Bud Powell pink turns to blue Bud Powell pink elephants on parade Parade pulse blue pink Philip K. Dick desert blue
Of the blue, purple, and crimson yarns they made finely worked vestments for ministry in the holy place; they made the sacred vestments for Aaron as the LORD had commanded Moses. He made the ephod of gold, of blue, purple, and crimson yarns, and of twisted linen. Gold leaf was hammered out and cut into threads to work into blue, purple, and crimson yarns and the finely twisted linen, in skilled design. They made for the ephod shoulder pieces, joined to it at its two edges. The decorated band on it was of the same materials and workmanship, of gold, of blue, purple, and crimson yarns, and fine twisted linen, as the LORD had commanded Moses.
Bud Powell pink turns to blue (A woman in a pink blouse sits in a chair as Dr. Williams, standing beside her, attached an electrical device to her head)
Pink blots blue blots pink parade bebop… Cut into pink and blue bleeds out. I continue into the cut and difference differences – different blues and pinks.
Blue disintegrate saint use tackling invoke how kiss touched mushroom taste
Pink disintegrates posterior realistically nightgown stranger
(Nightgown blue, purple, and crimson yarns)
Cut blue bebop / pink in the pocket get up like a sex machine
Bottomless blue – bottomless pit blue Bottomless bottle blue phantom butcher blues Bottomless butcher blues (I follow Bud Powell blue – blustery blizzard pink guts decorated blues. Blue balloon butterfly. Butter bottomless. Bottomless bitter pink elephants on parade. Parade blue imbued pink – blue bottomless parade bodies. Milk and honey sketch jaded garden lover serve loves legless.)
There are different kinds of discontinuity. Continuities free to repeat or leave things out.
Leave out blue leaves out pink
Repeat blue and repeat pink
Different kinds of continuity increase the large form – large scale – large duration. Whatever I do becomes melody.
Bud Powell pink turns blue / whatever I do becomes melody
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Everything I do becomes melody
Horizon opens her wide word wild hunt (horizon hunts the dream open unfinished forest)
At horizon now: endless pink and bottomless pink within the hunt. At the horizon now becomes melody within the horizon: horizons within horizons blue corridors: pink hallways – purple plane yarn laboratories. In the instant I exist in the horizon, the directions and instructions of my body exist: flesh to make vestments and coverings pink door projecting the laser blue door bottomless pink – blue – pink among horizontal bodies. Line up bodies to score the melody / graph my body genderfluid and liquid pink nonbinary. Horizons reveal the myth of a woman – first man and first woman – Ben Adam and Ben Lydia, Blue Eva triple male androgynous. The horizon always leads to body myth and hunt narratives. My body bears the marks of hunting magic and I redraw the magic and marks into melody (Bud Powell pink into blue – blue, crimson, and purple vestments for the quartet and trio).
Horizon opens her wide word wild hunt (horizon hunts the dream open unfinished forest)
The open forest / the doors of the horizon are thrown back unfinished forest
I throw the doors into the desert – I throw the desert into the doors bedeviled dust horizon
At the pink and blue of the horizon, everything I do becomes melody
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Bud Powell pink turns blue Bud did down well right Bud bottomless blue blends when blue
Face stone allaround vociferation understanding voice vav vav sonic boom
Of the blue, purple, and crimson yarns, they made finely worked vestments, for the ministering in the holy place; they made the sacred vestments for Aaron, as the LORD commanded Moses. He made the ephod of gold, of blue, purple, and crimson yarns, and of fine twisted linen. Gold leaf was hammered out and cut into threads to work into the blue, purple, and crimson yarns and into the fine twisted linen, in skilled design. They made for the ephod shoulder pieces, joined to it at its two edges. The decorated band on it was of the same materials and workmanship, of gold, of blue, purple, and crimson yarns, and of twisted linen, and the LORD commanded Moses. And the LORD commanded Moses. And the LORD commanded Moses.
I narrate horizon colors and horizontal colors; I voice horizon canvas and its blue and crimson carve shaped canvas. I narrate shaped canvas. I narrate shaped colors and carved colors and bottomless blue breathes oceanic myth. Myth the leaf its blue and myth made was fine two purple. Myth hammered twisted myth purple twisted edges.
Narrate shoulder pieces joined to workmanship melody Narrate melody of fine twisted linen and the same materials and crimson yarns
Different kinds of continuity increase large form – language scale – large duration – whatever I do is melody. Whatever I prophesy becomes melody and whatever I create harmonized and orchestrated melody.
