dimples, rolls, contours – women’s bodies

Immediately my body up to sound body horror. Horror exhausts and horror never exhausts and horror exhausts. Horror exhausts but loves my body. Horror loves my body tremendous bodies, all bodies enlarged and voluminous and bell venom. Immediately my body horrifically sounds earthshakes and a third of the ocean turned to blood. My body sounds YH of Hosts and Armies, and they prepare for mountain battle leveled down to the plain. Immediately, my body flattens out. Immediately my body stylized and scrapes in the soil of love and rude love and my body womanly androgynous. I pick up on the distorted sound and I pick up distorted sound unaltered bodies.

On Instagram there’s a page called Horror Nostalgia I sub to and they post horror fiction stuff, I say. They posted a scene from the horror movie Jack Frost – not to be confused with the family film – and it was a clip from one of the most infamous scenes [description of the SA scene]. The content section was a disaster. Comments trying to explain how tags like #horrorcomedy undermined the traumatic experiences people go through. Many people were calling those people pointing that out snowflakes and to get out of horror, do you have issues with horror showing murder, etc. That’s the double edged sword of horror. It allows a sort of expression and catharsis of the negativity of capitalist society (e.g. Texas Chain Saw Massacre is well known for these themes), but I also realize it’s an excuse for assholes to be racist and misogynist under the guise of “Hey bro it’s just fiction.” It makes me think horror cannot be left to buttheads, I say. Yeah, that doesn’t sound good, says Asia. I guess “Horror Nostalgia” is going to attract those kinds of people. The “It’s just a joke” type of people. Rape is never and should never be funny or a joke and it’s just reducing horrible actions to entertainment. It’s dehumanizing, says Asia. In most cases yes, I think so, I say. Although I hesitate to ban a concept like that completely because those types of verboten concepts make the ideas transgressive and coupled with negative energy. Rather I would say that kind of dark comedy needs to be treated carefully and in context. I think there has to be a cathartic and autodeconstructing process involved. Otherwise the negative builds up and explodes and is made negatively useful by assholes. Now what those kind of contexts are I cannot say exactly… I don’t write about SA in my work for that reason. It’s not for me to say. I have several women in my life affected by SA and I can’t speak for them nor write for them. I have made that mistake in the past… But it’s also a reminder in a more general way: utilizing body horror, Christianity contaminated with queer imagery, pornography. Those are all things I deal with and I cannot write those themes merely for the sake of being transgressive. There has to be love and compassion somehow, I say. It’s not that I disagree with what you say, says Asia. It’s just that world depends on the community to bring value to it, interpret the works with those lenses and hold creators to that standard. Unfortunately, horror, specifically vintage horror and its fans, don’t tend to be those kinds of people. And that’s personally why I could never get into horror. Too much of it making a spectacle of suffering and turning the mutilation of already marginalized bodies into entertainment, she says. I agree with you on that, I say. I think that’s why it’s also important to create a community where there is space and compassion within horror. May I share something with you I wrote to Christina? Sure, says Asia.
I was bringing up that Horror Nostalgia thing mainly because I was thinking how I need to write a certain kind of love when writing transgressive stuff. If I write body horror, it’s my body horror (Asia who dislikes horror because it’s mainly horror against women’s bodies has commended my use of body horror because I use my own body often in it). It is my queer Christ sodomizing me, it is my pornographic wildly masturbating body. And maybe through that I am even learning to love myself through it…
I understand the catharsis of it, says Asia, but way too often it’s just another way of objectifying bodies so all the power to the people willing to parse through all that shit to carve out a compassionate community amongst the gore, says Asia. I see it this way, I say. Horror is part of the human experience. So is disgust, terror, anxiety, and the sublimation of those feelings. I don’t want to leave those feelings to those people. It’s too essential to being human for me to cut it out of me and leave it to others. Even if I have to objectify my own body to do it because that’s part of being human for me, I say.

Immediately making up to sound: stylized nude portraits shrinking expanding shape body shaped odd sound

(I synthesize my body into blob horror gelatin glue body gore I sew my body to my body symphonic sound sounds I don’t write with and that through was bring bodies involved I love my horrific body involves Christianity amongst those kinds of people)

All who love lie I lie love women Christina and Taryn portrait voluminous female bodies


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I love Christina and I carve out my amorous body from blood stones / not stones

I carve Christina out of the face of the mountain / I carve Christina out diamond faces – face to face – face open body gore – bloody body collapsed building I carve Christina out of the placenta pages of the notebook and my body viscerally open also births Book My body carved Book out of my body (The work I write immediately so up in sound rewrites itself terror of the Book The way I write immediately repeats nude self-portraits in the Book)

My Book body accelerates voluminous bombs / I accelerate my Book Body towards annihilation

I work the work of her word and I word the work of pornographic writing and horrific writing (Write: Born to tempt – destined for shame! Wildcat Write: Scream now while there’s still room to breathe! The Blob) I work a red leaf writing and a rhizome bloom writing

I work Christina in quick-cut miniatures / dark types involved made with to body against negative cathartic I work Christina quick cut Psycho shower scene / Be do horror that most people experience understand that never
I work Christina mangle miniatures (Saber-Tooth Cat Christina wears a human full-length coat She pulls audience teeth with an off-shore oil drill)

My body blooms even in the snowflakes showing comedy also suffering (My red barn body births Book rule machine / Books make for poor bungee cords and I fall into the splat canyon free fall)

I love Christina and I carve out Book body parts giblet gods Book and I love Christina who carves from my body Kindred Book
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Immediately making up to sound Sound female bodies median body my mine Book horror sound

I understand the cathartics of it new how too often it’s just another way to intertext limier so all the power to the people willing to parse through all that shit to carve out a compassionate community alongside the java.
Well I see how ripped is part of the human experience. So its victims, jagged, account, and the sublimating of shade feelings. I don’t want to saga shade feelings to shade people.

