You cannot see me from where I look at myself and I look lock hooks hanging man     I lock loose lips sink ships hanging woman and she covers me coven her leviathan scales scales tabernacle     Scaled courtyards of the tabernacle liquid low coolant     Coolant slowcore and shoegaze gods look differently     gods look different different female bodies body woman books     Her books blade gnosis fruit-eating bats bandied-honey insects     Laffy taffy butterflies surface frissons frictions scale leviathan, her canopy canyon courtyard of the tabernacle

An imaginary frankist Francesca Woodman     An imagined icon photographed icons a frankist Francesca Woodman and I pray to her image as Maiden Moloch Malchut / mist most milk waters     Mist most milk waters mysteries and mysteries maiden mysteries my mysticism emerges Krystal Chrysalis     Krystal Chrysalis Khora     Krystal cocoon canopy kainos krisis


Saying 62 in the Words of Our Lord, Jacob Frank:  All religions, all laws, all books of old, if one reads them, it’s like turning your face backwards and examining words which have long gone extinct.  All this originated from the side of death.

Dietrich Bonhoeffer writes in a 1944 letter:  Are we to fall upon a few unfortunate people in their hour of need and exercise a sort of religions compassion on them?  If we don’t want to do all that, if our final judgment must be that the Western form of Christianity too, was only a preliminary stage to a complete absence of religion, what kind of situation emerges for us, the church?  How can Christ become the Lord of the religionless as well?  Are their religionless Christians?  If religion is only a garment of Christianity – and even this garment has looked very different at different times – then what is a religionless Christianity?

John D. Caputo writes in The Prayers And Tears Of Jacques Derrida:  Still Derrida says, his mother must have known that “in the constancy of God in my life is called by other names” and even though he does indeed “quite rightly pass for an atheist” with respect to the God of the orthodox faiths, still he has an “absolved, absolutely private language” in which he speaks of God all the time…


(A religionless religion     A spiritless spirits holy ghost immanences)

(Christianity is only a husk     Open the husk and find the fruit within – yourself in Christ and as Christ and through Christ)


So David banged Bathsheba, basically had her husband killed through neglect, says Steve.  His punishment is God killed his first baby but then gave him a second one was a great king?  Can someone explain how this god is moral?  It depends what kind of answer you want, I say.  This is loosely related to theodicy, philosophy and religion related to why there is evil in the world.  Right, says Steve.  If god is all good all knowing and all powerful how can he let all this bullshit go down?  Is it like a Job-like solution?  I mean with theodicy you can justify all of god’s bullshit, right?  Like oh it must have been for some greater good, says Steve.  Are you asking me for my personal solution or proposed solutions throughout history?  Proposed solutions for this particular story and also yours if you have one.  Honestly I’d rather hear yours than scholars; just overall you seem to have a better vision because you aren’t attached to your opinion of stuff and scholars are, says Steve

(I never address anything in regards to this particular story of David and Bathsheba but instead present a general overview of theodicy)

(I am attached to my own opinions and I quote many scholars and mystics before me)

Alvin Plantinga solved the logical problem of evil, I say.  You might find it interesting although it uses modal logic and is technical.  Since the logical problem is agreed to be solved by most philosophers, there’s been a shift to what’s been called excessive evil in the world.  Even though it’s logically possible for a world with both evil and an omnipotent God, why is there still so much excessive suffering and evil? … I’m going to say there are two routes in this issue.  One route, which Is I think the only way to keep the idea of a traditional theist God intact through evil, is a kind of surrendering.  That is, the evil and morality of God itself is a kind of intense mystery that is beyond human comprehension and to try to explain it is all to misunderstand the Divine.  Theodicy here becomes a kind of bogus or fruitless event.  It is definitely in line with Yahweh's response to Job at the end of the Book of Job:  Hey if you know everything, tell me about the impossible.

My personal response is one I have been developing for a long time.  It is a heretical response that borrows from gnosticisms, Lurianic Kabbalah, Philip K. Dick and CG Jung, as well as Rene Girard and Slavoj Zizek…     Isaiah 45:7 makes a curious statement.  It says, I Yahweh, make good and evil.  Evil originates from Yahweh itself.  In Lurianic Kabbalah, during the contraction of the Absolute to make room during the creation, a whole process happens where Ein Sof’s light emanates.  Something called the Shatter of the Vessels happens, where the receptacles of the emanation of light break and the light falls into the abyss

The vessels break because of an overwhelming of din, judgment

In Luria’s conception, evil resides within the creative process itself.  It is the tension of forces within the Godhead allowing creation.  The heretic Nathan of Gaze goes further positing there are lights called thoughtless lights that struggle against thoughfull lights within the Godhead that want to prevent creation from taking place (Yeah, that’s what I want to hear, says Steve.  I’m all about Ben heresies; they have brought me closer to god and kept me sober.  Like you’re a prophet with exactly one half-insane disciple, says Steve).  Nathan of Gaza said the Messiah himself must even apostatize and go to the depths of hell to redeem the most fallen sparks including the husk of Jesus Christ…

