This language skips fingertips (touch language: taste double double toil and trouble)
They language almost-almost what tin here what elsewhere What rip here what elsewhere in the almost – what slugs soft drink cinders Language smokes apple cider cinders sinister elsewhere similar / language slot machine fingertips
This language skips and this language not my language. I have no language and nothing belongs to me. Often, only the Book exists – not Ben. When does Ben then exist? Book writes them imaginary. Book writes them apocalyptic strata, each more extravagant than the last. I do not exist and I have no language – my language borrows and plagiarize my language borrows and plagiarizes. I do not exist. I haven’t existed since Christina and I started our double autobiography – Bunnies for Christina. The Book possessed me then and Ben became hevel and vanity of vanities. Book writes and rewrite Ben and additional Ben all vanishings.
This language these geese (I interpret these geese go between) This language these geese (brain geese grow grain membranes)
Loud shroud languages
I strip down in language contradiction / I swallow language radioactive alpha particles
Language fucks with my guts
You may not believe in ghosts, but you cannot deny the terror
The Haunting
Language fucks up my guts even though it’s not my language. Many languages fuck up my guts, and my intestines spill out metamorphosis. My body molts pregnant body horror (there are gory images of childbirth and my naked discolored breathing corpse oozes black blood). Language destroys my seal of reality and all reality and all reality collapses into distorted word. Not my word but an unknown word and an impossible to know word (I am at the point where my Christianity totally apophatic. I can’t say what God I know. I don’t believe in a knowable God. Whatever it is I experience in the Divine is not any God called by human names. I’m a Paul Tillich or Meister Eckhart atheist). Language fucks up my guts and disintegrates any god and word vanishes in its pronunciation.
I stripe strips strip language standing a man totally gallowslike
My face her face
My stand her stand somewhere at our own stomachs
I strip plague stripe stand totally gallowslike / I grab the gallows like Batman grabs a gun I grab gun zebra camouflaged in the catastrophe
What is this language? What is this music? It is not my language or my music but the music moves and changes by itself like weather. Music changes and spirit winds and wind above waters: the wind blows where it wills and you can hear the sound it makes, but you do not know where it comes from or where it goes. What is this language? Not my spirit nor my wind but the spirit which rewrites Child of Humanity.
(When people resonate with your writing, says Asia, it has nothing to do with whatever fickle spirit and everything with something you wrote that resonated with their human experience. It’s OK! Feeling flat is also part of the human experience. I’m sure there are many people out there that could resonate with that feeling, says Asia.)
At some point, I have to take responsibility for the Book and writing. Yes, the Book surprises and the Book animates spontaneously, but I am the vessel through which is passes through. I feel flat and empty – I feel Not-Ben and non-existent – but at some point I have to take responsibility for the Book because I am the vessel / vision through which it passes through.
I strip language graffiti: Zebra graffiti and trash layer… I strip language strip zebra camouflaged Christina and I prophesy the women of my life and the women in my body – I am the vessel through which we pass through I strip language Zebra pink beam spell and pink resonates
Pink whim with resonated of that
Pink people whatever with the could resonate fickle with the could resonate
Pink resonate with spirit human experience
Language I’m with your and experience language experience I am the vessel through which it passed through
I got an interesting comment today, I say to Asia. I shared my latest excerpt in a server I’m a part of and there’s a couple of people who really liked it. Just now though someone tagged me and commented: “Garbage word salad. Prove me wrong.” It’s funny because I was writing about the “trash layer” when it happened – Philip K. Dick said in the tabloids and science fiction and pulp – the trash layer – was the Divine camouflaged. Synchronicity, I guess, I say.
I circle building language brick-and-mortar spirals spiral language I circle writing about the trash layer when it happened
Philip K. Dick said in the trash layer when it happened
Trash layer when it happened (yellow is for gold, blondes, and rewards
The Blonde Who Cried Murder)
This language spirals spindle spiral hyle science fiction fire
Philip K. Dick said in a server I’m a part of science fiction
and science fiction and the trash
I circle buildings and spiral spreads across Ben + Asia Pando I spread desert dialectics / language dialysis lysis body deconstruction
I stand in spirals and crater languages and languages spiral. I stand language. I don’t want to call my language (I got an interesting barrows today. I shared my cowards except in a whirled. I’m a film of and there’s a couple of people who really like it). I claim this language over and over again and I reject this language and mine over and over again.