Blue harmolodics
Pink punk coordinate musics
Horizon moment form
Horizon different kinds of dis/continuity
Different kinds of continuity dis/continuous melody melodies
Suspend place touch dare zoom rise introduce jaded
Floral write treasure balk inspire juggle pause present frighten
Narrative and myth harmolodics – horizon harmolodics – Narrate different cut different myths
Gold leaf was terrific cut out and cut into treads to work into the blue
They made for the ephod troubled pieces, geodesic to it at its two edges
I’m thinking about getting a blue horse tattoo, says Asia. Like Franz Marc? Yes. Yes! I love his work. Where would you get it? Probably on my arm… It will be based off the one from Brown Bear, Brown Bear, says Asia.
Blue horses cut my head hauntology (Horses in my dream, like waves like the sea) Blue horses my head different kinds of continuity Horses drag blue melodies harmolodic blue horses (Everything I do prophesies melodies blue horses yarn fine twisted linen in skilled design)
Bud Powell pink turns to blue Boom Bud Powell powder show solar cells
Bud Powell commands make the ephod shoulder pieces, joined to it blue horses Ben Lydia blue horses (rode a horse around the world along the tracks of a train)
Bud Powell possesses Ben Adam and Ben Eva and every human – Child of Humanity – creates melodies and becomes melodies
Different kinds of continuity
Suspend place touch frightens pink and blue horses
Yes set I’m tattoo setting
Where cut Mark blue brown arm
Whatever I do becomes melody. I mean the melody subtly pressuring the harmony – blue horse harmolodics – to give it direction. Harmony and blue harmolodics.
Bottomless blue boom Bud Powell salt surgery
Vociferous body valley vision vav vowel vav variations
Variations vociferous luminiferous aether vice her sounding
Riverrun sonar bar alarm
Blue inflated Bud Powell pink turns to blue Blue pressures pink into the body horizontal and body horizon
Tag: jazz
Bud Powell Pinks Turn To Blue, Part 1
Bud Powell pinks turns to blue Bud Powell pink elephants on parade (parade pulse plus pink Philip K. Dick pink gold golden ratio doorway)
I jam Book bebop and every chord change reveals door doorway pure pink
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The door of the horizon are thrown back; its bolts are unbolted
Vivid voids opens open amen
Void vivid opens open omen
Vivid amen opens open void omen
Horizon hymns horizon open: horizon hymn opens horizon hell radically open
Door horizon opens vivid her void opens volume void (The adventures of an ordinary man among the cruel men and passionate women of Algiers Musk, Hashish, and Blood) Horizon adventures bloody door – door Passover and creeping death I adventure – add venture – venture vulture prevent defense – horizon shirt hot horizons (hashish horizons musk murder in the red barn door across or our horizons – open crew, Christina cave-in)
The door of the horizons are thrown back; its bolts are unbolted
Horizon hymns horizon open: horizon hymn opens horizon hell radically (her open radials sprawl horizon desert concentric circles) Here her horizon opens here and her here open spills horizon
Vivid her void opens visible void and invisible void
Vivid her void devours void and her void devours void visions
(Void flows to void)
(Void pours onto void void doubled and triple void)
The door of the horizons are thrown back into the musk, hashish, and blood
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Bud Powell pink turns to blue Bud Powell pink elephants on parade Parade pulse pink plus blue plus blue (blue bathers bodies without organs)
I bare my body blue bricoleur blue brick blue babel / blue bathers body without organs
One of my ghost shrimps has a parasite, says Asia. I have quarantined him. I can’t bring myself to euthanize him though. They are so cute. I’m trying methylene blue. It can work to kill parasites so we will see, says Asia. Let me know how it goes, I say. Methylene blue is also used in gram staining. Used a lot in my microbiology class. That’s why I have it, says Asia. The microscope. I forget you’re a genius, I say. How do you know it has a parasite? Ghost shrimps are see-through, says Asia. It’s like “Oh they are perfectly clear except that one has a weird worm thing looking inside of it… wait a minute…,” says Asia.
