Sentence spy six sun Sentence seduce spy syntax fuck Spy fuck syntax sun garden of forking paths I garden sentence last supper gore (I come into my garden, my sister, my promised bride I pick my myrrh and balsam I eat my honey and honey comb)
Sentence spy six son of man meander sea Meander sea saw kingdom of the skies four fuck insects Four insects sentence apocalypse
Syntax fuck fuck syntax fragment fork fragment Syntax fuck fork fit unfocus / my clothes fit better since exercising more I expect syntax experiment exercise / I exercise improvisation fuck pale fire
Sentence seduce sun sphygnoid cosimetry blood circuit cricket syntax I expect syntax and I measure the presence and viscosity of blood Blood bless viscous sun sentence
Very good use of our conversation, says Asia. I sound completely unhinged. That was a conversation with Christina, I say. Why do I remember saying something similar? The fact that someone else was more unhinged about isopods tells me I need to up my game, she says. Did you like the blog post? I say. I did. I still think that the anarchic word quilt is hard to follow for extended periods of time but that’s just me. I like your use of repeated phrases to add cohesion, says Asia. I like your description “anarchic word quilt”, I say. I want to explore repetition more in different ways. I know that people will have their favorite writing style parts. Some people will want all the anarchic word quilts and think the conversations and metacommentary are banal and regressive while others will love the humanity of the conversations and dislike the perceived incoherence of the word quilt. Pretty much, yeah, says Asia. What works for me annoys other people and vice versa, she says.
I experiment John Coltrane both directions at once / I desire the totality of my pluralism and polystylism and even my collage of quotations (Do I contradict myself? Very well then I contradict myself I am large, I contain multitudes) I contain mixed multitudes, heresies, schisms, and heterodoxies – I embrace my plural word totality
Sentence stick stow stire store viscous blood Blood boil sentence stephanoberycifomes crucible figures ben body barabbas (Sentence simmer subtle body blood viscous vibration) (Sentence sinner simmer subtle creole language laugh lattice lattice lynx spiral shell big cat) Ray-finned sentence steady repetition: ray repetition reveals Asia rhizome Sentence ray-fine fishes fissure weather weird fishes furniture arpeggio A rare sentence strike hike ridge pigeon / pigeon jousts huntresses and hunter-gatherers god gossamer
Sentence rather than skull bones
Sentence rather repetitions rake bones bone skull sentence Sentence select repetition ride rhizome ripe (a ripe god ferments and I drink its putrid body old wine in old wineskins)
Rather than skull sentences last supper sutures Last supper serpent sentences tongue slick sutures / last supper suck serpent saturn ring sentences
(I contemplate an astrological saturn that subtlety influenced Sabbatai Sevi’s mania and melancholy, and I feel saturn’s imaginary waters swerve my melancholy too) (waters serve melancholy and mania last supper)
Last supper serpent sentences camera chasm cataracts compact cataract contact saturn rings rink ravager Polynomial ring sentences river skulls stones escahton and her ring run rupture Her rings run sun rapture rat king black death (I miss my orbitosphenoid bone but it now works hot rod bootleggers) Sentence rather suture occult bolt saturn lightning
Sentence symblepharopterygium sand gypsum god dolly limestone
Sentence squeeze trapezium cesium clock glassjaw I gently insert glass shards into my jaw a jerusalem mosaic (an abnormal joining of the eyelid to the eyebrow)
How was the new Bluey episode? I say. Very heartwarming, says Asia. Apparently a lot of Bluey fans are MAD that they gave the special a happy ending. Art equals angst and sad, don’t you know that? Happy is easy and not art - that’s why my writing is so MAD. No, says Asia. [editor’s note: spoilers for Bluey] They kept the house because Bandit decided to choose his family over the new job that would require all of them to move. It’s not about “good” or “bad” endings. It’s about centering the people in your life that you care about it. EAT IT BLUEY FANS. Why are Bluey fans mad? I say. They wanted Bandit to move? Yes, they wanted a sad ending. Make children cry, that’s how you make good TV, says Asia. I do think there's an idea that true art is angsty and depressing and sad, and happy, heartwarming stuff is not true art, I say. Lies and propaganda to sell boy band merch, says Asia. I think it’s a pretty old idea, I say. That’s why Beethoven is better and more true than Mozart, because Beethoven is EMOTIONAL and ANGSTY. Beethoven was also a boy band, says Asia. Beethoven was also a dog, I say. Dog band, says Asia. Band boy dog. Hey don’t copy my anarchic quilt writing, I say. Get your own style. No, originality is for cowards, says Asia. I’m stealing that for the Book, I say. That’s very brave of you, says Asia.
The Book means THE JOY OF LANGUAGE The Book means THE PLAY OF LANGUAGE The Book means IN THE BEGINNING WAS THE WORD The Book means LOGOS SHE LIGHTS THE LIGHTS The Book means KRYSXTRYN + ASIA RHIZOME DIVINE LANGUAGE
Sentence sea sex sound saw collage spontaneous composition Sentence sea sky stay split sex hex sound sentences (two notes constant intermittent three notes constant intermittent)
Sea sentence shit sound collage spontaneous composition / spontaneous generation (fleas arise from dust and maggots arise from flesh) Sentence span flesh sand in sequence scorpions and I sleep sick I sick sleep sentence
Sentences sediment spills secret gospels I sentence spool sediment speak sick sleep silk Silk spine sentences explode host horde flesh language (three notes constant intermittent four notes constant intermittent intermediate immediate intermediate value theorem) I stress secret syntax rolling serpent stresses Sentence sediment stress sand secret syntax
I song sentence scripture scripture soil spontaneous (spontaneous snow cloisters scarab silences)
I sleep quiet snow sequenza skeleton memory I sleep radio quiet storm skeleton kelp forest (seat Christina seaweed memory rhizome brain residue tar pit rest dust)
Two notes constant intermittent Three notes constant intermittent Four notes constant intermittent Immediate I transform tempo Taryn ten thousand things Taryn rhine rhizome rind render ten thousand ben fat cat in the hat host languages I host languages rhizomes sound snow constant I host gospel dispel body distillation and sound cloud condenses collage barrage snow tempos
Vowels voice gospel noise / snow crackles quiet quake Christianities
I sleep sentence something skews new new skull scald I don’t know if I know the Book as a word, a fragment, or a sentence / I don't know if I know the Book as a phoneme, a morpheme, or mere sound loud ten thousand things (I look for what covers Book, its essential sound-syntax-synaptic languages and the language crowd son of man loud low bomb body bow iron)
I sleep Book daily resurrections
I sleep spontaneous sentence sound cloud collage snow hostages Hostage flesh host sadomasochist Christ crucifies desert vowels Two sound constant intermittent Two or three human bodies constant intermittent
Ben adam body vowel desert intermittent intermedia I body hammer sound collage giant sequoias / I work redwood word sequoia awake
Sentence sound gas giant god / The giant gorilla lay on the pavement The giant gorilla lay on the pavement god gasoline gospel gas gospel gyroscope crucifix spinal cord (I recognize my writing approach: the limits of a remixed collision of nonsense, absurdities, and surrealism, and the pile-up polyphony nears complete incoherent without any accessible entry point Asia continually critiques the Book over its lack of accessibility and its electric speeding octopus stuffs / I spew ink to evade her criticism Asia says: You need to communicate I ask myself: how do I effectively communicate the apophatic? How do I communicate effectively – or perhaps efficiently – supernal darkness and superluminary darkness? How do I effectively – or perhaps efficiently – communicate the playful desert deconstruction and wilderness woman word? I have no immediate answers for these questions but part of writing the Book means working with my collaborators – right now, Asia Rhizome – to figure out how to write the Book The book records its own process of creation and maturation (I come to the horrifying conclusion that I must return to scripture anew – to wrestle with the Christian Bible again, and Nag Hammadi too) (I write and rewrite secret gospel and hidden god spell)
Asia requests a rhizome repetition bright red repeat cross woman Asia rainforest festers rhizome repetition real god rollick / rolling accents raw rock n’ roll
I Hope Asia Likes My Experiments
Anyway aside arena way any animations Anyways Asia always-already alert rhizome / rhizome slash-and-burn sentences tendon rainforests Asia among rainforests sprawl angel radial radially symmetrical Asymmetrical radio waves rainforest rivulets ripieno
Slide any aside sort of abstract expressionism rhizome Asia