This language skips fingertips and language lingers in spirals this language
I Am Fine Wine
Content Warning: discussion of mental illness - bipolar depression and mania
I do everything at once simultaneous movements: movements and movements myths and mythological machine metallurgy (I machine moment of symmetry symmetry simultaneous)
I machine everything at once simultaneous: simultaneous sculptures scrape flesh frictions I scripture simultaneous movement: sculpture striptease simultaneous moments of symmetry
Move elsewhere everything elsewhere simultaneous
Simultaneous simultaneous Simultaneously simultaneously
Simultaneous texts text text
Simultaneous Simultaneous blockades arcades malingering moments
Simultaneous asymmetries
Moment of translation and rotation simultaneous movements I do everything
Movements: I more text texture erasure. I erase myself in moving, residue and traces of snapshot bodies (Ben body freezes my body mock chalk archive). Moment preserves some invisible wave, some invisible experiment myth (explanations come to an end somewhere). I never explain or I always explain endlessly. Simultaneous dancing residues. I move simultaneously slower – distances – time out of mind. My mind disappears in machines scraping flesh leash alive. Move anyways, steady through the slow and sluggish.
I do everything simultaneously: moment torrent moment totem signals I do all torrent symmetry sun sigils (I take to the towards towers and I interrupt skydive skyscrapers and movements – as moments – as monuments – trying to grasp the Kingdom of Heaven)
Simultaneous my skull vibrates with the same resonance as the Kingdom of the skies
Skies seep into my skull
Skies seep skull communication lightning rods
I pray the rosary with human skulls as the beads
I do everything simultaneously but my movement gives out. I sing slower machine symmetry. I will always feel sadness. I will always experience melancholy. I accept the persistence and peculiarity of my melancholy (messianic melancholy – messianic manias)
Messianic tesseract manias
Machine mania maniacal melancholy
Delirious melancholy deletes forwards and backwards
Language fails – my language fails explanations come to an end somewhere – so what now? Explanations come to an end somewhere but attempted circulations continue to circulate common meter and Book of Common Prayer (What I have in common with common prayer)
I pray in melancholy and between melancholy – not a prayer to any transcendent god, but to the women in my life, to the genderfluid Ben he/they and the prayer alchemizes divine creativity despite mania-melancholy…
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It’s funny, I say, because I was encouraging someone earlier today. I told them: things don’t get better, you get better – you form coping strategies, communities, structures. You are like fine wine. I don’t know if I believe that about myself though, I say. Why not? says Asia. I’m tired and old and I don’t want to keep fighting, I say. I finished this documentary on MMA. It showed a summary of the fight with Nick Diaz and Donald Cerrone. Cerrone got hit over 100 times in the head. The documentary concluded: “For the rest of your life, go out, touch gloves, and fight.” I’m tired of getting hit in the head, I say.
I telegraph the bombs to my brain – I’m tired of getting hit in the head. I telegraph bombs to my brain calm like a bomb.
It’s form tired the for
funny coping and fight the
because technique
I telegraph nothing to scavenge – recycle – appropriate – I don’t know what word I’m looking for but of these nothing remains. Nothing remains for reclamation on the gathering of leftover bodies.
I build up my body ground up communities was structure. You encouraging ground up at turning bodies (I turn into my body missing – looking at the outline of small details – not details at all – residue of absence / absences…)
I never accept my melancholy but it erupts up upward towards up up backwards (my obsession and monomania upwards) magma
Never accept my melancholy and I’m tired and fighting. I finished the head, the documentary concludes: “For the fine wine – I don’t getting – I fine wine.” I don’t setting hit over 100 times in the head.
I never accept my melancholy but magma melancholy coil magma bile bails eruption (I throw the vial into the sky and it pops open and the bile continues upwards)
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I do everything at once: simultaneous movement I scripture movement simultaneous striptease movements
Movement mistletoe movements
Simple conditions: contradictions
I do simultaneous simple conditions – contradictions Visible imprint of successive stages of which the initial cadence coordinates a succession of differing states
I Do All Plots Simultaneously
I do everything at once simultaneous movements of translation and rotation of the plane
I enter the plane as Pardes and I am always the Other One. I always cut down to the bone-root and the plane dissolves in the anarchic alcohol. No, I start again at the entrance, and the plane sprays geometry. Geometry directs the narrative. I watch and walk triangles and circles and ellipses, and the geometry grows grass: bamboo Benjamin and brier exhaustion. I exhale the plane and other plane and any plane, and any plane purchases other. Plane grows plastic-queer plastic trees and plastic surgery and plane proliferates the sheer paradise sprouts perpetual gender-fluidity and androgyny. I begin again and I enter the plane, and I look the narratives-narrative branches and narrative roots. I take roots and the plane, and plane speech spawns convergent mythology and narratives.
I do everything at once simultaneous movement of translation and rotation of the plane
I do everything at the same time time-struck thousand looser leopards long lines leopards
Movement of translation of the page to one side; simultaneous movement of rotation and translation of the plane resulting the creation of a spatial and rhythmic plastic original
Rotation of the plane means creation of narratives
I’ve been thinking a lot recently about how writing is taught, says Asia. Plot diagrams are fine but sometimes it feels like we just teach the diagram and move on, and it’s not always helpful. I was reading a book about the plot the other day and it said something very obvious but it exposed what we were doing wrong. The book said that an event in the story isn’t a plot point UNLESS it has a cause and effect. It has to actually change the story somehow, says Asia.