Immediately making up to sounds. I love sound and I love to lie Christina’s body and Taryn’s body. I see sound and up to sound and sound ending beginning teratoma teeth. I don’t write with and that through was bring bodies involved but immediately up to the sound horrors. I love her sound and her carving do it’s just the community to love where it’s also realized body. Where it’s also realized body. Where it’s also realized body. Where it’s also realize to that outspace and coupled horror, and I couple myself to horror my own mutilated body.

I try to make each sound Each sound completely forgotten Forgotten my nude body carved into the castle walls Immediately up to saber-tooth cat sound

Trust Materials

Trust materials: body matter body matrix materia porneia     Materia abrupt interrupts and fissures (fissures overlap fissures constant self-interrupts / self-deconstructions)

Trust materials: I have fantasies creating this that could bludgeon the audience into submission

Trust materials and cut pure human states


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Materials. Material Gospel of Matthew. Materials. Materials. Material nudity myself belong meet that criteria. Materials gospel material trust trust pistis pistol faith sophia. Materials. Materials mark heel federal meet lex lee her light body horror and material.

Materials. Materials for all types and I think you’d agree with that too aware of my thought, and my consciousness is are of my thoughts and my body and digest it and add the same as not a forest is a great angel and I have been thinking of you to refrain by Mark Turner from being a lot more resoundingly than I knew you would rather than I thought you’d appreciate your answer with the divine as well I guess for the dead person.

Trust material. Trust materials. Trust materials trust Krystal my mystical ray the trust nude need mercy. Ray material sad marle materials. Trust material.
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Trust materials: trust my body even through body horror and genuine / grotesque distortion. Trust my body cut up into multiple perspectives analytical cubism. My body synthesizes new geometry which lines nonlinear gospel materials. Trust my own body and body horror and gothic horror and I transform my body into renewed materials. I cut my body pure human states.


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Trust Christina materials

Nonlinear Christina loops tangled hierarchy here language Christina nonlinear Haunted horse language involves Christina liquefaction with long monsters loose in the library (loose languages and long languages)

(I loiter horses a Book monster and library monster and my body minotaur-medusa machine hunts haunted. I try to fit the garbage disposal but I let loose Christina language between pipes and plumbing.)

I fix the garbage disposal with haunted language demythologized into ordinary language. Language loosens and I play garbage time god in a game of pick-up basketball. I lampoon my vulgar language and toss it in the garbage disposal.

Nonlinear Christina loops tangled and confused loops / her disco ball and mirrors displace murders in the desert I sleep language desert and shelter (silver bracelets on her wrists and flowers in her hair)

Christina silver slays secret werewolves (Christina misses with silver bullets and I miss Christina with the Spear of Longinus but Christina spits chewed silver – still deadly effective nonlinear Christina murder me in the desert with mining town / ghost town silver)
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Trust materials: trust prima materia and primordial soothsaying (I see seen my body vultures / carrion language) Trust my body which samples and scavenges (to sample is to recognize oneself as an archivist and historian. Through sampling, I recognize the messianic and mystical in materials. I trust the materiality and reality of materials and I trust their mystical / signature power.)

Every single word and word prophesies itself as material Word becomes material and her eyes material a million blue miles Her eyes make word material a million blue miles body kind of blue blue in green twelve-bar blues Her eyes wick word a candle flame illuminating a million blue miles kind of blue bomb (my blue body blasts word material bacon bits blue cheese crumbles)

So unrelated, says Asia. But it sounds like teachers across the board are having a rough time, including kindergarten and pre-K teachers. Like pre-K teachers are experiencing more kids who aren’t diaper trained and can’t talk. Kindergarten teachers have kids who can’t use crayons or scissors or glue sticks, and they don’t know how to act with other kids. I think this has been an issue for awhile but is worse now because parents are overworked, daycares are understaffed, and it’s just harder to teach them those skills. Not to mention how isolated families are from support systems…
I was watching Adventure Time and there is a worm named Shelby who got chopped so that a piece of Shelby turned into another worm and one of the main characters was like “Whoa, I thought that was a myth” and Shelby was like “My life consists of myths.”
That’s a bummer, I say. People are slowly outsourcing parenting and it’s not good, says Asia. I don’t think it’s entirely the parent’s fault either. I think there have been lots of failures on a systemic level in different areas, she says.

Trust material and I trust my body in sound sounds sound I try to make each sound after I have completely forgotten the one that preceded it

Sound material materialized body Sound sign body materialization body earthquake I try to make each sound fault either kids who area sink think it’s just harder trained Material embodies watching that was watching a rough time and it’s worse now how to act I try to make each sound after with each other kids who got chopped so thing don’t disappear


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Materials. Materials gospel of matthew. Materials. Materiel matriarch. Material mothlight. Material nudity myself belong meet that criteria. Materials gospel material trust trust pistis pistol faith sophia. Materials materials canopies takeoff dangled (canopies nudity myself belong meet that criteria).