I work any language slides aside size Asia Rainforests I work whir water after canal angels I read the sentence alone seduction work (THE FLIMSY REPORT Fun with Dr. Flimsy and his report on the sex life of the american female I not only read it – I sent in 69 pages of information) I work the sentence alone angel instruments and I sing sentence machines monster party I skin the sentence alone alive odor olives and olives pour orange oil lovely light I work light alone online lag limerence I work long lag light lift shift desolation angels
Long lag limerick leed palm wine verse slag curses Slag curves cruse queue line limping lights
Verse verse vision verse chorus verse / rudder verse repetition rubble ruins Rubble rubber soul ruins verse forest rhizome Visions repeat verses irregular rhythm / monster party pulses Verse pulse peacock schema rubble / I run rubble schema schismastic erratic verses Schismatics hack attic addict ring trains the very pulse of the machine
Sentence sleeps surreptitious sleep it appears that brief microsleep cannot be avoided Sentences see sleep desert deprivation drip rock flat aria arid sentence Sentence aria aether ache see long-term total sleep deprivation has caused death in lab animals I sleep sentence surfaces make / face pulses monster party parses
Sentence submerges no soap radio sentence Sentence immerses soap sit radio attic Submarine sentence sway green leaf aquamarine manic vegetation I sleep vegetable virgin verse fertility deity Sentence see wind wheat harvest deity
I secret the sentence security through obscurity (the enemy knows the system)
I pray sentence a secret place / security through obscurity I pray the sentence asleep desolation angels way any
I transform the sentence secret erotic explicit pornography pulses I seduce sentence pornography secret prayer rare ar anyway rhizome Apophatic pornography glyph material bodies glitter apophatic graph body cloud flesh close face horrors (big men with throbbing machines, and the girls who take them on… they ripped of his mama.. so he tore chopper city apart! ANGELS AS HARD AS THEY COME) Angels at any I pray pornographies pack lack my flesh (my flesh flows time and flows through time) (my flesh flows flux clumsy porneia provoke kingdom)
Pornography punches lab prayer over body time cards (About this X: Preview audiences have indicated that “Female Trouble” includes scenes of extraordinary perversity. The distributor therefore wishes to caution the potential viewer that “Female Trouble’ might be seen as sexually and morally offensive) Porneia pulses pulse pursue sleep lab body peek Sleep perk porneia metanoia knob sentence nous
Sentence trap hi-hat hit fuck syntax: fuck syntax panpornographic a tempo blood clot Sentence peak blood let perverse peg god pogs
God grossflammenwerfer work flesh fire perverse Krystal kleinflammenwerfer fuck syntax klein bottle (I kissed the bottle I should have been kissing you) God punch polka cemetary porenia I repurpose penis god perverse: curt pert face phallus
God Gnathobeladontinae ejaculates jackdaw love my big sphinx of quartz My jaw juts shovel orgasm My jaw jab gym gem work facets care dovetail shovel / I shovel human jaws from the collapses silver mine I mine mingle wire jaw weird west periodical / weird west wet playboy I pray and golf the languages pornographic absurd absurd
God ganglioneuroma God geochronology God galactosylceramide jabberwocky God glossodyniotropism God lags lots of guts genocide gender jump jaws 3D
I experiment and I hope Asia likes my experiments I experiment with mostly subtle language things: shifting languages and overlapping languages quiet play I hope to experiment big and wide too and I try to write things Asia will like Perhaps someday I will write short story segments / vignettes with actual plot and embed them in the Book
Conversations With Asia 08/08/2020 3:52 AM
I keep having dreams about babies and being pregnant, says Asia. Do you want babies and to be pregnant? Yes. I think your dreams mean you have a desire to have babies and be pregnant. Probably, says Asia. It’s just annoying because we have to change our living situation before I start thinking about that. You have a lot of time in your life still, I say. Yeah, I guess so. My fiance wants to travel – obviously he is going to be involved in the decision to have kids – and people keep telling me to put it off, but I feel I’ve been putting my life on hold. I’m about to be 26, how much longer do I have to wait? My aunt told me that I should do what my other aunt did and go traveling after getting married. I told her, “Do you want to know what that aunt DIDN’T do? Four years of college.” Either way, gotta get a place of our own first. That will be a very exciting part of your life, getting your own place, I say. I’m so excited – I can’t wait to decorate it. Basically thrift store finds, vibrant colors, and plants. I will also put an obscene amount of wind chimes around the premises, says Asia.
Asia married, she owns a house, she has a lovely daughter: I feel proud of Asia for achieving her goals. I feel proud that she has grown tremendously and she has become a strong and healthy person. Recently we had a conversation about this when she vented to me about a conflict at her work:
It’s not hard to not result to aggression just because you get annoyed at them, says Asia. Fucking talk to them. COMMUNICATE. Yeah, I say. I mean I annoy you all the time and we are still friends – we should give classes. I’ve never been a co-teacher before, says Asia, but even from day one I figured, “Hey I have to share the class room and work in tandem with this person so I should talk to them about what their classroom expectations are and what they were thinking their co-teacher role was so that we are on the same page and I don’t overstep” and we have had several conversations if I thought I overstepped or if I thought something might be a problem. I have pretty good chemistry with both my co-teachers but I worked from day one to make sure I communicate with them… My co-teacher was shocked in the way he talked to me and how I stayed levelheaded. I joked about how I’m used to dealing with my crazy mother. It didn't even phrase me – I just made sure he heard what I said and I told him what was going to happen… Can’t wait to tell my therapist about this, says Asia.
Asia has become one of my heroes in my life and I admire her and aspire to her creative and personal transformations I would like to write experiments Asia likes I struggle finding balance or cohesiveness between the personal and my friendship with Asia, and my writing experiments and plagiarized-contextualized poetries What unifies the sections and subjects is us: Ben and Asia Ben and Asia write and read and participate in their own creation of the writing
God grossflammenwerfer wedge nerf word gak green glean wheat fire Graffiti god gasoline galoshes fire geometries / fire female trouble trouble taryn tonic double dragon
A flammable god gesture hinge pigeon graphite fight fight fight
God gnathobelodontidae tusk tak kat rhizome God eonta edit cusps kill god crucifixions (From then onwards Jesus began to make it clear to his disciples that he was destined to go to Jerusalem and suffer grievously at the hands of the elders and priests and scribes and to be put to death and to be raised up on the third day)
God gores train tusks concerto grosso
God gores gown gone got fire god God gores whores hole hordes god God gores train tusk rush musk dead mall fall god Tusk task Taryn thread gods jaws jaw gland gush fire
I Burn Sentences In The Witch Bonfire Of My Apartment
CW: mentions of suicide
I deliberately misuse under machine automatic compressions Compress deliberate deliberate desert trial trial tonic-clonic machine Misuse mass mash-up monster mash remix party I misuse underneath nephenthe nester nance rude nude I misuse a nude long nap I nap now long now nude I misuse nap anatomy tap taryn tipsy torso Torso tuck I improvise deliberate hesitation I top off torso with torn tape boxy remix I top trace unsteady underneath
I deliberately misuse my equipment quiet irk deliberate Equipment elicits forest eclipses Explicit equipment exposes nude bird bartender (Chained to the deadliest passions! Lashed by the wildest hungers! HARD WOMEN are something else! The wilder they are, the harder they fall!) I dash hard misuse hue hush harsh distortion I dash hand dishwasher washing machine quanta mechanics / quantum equipment quips hard punch line I punch prototype monster party purple purple pops black iron prison
I feel magnificently melancholy for reasons I can’t write or experience directly yet (editor’s note: it involves Christina's extended absence) and although I think my writing creatively explores interesting and novels themes for the Book (I feel a slow transformation or additional accumulation of techniques), it sloths slow and I find it difficult to find motivation and the energy to work writing for extended periods of time – thus I scribe very slowly I read a quote from Anthony Bourdain: “I understand there’s a guy inside me who wants to lay in bed, smoke weed all day, and watch cartoons and old movies. My whole life is a series of strategies to avoid, and outwith, that guy.” I search out a Wheezy Waiter video I remember watching released the day when the news broke that Anthony Bourdain took his own life Craig Benzine / Wheezy Waiter said: “I guess I’m just sad that Anthony Bourdain was unhappy… Felt it necessary to take his own life. But while he was here, I felt like he did important work. He did good work and it kind of makes me want to do more with the time I have…” I try to work: I try to develop the series of strategies to avoid and outwit that guy Anthony Bourdain mentions (I write to survive) (I write to survive without Christina – perhaps impossible) I go back to the room and write: I grave rob suicides and discarded dead and I prophesy circumspect sermons sermon circumfessions