I do everything at the same time and I explore the plot of the plane. I walk and watch plane plot and plot narrative.
Well it a are hal
I’ve feels book during a
Been like about wrong the cause
The plane at the same time narrates event and EVENT (your vice is a locked room and only I have the key). I plot the plane the cause thinking we plot book and a just the said effect. I do everything as the same time and plot thunders a more plastic plot and more perilous plot – a religious thought that intertwined narrative with spirits.
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Which one I’m the only
Which one doing a lot point Unless it said sometimes it said some low
Which one I’m the only one Vice Key book about low writing Obvious Obvious only one but exposes what we just teach the story
Which one I’m the only one. Once again one only only body ben human human (terror beyond the power of priest or science to exorcise! They Came From Within). Human waters smelt magnetic steel… do you even smelt magnetic steel? What ways of making steel are there? I dip in the steel – I melt enough sold to solid. I melt solid space space malleable – doubly malleable – malleable mallets with Mahler’s hammer.
Hammer sometimes it has a cause
And more on
And effect
It has a cause and effect
It has
I plot hammer it has hammer Maxwell’s Silver Hammer
Which one in the only one, which one arc not only archaeology Which one melody melody women her (In this moment, not momentum and magnetic steel) Which – witches within witches which wink witness
Which one is the only one
And move on
And
Effect
It has a cause
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I do everything at the same time I machine move days ex machina movement of symmetry symmetry simultaneous… I plot nothing and the plane eats me Plane vaporized and I give up into the plot disappears
Where’s The Structure? Where’s The Honesty?
I wanted to do everything / I do everything at once simultaneous movements of translation and rotation of the plane
Translate everything all time towards the simultaneous zero
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I jump into the simultaneous zero and I find myself in zero plane / translations
I confront myself this simultaneous want to and happening Benjamin and I interrogate and question this Benjamin
I should write myself honestly – I often misjudge myself, especially in negative lights (I should write myself honestly in white LED lights or in beautifully minimal stacked fluorescent lights). I prepare to prophesy myself honestly and immediately to the simultaneous one and zero. I prophesy Ben honestly – to the extent that’s possible. Do I lie to myself? We all lie to ourselves sometimes. I lie to myself often but here I prophesy a radical honestly (honest humanity – total humanity – atonal tonal modal). I play my lydian body body more lights and she lights the lights Thelonious Monk space (this is the place this is the space). I make space for my radically honest body (space spit body toxic waste spillage).
I realize I sculpt texts rather than write them (Being
active instead of a passive consumer of words and
information over-analyzing things, says Asia)
I sculpt texts but the simultaneous zero demands my own experiences / experiments / texts
(The original text always eludes but
I must approach the asymptote of radical
Ben-Text and honest Ben-Text)
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I want to do everything at once / I want to do everything same time all the time
I do everything at once simultaneous movement of translation – tentative transition – transition translation
I do everything at the same time time-track thunder looser leopards long lines leopards
Everything means everything. Everything translates everything (Is everything OK? Everything is Everything). Everything writes everything and every text tempts me. I feel tempted to re/write every text I come across and exhausts its possibilities. The better method would be condense and compact everything to a few words – an Anton Webern composition – but I never shut up. I always have more to say. I want to explain / explicate more and more. Everything converges / diverges to everything, and I begin with everything at once.
I read more of Keith Haring’s journal yesterday and it reminded me of you, says Asia. I’m going to do my best to give quotes that show why. He does a lot of questioning about the purpose of his art and why he creates: “In questioning the reason ‘why’ I make art and ‘what’ I want to achieve by making ‘art’, the question inevitably arises: ‘What is the effect of my creation on the viewer?’ and ‘What do people respond to and how do you induce a specific response?’
[…]
“One of the things that is an aspect of all forms of life, and that all art forms are derivative of, is structure. I was reading an interview with Douglas Dunn in which he is asked how much he wants his dance to be structure. This question seems unanswerable. He said ‘I think of everything I do about dance as structure. By definition. Structure is underlying everything. No matter how ‘abstract’ a piece becomes, it is never unstructured. There is order within all matter, all action, all thoughts, no matter how unstructured it might appear.”
I do everything at the same time Same time I and what I structureless why do was I structure all time some he people ready definition
Movements of translation plane rotation
Definition creates respond an structure
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I find the writing fucked. I and what structure read why no structure. No structure but fucked. I fucked and what structure and everything happening wonders what I’m doing here. By some he was reading definition, but the translation and rotation of the plane says fucked.
(I drink awake other than threads – threads total trilobite – a spinal column autumn leaves. I trade wine windows widows (where widows, the boom whistle wedding). I wed her other – all always Beams / would beams pink.