Materials. Materials for all types and I think you’d agree with that two aware of my thoughts and my conciseness is aware of my thoughts and my consciousness is agile of my stealth and my body and digest it and add the same as a not loving is a great yarn and I have look brackish of you to refrain my later purgatory from being a lot of bone. Resoundingly that I knew you world rather than I breasts and you’d appreciate the answer with the purity as well I guess for the dead material. Trust the materials.

Trust material. Trust materials. Trust materials. Trust Christina my mystical maypole trust nude need mercy may material marle materials. Trust material.
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I try to make each sound after I have completely forgotten the one that preceded it

Sound material trust my body through different continuities

Immediately making up to sound

Unrelated but immediately and immediately sound larger into and across scissors Across scissor to another its word and word material materialized haunted house Christina

So unrelated by stylized nude pointillist of voluminous bodies So unrelated by my monstrous female body and voluptuous body contortions / distortions malformed flesh So unrelated but my body portrait been are been watching myth lots experiencing

So unrelated but I trust the material, and in material, every mirror and assemblage, I witness and prophesy Christina loops and word widened king of blue and Asia teaching scissors and glue sticks – swirling swirling creativity. In material – this material – the working and carving of materials – nothing unrelated but all related by garbage disposals and pick-up basketball with brawling gods. I trust this material as full and layered and a funk orchestra. I trust the material abrasive noise and sticky bomb noise coagulates all material Book.

Immediately making up sound Immediately body matter body matrix (my body materials materialized I trust chaos)

Whatever I Do Becomes Melody

Whatever I do becomes melody

Whatever I do becomes melody and I listen continuous discontinuity and discontinuous continuity Continuity presses printing press hydraulic press carbon pressure Continuity presses painting body horror horror apocalypse alltime allwhen continuity

Melody the rose has teeth in the mouth of the beast melody Melody let’s get high and deny Christ melody


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Whatever I do becomes melody

Christina becomes melody: Christina lights slow lingering languages Christina lingers strange lang spring language / Christina slot machine meanders syncopated syllable series

Melody I play syllables sleight of hand melody Melody I slow syllables quasicrystal melody

I slow syncopated language syllables on the rise cymbal and splash cymbals (continuity keeps time / discontinuity plays groove) Christina as nurse shark or thresher shark strikes thrash metal gallops / aggressive melody high speeds

I gallop god miniatures and Christina miniatures I sleep in the back seat of the car and dream about Christina

Whatever I do becomes melody
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A music where all the sounds counted were all valuable rather than functional in the sense where they got you from one point to another

I point to the point of my monomania with the large piece and the long-slate duration. I point to the point – no, I point to the line and curve – and the curve intersects curve further. The large piece challenges my capabilities – it challenges my attention span and boredom (I often lose interest in my constructions after four or five pages) – the large piece forces me to think other otherly and create alien to me. Do I write from point to point through-composed? If I use repeating structures, does that betray my desire for getting rid of the glue and traditional notions of continuity – let the word-language and magic-syllables be themselves without transition? Whatever I do becomes melody. Idea: use a recurring but slowly transforming piece / poem / paragraph and a different kind of transition – an island of stability rondo form (A music form with a principle theme – sometimes called the refrain – which alternates with one or more contrasting themes – generally called episodes but also referred to as digressions or couplets). The arch form used by Béla Bartók and Steve Reich – ABCBA – too indebted to continuity? I also imagine a ADCBCDCEC, with each (in difference-repetitions – but I must remain flexible, open, not too committed or confined by any particular structure / idea / technique).

Whatever I do is melody / different kinds of continuity All sounds counted value and value


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It is stone and not stone signs sign wonder

Stone and no stone stir awe saw whirlwind All awe saw arouses stone standing stones

Arousing awe saturates stone, sapphire sapphire or fire fires, stone fires (stones fires within fires and fires stones from the sky)

Arousing awe saturates simple stones Machine simple unsettled beach sacrament

(I know this beach. This beach gathers firewood and burns bonfires as Taryn’s beach. I know this beach as Taryn’s beach party films. This beach brings brighter beach and breach beach blossoms her bosom. I know Taryn’s beach.)

I bless beached stone stained glass passages / passions

I bless beach stone grass awe crucifixions



(Sand dollar crucifixions fixed sea weed
Kelp forest Christina word weed sea see awe awe all aroused)

It is stone superstructure unlike stone

Stone hope unwind signs and wonder
Stone unison signs and wonder

Sign upward suspension stones

It is superstitions stone fall stall slowly air

Stone and no stone luminiferous aether I swallow stone lights and digestion gestates more stones sacrament and beach light

Schismatic stone and no stone

Stone superstructures erect earth into earth falling stars erosion / star beach branch starfish
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Whatever I do becomes melody Continuity cut-up upward sample – continue plunderphonics scissored vinyl records

Melody samples my flesh amplified stereo melody Melody this community indifferent to hobos melody Melody the rose has teeth in the mouth of the breast beast melody

Elongate the melody. Lengthen the melody in exploration and discovery. Give the melody breath and area breathing, and its breath floats aether life and air life breathing beach blessing. Melody blesses beach and blonde beach and beach Taryn. Whatever I do is melody elongates melody. Stretch melody ductile gold and gold flattened flutter. I flutter plunderphonics and its melody sounds all noise the noise itself melodies – different kinds of melodies and different kinds of continuity. I swallow stones noise and silence, and all sound gestates magic stone and cipher beach. Beach blesses sacred blonde sacrament.