I deliberately misuse my equipment machine deforestation / I experiment ferngully the last rainforest I dig deliberate dam da’at debt thread taryn (a taryn prototype surfs across bouncing shrimp harlot habitat)
This sentence should not be read by more than one person at the same time (Eric Anderson, Opus 46)
I soothsay sentence this sentence serpent This sentence soothsay slay serpent surface her ress rest rush dress I dress sentence sabbath rest I rest somewhat sabbath sabbatai sevi sieve leaf transmigration of souls Leaf leave sentence slut surface who wants to gnaw of on human bones I gnaw sentence leaf tree of life upside down I graph gnaw tag sentence that tertiary sentence target rolling stresses
I soothsay this sentence rolling stresses teases serpents I serpent soothsay sentence star socket pocket rolling spiders I sprawl spider stresses roll array stone matrix I store matrix stone rhema rhizome videodrome (inverted dome dirk rhema / soothsays spells hells rolling repetitions)
Sentence sidewalks sentence sideways samples word: I word rolling stresses step pyramid idiolect
Sentence insists on sprung rhythm ram rhizome sleet sentence stone I soothsay sentence roll away the stone see the glory of god I roll away stone standing stone sentence inconsistent
I harvest sentence half-life multidirectional decay multidirectional decay array awry rhizome rayonism I seduce sentence through sampledelia / a sample of the pure element has never been assembled because any macroscopic specimen would immediately be vaporized by the heat of its own radioactivity)
Radioactive rhizome arrays red rare rave ridge red radioactivity
Radio rhizome rivet rabbit array robotics monster part panic attic Attic arctic radioactive adds ray rad roar attic erratic heretic (I head hectic heretic and dig the root of Pardes to displace immense immense rhizome)
I radio slipstream slope sentence cave streams I radio hybrid hunter-gather gut sentence serpent isotopes I inlet isotope my head heterotopia Inlet er light en in onto radioactive amble acid amber I hide Amber Room in radio rabbit rhizomes
Sentence meanders meter mortar middle sentence meddle english engine
I am an exhausting person to befriend, I think. I take up a lot of resources. Yeah, but you’re worth it! says Christina. Well, Asia thinks so too, I say. I’m lucky that way. Even if she had to cut me out of her life because I was unrelentingly toxic and destructive, she will always unconditionally care for me. That’s what she said – recently, I mean – like the other day. I believe her, says C. She unconditionally loves me, I say. She doesn't want to use that word love but that’s what it is. Why do you believer her? Because she has stronger boundaries than I do yet she maintains your relationship and prioritizes it regardless of her limited time and a stressful career, says C. Yeah, you’re right – I do not give her enough credit, I say.
Relentless rhizome rivers rodeo radio unconditional Relentless rhizome erodes cave mouth network meanders unconditional / unconditional meanders circumfessions unfinished fissions
Relentless rhizome receives unconditional revelation Relentless rhizome receives receiver receives rose unconditional rivers revelation
Anyways I alternate always-already alternates Anyways I alternate always-already rhizome alternate alien animations / animations array rhizome revelations Anyways I gaze at gothic revival and my apartment receives apparitions My apartment glues tall gargoyle topless heterotopia / topos gargoyle gore
Unconditional row ren reina rhizome rhizome pattern recognition covert cobalt cure Cure cut mutt matador milk miscellaneous Anyway I word unconditional Asia Among Rhizomes
Always unconditional apartment alexander: always already Asia
I transform sound speech sound speech I speech sound salt sock sach sack transmigration of souls steppe speech Sounds slur smooth smooth stone bone bandit / I steal sound transformations
I speech sound south syntax fuck eye-wheel speech in sound en end slim syntax / I thin syntax I thin syntax I slim syntax twin sound Twin thin sound shrink sound slinky / syntax fuck Syntax fuck fuck syntax shin slim tin twin tonic I talk tonic acentered I talk cyclical tonic trip tip twelve-tone tonality (I meet George Perle in a dream and he draws in air an aether hierarchy of a paradoxical pantonal pitch I place the pitch classes in my back pocket)
I prophesy pantonal pitch and I displace pitches (I displace four-seam fastball I derelict two-seam fastball I dip cut fastball I drink diopter lens split-finger fastball) I prophesy pantonal pitch portal: tall tell tomcat syntax slick hair back blonde bitter (radioactive sentence toes radioactive blonde bitches I burn blonde bitch Taryn at the stake Wooden stake sentence stabs volkswagen vampires / Chris Burden transfixed)
Anyways I burn sentences in the witch bonfire of my apartment
I eat my apartment whole rope wolf BDSM angels I rad the sentence alone all ape pour pi celestial hierarchy I eat my apartment BDSM bridal chamber / chamber clamors stone spirals spirals katzenjammer
I read the sentence one at a time and angels alone machine masturbations Angel alone elope
I Transform Tempos Into Totalities and Totalities Into Tempos
I party pulse party multidirectional I pulse pour multidirectional pour party slit pupil Impulse incinerates pupil cinder zero
I party god gore multidimensional and trial time rhizome zeros guerrilla porno gonzo gore languages
Slit open language large guts graphic sex sit split sit language
Slit open serpent language pupil python I play python and party boa constrictors / hard hat stations of the cross constructions Hard hazard hat wizard construct cross crucified tonka trucks
I slit ben snow body zero leopard: I sit with her leopard and she lights lurks gut snow (gutted snow stone geodesics) I weep snow platonic solids melt snow monster party slime
I sit my body slit all compound eyes projected towards tigers and leopards sprawl splay snow: snow show splay monster party leopards hug pythons
I set my body slit all compound eyes all pupils projected All my pupils project towards tigers and leopards sprawl splay snow: snow show splay monster party leopards
I seat sea slay ocean gore: my eye opposite gyres speed salt alternate leopards Leopards part sea several parties and I party not particular physical / flesh plasma psychoacoustic phenomena My flesh as pheromone fans absent otoacoustic fire hydrant hallucinations I hallucinate Christina anywhere and I party her golden poppies parlor gore / game hauntologies
Party sounds reflections monster infrasonic vibrations
I party otoacoustic emissions / nocturnal emissions emanate erasure I dream Christina otoacoustic indefinite erotic slow snowing
Party without punctuation twenty four hour party people I leave the party after burner I burn my skull skillet hallucinations I hallucinate multidimensional desert only desert acoustics (snow ammo amyl any amy slow snow against nightjars)
I snack snow show spinal catastrophe My spine spirals spill projections particular parties piston twin alone I spiral spinal fluid highly directional projections of sound
I notate her name: I notate her name Christina simple points pull outward Her name dissipates desert comb or not not knot mixed and spliced Christina clay fire / Christina fires clay california kingsnake Christina simple eye lucent loop or not loot leap porous eye I etch her eye Christina unequal and changing distribution within totality
I transform totality into tempos and I tempos into totality
I torch tempo shifting dark monster party dimensions
I transform the tetragrammaton into Christina grammar
I transform tempos into totality and I transform totality into tempos I transform tempo trouble blonde Taryn trouble I transform tempo Taryn Trickster totality / total trash female trouble
I transform it started the top now it’s spiraling down works best when it’s lost digging underground
I transform underground angles hexagram angles anagrams glam rock hydrogen Angles at oar polygons agonal gasp argon Angles oar at it agon argon transformed arson: I transform angles at at boat bat into underground tempos I unearth tempo / Taryn pokes polygons with a long stick pick Taryn pokes bottomless pit polygons in polar coordinates / subterranean nuclear explosive testing
I transform female trouble / she has a lot of problems Christina has a lot of problems and I prepare for her schrodinger's cat body for the penal colony In the penal colony peeks pink panther film amateurs I direct transformations Taryn body rotations and translations (sex offenses that would shock the Marquis De Sade)