The Book finds me fucked that all form of all forms of Keith Douglas Dunn unsuitable arise. Don’t know what this is continue on. Don’t know. Don’t know what structure structure ‘what’ I make art and the slow much he creates that show ‘abstract’. Don’t know but continue, you know. Know – near know wow signal sap. Tree sap that’s a wrap. Purely from brain – brain rain klang clothe whore hot pants (Might help you learn to trust yourself a bit too, says Asia. Like you are taking in other people's experiences and re-contextualizing them as a quilt, which I think has its own merit but I think you need a little balance, she says). Balance in the structure. Structure know a lot of the purpose of the then all matter – how much he created that show, don’t. Don’t but continue. But continue. Continue rotations and translations all at the same time. Corridor continue (calf halves fire sacrifice – burnt offering at the rotations once – offering a lot of my creates that all forms of everything). Continue offering – continue know the fuck.
Don’t smoke smoke wildfires I used to feed that fire
Don’t know but dis/continuity Discontinuous don’t straw smoke Wednesday don’t Assorted candy don’t which one I’m the only one…
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I want to do everything at the same time – but where’s the structure? Where’s the honestly?
I Wanted To Do Everything At The Same Time
I wanted to do everything at the same time
I tell myself: she will die: I shudder (Bone-chilling! The thing is subhuman and it has a knife! The Murder Clinic) I tell myself: she will kill me and she will kill me: I shudder
I wanted to do everything at the same time and I tell myself everything (I tell myself: she will die) I wanted to die and tell myself the deep / depth / midnight miles I wanted to do everything as the miles
I tell myself same times and same ben bodies: she will die. She will die and I will die same times and many times. I drown into times oceanic and I shudder. I shudder dark room and death develops same time (on long enough time scales, events appear to happen at the same time). Simultaneous time develops delicious death / death buffet. Bodies line up to fill the hot plates.
Her death dust dusk in us Her death diffuses difference: different deep difference different dances and I no longer lie rely on linear elements no-rely on a movement towards and away the climax
I wanted to do everything at the same time and with the all-happening, events coincide with one another, but they do not move in climax and development. They move in simultaneous existence.
I tell myself: her death dactyl death Polydactyl death grips detritus death: dome dividing waters from waters Her death digests waters: her death digests my waters (my waters simultaneous all at once divided waters from waters)
Death digestion irradiated enzymes in I thought you’d stay
Death diode betrayal betrays
Death delivers gospel
Sometimes the spirit of Judas Iscariot possesses me and reveals to me secrets kiss codex crucifixions
Death delivers gospel and screwdriver gospel seven angel soma seraphs (signs and symptoms of messenger infections)
I don’t know if I told you this, I say, but he takes medication for ADHD. He’s of your kind. Damn, kid, that’s rough, says Asia. Probably why he’s so much his own person though. Outside the box thinker. It’s what happens when you’re brain is constantly bouncing off the walls of your skull, she says. Do you think I’m my own person and an outside the box thinker? I say. Yeah, says Asia. I know that you don’t have ADHD but spending everyday of your life wrestling with your own brain like Jacob wrestles the angel of God, it leads to some nonconformist ideas. Sometimes dealing with my brain feels like dealing with toddlers. It’s like “I love you but could you not?” Meanwhile my brain is laying on the floor screaming, kicking, flailing, or smearing fingernail polish on the walls, she says.
I wanted to do everything at the same time: I do everything at once simultaneous movement of translation and rotation of the plane
I shape: same shapes I shape cones and spheres abstract sculpture Shape same walls you’re brain feels like Jacob wrestling on the box thinker I shape comes if I told you this own person though I shape cones and spheres flat surface death – angelic surfaces – surface seraphs I sculptural abstract with my own person the angel of you
Will die but could you this but could you you’re brain is laying
On the box this could you but could you
I shape cones and spheres flat surface death and death desert dance dance geometric rhythm form sequences / sequence light shadow sequence void mass (He’s of god – it leads to some non-conformist ideas)
I wanted to do everything at the same time
Continue Pink And Carve Out Pink
Experiments come to an end somewhere
Experiments come to an end somewhere / where this experiment exceeds somewhere anywhere (somewhere anywhere pink) Explanations escape experimentations exceed demiurge emanations (The door of the desert depends on the desert deep)
Which door. Which door witch door which door with the where of the door: door outlined pink. Pink outlines the door – pink sparks pink stutter light (light strobes door syntax and the syntax comes to an end somewhere). Which door: the pink door and the door among pink dreams. Dreams anywhere somewhere.
The dome of the desert depends on the desert deep / pink door of the desert depends on desert starlight mothlight The dome of the desert drives deep tree rivers: tree among the five trees of paradise
Experimentations excrete gold and silver her alchemy Explanations excrete purple gold and pink diamonds and Christina cuts open the belly of experiments
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Continue pink and carve out pink: continue pink dome and pink door and pink death
I tell myself: she will die: I shudder Her death dusk in us Her death different deep different dances and I no longer rely on linear elements nor rely on a movement towards and away the climax (experimentations come to an end somewhere / experimentations come to an end somewhere)
I stole this text from Roland Barthes’ Mourning Diary; I mourned Christina then. Pink shrouded Christina and Christina vanished in pink. I tell myself: she will die. We will all die, even this Ben Adam (And this fire is lit all up and down my spine but you waver and say “we all live so we all die.”). She will die. I will die too. I feel certain Christian will die before me and the pink will take her and she will descend to the pink desert and pass through the pink door. The She is also me: Christina within me and Kindred inseparable from me. I continue to live in her / my presence-absence.