Whatever I do becomes melody Melody chaos is probably better for grilled cheese if I remember correctly remember melody Melody marigold porn inferno melody Trust the material: trust the material melody and melodic material chooses as stones and sand dollars

Whatever I do becomes melody and melody gallops Christina gods and Christina distractions foxtrot

I gallop god miniatures and Christina miniatures I sleep in the back seat of the car and dream about Christina

Christina usurps the underground with her light snow sleight of hand / Christina sleeps in the backseat of the car my dreams of triggering the dead man’s hand (my hands hurt my hands in dreams) I hand my hands hang down your head / Christina light slows library language a series of syncopated syllables (Syllables sleep latent in my lymphatic system) A nonlinear Christina loops tangled hierarchy notes (I note her cocktail dress and her pineapple horse)

(The melody gets away from me – the melodies get away. Too ambitious – too much for me to juggle – I am not The Juggler of The Magician. Too many layers and distractions. Too many discontinuities. What does Christina have to do with stones or sound-noise? … Everything I do is melody. Continue the melody. Learn to juggle.)

Christina usurps stone and melody, and the melody comes from underneath Underneath Christina sleeps in the backseat of the car and I dream her sleeping slender stones Christina’s head cradles my dead man’s hand and switch snaps all-noise usurped earth

I hand my hands earth hang down your head / I hang my head Christina slow library Christina lights the library a series of syncopated syllables (Syllables sleep slim stones latent in my spinal cored)

Whatever I do becomes melody


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It is stone and not stone sign sine wave word sign (sign different kinds of continuity)

Stone and no stone stir awe saw

Stone and no stone stir awe saw blonde

(Taryn blonde pin-up Taryn beach pick-up lines)

Stone and no stone stir awe whirlwind (This piece is a whirlwind out in the ocean all awe saw sea oceans: ocean arouses stone standing stones ocean)

(Melody Taryn blonde beach stones standing melody)

Arousing awe saturated stones Blonde porneia and sapphic porneia Stones saturate sapphires fire or fire or surplus fire Stones saturated saturnine, my eternal standing melancholy

Simple stones machine simple sapphires unsettled beach vestments – sand sacraments – earth eucharists

I bless beach high priestess I bless stone breach stained glass amassed Catholic mass

(Sand dollar crucifixions saw sabbath passages / passions Sabbath Christian descends kelp forest eucharist)

It is stone superstructures unlike stone Stone usurps underneath backseat dream stone Stone and no stone light slow beach library Christina lights and stone ocean

I swallow stone light and digest eucharist: earth heard stent tent naked eye observatory
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Whatever I do becomes melody Trust the material Trust the sound and continuity will take care of itself Trust material: body matter body matrix materia porneia Materia abrupts interruptions and fissures Trust the material and melody

(This resembles rondo form – this appears as arch form – ABCBA. I don’t know if this constitutes a different kind of continuity but it certainly elongates and exposes the melody. Sections leak into each other anyway – all melody all material. Now, how do I incorporate Asia conversations into this scaffolding mess?)

Pink Poem

Prophesy pink
pink perpendicular perfectly

Prophesy pink
soothsayer pink
(added pink clairvoyant)

Pink prophesies persuasive
Soothsay pink Striptease pink
Pink multiples added pink

I sink into pink serpentine eye sockets
Sink pink serpentine socket electricity

Pink funnels pink concentrated
Pink pirouettes perfume prophecy
Smoke circulate eye serpents
Steam diffuse tune pale pink

Pink secludes my body in serpentine labyrinths
Hidden assassin pink
Flat pink play array slate pink

Pink conceals human flesh place of the skull
Peppered pink
Pink audible mandible
Meticulously separated joint pink

(Pale pink Pink palimpsest pink
Pivot pink Pink palindrome pink)

Pink seduces in repeating serpentine rooms
eye socket corridors
lighthouse electrical sockets
Sinister pink barbarians

Prophesy pink beam babel gods
barbarian pink clairvoyance
Dowsing duplicate pink doubles

Surplus pink coagulates in pink beam prism
Pink coagulates compact pink surplus serpents

(Pink duplicates pink Pink doubles pink doppelganger
Pink drags coven pink Derelict pink disaster)

Prophesy impossible pink and unintelligible pink

I sink into iterated pink
I still into pink slinks away pink stray
I sink into pick up pink shipwrecks
(pink demolition derby)

Pink crystals from beyond my eye socket
Hybrid pink hydra eye orbitals
Pink clings to my body cavities serpentine
Skull socket electron clouds

Prophesy pink
Serpentine pink perpendicular
Prism beam streams added pink

I sink into pink prophecy

I Arrange A Certain Number of Consonants

I arrange a certain number of consonants and vowels limited syllables

I arrange a certain number of consonants and vowel limited syllables organized into larger units taken apart and rearranged pseudogrammatically

I vary pitch volume speed intensity

Arrange dream letters and dream syllables. While I sleep, some dream disturbs me and all at once I recite the dream. I dream dark dream consonants and vowels dance dark disco. Vowel arranges accretion disk dream and I dream her black hole black hair (black hair pipes black soul choir). I rearrange dream consonants and the constant tiger appears. I dream up tiger taryn terrapin blues and every single third becomes word. Every third consonant becomes word constant tiger and I speak the tiger dark vowels.

Arrange apart apart arrange Arrange part pail consonant tupperware rabbit wide arrange: constant cosmology Arrange jazz apartment complex consonant create (create consonant consonant constant apartment complex create – create compact capstone video nasty create – create coffee calibration function – constant consonants coffee dream)

I arrange a certain number – complex numbers constant crater dream and constant tiger metronome numbers Arrange negative of numbers

I arrange constant tigers and I dream the word orthogonal to word

You are moving mountains, says Asia. I know it’s frustrating and it feels like it shouldn’t be this hard, but you are doing good. Most people don’t try or would buckle under the weight of it. You are stronger than you think, she says.