I deliberately misuse my equipment forces forest feedback feedback bronchospasm distortions on the signal of my sound
I print sounds loom otoacoustic emission teeth transmission I hallucinate tank transmission monster party pyrotechnics
All I do: fuck up distances Fuck up sentence print fragment machine total taryn differential
This sentence should not be read by more than one person at the same time I multiply persons in the penal colony / black iron prison populations
The sentence soothes me / The sentence saves me
Fuck the sentence / I prototype the sentence subject for a fugue
I savor the sentence my savior rolling stresses Rolling stresses strangle roll away the stone see the glory of god Rolling stresses roll away the stone rhizome rhema / rolling recursive VHS degradation
Fuck the sentence half-life (a sample of the pure element has never been assembled because any macroscopic specimen would be immediately vaporized by the heat of its own radioactivity) Fuck the sentence sentence hybrid fragment ben hinnom idiot isotopes I angel half life sentences splash radioactive heretics holy spirit hairspray I redirect hairspray multidirectional radioactive heretic actions: actions blonde bitches burnt at the stake Sentences wheel wooden stakes volkswagen vampires
Anyways I always-already apartment angels alone and read the sentence one at a time machines masturbation I mold the sentence manipulates masturbation machine monster party I read the sentence alone I read the sentence lonely light online lag liminal limerence I light the fire liminal limerence light limerick (a form of verse, usually humorous and frequently rude, in a five line predominantly anapestic trimeter with a strict rhyme scheme AABBA)
I ignore the limerick but I unconsciously transform the limerick into treble letters lark limerick / parking lot limerick female trouble I drink limerick with a little bit of lime
I transform pornography into prayer or I wake the prayer transparent pornography I pray pornography Taryn’s body female trouble (an especially enjoyable biological howler was the notion, common on pulp magazine covers, that aliens would lust after human women, especially if particularity unclad, this being on par with men lusting after squids) I pray apophatic pornography Taryn body material
I Ground Matter Until Monster Party Materializes and Invades The Text
I ground matter to find the continuous line
I ground ground germ rhizome
Around loud jaw ground loss ground less fling fall
I ground matter chromatic close clash lines aggregates anglers curves I curve ground chromatic loud color: color clip rip body canyon I round my body round ground fallthrough Fall through felt chromatic velvet vowel scarborough fair fang fallthrough
I ground the matter chromatic points pit colors colors lines sustained tomes colors aggregates multiple stops earth sonata
Without ground branches bat word worries word I ground points without worship chromatic woman Points panchromatic pantonal pin pit without ground (I ground languages without god and without Christina) I group the language points groundless aggregates multiple groups: I do not stop multiplicity match myth rhizomes Match myth rhizome high-register anthropos aggregates Multiple Son of Man pitch points and angles / linear slide without ground
I ground points into chromatic pulp curves pornographic (BAYOU NYMPH what strange activities went on in the home of their tempestuous New Orleans house?) Ben body curves blonde tempest nonlinear slides long bone strangle I ground bone blonde blood noise
I ground matter to find the continuous line and when I realized I could not find it. I stopped, as if an unseen someone slapped my hands.
Unseen I ground human bone bit slit blonde hummus
Unseen I ground human bone bit slit blonde hummus
Unseen I do not find but fur human flesh filament Flesh fulcrum aggregates cotton candy filaments I file filaments floating lines / balloon human bodies
Unseen I push the points into noise points (noises of no duration) and noise lines (noises of some duration) Noise of some duration detail chilopods have way coronated pistons industrial incredulities Noises of some duration details unwhirled liquor jeweled mushroom divers divers shadows Noise points no grounds gel rocks salts rhizome salients rock cannibalisms
Noise slaps noise multiple hand stops cured cobblestones Noise curve ground long dartled deserts darkling
I make things sound like something other than what they are I sound guitars as synthesizers and I sound synthesizers as guitars Guitar ground loud sound stone rhizome
I make images and icons (Audrey Totter pin-up from Yank The Army Weekly, August 1945) (Pin-up Photo of Nancy Porter for the June 22, 1945 British edition of Yank, The Army Weekly)
I make images and icons crash cat stations of the cross I machine icons cat coattail / cat cait sith coattail tab rhizome Taryn Ikon clasp cameraless photography light drawn desert flesh I make photographs like writing and writing like photographs and images: images etch earth reinscribed rhizomes Images reinscribe rhizome hypergraphia gut fleshes fleshes found poetry I catch camera cat canopy corpse cathedral draw drill desert I corpse corpse with cathedral stained glass ground god monster party (Monster Party for NES released in 1989 by Bandai… Some traditional horror bosses the game features include a mummy, a giant spider, zombies, medusa, a dragon, and a grim reaper… Enemies unique to the game include a large talking caterpillar, walking pants, a giant cat that hurls kittens and projectiles, and a bouncy piece of fried shrimp)
I hit horror video game ground I hack horror absurd video gash vat bomb brain I ground brain boat cauldron coffin horror (Just when you think it’s safe to go back in the water… You can’t get across the beach! BLOOD BEACH)
I ground human bone bark material horror and horror videotapes tapeworm wolverine bodies Rhizome opens horror hanged man absurd (Gobble gobble motherfucker! THANKSKILLING 3)
I make horrific images bodies hang chromatic I mutilate hand chromatic hang hull (You’ll scream yourself into a state of shock when you see – bat demons! Claw creatures! Snake men! Human vampires! HORROR OF THE BLOOD MONSTERS)
I ground Monster Party into noise points particle accelerations and each sound of silence arrays a hexagonal number I play monster party points paper photography horror hypergraphia (Mark (as Bert) faces one of the game’s unconventional bosses: a giant hopping fried shrimp… Defeating this form turns it into an onion ring, which in turn becomes a shish kebab)
Monsters inspire Monsters inspire / I dream drone horror (In my dreams I dream the very dream my body perfected in horror / monsters body my meander splatter house hauntology) Monsters inspire babel mortar mile body without organs (see the ghastly ghouls in flaming color! HOW TO MAKE A MONSTER It will scare the living yell out of you!)
Monsters ignite ben hinnom body without organs Organs nurse noise curve cob cut car Organs noise nurse urgent abandon monster silence and silence points array a hexagonal number Hexagram numbers do not demarcate but cut radius radical coherence (I do not demarcate from this monster magic and this monster fringe science / cargo cult party pathologies) Monsters converge hexagram heaven and hell / Christina’s cunt cut skeletal Christina detours desert details make desert monsters watercolors dynamic systems Christina cunt law machine monster nonlinear noise: claw machine point noise noise length length monstrous desert desert duration Desert double duration double monstrous / monsters slam dance drum drone awake
I manipulate comic monsters hell motel (a giant dead lizard, commonly misidentified as a spider: no fighting necessary, as its dialogue box SORRY I’M DEAD confirms)
I mention death death double detail my corpse language I mention my death double monstrous / my body without organs maps and not tracings I map hexagram taryn tetragrammaton jump garb naked / desert distributions (lower hexagram numbers generate short durations: higher hexagram numbers generate longer durations)
I place the point displaces matter manufactured desert I place the point peak curve chromatic canvas / desert shutter crevasse (The giant cowman, whose attack is smaller cows) (I saw a gif of a cow being brushed and I thought of you, I say. Haha, maybe this cow thing has gotten out of hand, says Asia. I like cows, I say. Cows are cool, says Asia) (Cow. Are you calling me a heifer? says Asia. You’re a cute cow, I say. Thanks)
Prototype screen shots reveal that the green slime was originally blood
I print her name in green slime / I notate her name in human blood I notate her name simple points analyze green and black slime splatter I print points her same duration in daggers / I notate her name around around
Who are you? I’m Bert! What's up? I’m looking for help; evil monsters are out of control in my world. Come and help me. I’m afraid to fight evil monsters. Don’t worry! With your weapon you’ll beat them easily. This isn’t a weapon. It’s a bat! Bat! Batter! Anything is OK! Anyway. Let’s go! What’s your name? Mark. Mark, my planet is dangerous! So we must act together. How? Like this! Then they fused together. This is how Mark’s adventure began!