Bud Powell brings blue X blue and I’m always blue
(I feel blue desert depression and body blue. Body blue burden of the valley of vision body without organs blue. Blue Ben desert travel blue. I need to vomit this raw emotion, however inelegant and brutish and ugly. I believe in my ugly – I believe in my vulnerability – I believe in my weakness. My desert body frustrates. Blue defeats me – pink elephants on parade berate me – passionate women of Algiers throw open the door of horizon and polish its bolts with my blood. I vomit brutalist blood and I fail to nurse in this blue… Try again fail again fail better. Fail better blue and experience nervous and fuck and anxious – I experience human and the pink to blue human off the bebop runs. Improvise kind of blue and blue in green and all blues.)
Bud Powell pink turns to blue Bud Powell pink elephants on parade Parade pulse plus pink Philip K. dick pink gold golden ratio doorway
Bud did down well right I sing dumb his glass darkly speech lit face to face on all around He sing ben simulation string texts, string cheese cobra chaoses
Blue Bud Powell one cute blue
I’m trying also forget perfectly
Ghost methylene used you’re clean
Blue that’s why I have quarantined him I can’t bring used in gram staining myself to euthanize though
I sing dumb glass darkly speech bark blue
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The door of the horizons are thrown back; its bolts are unbolted
I unbolt the doors and I parade pulse pink Philip K. Dick pink gold golden ratio doorway (Door blue and pink spills her were horizon Horizon used in gram staining myself to euthanize through they are so well perfectly)
Unbolt horizon spills house fire and forest haunted by open fragments
(Bud Powell pink fragments
Bud powers blue fragments
Philip K. Dick blue door)
I collect fragments from the manuscript of the horizon
I collect blues the scale of blue in blue, and my blue collective coagulates bloody door / hashish horizons. I collect blue and blue unbolts my body from my body. Blue isolates my body in blue. Blue bones – blue brains – blue Bud Powell – spills out body blue… Despite all my collections, I cannot find the door. I cannot unbolt the door. I collect blue and vivid blue opens void language problems and language games. I follow Bud Powell into bebop blue and Powell creates the modern piano style of single-note right hand runs and left-handed chordal punctuation. I collect blue freely across harmonic borders. I collect blue through the doors...
Change Direction The Shape Of Jazz To Come
Then change direction several minutes of free improvisation (the shape jazz to come)
Change direction the shape of jazz to come Change the shape of jazz to come shape shift shape Shape slip pit shape directions (directions into directions shapes)
I do not give up jazz but I shape jazz anew (Kerouac gave up Buddhism the way he abandoned everything) I do not give up jazz but shape janus both directions at once (Benjamin gives up Christianity. Benjamin gives up Christianity and I believe in desperate acts, the kind that make me look stupid.)
Then change direction several minutes of free improvisation
I was telling Asia how I was still getting used to talking to you again and how I didn’t talk to you yesterday, I say to Christina. I said I had told Christina I might feel anxiety when life becomes busy, that it might take a bit of rebuilding to feel comfortable when we don’t talk for a day or two or whatever it is. Asia suggested if one of us needs space and not talk for a bit, we let each other know ahead of time… I felt a lot of distress when I didn’t have any idea what happened to you for awhile and I think it would be a good idea if you let me know if you need to take some extended time instead of leaving me in the dark. And I will do the same for you. That’s not something I can do right now, says Christina. There will definitely be times when I’m too sad to look at my phone and in that case, there’s nothing I can do ahead of time. I think there’s a difference though not talking to me for a week and not telling me for three months, I say. I do completely understand that’s anxiety-producing, says Christina. If it’s not the right time yet, just let me know… I thought you meant like every day, she says. No, I say. I just mean like a few days you can’t talk, give me a heads up you’re OK after a bit. Definitely less than a week, says C. I’m totally good with that, I say. I do plan on getting better, says C. And I do see my relationship skills as a defect (like the 12-step definition). So I will be praying about it and asking God to empower me. I also think it helps, if you continue like today… You made it easy to connect with you even though I hadn’t read all your texts. Less pressure. I can sometimes talk a lot, I say. If you miss a lot of messages and it’s overwhelming, don’t feel obligated to read everything. If it’s super important I will bring it up or ask you. I appreciate the leeway, says C. I know it’s not ideal, but I think it will help me to take baby steps back into being friends.