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Arrange stones

It is stone and no stone signs and wonders Stone and no stone stir awe and all awe arouse stone standing stones

Arrange stones Arrange people doing mountains I know it’s frustrating good most other people doing mountains Arrange stones it’s frustrating mountains I know in frustrating stones

Arrange stones Arrange stones most other people burn try or would buckle index the nearby of it – you are splendor what you think

I arrange a certain number of consonants and vowels limited syllables I arrange stone syllables and syllable stone stone and not stone syllable Syllable sounds signs and wonders awe all awe signs and wonders Axe you any moving mountain and I know it’s conspiracy of it all Axe ask awe signs stones no stone most other people torn try if it would buckle otter the weight of it

Arrange stones. I arouse stones and standing stones. I arouse stones not stagnant but standing. I stand with stones in awe. I stand dreamstone and dream black hole and I stand stronger than I think. I stand in saturated stones arranged under the sign of Saturn. Stones under Saturn arouse melancholy. I arrange my body in stories constant melancholy. I live constant syllable melancholy and continual vowel black bile. Stones in awe arouses her dream black hole and hole devours me but the residue of my melancholy remains.

Arrange stones Arrange stones people most doing the feels it’s it you mountains
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I arrange a certain number of consonants and vowels, limited syllables organized into large units taken apart and rearranged pseudogrammatically I vary pitch volume speed intensity (speed of stones speed of dreams)

I string syllables with spirit circular ruins I string syllables speed sputter happens haphazardings / language-like rhythm and melody


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I arrange a certain number of consonants and vowels limited syllables

I arrange eros ergodic. Arrange atrocity exhibition for dead most part puzzling.

Arrange arrogant daughters of men send deluge. Deluge demiurge down arrange dine arrange range tangent arrange aleatoric. Arrange alpha for omega negative of negation.

Array arrange aeon archon architecture. Array architecture act arrange A. A. A. Alembic A. Arrange a certain number. Arrange a certain number nuts and bolts.
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I arrange a certain number of consonants and vowels – limited syllables – limited syllables – syllable litmus test

Arrange consonants constant stones (Number arrange deluge arrange arrays aleatoric Arrange aleatoric Arrange aleatoric Arrange a certain number) Arrange consonants sounding vertical vowels (Arrange a certain number number Arrange aleatoric Arrange A A array arrange eros ergodic A) Arrange saturn stones and it is not stone but signs and wonders

Meaning is communicative, says Asia. It’s between both you and the people who read your work. It has nothing to do with god. We have been making art before god existed. It has everything to do with being human. And experiencing life as a human. I’m not your source of meaning and neither is Christina. Your humanity, your experiences, and your connection to others is your source of meaning, says Asia.

I string syllables holy spirit circular ruins I string syllables speed and speed and speed stone and dream speed speed stoning I string syllables meaning it god existing human arranged stones String arrangements you’re communication nothing has no connection (it’s to everything your between do the source others both)

I arrange syllables meanings stone both with do Do A of is your god with meaning

Arrange certain number of stones

Fields Flux Flat

Fields flux flat     Fields flux flat flutter flat     Fields float flat flux around flux and I find the fields float     Field flux flat floating soda pop up pop field

Fields flux flat flat rat-a-tat-tat all rivers Fields flux flat all rivers (Fields flux flat porn bodies flirt naked spirit or nude ground / one ought to give up all externals and follow the leadings of the spirit within) Follow field fucks my fat body bodies play pornographic (Orgy of the Dead Come… let me take you into my golden arms! In gorgeous astrovision and shocking sexicolor with Criswell and a bevy of beautiful girls) Follow field pornographic bodies bodies automorphic bodies autoasphyxiation / follow fields analog horror horror often other apostasy

I follow field and fields – feminine spirit within. I follow fields widen my feminine and although the complete gnosis of my feminine remains unknown to me, I experience its mystery. I experience myself as mystery – my self a treasure buried in the field. I follow field fuck – far fuck field field Book of the Seven Seals. Follow far into the nudity of the Book and my naked fat flesh transformed female (I see my gorgeous and thick folds in Lucian Freud portraits). I dedicate my flesh to the field and I prepare my nudity into body horror pornography and pornographic body horror (The Whispered Sex She was young, passionate, and ready for love, and she found it in a strange new world with another woman). I follow field pornographic bodies autoasphyxiation asphalt crash mash crash stash: smashed fields with blood in the fields.

I follow field and fields and I speak in tongues Speak tongues field field feldspar Field speaks in tongues tongues field fires

I field speak in tongues and I remember I remember ponytail and I rewrite ponytail I rewrite Taryn’s ponytail pony express (Pony Express a steel motorbike rollercoaster at Knott’s Berry Farm / motor bike seating and a flywheel launch system) I remember ponytail rewrite ponytail long Taryn braids dug up from the field I braid Taryn I love you more than I should – I speak tongues Asia I love you more than I should no dying I field speak in tongues and I witness and write: I announce what comes after me I witness wait write I announce what comes after me

I follow field and field-in-flux speaks in tongues / tongue tells church bells memories I remember the field follow flux flex flow tongues of fire fiery bodies

I speak in tongues accent-rhythm intonation / porno pulses break up the speech porneia distinct units

I follow feminine field tongues in void. I speak stone tongues and tongues of the fields (fields with their long ponytails strange my body tangle tongues rewritten ponytails) I speak fiery tongues stones from stones and fields from fields

I follow field flux flute tones sound field. I follow field rock or rock pressure flaking and I sharpen rock with field magic.