Party pulse panic Party pulse plaza my slit pupil Pupil slicer pizza cutter neoplatonism Neoplatonic neoplastics material jet propulsion Paginated party telos: tlōn toga part telos tea telescope
I partake of party pulse panic I participate tape party pulse plaza my slit pupil Pupil slicer pikes pizza cutter neoplatonism Neoplatonism presses plastic injection-molded jet propulsion Pages pummel party telos: telos trades tlōn toga party kinder comic television
I experiment here I want to experiment more repetition / monster party post-minimalism I enjoy the absurdity of Monster Party: I played this game as a kid at my cousin’s house and although I’m not sure it coheres with the first part of the writing, I impress an irregular repetition places and displaced Monster Party I inscribe an irregular pulse Monster Party variations vine vertices / pure page participation
Part parodies pulse panic / I panic point noise pulse demon Party parodies prototype pulse plaza plasma my split pupils Pupil slicer screens prototype infomercials for pizza cutter wheels non-euclidean geometry / lovecraft sewer slime Neoplatic neoplastics plaster wheal material / jet pack monsters I page party pulse palimpsest, the repetition of scraping and writing: fucked alphabet bite rotary telephone and I notate her name in morse code
I Aspire To Write The Equivalent of Taylor Mead’s Ass
Sentences seduces staircase coffin body Sentence striae staircase body coffin bottom Stretch sentence secret serpent coffin: I collapse coffin altar adder additional vision venom Vision reach venom orthogonal advertising / satellite beams pink spectacle to my skull
I fashion sentences from human flesh: I feather sentences serpentine son of man Sentences seduce catamaran staircase coffin body body catacomb Christianity Christianity tips a teapot pouring from above desolation angels served it up with love
I inscribe snake sentence and omit the footage that contains too much motion Snake strikes steppe sentence and the chiasmus captures footage / I’ve been footage I stay noided Snake slow water awake omit footage I omit footage flesh son of man and the human one motions too much march crucifixions Omit footage son of man serpent sign and manipulation: I manipulate play and try to make more of the same
I manipulate omit language long serpent additions Serpent letters add orthogonal venom verse reach god vertical I manipulate window tempo pours widow from above and I omit orphan words wick wide ouroboros I omit orphan cipher camera footage face swallow desolation angels
I aspire to write the equivalent of Taylor Mead’s Ass I desire to write films shot without camera films shot without lens films shot out of focus film focusing on Taylor Mead’s Ass ( I write a sixty minute opus that focuses and manipulates Taylor Mead’s Ass / omit footage of human ass and substitute solar anus) I substitute sixty seven minutes of the poet / actor’s buttocks absorbing lights, attraction, and debris, and I replace it with the rhizome solar anus animated flare red and orange cyclops ouroboros
The tempo changes with every phrase
Sentence duration shifts sand line sand time Sentence duration disintegrates red and orange and solar anus shits shifts hell heat sink (Points connected by vertical lines represent multiple stops, with the arrows giving the direction of breaking triple or quadruple stops) (Are you afraid of death by drowning? Have you ever attempted suicide? Have you ever thought of committing murder? These are some of the questions you will be asked in the unprecedented ‘D-13 Test’ to prepare you for the horrifying experience of DEMENTIA 13 If you fail the test… You will be asked to leave the theater!) I point to points in waters death by drowning Points connected by vertical lines linger pit paranoia Paranoia pinpricks pit desert dementia extradimensional stops stagger multiples / multiples play multiples rib rhizomes
I curve time uncertain sentences servant theaters
(Staring at his cleft moon for 75 minutes I begin to understand its abstractions: high contrast lightning conscript the ass into a figure of whiteness itself, particularity when the ass merges with the blank leader of each reel’s end…)
Sentence stares paranoid serpent abyss Serpent gaze paranoid god guts glut solar anus / anus double agent ash paranoia agent only serpents
I stare at moon malchut the very pulse of the machine
Contact lightning constructs crystal crucifixions: I crucify moon mangled by matchlock gods
I made word white waters / Taryn titanium white surfs serpent wake
The tempo changes with every phrase / I curve time uncertain sentences
I carve frequencies in curved time taryn tremor and her earthquakes quarter frequencies Her earthquakes cut frequent total taryn white noise awake Frequencies describe total Taryn space spacious titanium white
A pitch motes back and forth horizontally painting pitch / maintaining pitch the very pulse of the machine I paint a particular pitch in high-contrast light and the solar anus sleets horizontal against horizons
A pitch moves vertically up and down introducing aggregates: aggregate god assess and aggregate solar anuses
A pitch moves at any angle or curve introducing slides and I slide slender sentences / slim sentence signs gospel jab human guts
(Staring at his cleft moon for 76 minutes, I begin to understand its abstractions: high-contrast lightning conscripts to ass into a figure of whiteness itself, particularly when the ass merges with the blank leader of each reel’s end. The buttocks seen in isolation seem explicitly double: two cheeks, divided in the center by a dark line. The bottom’s double structure recalls Andy’s two-paneled paintings…)
I fashion doubles boredom dream city I face doubles dig fashion duplicate catacomb photographs Desert doubles dementia thirteen curved time the ten thousand things I work a peopled pornography doubles: two assholes, two cunts, two cocks I mix Paul Celan with a cluster of cocks and cunts (as one speaks to cunt, and you, to me from the cock, from an asshole ensistered) (Frank Helenlotter’s Hardcore Horrors MAD LOVE LIFE OF A HOT VAMPIRE Adults only triple XXX rated)
I pitch pulp horizontal and vertical pornography I pitch points curve body crevasse face naked fashion and curves castle pulp Pulp castle play horizontal pitch black iron prison
I leave lines aggregate nude angels anarchic angels (nude queen of the communist cannibals) I point lines body sustained tone pornography (devil-love cult are invading the USA) I aim aggregates attack any fashion Christian naturalism (the viscous virgins of Vietnam)
Sentence staircases sentences secret sexes Sentence staircase stare stepped function asshole doubled: double defuse amplified assholes Sentences strap wrap sextant and rose compass / chest nude of the cross Rose compass compresses the line to the point Christina's pungent pussy Push pussy process rose compass coupled cocks: cocks doubled drink desert details Rose compass rosary roars rat-a-tat-tat Taryn with a tommy gun god doubled ventriloquists (I battle the Batman villain the Ventriloquist and the tommy gun ejaculates gunpowder gods) (Taryn performs a vasectomy with a tommy gun genital bloody guts read as entrail divination) Tommy gun gears gum jut rat-a-tat-tat tetragrammaton analog horror (Taryn Ventriloquist claps vaporwave curve compass rose rhizome)
Sentence staircase clash sentence skull bash cock doubles Sentence staircase clasp lash snagged sketch rubato eye bottles
(Stagger sketch potaytoe-potahtoe red baron ace combat cardamon / cardamon my corazon soda midnights mortal kombat contact Mortal kombat contact improvisation knee cap knee play kissing doubles chagas disease Disease doubles pump shotgun primeval paraconsistent parasitic kinetoplastids) (Trypanosoma cruzi in human blood Giemsa stain… Typically seen as a C-shape and have a more pronounced kinetoplast compared to other species)
I came up with a concept the other day for a story, says Asia. An indie porn film director who films avant-garde, consensual, and ethical porn. The character is obsessed with the camera techniques and the art it but struggles with the intimacy of his own life because of this obsession with capturing perfection, she says. I like that concept, I say. I would like to visit pornography in my own work sometime, but I haven’t figured it out, I say.