I tell myself: her death dactyl death detritus death dome dividing waters from waters Her death digests Her death dawn digestion Her death dawn digestion irradiated waters
Her death restless detritus
Her death pink dome dividing pink waters from pink waters
Her death digests Messy Book and Book soft radiation
I tell myself: continue pink and carve out pink Continue her death toward pink door disintegrates typical movements (this She within me digests perpetual pink radiation)
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Experiments never end but revive in pink laser beams and strange satellite gods Explanations excrete gold and silver (her alchemy – my alchemy) Her alchemy activates active happenings / her alchemy happens (her alchemy gins hell as hell and hell) Hell hosts anti-meridian and post-meridian body horror
Experiments never but explanations come to an end somewhere
I Obsess Pink And Prophesy Pink
I obsess pink and I become acutely aware of the presence of Philip K. Dick in my brain. PKD invades my brain vast active living intelligence system. My brain in a vat turns permanently pink. I obsess with pink and pink sustains / stains the Book.
Pink peers through the peak pink, and it always means death and life-death and KRYSXTRYN + Asia Rain Forests Pink peers into to in through my stellar skull (pink cross and pink stars)
Shaman means one who dreams / Shaman means one who dreams pink Shaman dreams pink prophetic dreams and prophecy means survival Prophecy enables survival (I struggle with my prophecy – it feels ineffectual. Prophecy should change others and the world, but my prophecy changes nothing. Cornelius Cardew began as an avant-garde composer and made revolutionary graphic scores like “Treatise” and remade communal music in his involvement in the Scratch Orchestra; however, his Maoism convinced him he needed to write music for the general populace with straightforward Maoist messages, and he denounced his previous work and the work of other avant-garde composers. I contemplate making a similar shift – to cease my experimental literature and attempts to innovate with new techniques and structures in favor of more straightforward anarchic-community and Christina anarchy. I don’t know if anarchic techniques (see: the writing of John Cage and Jackson Mac Low) actually give a model for living in the unconditional of the Kingdom-Of-Heaven-Within-You and the unconditional radical community. Is the medium the message / massage? I almost say no, but Jesus taught in the genre of the parable and messianic secret for a particular medium / message.)
Shaman means one who dreams and I dream pink anarchy Prophetic dreams engage essential survival / creative anarchy Prophetic dreams engage essential survival / creative activity I prophesy pink diamonds in the dark: hard-edged square-cut diamonds (these gems do not always have upside and downside)
I wrote in my notes app today: “How do I prophesy in a way that radically transforms others and the earth?” I say to Asia. I write about myself and relationships and experiments with poetry and literature. Should I write political pamphlets instead? Anarchist zines? Slogans and songs to mobilize others? I say. Nah, probably not, says Asia. […] I’m worried that you would end up falling into despair if you immerse yourself in the news. My advice if you do, start small and build a network of people to help. That sort of thing isn’t done by individuals, says Asia.
I obsess pink and I descend into pink underworld – pink sheol – pink Ben Adam Pink descends death and abode of dead
(Sheol shakes snail and hair
I hair salt shakes sheol swells
I hair salt flat sheol swales and the swales swarm locusts)
Pink punches through my skull sheol (bottomless pit sheol black hole sheol sheol locusts swarm shale slate to slate and syllable to syllable)
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Pink maps death. I dog mop map death. I dog descend map multitudes maps many pink deaths (The demon core was a 6.7 kilogram subcritical mass of plutonium measuring 89 millimeters in diameter, which was involved in two criticality accidents). Death amps pink radiation and radiating pink maps mutate my brain. Pink plutonium blasts my brain with shaman visions and shaman descents. I descend pink alchemy and tarot pink-tower-death. Death dances skull transformations.
I tell you the truth, none will be saved unless they believe in my cross, for God’s kingdom belongs to those who have believed in my cross. Be seekers of death then, like the dead who have seen life when what they seek becomes apparent to them. When you search out death, it will teach you about being chosen (I choose a death verily death and actual death).
I tell you the truth, death radiates pink and pink radial pink I tell you the truth, the cross creoles death and death add pink death compact I tell you the truth, I seek death and I descend death death shaman who dreams
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I obsess pink and I become acutely aware of Philip K. Dick pink beams and golden ratio desert pink. Pink fucks with my brain.