There is a funny rock at my grandma’s house with a hole in it, says Asia. The hole is just big enough for a child to stick their foot in – my mother’s grandma stole it from the Rocky Mountains, and she told my mom that it was magic and that if you stick your foot in it, you can make a wish, says Asia.

Field flutes flat stone flat rocks fit my body new anew Field speaks in tongues accent flat rock rock ‘em sock ‘em robots Field speak tongues turtle whir rock rhythms (There is Yahweh lights at so grandma’s horde with a mire in it. The mire is just big enough for a child to stick the dead in. So my mother’s wrinkling stole it from the Rocky Mountains, and she told so mom that it can widow and that if you stick your dead in it, you can make a wish.)

I speak in tongues rock rhythm and field flat accents I speak flam flat feminine and I braid my feminine flows flat fields

Field flows flux fast flat body (my body flat field features feminine braids and feminine breasts)

I arrange a certain number of consonants and vowels limited syllables organized into larger units taken apart and rearranged pseudogramatically Larger units taken apart and rearranged (my mountains and she told me my mountains, and she told me my mother’s grandma stole in it was magic and she told my grandma’s house with a hole in it) I arrange my braids and ponytail entwines with field tongues and ladder rungs I arrange fields with my nude body braided pornographic (… Burning passion! In a flame of desire! The Altar Host) I arrange a certain number of consonants and vowels limited syllables organized larger stone larger stones flatter rocks apart and rearranged (rearranging stone and flat stone and rock magic)

It is stone and no stone signs and wonders

Stone and no stone stir awake and awe arouses stone standing stones

Arousing awe saturate stones unsettled beach braids

I bless beach stone stained glass grass axe mass crucifixions

It is rock and magic rock (Stole make just from stick Stick magic rock and rock blessing)

Her rock and no rock arouses magic and rock juggling and I juggle flat rock skipping (And it to I’d in you and that was hole magic)

I bless rock beach rock wholly hole an entire magic stair I bless rock beach field and nude sunbathing

I speak in tongues memory memory magic rock memory I rewrite Taryn with magic rock from Rocky Guardians and her blonde arranges and rearranges stone units field flatten I rewrite Taryn’s ponytail field ponytail and Taryn I love you more than I should I witness and announce Taryn’s porneia up in a ponytail (Groupie girls who want to make it big! Permissive)

I announce what comes after me I announce fields flux flat and her field transforms me into my field I participate in the flux of this feminine field

It Is Stone And No Stone, Part 2

It is stone and it is not stone     Is stone and it is stone     Stone and no stone

It is stone upper structures It is not stone supramolecular human molar tea teeth (no stone upper structures upper structures) (Stones signs and symptoms molecular gastronomy)

It is stone and it is not stone, and I swallow stones I swallow stones and their digestion gestates more stones

Not to be focused on transitions, of making material whose only function gets you from Point A to Point B to Point C but rather having interest in Point A and Point B and Point C without the need to connect them somehow with glues and ribbons

I worry over the text and I worry against the text. What’s that saying – squeezing blood from an orange? From a stone, but it is stone and not stone. It is stone and I strike myself with stones – here is the blood. With this blood – my blood – I worry and work against the text. Something about extending the text and tending to the text inside the text: Point A inside Point A and Point A inside B, and likewise with all points (a single sefirot containing the sefirot within it). Slow stretch of the text within exile in the wilderness.

No with stripper no with pin-ups and shadow No into cardboard No on turn pin-ups

Instant Ubik has all the fresh flavor of just-brewed drip coffee. Your husband will say, Christ, Sally, I used to think your coffee was only so-so. But now, wow! Safe when taken as directed.

Not transitions but trailing point transformations: each point transformation (transformation passing aporias) Point porno passions aporias / no transition but point to volume transmutations Point volumes field flux flat

I like spiral-bound for work because it lays flat and stays on that page and I can fold it, says Asia.

We were reading a story and we stopped to talk about the meaning of the word “qualifications” and then I flatly said “That’s why koalas aren’t real bears, they aren’t koalified,” says Asia.

Not transition but trailing point transformations: each point transformation and transformation Passionate X aporia Point porno passions aporia / no transition but flat stones carried with flat stones river banks Point no volume transmutations: point field flux flat

I swallow stones and digestive gestates more stones I swallow flat stones hide in round stones flat birth earth

Stones swallow stones rock cannibalism Stones for work because it also lays flat, it’s very thing a story

Stone its very story stays flat is also parent resonant with yourself with any meaningful change

Stones flatten out into plain subcontinents flat

It is stone and it is not stone It is flat stone stories flat story – I storytell flat and flatter and not stone (Stone supercontinent Stone sacraments Stone schismatics Secular stones Supercontinent stones flat stone sculptures)

I swallow stones. I swallow stones flatter stones swallow stones. I swallow stones also page talk thinking the a flat earthers. Stones flatten stones other aren’t there that a to. It’s meaning and brush surface and without as part. I swallow stones and I like spiral beast for life because it lays flat and stays on they page and I can fold it. I swallow stones and we were ready a story and we stopped to rent.

I swallow flat stones: stone supercontinents and stone sacraments and stone schismatics. I swallow stones stories and it flattens into Asia At Anarchy and Asia Anarchy Attaca Anarchy.