I pilot a rhizome porneia / I fashion phoneme fornication
Sentence syncopates serpent sex: sentence syncopates pigment porneia nude body palette Nude body palette pierces plane / nude virgin for the serpents of lust Nude body blast beach punch offbeat / trapped in a blizzard of mink clad nymphos Bald ben body bare black paint monochrome porneia / I work the lust trick: confessions of a bell hop
Sentence syncopates sex sforzando Sentence as sphere sum sforzando and bodies double disturbances and interrupts in the flow of rhythm I place a rhythmic porneia paranoid body stresses and body accents where they wouldn’t normally occur / I occur approximate proximal occiput apollo aperture Aperture opens only appetite and Yahweh coughs up five or six lungs she devours
Sentence suspends and sentence swings shuffle feet flesh fresh groove / god jams foot-tapping and head-nodding
I swing sentence free space scroll speech and the soloist stretches free in standing and plays the chorus the way she feels
I feel my flesh naked ben adam and ben hinnom I feel my flesh fat pigment pink and my corpse chromatic match creature feature crab canon sentences I feel sentences swing scale flat zamperla zebra flat rides
God Activity Occurs In These Fragments
Fashion Boredom dream city Photographs catacombs Advertising Prostitution Theory of progress
I don't remember the source of these fragments and I don’t believe I wrote them spontaneously The fragments don’t strike me as literary but they evoke a kind of challenge to my language: they provoke and beckon me to experiment Son of Man, if you prophesy, how can you prophesy using these fragments I accept this challenge-experiment-prophecy
Fashion Boredom dream city Fashion flavours fragment Fashion flavours fragment fervor (Tell me about your cool Asia fashion today. Button up sleeveless flower print shirt, black cardigan, jeans. How are you naturally so cool? I’m not. You’re one of the coolest people I know though) Fashion fir facet fir fur flavour / fucked language Far fashion fir flavour fall waterfall woman / fuck language fashion fist fuck (Trent Reznor later joked that his epigraph should read: “Reznor: Died. Said ‘fist fuck’ and won a grammy”)
Fashion fasten first fire faster I prophesy faster fashion mashup moptop remix and I mix matte flat fashion jazz fusion Mix mast map manipulate finger hand horse harsh fashion / flat fashion jazz fusion orgasm
Fashion Boredom dream city Boredom bash body the body bow burning Boredom chew body gristle chisel fashion Fat fuel ghost fire / I keep campfire forces femur ghost stories Femme femur fashion fuck ghosts bore porno (She lusted in sin orgies and reefer brawls! BEATNIK WANTON)
Boredom dream city blast cat kiss clash bone bore flash / flask fashion cock alembic
I dream the bloody body undressed Body dreams body brain concave / my skull collapses large bore city drill City strut melt iron stratocaster california clay
Fuck fragment skull syntax Syntax fashion sodom gut gomorrah three on a meathook hat fashion Hook leopard skin pill-box hat black box boredom
Fashion flirt fission fang fit flesh Flesh foam fresh syntax fuck first hearse / don’t ever laugh as a hearse goes by for you may be the next to die
I photograph fashionable catacombs I photograph catacomb kitten heel heal hell I prophesy taxi cab number photograph god null fashion (a bored god bores city ben hinnom heel hell black box)
(Do I fuck around with the language and play matchbox mess language massacre or do I write a long conversation with Asia about our friendship and writing gods? I write Asia conversations)
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I’m always going to struggle with the feeling I’m not creating enough, I say. It’s OK to struggle, says Asia. I just don’t want you to be harsh with yourself. I will do my best, I say. I stand by what I said about my writing – I think it’s visionary and important. I agree with that, says Asia.
[...]
What makes writing a healthier friendship? I say. Is that different than writing a healthier ben? I’m saying that you should work on your relationship with yourself and your writing and it will result in healthier friendships, says Asia. Focus on using your writing for healthier friendships after using it to make a healthier ben. Writing has that power to help and heal. I can’t do both simultaneously? I say. I’m just worried that you will not pay much attention to Ben if you do that, she says. I’m not sure I can do that though by itself alone. You don’t have to do it by yourself, says Asia.
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I wrote this yesterday, I say. “Quick thought too. You influence my writing greatly, in regards to how I experience the creative and ‘divine’. Would you be open to me exploring a more flexible God gender, gender queer anarchic divine, or even non binary creativity? It wouldn't even mention you or wouldn't have to but I feel like you and our friendship constantly allows me to see and experience the world more openly and anarchically.” I think that would be good for yourself and others, says Asia. Just make sure that the language doesn't conflate me and this non-gendered god. I just use God as general placeholder term for whatever beyond or something, I say. I don't mean a literal god. I don't think I conflate you with God – Do you feel I conflate you with God? Not really but your readers might think that you do if you aren’t careful because they don’t have the same level of context that I do. I can’t completely control that though. The writing of openness necessarily involves an ambiguity and disintegration between the concepts of human and divine. What changes would you suggest to be more careful? Just make sure to keep them distinct, says Asia. I feel confused on this point – how do I keep it both distinct yet also anarchic and flat? Could you tell me more by what you mean? I don’t see how keeping the two entities distinct is anti-anarchic, says Asia. Do you mean like putting god on a level above mortals and not equal to them? she says. God is not an entity though, I say. God is an event. A happening. A concept. It’s what we do and participate in. We are doing God work working on the Book together. I’m trying to write anarchically and flatly and remove distinctions between transcendence and immanence and god and human. Sometimes the consequences are out of my control and people will misinterpret it not matter what I do. I don't think I should remove that openness and porousness between God activity and humans because of that, I say. No one is asking you to conform, says Asia. But we both know that when communicating with others you have to deal with their preconceived ideas about concepts or words or else you are going to accidentally say things you didn’t mean to say just based on what they think something means, she says. You said part of the theme of the Book is to open up language and have language itself be a medium for human change, I say. Anarchic language anarchic relationships so I’m surprised you feel I have to reify traditional concepts of God. I feel like you’re saying language doesn't have the power to change minds and create new concepts and I have to keep using old ones or otherwise I will be misinterpreted, I say. You don’t have to conform, but you do have to address any misconceptions they might have and build new understands. That makes sense, I say. Can I ask you what you think of what I said about God not as an entity but an activity and flattening the level difference between God and human? I like that idea, says Asia, but like I said, you might need to do the work of reshaping god to your audience, especially since it’s different from how you talked about God before. How did I talk about God before? How do you think I should use language with God to communicate the reshaping of God? God was male entity that held power over you most of the time, says Asia. He scorned you and you yearned for him. As far as language goes, you can do all kinds of things. You can literally write about you confronting god and bringing him down, making him walk among men. You can describe a group of people dethroning him or bringing him down gently, teaching them their ways. Be creative, says Asia.
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(I would prefer shorter block of conversations or if I edited it with other blocks of material and different experiments with language, but I still think the conversation as a whole meanders through important past/present themes of the Book and how those themes will transform the future of the Book) (Future Ben should perhaps consider re-editing the conversations interspersed with materiel to come, but I assume laziness will prevail)
Fashion Boredom dream city Photography catacombs Advertising prostitution Theory of progress
Fashion unfinish face to face Unfinish face to face brutalist ben hinnom Bored of fashion, I strip the city of photography Steady-state city converges versus erotic photograph nude graphomanias I photograph god catacombs (car god cart colossus city steady study strip stars stars fuck syntax stuck body body stick city molasses)
Fashion unfinished unfixed face language Language unfix language fuck find wild city syntax
Ambulance city syntax / the tempo changes with every phrase
Tempo changes with every phrase advertisement prostitution
Syntax fuck unfix city fizzle salt sun sizzle / fuck syntax tombstone blues Blue I don’t bother bored but city strand I bottle city bored blues and advertisements dissociate blue porno tobacco pipe (Three J’s Blues Pie Eye’s Blues C Jam blues Blues in Blueprint The Swingers Get The Blues Too)
Avoid advertising deserts Avoids desert / I tramcar transmigration desert destination out Dent desert destination out transmigration of timothy archer
I had been avoiding the desert / I wasn’t tempted to buy one but I was reminded of the fact that I had been avoiding the beach
Desert advertisements add desert advertisements into and onto shifting additive rhythms I do not avoid the desert but advertise joshua tree sprung rhythm
Almost advertisements ann around a desert Almost advertisement add desert access pumice porno / I prostitute guitar picks and pianos
Advertising prostitution paradoxically prophesies desert
I Speak This Stone From This Abyss