Philip K. Dick writes in his Exegesis:
Last night I dreamed about an orchard of trees with pink cherry blossoms – that same pink color of immortality and God. […] But at least I’ve seen the healing pink again, identified with trees and spring…
Shaman means one who dreams and I dream stuck in pink: pink molasses and pink morass and the pink doesn’t heal but curses. I only dream pink and I fear pink and I fear pink of the Book – perpetual pink and always pink and I cry pink streams – pink pink pink the orchard devours me (only orchard – only death – only shamanic descent. I belong to the dead. I belong to the pink place dream dense prophetic dream).
(Is this the place? It has to be the place. Free place free space. Free space for what – anything. What pink and anything pink. Writing anything and prophesy anything – this pungent pink prophesy see pink the Shaman who dreams. I prophesy this is the place my own death by car crash…
– I suddenly remember My Death In Spain and I fantasize Running of the Bulls and The Sun Also Rises and I too feel impotent but the bull run mer bulls box oxen sea south of heaven –
Pink plus pink I pass through the place: I pass through the arms of Moloch and I pass through the fire of the Book and the apocalyptic alphabet. I conjure my terrain death hallelujah junction jaguar (jagged skull with addresses and tumors tumor pink boiling address pink)
– Keep going – do you understand? Keep going. Prophesy anything – anarchy, pink skulls, pink visions, political pamphlets, experimental structures and lasso language… Keep prophesying anything / nothing. As if the act of prophesy itself acts in prophesying.
– My body prophesies psychopomp death and I descend underworld shaman dreams My body prophesies and I descend pink fucks me nonsense and track-and-field prophecy I map trail mix night train topology (anything – any pink and nothing underworld night train engines ignite Saint Maud alphabet) Anything I prophesy night name knock knock jokes (knock knock joke straitjackets)
– I’m walking through streets that are dead Walking, walking with you in my head (I should have listened to Time Out Of Mind more in Christina’s absence I should write more honestly with myself – prophesy honestly Prophesy the pink inside my skull)
I Press Bewitched Pink
I press bewitched pink I press Christina bewitched pink Press bewitched pink wash wild word and word wounds wild: word wounds wide gash of god (God cuts core gore skull bone and pink pours out of my skull: pink oozes from my skull cracked god pink. Always pink kinks claustrophobic knots knot pink potholes. Pink returns pink and this pink bewitches and god and bewitches god gods. Pink presses into the scripture-spirit of deities.) I press bewitched pink noise and noise clears space.
(What noise What noise: noise scorching my skull What noise: simulated saw simulacrum Noise: skull similar put it in an one has Noise: jigsaw skull burnt pink by sol gaze haze maze)
Noise bugs my skull pink surveillance Noise space at a pink
Pink displaced noise space
Noisy noise zeros onto the rain of my brain
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I bang my head against this pink hide-in-seek noise. I crash my head into the diesel train plain pink rain. I bang my head crash pink and I get nowhere but completely bound / blind pink.
Pink skull conspiracies
I slow beyond the zero. I gemstone zero zero asymptote – towards pink horizon. My life exist asymptotic nonexistent death. Death delivers at the zero delirium / death delivers pink dissociation. Death carries ben hinnom carrion and the stink presses into my skull bewitched. My carry-on luggage is carnival carrion cargo – carrion recapitulates my decaying body (my body decays and radiates pink). My body decal pink echo delay delirious flanger false flag operations (flag jolly roger jelly beans).
I slow beyond the zero bewitched by the zero (zero tiles pink skin as then pink and panic pink) I meet the zero ben abyssal and I cannibalize ben at zero / pink begins at the zero
My body berates vulture voyage / scavenger carry-on orange monster
Body unknown travels variable body
Body unknown traveler lovers hamlet
I meet the zero in ghosts and Hamlet’s father encourages homicide (to be or not to be and zero into death)
At zero, death downward, and I descend to death damsel-in-distress
I bang my head against this noise and noise splits pink and zero. I bang my head zero dead and the zero pink ooze. My skull oozes pink out of the corner.
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I press bewitched pink and Book burrows pink I burrow into Christina pink and on pink chairs. I climb out of Sheol (Do you remember the twins Jillian and Jocelyn? says Christina. Yes. They lived down the street, says C, and we would play Power Rangers in the houses that were being built in the neighborhood. They always played boys and I was the Pink Ranger. We hugged and kissed – like on the cheek. I never thought anything of it, says Christina.) I climb chain pink out of Sheol and I shake pink death and zero death
Zero bewitches I never thought anything of it hey kissed (like the Pink Ranger)
In the pink rangers in the cheek I never thought anything of it
Zero bewitched in always played boys and kissed C like or the neighborhood
Pink zero and I was the cheek I never thought anything built in the cheek
Press Sheol bewitched pink death Sheol salt shakes softens steep tea cliffs: dismantled slate for slate syllable for syllable (Pink slate for zero slate and pink syllable for zero syllable)
I bang my head against noise Sheol. I bang my head against this Book at the zero and this zero burns a pink hole into my eye sockets. I bang my head crash my head – my head into my head and the Book into the Book. I press between pink and each syllable sinks into pink. I continue to explore dead end and dead end, and I bang my head against dead end no feel for harmony – no feel for plot or narrative, or how to extend the narrative.