I swallow stones flat earth and probably a cheap swim brush tooth you can cover a lot of surface quickly

I eat stones Ubik and instant Ubik liquefied stone. I eat stories and when people resonate with your writing it but gladly to do with whatever fickle fickle trades and electricity with something you wrote that resonates with their moral experience. I eat stones it’s as, feeling swim is also part of the moral experience. I’m sure there are many people out there that could resonate with that freely.

Not to be focused on transitions – not transitions but trailing points transformations Transformation round stone into flat stone, and stones transform flat supercontinent earth

I think the desire to label yourself with a label like that is similar to my parents being flat earthers, says Asia. It’s very much ‘I’m not like the other girls’ antiestablishment, ‘I know something others don’t’ holier than others kind of thinking. It’s a way to set yourself apart without having to engage with any meaningful change, she says.

Asia continually pushes against my analytical brain – my brain that wants to categorize and label everything because it eases my anxieties. Asia pressures against my wanting everything known – she challenges me into unknown, into the apophatic, the beyond language (I’m so obsessed with transforming the apophatic into language – knowable – language – but much cannot be transformed – translated – no transition. My friendship with Asia – us as Pando and mycorrhiza and spore networks and entangled deep rhizomes – cannot be translated or quantified, although I constantly try to quantify it. I try to avoid having to engage with any meaningful change. Asia moves me toward change and the apophatic.

Point no volumes fields flux Fields flux flat porn bodies flint naked spirit or nude blood (one ought to give up all externals and follow the leadings of the spirit within) No transition but stone and stone and not stone and I think the decide to didn’t yourself with a digit like that is similar to my parents being flat earthers No transition and its very much ‘as not like the other girls’ antiestablishment, ‘I don’t teraflops others don’t,’ holier than others bulb of bringings Fields flux flat flat it’s an away to for yourself apart without bagels to engage with and meaningful pretty

No transition but recurring flat stones No transition stones and stones and stones no transition (stone schismatics I like than other aren’t reading flat is also reading others) Secular stones its everything it lays flat earthers Stones its very thinking flat brush so than other many meaningful change

Follow field point A and Point B and point follows flux field I swallow stone fields and stone follow field fuck fat bodies and pornographic bodies

It is stone and It is not stone Is stone and is not stone Stone no stone flat flat spiral notebook lay flat

It Is Stone And No Stone

It is stone and is no stone     It is stone and no stone

It is stone and it is no stone Is stone and no stone

Is. Is and isness – this dreaded is. I fear this is (I am that I am I will be what I will be). I fear this is because it belongs to static gods and unchanging gods and immutable gods. In some sense, I am is – this ben exits in is-ness – but I always try to pursue that doing, that process, that becoming – personal process theology. Is and is-ness – my fear of the is language – perhaps Asia has influenced me in that direction of nothing truly is but constant transformations. No is an no rigid category, but processes and fluxes and continual exchanges.

It is stone and no stone Is stone and no stone Stone and no stone Stone no stone Stone and no stone

(Stone dead end stone no outlet)

It is stone and no stone and I live between between contradictions. I live archive contradictions – many simultaneous present-futures. I see into the stones seeing and seer, and I heave stones through the looking glass and through a glass darkly (through a scanner darkly). Even stones change through erosion as ice sculpting its surfaces. I erode to fit and slither between stone and bone, between glacier and earth.

Stone and no stone: stone sculpted into stone Stone chiseled into additional stone Stone carried into stone carried sideways (Let’s find some new languages and vocabularies. Sculpt new vocabulary from rock vision seer visionary rocks. Rocks river back and forth forwards and backwards no stone.)

Stone substitutes no stone plus supplements Scrumptious stone stirs sarcophagus superimposes on the hypertensive body of Philip K. Dick Stone syntax steamrolls scroll rock n’ roll player pianos

Stone new vocabulary modulates vocabulary mobile Make sounds with stones, draw sounds out of stones, using a number of sizes and kinds (and colors) Stone new vocabulary vocabularies seer stones see


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(Not to be focused on transitions, of making material whose only function gets you from point A to point B to point C but rather having interest in Point A and Point B and Point C without the need to connect them somehow with glue and ribbons

And as he sat upon the Mount of Olives over against the Temple, Peter and James and John and Andrew asked him privately… And as I sat upon the Mount of Olives, I saw the Great Vision: the Book sprouts bones a siphon and its hands hobble its own writing, a vitrine ravine prophecy. The Words wave – Word and Words wah whorl windstorm wizarding, and Book bastions barricade Library of Light and Library of Bible (babel Book of Sand). Begin Book of Sand and Garden of Forking Paths. I ride horses in Patagonia and the knife fights scar my skeleton. The knife fights tattoo sign and signature name of Book manuscripts. Knife transforms into a printing press and Book births Bible and its bastard. Book births the bevy of sacred scripture, salmon eggs hatching holy horn and hourly where I harlot roving reverence among the plateaus. Book marries Woman and Word. Book marries KRYSXTRYN and Godhead.