Then change direction and then change direction several minutes of free improvisation (the shape of jazz to come / the shape of Kindred to come)
Then change direction I for what idea might of I I for what to not be praying with that two
Change directions dense texts / directions text dense stacked tank intensities Dense texts torch Taryn tortoiseshell intensities / erosion eccentricities Change directions a large number of rhythmically independent lines with resultant overlappings A large number bring to me telling large brings to me telling you didn’t You large number leaving in again you into I defect dark (I defect dark large numbers / defect dark large marge)
A large number of rhythmically independent lines mix defect dark with resultant overlappings defect dark dark independent (The narrative of Ben and Christina is a narrative that gives me hope. I desperately need hope and I desperately hope because I feel deathly apocalypse. Death arrives death and death attack airplane apocalypse kontake / bukkake eschaton.)
Change direction a few minutes of free improvisation (I study the Flammarion engraving. I study a wood engraving by an unknown author, so named because of its first documented appearance in Camille Flammarion’s 1888 book L'atmosphère : météorologie populaire. I study the Flammarion engravings use a metaphorical illustrative of either the scientific or mystical quests for knowledge.) Change directions a few minutes improvises free alchemy and fire chemistry engraved both directions at once
Dense texts stacked tank intensities change directions: Christina direction direct god bomb last (I feel a mix of erectness when I didn’t have its area what boltholes to you for awhile and I think it would be good if you let me know if you keep to take some extended time instead of beating me in the rich. And I will do the same for you.) Dense texts torch Taryn stalk tank intensities and Christina erodes my eccentric body always conic sections I direct text voices free polyphony
A large number of rhythmically independent lines with resultant overlappings / fused field of sound enlivened by irregular accentuations
Large number directions directions (Form blood chilly thrillers all rated R Diabolic Wedding a marriage night ordained by the devil himself. And The Gruesome Twosome in ghastly color! Astounding, stunning, bizarre: The Wizard of Gore and Edgar Allen Poe’s Legend of Horror)
Large number directions directions (Their form is human but they have crossed over… Is this sex after death? Th Witchmaker)
Then change direction several minutes of free improvisation (I said had suck Christina I might feel anxiety when life becomes safe that it might take a bit of rebuilding to feel refrangible when we don’t wind for a how or two or desiccated it is)
Texts overlap not to produce a network of interwoven independent lines but dense sound complexes that then change direction several minutes of free improvisation
I Need To Play
I play: I play now now names and numbers, and numbers babel brick apocalypse
I need to play and fuck around now names and numbers, and numbers annihilate numbers
“He plays all the notes Bird missed,” somebody whispered in front of Fu. Fu went silently through the motions of breaking a beer bottle on the edge of the table, jamming it into the speaker’s back and twisting.
I need to play and I play: I play all the names and numbers Bird missed (missed cuckoo rollers missed fernwrens missed leafbirds)
I play swim sing striped texts: texts torture gardens I play sing swim trade text theft (skeletons of black-footed ferrets and prairie dog articulated to show the predator-prey relationship between them) I play new sounds sound glass stem harmolodics / funk flesh sting skull scales I search for new sounds city with a slouch hat: my hat slack attracts gnats Gnats stash god knick-knacks slow slash whiplash
I know I need to play and I play all the notes Bird missed I play and I fuck around now names and numbers, and numbers leafbird brick apocalypse Numbers add bird babel apocalypse and text eschaton taryn immediates (opening and mystery always already involves play and humorous heteroglossia) I play Ornette Coleman: a mood, fragments of melody, an area of pitch and rhythmic patterns
I love music. I listen to as much music as possible. Music soothes and inspires me and the process of writing the Book not only participates in visionary intuition and revelation, but also in musical improvisation and musical developing variations. I vary vision and I improvise on apocalypse. I love music and I study more and more music, and melodies and harmonic structures permeate the Book. Music plays infinitude and Book improvises infinitude.