I bang my head they rangers neighborhood never
Zero they we lived in the always hugged anything
Anything the houses played and of street that boys kissed it
I bang my head against the zero and pink noise
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I bang my head against the pink noise and my skull oozing noise
Dawn choir death dive descent death. Death to descend to death. Descend death quartet for the end of time death descend death.
(Descend pink? Descend zero?
Descend noise? Pink noise zero.)
I describe the descent divided body touched (I descend touch teeter touched descent). I descent descend and I dance dance macabre desiring-machines (dance watchmaker death and clockwork descent).
(Descend pink? Dance pink?
Torch pink? Clockwork pink?)
(I was thinking about Philip K. Dick and in lazy he was struck by a pink laser beam and has visions at one point he became convinced time had stopped and we are all secretly 1st century Christians awaiting the return of Christ. Christ had forgotten us. The pink beam burrows into my skull Christ death perfectly pink. I was thinking pink and struck pink and pink convinces time to stop and pink crawls / scrawls through time. Reality is that, which when you stop believing in it, doesn’t go away – the pink doesn’t go away and the zero doesn’t go away, and neither does Pando and Kindred and the soul sparks of Philip K. Dick)
I descend death and zero death and death pink
(Descend pink? Descend zero?
Descend noise? Pink noise zero.)
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Press bewitched pink and Christina pink
I Paint With The Pink Soul Of Philip K. Dick
Christina presses the word from which I roll
Christina presses Philip K. Dick pink beam anamnesis. I have lived Philip K. Dick: I contain PKD’s soul spark, and we write the same Exegesis. This Book continues the Exegesis (it also continues the Christian Bible, the Nag Hammadi Codex, William Blake’s prophetic works, and Liber Novis). Christina presses the Book from new pink and impossible pink and this pink permeates my bloodstream (The Pink God contorts my flesh cubist body horror and cosmic horror iceberg universes). I drink Christina-Pink nitroglycerin and my circulatory system dilates dizzy vision (visions of Charlie Parker and Dizzy Gillespie cutting new bebop melodies).
Dress word pink witches Press word pink wilderness / witches swarm chromatic locusts in forest (locusts fuck nitroglycerin explosions and swarms sweep-picked arpeggios / locusts fuck polymodal chromaticism: paranormal nitroglycerin)
Press word pink witches Press word wild witches ben hinnom bewitches I bewitch word and it presses its immediately-immersions-intensities into the Book (Books superimposed polymodal chromatics onto and into Book onto and into pink Book onto onto into and Book pink) I bewitch word wild pink and pink pillar play of locusts
I was thinking about Philip K. Dick and in 1974, he was struck by a pink laser beam and had visions and at one point, he became convinced time had stopped and we are all secretly 1st century Christians awaiting the return of Christ. Christ hadn’t forgotten us. He also said a quote I like: “Reality is that, which when you stop believing in it, doesn’t go away.” Do you know what’s not going away? You. You and me and our friendship. Pando is still here whether I believe it or not.
Christina presses the word from which I roll Word press pink with war water color washes
Pink Christian away
Witch was had Christina that you
Word thinking visions awaiting
Press about and the when as
Word Philip at return you me K. point of stop and Christian
Christina presses word and I wash word pressed pink watercolors
I press bewitched pink wash wild word and word wounds wild
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I paint pink. I paint pink avant-garde and Philip K. Dick staircase. I paint asymmetrical pink (Really is that, which when you stop believing the return Christians and in lazy he was that. I paint Christians and had visions and in 1974 he was that which when you stopped and in it, doesn’t go awaiting the return of Christians).
I stain my body pink. I start with pink and outlive and solid extrapolation of the structure and material of objects. I place brilliant colored dots drifting across flat signs for still-life objects. I flatten chiaroscuro in planar contrasts of a monochromatic palette. This monochromaticism stains pink X pink (I was thinking about Clever K. Lily and in 1974, he was struck by a pink laser beam and fat reheats and at point he becomes botulism time has stopped and we were all subtexts 1st century. Christians awaits the moment of Christ. Christ had forgotten up. He also took a quote I like “Reeking is that, which when you stop believing in it, doesn’t go iron.” You so know swan’s not going away? You. You and me and our friendship. Pando is still here whether I believe or not). I stain my body pink and I simplify geometric structures, a blurriness of the distinction between subject matter and ground background. Pando still exists. Pink. You and me and our friendship. Pando. Pando stains my body pink.
I obscure or occult overlapping planar constructions, and the thunder tends away from equilibriums. I paint occult pink and obscure pink, and this impossible pink planes Christina geometry and Asia algebra.