My own conception borrows something from that (I’m going to describe my religion as Bennonite, says Steve)

I think there is something incomplete about Yahweh.  The Yahweh who creates good and evil, who is fully divine, omnipotent, omniscient, does lack something: he lacks the human.  During the Book of Job, eh goes on a tirade against Job you know.  But at the end of the book, Yahweh says something interesting: He says to Job’s friends, you have not spoken rightly of me like Job has.  I think Yahweh recognizes it lacks the human within.  The kenosis and incarnation of Jesus Christ is not only to redeem – whatever that means – humanity but to redeem the Godhead.  By the godhead becoming fully human, the God will become more God because it is more human.  One aspect of Jesus is he is an archetype not only of a new human but a new God.

One that immerses in qualities of overwhelming mercy, compassion, forgiveness, etc.  And not violence, coercion, genocide.  If you want to go even a step further.  To quote Tori Amos: “God do you need a woman to look after you?”  God the Father lacks the feminine.  The Shekinah is in exile, and it says in Lurianic Kabbalah that we must reunite Shekinah and Yahweh.  Or Sophia and the One in gnosticism.  The Woman and the human complete the Godhead.  The godhead too is in process, I say.


You cannot see me from where I look at myself     I look light     I look light leviathan light our Lady of Lourdes     I look the looking light looking glass gods the table of generations

See swords straight skewers my body scandal     See sea salt her shell sharpens eyes     I look hook lanyards empty eye socket horizon     Her horizon fuses hell hell her: her hell half-circles my eyes closed cycloids     I look looped circles hypercycloids circles roll inside circles Francesca Woodman casts hexagrams     Francesca Woodman haxan photographs halfshades / werewolf shadows

See something other than something but women     See her something her hellish / benjamin haberdasher magician     benjamin bricoleur magician     I juggle look and see, the religionless religion rhizome     I juggle hug closer closer and closer, religionless religion rhizome blues

All religions all laws all books of old: all turn and twist torturous leviathan     All turn tannin tehom tome abyss, this Book tracing the open erotic autoasphyxiation Book of Old, and Stations of the Cross orgasms Stations of the Cross orgasms macrocosm-microcosm / porno Adam Kadmon     Adam Kadmon and John Holes take turns cocks coiled serpent leviathan / gangbang gods sodom and gommorah     Gangbang garbage time sodom and gomorrah her gore cuts Christianity’s garments gut body naked     Christianity gut body naked gut bucket blues (an orgy of terror! Half man half beast all horror     Nobody sleeps in… NIGHTMARE OF THE BLOODY APES plus a cult of the living dead FEAST OF FLESH)

Francesca Woodman FEAST OF FLESH / one last cigarette

I mage itself ignites atonal ethereal     I mage impermanent fire: lightning imago     Lighting imago alef alef aloft leviathan     I mage iron ivory tortoise leaven and I lap leather between the scrolls

Leviathan lattices     Leviathan lion lattices / absurd iceberg lettuce     Leviathan lattices gelatin silver paint on paper

Slow silver leaves     Slower silver leaf frequency     Leviathan cookie cutter clutter (sometimes I clean the living room and I discovered disordered lamb levitation     Sometimes I clean the living room and discover a book on leaf flutter and etiquette)

Her image mystery novel photographs     Her image beehive archive mystery     Novel photographs flash paper pigeons (Sometimes I clean my living room and I puzzle over what is the largest area of a shape that can be maneuvers through a unit-width L-shaped corridor) (Sometimes I dream the sofa constant manifests in the shape of a woman     The human woman and the woman madame web)

I obsess Francesca palm letters liters palm readers / photographs flex floorless rollercoaster inversion     Inversion flat vertigo volumes (The disjunctive metrical and temporal complexity of this movement requires at least one additional conductor)     I obsess oddities Euclid’s algorithm averaging tones ten ton hammer     I obsess odd number rule then odd meters but I always return religion     I return rotten sound religionless religion (this image   this icon   this photograph nude women nude gods)     Often a comedy Christianity, an absurd allocating of local saints to desert discontinuities

I imitate gruppen most often     I copy Anthony Braxton’s Quartet with Marilyn Crispell on piano, Gerry Hemingway on drums, and Mark Dresser on double bass     Unlike Anthony Braxton, I get lost in my own structures, and I write my own adventures underground warped through the looking glass (Keep creating and keeping making even if not known: journey X and extend X two turntables Christina)

I look but not where Francesca Woodman looks     I look skirt ekstensis / Exegesis of Philip K. dick     I look polly pocket and lucy locket lost her pocket