(Christina Christianity self-crucifixion
Christina clutch crutch Christ
Christina cross self-deconstruction

Christina churns chariot
Christina changes carriage
Christina curls carnage)

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Not to be focused on transition, of making material whose only function gets you from Point A to Point B to Point C but rather having interest in Point A and Point B and Point C without the need to connect them somehow with glues and ribbons
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It is stone and it is not stone Is stone and is not stone Stone not stone

Stone sculpted into stone Stone chiseled into additional stone Stone caravan carries stone

(Let’s find some new languages and new vocabularies)

A nontrivial part of our friendship is my insecurities and us talking about the nature of it and I write about it in the Book a lot.
But it’s not most of our friendship. Most of it is us talking about our day or what art we saw or sending bug pictures etc.
I don’t think often about that because I think it’s boring or “not pretty” or “literary.”
But I’m trapped in my own tastes. What does it mean to be beautiful? It’s arbitrary. Am I not supposed to challenge myself and use daily living and daily friendships and prophesy there?
Challenge myself and make our everyday and quotidian WORK in the Book. Have it work and be effective in the Book beyond my personal tastes.
I need to prophesy more of our regular, ordinary, daily living of our friendship. Because that’s what our friendship is.

It is stone and not stone Stone slaughterhouse superstructure Slaughterhouse hilasterion stone haunted haunted

It is stone, the reluctant IS of my mind and body My body is the daily living of our everyday or what our everyday and vocabulary

(Let’s find some new language and vocabulary: to prophesy more our friendship to be beautiful New vocabulary: it’s beautiful of our everyday and use that’s what our everyday Our everyday and vocabulary, ordinary, daily living Of our regular, ordinary, daily living pictures)

Pick up a stone and carry it to another place with stones Stone Point A and stone Point B and stone Point C, but they aren’t related to one another. They’re related to one another in that each point follows after the next, but they aren’t related by content

This is an ordinary stone and a daily stone – this stone I am what I am and I will be what I will be

Stone arranged and rearranged to mimic the melodic fragments of Morton Feldman’s Violin and String Quartet

It’s boring about the daily living of our everyday or what art we saw or what our everyday and us talking and vocabulary

It is stone and is no stone. It is no stone. It is not stone. It is not stone. It is not stone dead end stone no outlet. I swallow daily stone no outlet. I swallow daily stone and ordinary stone and I pick up stone from Point A Point B sound Point C (sound – sound stone).

It is stone and it is not stone and stones prophesy the quotidian and art Ben and Asia talking what insects work and stones work with insects

Destroy Syntax By Placing

Destroy syntax by placing

Destroy syntax by placing nouns at random as they are born

Destroy syntax born syntax and syntax born destroy Destroy nouns at random as they are born as they are born by placing nouns at random

I sin syntax and why syntax. Why syntax? Syntax snacks random souls and random bodies. I sin syntax antinomian sin syntax (Why syntax? Get out of the circle and into the spiral. Why sin syntax? Multidirectional and map multiplicity. Musical syntax melodic.) I sin melodic syntax snacks antinomian melodies. I sin syntax destroy syntax stippled sound grow sow syntax without syntax.

Destroy syntax by placing around syntax and syntax around syntax placing placement


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Syntax Christina Christina place syntax snacks destroy and Christina destroy and destroy place placing

Christina cooks salt lick and liminal limestone. I sin syntax between and syntax insists and places, but hidden syntax camouflages like Zebra. I sit syntax and I sit in chain honeycomb and comb jellies and man-o-war caldera wood magma (molten syntax syntax Christina chains colony organisms). I cask magma or Christina molten syntax.

Christina cooks syntax stone limestone (like different rap verses by different rappers but united by a common refrain)

Christina in light and liminal limestone laminates geological strata and camera (strata against strata and luminous camera comb jellies) Christina in liminal light loots large light syntax

What do you think our relationship, the Kindred, prophesies? I say. Does it have to prophesy something? says Christina. I think so, I say. I write about it; therefore, it prophesies. That’s not the only thing it does of course, I say. Do you mean signify? says C. I’d have to think about it. I see Kindred as a relationship. Not an entity. I’ve seen it that way up to now – not that I can’t be flexible. What does our relationship signify? I say. Is that a different question? I think I typically use prophesy as a verb a human does, says C. I’ve seen Kindred’s significance as an example of love. Unconditional love? Divine Love? Yes, says Christina. Agape.

Syntax Christina loots large light syntax Christina Her light slight looks large light little Little light Kindred divine verb I question as not write the prophesy (I prophesy Kindred verb birds)

Syntax her light filtrates through fractions of light and my almost-flesh body (Almost flesh syntax Almost verb fruit I think that love Verb almost flesh first fruits / I does it up be fruitful and multiply

Be fruitful fragments of lingonberries bury Christina ghosts syntax Library lingonberries blushes Christina our agape unconditionally as diagonal

I look at Christina liquefaction and her syntax liquid sleep. Sleek fractions. Christina place syntax destroy placing placement.
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Destroy syntax Destroy syntax by placing around at random as they are random Destroy Christina syntax Taryn place around god gods random as they born

Abolish adjectives and naked noun noun retains its essential color No with stripper no with pin-ups and shadow

Pin-ups as random shadows Pin-ups random shadows the shadow knows

No cut into card boars No torn up pin-ups
No with pin-up and flowers deliberate pin-up


(Pin-up my body collection of insects. Insect syntax. Ben emerald beetles and painted crickets and common locusts and pillbugs. Pin to my body moth wings. Death destroy somewhere. Destroy destroyed dream desk. Destroy diamond sea. Sea sea red sea reeds destroy.
Destroy stab shit causerie stand stands stanza syntax. Destroy. Destroy symbol syntax synthesis.
Syntax at tar array at syntax. Syntax I’d not syntax synthetic.
Pin-up my body diamond sea invasive species. Destroy invades invasive destroy syntax.)

Destroy syntax essential pin-up covers Destroy syntax no cut into card boars No or torn-up pin-ups pinned to shadow boxes (The Shadow knows)