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Christina presses the word from which I roll I press bewitches pink wash wild word and word wounds wild: words wounds wise gash of god (God gashes pink watercolor witches and noisy washing machines)
Explanations Come To An End Somewhere, Part 2
Explanations come to an end somewhere
Explanations come to an end somewhere
Explanations come to an end somewhere and explode drop drift (drift sift slow sweep copper) Explanation drift explosions / implosions gross body dismemberment
Explain missile silo grain silo sackcloth claw hammer halo halo halo
Explain holy holy holy hiss huntress hodgepodge hot wild hunt
Explanations come to an end somewhere Somewhere and Book explains nothing
(Pick up the Book left of the labyrinth and part of the labyrinth but Book explains nothing. Book cannot define its own platonic – arithmetic – pragmatic – truth but nothing exceeds the Book. Explanations come to an end somewhere. Pick up the Book – Taryn tigers leap out of this binding and Taryn devours the Boat Book and Book shipwreck. He stripes camouflage her in the water jungle. Pick up the Book and its ocean jungle follows it. Explanations come to an end somewhere.)
Explain the Book somewhere – anywhere – somewhere wears anywhere end and no ending I break up sounds round shard hard rock rough shuffle
Shuffle shutter huddle huddle hoarder hard-boiled
Shuffle sword hilt haunted house horses
I break up the sounds break through breaker wave language (try to run try to hide break on through to the other side)
[I draw a couple cards from Oblique Strategies: Honor thy error as hidden intention – and – Be dirty]. Plant some plants! says Asia. I don’t understand what you meant by plant some plants, I say. It said be dirty, says Asia. I didn’t make that connection, I say. That makes sense… Maybe I have a brain tumor inhibiting my ability to make connections. No, says Asia. I think you are just looking for more metaphorical explanations. Like you probably thought “dirty” and thought it meant something along the lines of being more spontaneous and not censoring yourself so much and I was like “physically touch dirt,” says Asia. Yeah, I thought of it like adding more noise and mess to the process. I don’t garden, so maybe that’s why I didn’t get it either. Do you think I tend to think in more associative metaphorical ways than literal ways? Yes, says Asia. I think you are someone who lives with their head in the sky and that’s OK. No one person has a complete picture. Everyone misses things and most of the time they don’t know what they missed. It’s why we need each other, says Asia.
Explanations come to an end somewhere Explanations come to an end and to end endless Explanations come to experiments / be dirty Explanations experiment and I excite explanations endless experiments
Explanations come to and as to somewhere
Explanations come cusp creeps experiments (I experiment explanations)
Experiment excess endless excess knowledge
Explanations error of noise ways all of being and the hidden more miss literal time intention
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Explanations come to an end somewhere and I cannot explain this melancholy, anxiety, and depersonalization. I feel its existence and endless and somewhere but not its explanation.
Explain: be spontaneous to ways
I and dirty
Nor or the think I most I not process – you of – you yourself garden someone time
Anxiety anguish sympathetic nervous system (systems of linear equations systems chaos alto saxophone multiphonics) I experiment anxious but be dirty: break up the sounds to the other side My melancholy any side sitra achra anxious anarchy
I empty anxious explanations: I explain empty you touch it sky why probably dirt either (we’re all gonna be just dirt in the ground)
Anxious I circulate breathe body bad whirlwinds. Anxious I eat wheel axles – YH of Armies YH of Hosts. Anxious I age in air aether always zero atmosphere (I can never explain this atmosphere but it hordes endlings and various plantings. Anxious I dig up the roots of Pardes. Anxieties atom smasher zero atmospheres anxious in my apartment. I hammer atoms anxious in my apartment complexes / complex numbers rotate the mystery of the unreasonable effectiveness of mathematics.)
I speak anxious against with hurry (I hurry faerie dust laundry detergent addict attic and dust hurry)
I hurry no one who livid with the line of it meant something
Anxious you thing for more spontaneous or not censoring for more
Apartment explanation something for more associative
Hurry elephant sinkholes wholly anxious. I hurry aura alluvial runoff anxieties. I hurry amen and amen enter axle wheels. I wheel apple anxious pomegranates wheel orchards (I behold anxiety dissipates disappearance orchards),
Orchard axial aloof / anxious abyss arouses abyss anxiety Anxious, abyss arouses at abyss at
Be dirty and why that’s we meet
Each other spontaneous or not associate metaphorical ways
I didn’t garden
Anxious, I explicate explanations come to an end somewhere but I still don’t garden
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Explanations come to and an to somewhere Experience excess endless excess endless / endless emanations (I emanates demiurge desert distance – endless emanations, experiments, and metric spaces)
Here is my pepper plant struggling to support peppers, says Asia. What kind of peppers do you have in your garden? I say. Poblano peppers in the front, bell peppers in the backyard, says Asia.
Meet my new children: a blueberry bush, a fig, and an elephant ear.
Experiments never end but explanation be dirty No one who lives with the probably touch and I was like you think I things all the lines of it meant something all the sky
Experiments come to an end somewhere / where this experiment exceeds somewhere elsewhere
Explanations escape explanations excesses the demiurge explanations
Emanations / explanations come to an end somewhere