As one speaks to stone, as you, to me from the abyss…
I speak this stone I speak this stone from this abyss to this abyss holy ghost I speak this stone sometimes other repeated stones stone still stem picture (sometimes the young actor looks bored, sometimes as if he were thinking, sometimes as if he were aware of the camera, sometimes if if he were not) Camera stow stone panopticon cue snow snarl optics I dream camera stone slender abyss I dream camera canvas abyss darker dream stone I speak to the stone sermons for the dead (It becomes apparent that we will see nothing more than the repetition with slight variations of what we’ve already seen) 9I write nothing more than the repetition, with slight variations, of what I’ve already written – but I try to experiment I repeat failed experiments)
I speak stone abyss passagenwerk pigeons I spread stone book of sand soluble smelling salts salt snow syncretic hermetic materials I speak stone stone skip and water cut incomplete typhoon bodies Incomplete typhoon tit typhoid multiphonic Taryn Taryn map multiphonics bodies without organs
Ben body blonde speaks stone belly-to-belly suplex Ben body blonde bay abyss ensistered soundscape / scrape stain estuary Estuary stitch stake shellscape she lights the lights I wrestle lights open ring rhizome abyss I wrestle lights wretched lights dark blonde long rapids Rapid rapid rent rhizome dark my eye eviscerated rivers I wrestle wheel Samael stab aneurysm angels and desolation angels (Death triumphant, skull with laurel wreath and ouroboros, oil on wood, 17th century, Flemish)
I write works wheel Taryn Trickster I work wheel dark bone char chisel: Taryn chisels World and Wheel of Fortune (the four figures shown either climb, are at the summit, or fall, or at the bottom of a revolving wheel presided over by the personified Fortuna) Taryn taro rota rota work rhizome many wheels Taryn taro oral torah trine tao (Tao produces the one The one produces the two The two produces three And the three produces the ten thousand things) (I perform the ten thousand things in various horizontal and vertical combinations)
The Letters Dark Lure Lilith
The letters break formation floor the last dreamproof skiffs
Letters elongate large cell sleeper Letters low long sleep sharp desert drag drag dot dress mess daria daria dorian desert lydian labyrinth
Parking lot slot letters record cell sleep in this colony
I visit parking lot letters and a pregnant Christina disappears
Letters shroud sleep secret and I dream desert slaughtercell cell gardening not architecture
Letters listen rhizome Asia Among Rivers mystic rose Letters listen longquiet Taryn theopoetics play trilobite body without organs / flesh ben hinnom fertilizes new cambrian explosion
I play Paul Celan alchemy and Saul of Tarsus hermeticism Saul of Tarsus tape shape letters lopsided pegasus Pegasus pallbearer narwhal horn the horn of salvation from the house of david
For Paul Celan, darkness is not willed obscurity; rather the poem comes out of lived experience and is born dark
Letters lure lush dark / letters lathe lucent dark
Letters tuft lush lithic dark / warm dark Taryn tectonics Letter trick leaves of grass dark lilac and letters obscure the letters my eyes loot dark
I look letters dark loot shoot scatter
I unify the work through common rhythmic structure: not a closed rhythm structure but an open structure duration (open ostinato / overlapping stations of the cross)
Letters overlap dark / letters overlap sow fuck syntax Syntax overlap fuck syntax snow fuck Overlap snow letters sleep rhythm Rhythm overlaps snow letter language additional fuck / fuck fox syntax Letters sneak snow lush show shush syncopation
Largo letters break fat formation / ben-hinnom fat feeds letters Letters last supper lathe lilac lilac lance letters (I sleep sword letters colony slices)
I unify works through slow snow rhythm letters / letters loom glamour letters I unify works underneath shadow letters lapdance laptop improvisation Work underworld cell word outwards / outward overlapping ostinatos I perform any number of these events in horizontal and vertical combinations / letters unit cells underneath night names (letters name night ben-hinnom born dark)
What do you think about the Lilith stories? says Lorienne. I’ve been deep diving on those today. I have mostly encountered her as a figure of the emanation of the Sitra Achra of the Zohar and other Jewish mysticisms, I say. She is in some ways a counterpart to the Shekinah, a dark mirror of Malchut / Shekinah / Israel as the Bride of YHVH. The Zohar mentions Lilith as the consort of Samael, a representation of the Other Side, the demonic forces, I say. Fascinating says Lorienne. I see Lilith can mean screech owl or night monster. So, I’m guessing she comes out of the stories people told themselves around the fires when they were scared of the dark, she says. So you know it’s only in Isaiah the word is mentioned and often translated as screech owl, I say. The Dead Sea Scrolls mention her in the Songs of the Sage. The main source of her as Adam’s first wife comes from the Alphabet of Ben Sira. There's a book by Paulist Press called Early Kabbalah and it has a text called Treatise of the Left Emanation which is one of the earliest developments of Lilith as a cosmological dark figure, I say. Sounds fascinating, says Lorienne. I don’t follow a dark equals bad worldview or theology, so I’m not sure how deep I want to go. That Alphabet is misogynistic to put it mildly! she says. Yes, definitely, I say. The origins of Lilith in general is probably from the surrounding Mesopotamian demonology so I’m not sure you can avoid those associations with Lilith. It seems to me if one wants to reclaim Lilith, one has to accept the dark, the demon / daemon and shadow. I feel the same with YHVH. If one reclaims YHVH one has to accept it as a god that creates good and evil, war and peace, and grieves and regrets deeply in its heart and can destroy and demand destruction. It does me no good to have these myths smoothed over or made palatable. They need the contradictory and horrific blood and guts and death and life together, I say. 100 percent, says Lorienne. I say YHVH is a verb anyway, not a being. Capable of all the doing and relating and creating and connecting and destroying, etc, she says. Philosopher John D. Caputo, drawing on the work of Jacques Derrida, contends God is not a being but an event: it is a name that calls us to the unconditional and the impossible, towards a passion that is unknown and apophatic. It is the promise of the cross, of the unconditional weakness of God that permeates us and calls us towards the anarchic kingdom, I say. An event that’s still happening – I like that, says Lorienne. Derrida would say the name of God is wholly other, complete alien to us and calls us toward an unknowable – but he also says ever name is that name of god. Every name I encounter is wholly other and alien and unfathomable to me and calls out to me. The unknowable God surrounds us in the names of others around us, our neighbor truly human and God every neighbor and animal and earth calling us to passion and kingdom – that’s my interpretation of it, I say. That’s so cool, says Lorienne. I wish I could be more profound than that, she says. I don’t think you need profundity, I say. I think that passion results in what I call creative activity. The anarchic activity of (re)creating and engaging and acting. The creative activity of helping the widow and poor that the latter prophets so call to us. The profundity is only to break down the barriers of our minds. With those barriers gone, we can create again, I say.
The poem comes out of lived experience and is born dark
I unify works through dark dark through thread trace tunnel dark syntax dark tap taryn tape trace dark
I sleep cell dark I sleep heap language dark cell her sword shell I sleep sweep dark letters break formation
Letters lurid lush push dark pulp (Could she have been born a lesbian? PERFUME AND PAIN She knew no desire but that for another woman) Perfume flays flesh letters lacerate Perfume flay flesh fly far letters: I sleep perfume cocoon letters
Letters lush lewd nude pulp night stand books (LAWYER FOR LUST how to keep three hot-blooded women at bay would tax the guile of the most gifted attorney)
Definite dark undecidable drink letters undecidable dark
Sharp dark lark lush light dark Light dark sharp ship slip lush dark: not an obscure dark but born dark experiments (You fail and then you try something else and you fail again and again and you fail a thousand time and you keep trying because maybe the thousand first idea might work) (I keep working dark I keep work dark fail experiments experiment excess slash dark mess I make messes mixed topologies)
Dagger dark depart dark languages Dark dagger dismay dark deletion languages Devoid dark doll deep dark debris sieve sow dark apocalyptic daniel Domino dark the last dreamproof skiffs skip sketch dark (dismal darkness, perhaps Perhaps experiments fucked funk fuck still to be sunken sink in)
I unify work work dark divergence (I unify the work through a common rhythm tunic letters dark dark letters lamina tunic light large letters leather / open dark) I perform any number of these units in various horizontal and vertical combinations I write the works as a series of independent, equalized units; I perform the units in any horizontal and vertical combinations
I make this modular mess and I continue making modular messes
I Write A Large Work Always In Progress
I float flat expanses of music I float flat expanses musics the unavailable memory of Flat expanse memory expands repetitions flat spirit sound I explore flat sound memory: memory heathenry Christina hexes
I write the Bacchanale quickly and with the excitement continual discovery dig flat expanse site rapid Rapid radical flat I float flat expanse
I float Taryn flirt twirling optics rotor reliefs wind reverb I repeat reverb flat expanse enhance Christina hex mixed star stereo (I float floor stereo inferno)
(I search for a more expansive sound I search for a more experimental sound I work strange tune spirit signal signal Taryn Taryn tak sound too two tow leviathan I search saw sof soft yam suph sea sound search Flat sheets of sound sea of reeds reed rhizome empty tomb tune tongue Taryn tomb tak sound leviathan
I employ a melody which employs sounds having wildly different timbres / I throw sound into into silence
I throw sound into silence I throw sound into silence size rise thrown rhizome thrak silence Silence snow snow slow silence Silence not stop step snow row snow I see snow between silence onto Onto snow step slow sound similar silence Onto silence into sound
Sentence sling swing similar silence Sentence salts star sound snow star silence several spirals Sentence salt skirt spirals spill sentence snow Sentence stretch staircase spiral unstretched canvas Sentence spiral silence last supper snow and my body stretches between stars I stare star sound silent stairs / stairs snow brain light years yardbird yardbird ball snow ben hinnom Sentence sieve silence twelve-bar blues bow ben certain cascades Cascade clade play stochastic sentences Stochastic sentences of sextus sieve snow sleeve silences Semicircle silence stir stochastic twin spirals sentences Sentence snow sleeve space curve my face full of stars
My skull stretches comic spirals spiral spill spheres Spheres spin alien starfish bloody phantasm
Ben brain bombs curl coil filaments flaked flint flesh Flesh fit handaxe space spurious authorship sprawl pseudepigrapha
Sentence salt spiral air Sentence wind air stair stare wounding: wounding wording circular stair Sentence air ben bell belfry stair circular ciphers Ciphers sentence turret stair stare my cranium cavacole turnpike Torah Torah speaks tall dead Taryn spinal tap and taproot / root run rhizome outrun rinse sentence I rinse sentence in snow corkscrew ascension serpents
Melody mines sound sounds star snow cedar sounds Melody mine silence silica slow selenium Melody moor silence selene wide wildly different surfaces: I throw surface sound into silence
A large work which will always be in progress and never finished; at the same time any part of it will be able to be performed once I have begun… It will include tape and any other time actions, not excluding violins and whatever else I put my attention to… I will of course write other music than this, but only if it requires some outside situation…
Asia has influenced my writing into the modular multidirectional I study the modular compositions of John Cage and Anthony Braxton and I hope my experiments cohere macroscopically if not microscopically I hope my experiments excite egg cosmic fractal erratic fractal a large eccentric work Ann Marie and I discuss Ezra Pound’s Cantos and its subsequent impact and influence – whether real or imagined – on subsequent American long poetic works such as William Carlos Williams’ Patterson and Charles Olson’s Maximus Poems I too feel a general affinity towards the book length poem and as I have slowly come to terms with understanding the Book as a prose poem (all fourteen volumes of it or however many currently), I desire to engage with the long American poem as a model rather than the Great American Novel as a model (Although of course I love the grandiosity ad scale of both impossible concepts) I conceive of a large work which sounds John Cage’s Ten Thousand Things or Anthony Braxton’s four hundred composition erector set / unsettled experiments I work large work Das Passagenwerk
Das Passagenwerk wails word weep woman westward I cubist word where sentence dislocated desert bone Dislocated bone desert dance sentence sow slow dissociation I dissociate television snow long now large work
Body always writes Book ark large work Book always writes Book continues prayer work in progress process Progress process workwerds chariotwork continuous aporia prayer: aporia prays play nonlinear snow languages Aporia play snow plane patchwork largework Largework her word awake shake sentence I work the prayer or longer sentence nonlinear
Next work hook slow snow silence Work next text Taryn chariot progress: her word snows rhizome I work chariot next simultaneous
I play next tape patchwork wheel punch line Play nonlinear punch line prom dress large work I tape the work Taryn Trickster and she spikes prom punch rare earth magnets Trick tape tick flesh quadrophonia / trick tape talk deerhound she jut come when a well to have
I feel I’m not radical enough in my writing, I say. Will you still care for me even if you hate my writing? Yes, says Asia. I might have to make writing you hate but I will also care for you even if I make writing you hate. I don’t hate your writing, she says. I know you don’t, but I may have to go in a different direction and you may hate my writing in the future. Why do you say that so often? says Asia. Do I say it often?… I think you push me towards accessibility and I feel am often not radical enough, I say. I know you don’t mean it hurtfully but I don't like how often you say it, she says. I often like the changes you make. I don’t like the assumption that I will have a negative reaction, she says. OK, I will do my best, I say. […] When I said you would dislike the direction I’m going in, I was thinking how you like concrete stuff and sensations and I feel my future direction is not necessarily more abstraction but more about the language itself rather than the language pointing to something. It was incorrect for me to think you’d inherently dislike that, as if you can’t like multiple things. I was telling Ann Marie my language is trying to break free of language, a language that points directly to itself and beyond itself into the unspeakable unknown, I say. It’s not that I prefer concrete things, says Asia. It’s that I think concrete things can help anchor and translate abstract things, she says.
I keep a large work in coffin waters / sheol slut flood sludge language
I write taryn tape and any other action I act anarchic archaic human homoerectus apostles I act anthropos antipodes and I stake campfire central fire simultaneous starfish experiments Actions architects eclectic starfish ark electric electric work aleph elephant elephant large work human water walk I act erector set and simultaneous ensembles / a new set of toys in the triangle house
I struggle against or with the poetry of Paul Celan / I struggle restless action on on write arms (Paul Celan’s own poetry became progressively more cryptic, fractured, monosyllabic, often deviating from conventional poetic meter and verse structure) I mimic Paul Celan simultaneous monosyllabic and polysyllabic both directions at once I mime lines several simultaneous experiments both directions at once both ways at once
Wandering between nights that change me to foamed the other spring, up the black You may confidently serve me snow
Large language lot crypt work / porous sheol pour body pack body
Large bone fracture fucks snow soft roe
Snow roe syntax cryptic sick crypt Sow syntax fuck fuck syntax Syntax fuck fork fit snow focus Focus snow syntax cinch tinge edom Edom insect aleph myth boxer sodom Sodom box sap last supper Sodom soda pop fuck syntax snow snow roe taryn tar taryn tetragrammaton
I sleep snow simultaneously salamanders
Fragment map machine fragment fragment / syntax fuck fuck syntax
Blag flag operation fragment (They hid their claws under nail polish THE THIRD WAY Kate Bellosa and Liz Bellows have designed their employer – and also each other – for they were more ambitious. They were driven by twisted desire!) (Tines strip twisted timbers Taryn Trickster)
I succumb to cryptic fragments and fragment cryptozoology
The poetries of Paul Celan impact cryptic concussions / spinal catastrophe
I write a large work always in progress I write large work always experiments excess solar anus I write large work ark base materialism machine miniature Base materialism mix miniature fragment
I write many independent pieces for various media, each of which could be performed individually, or performed simultaneously with any of the other ones I continuously add to the open work: continual performance continual progress
As his career continued, Paul Celan worked to “purge his poems of readymade contexts – whether historical, traditional, or explicitly religious… The late poems still abound in allusions – private, hermetic, esoteric – but increasingly each becomes and creates its own context within which Celan’s other poems must be read.”
I believe one can say the same about my work: it becomes increasingly private, hermetic, and esoteric, and that may be a reason Celan’s poems both befuddle and bewitch me We create parallel cryptic mythologies I experience William Blake’s mythopoetic works similarly and I revel in our word spool sacred space with similar topologies
I incorrectly transcribe the quote about Paul Celan: I read HERMETIC when it is in fact HERMENEUTIC I attach my write-rewrite-rhizome hermeneutics to that loose association of syncretic philosophies and practical alchemies attributed to Hermes Trismegistus I will eventually rewrite the Corpus Hermeticum just as rewrite the late poetry of Paul Celan I write not one large work but many large works, all perpetually in progress I write and rewrite hermeneutics of hermeticism and a large ark hermetica marriage of heaven and hell (Rintrah roars Christina, the feminine alchemy of my mythology) (I should note at the time of this writing, I have not heard from Christian in almost three weeks, which is unusual Christina suffers from poor health and many maladies so in the silence, I often fear the worst I look at recent obituary records or any signs on social med of her status but she remains silent I do not feel prepared to write through such grief and I hope I don’t have to write through Roland Barthes’ Mourning Dairy I know I would survive very painfully without her and transcribe and transmute my grief into the book, a very wounded Book) Myth mixes Myth mixes like any myth which accumulates and synthesizes oral narratives and traditions Myth mixes sampled Paul Celan spinal catastrophe cat-o-nine nails Taryn with fiery tassels hanging from her tits
Myth mix map nail polish fragments (All the horrifying nightmares of a thousand frightening dreams in one panic-packed show MAD DOCTOR OF BLOOD and BLOOD DEMON The dead return to life – living and lusty for bizarre pleasures!)
I model snow somewhat nude Some nude snow strip syntax
I model somewhat syntax hermetic hermeneutics Some hermeneutics apply nail polish wounded Book
Vision and Mysticism 