I play and I play all the notes Bird missed I play Ornette Coleman: a mood, fragments of melody, an area of pitch, and rhythmic patterns I play punctuated repetition punctuated equilibrium rhythm changes I change or charge rhythm syncopated sigil or river hexes hexes I charge flow rhythm detailed delta / union of the upper and lower nile I fuck around an incessant jazz or inconsistently consistent funk My face fractal cuts fierce funk fire space shuttle My face on fire fissures surgical space and scalpel this is where time becomes space
I play harmolodic: polyphonic with the rhythm and harmony I play harmolodic marriage of heaven and hell: unisons overlap melody underneath and further underneath melodies and rhythms beyond the barline
I need to play and I search for new sounds city with a sleuthing hat: my hat stacks unnamed gnats Gnats stash gods knock knock who’s there slasher film whiplash
(A Poet a Painter a Musician an Architect: the Man or Woman who is not one of these is not a Christian You must leave Fathers and Mothers and Houses and Land, if they stand in the way of Art)
Did you say what you thought about my poem? I say. It as nice but I think some sentence or phrase variation here and there would have helped solidify things, says Asia. Lots of fragmented phrased tied together. I will work on it, I say. It’s been a long time since I have written poetry. I have to make the poems out of a uniform cloth and uniform language… I may rewrite the poem entirely and include it in the Book in Book form. I would like to be more modular in my approach to writing and rewriting. I will give you an example from music regarding the composer Wolfgang Rihm: “He sometimes revised or adapted his finished work. For example, in 1992 he completely rewrote Ins Offene… for orchestra (1990) and used it as the basis for his piano concerto Sphere (1994). Then he recast the piano part of Sphere to recreate Nachstudie for solo piano (1994). In 2002, he wrote Sphäre Nachstudie (a new version of Nachstudie) for harp, two double basses, piano, and percussion, as well as Sphäre um Sphäre (a new version of Sphere) for two pianos and chamber ensemble.” I would like to take the same texts and write them anew with different visions and new experiences, like how Rihm used a composition as a jumping off point for various recontextualizations, I say. Would someone have to read all the poems together? says Asia. No, I don’t think so. I think it goes along with what you were saying before about making the blog posts more self-contained. They’re self-contained and can be read separate although reading them together does reveal an additional thing, I say.
I know I need to play and I play long line loom long line letter opener I open letter light word lead I swim long line play stitch slough straw slow word: word played slow line long ligament (I sledge ligament intense insects / I slip wasp vibrato striker sword or serpent spear) Spear sticks rough and reed rhythms
I search for a new sound and a new music and the language of the Book makes new music. I meditate on the Book melody and its variations of its melodic fragments. I listen to the work “Mantra” by Karlheinz Stockhausen for two ring-modulated pianos, crotales, and wood blocks, and his use of “formula composition” continues to intrigue me. “The mantra has thirteen notes and each cymbal sound occurring once in a piece indicates large sections.. though the mantra recur constantly, the structure of the composition is not a theme and variations because the material is never varied, only expanded and contracted (both in duration and pitch) to different degrees; not a single note is ever added and it is never accompanied or embellished.” I study formula composition and I apply its techniques to the Book. Formula fucks around with expanding and contracting the sentence and stanza. (I know I need to play. I know [expansion] I need [expansion] to play [expansion].) Stockhausen attached to each note a certain characteristic – e.g. “The fifth note having a slow tremolo between F and D” and particular dynamics and durations attached to each pitch – e.g. fortissimo dynamic always played with a quarter note duration. I contemplate adding characteristics to letters or words or grammatical functions – or I abandon this idea like I abandon every other idea – a one-off experiment never to be used again.
I know I need to play and I play rough rhythms river redder sea Reed rhythm cuts firm figure (my wife whose hair birds brush fire)
I know I need to play (While he and his musicians suddenly create every sudden textual shift themselves, without technological assistance, his guides are the splice, the jump cut, the video edit – not to mention the jack-in-the-box and its more sinister relatives in fun houses and horror movies. In his music, coherence is barely more than propinquity; one sound or style simply doesn’t predict the next)(Propinquity: noun. The state of being close to someone or something; proximity. Close kinship.)
I know I need to play: I play now names and numbers (The thirteen cycles of the composition are based on the 23 notes of the mantra and the 13 characters detailed above. Each cycle is dominated by its corresponding note and characteristic. In this way, a single statement of the mantra notes are not incorporated into this overall plan.)
I need to play and I play: I play all the names and numbers Bird missed (missed cuckoo rollers missed fernwrens missed leafbirds)
I need to play and fuck around now names and numbers, and numbers annihilate numbers
I play: I play now now names and numbers, and numbers babel brick apocalypse
In The Thread Red Rabbit
In the thread red rabbit In the thread, red rabbit In the thread in the thread
In then In then thin this repetition, this red composition (Then and then, thinner thread thunder. Then then thunder, twin free improvisation.)
In the thread, red rabbit. Rabbits reveal everywhere and I draw the rabbit straight line and follow it. I follow the thread narrower beams and I tight-rope walk with rabbits. I walk with rabbits on the thread and I rarefy red from rabbits: rubedo body and in the threads, my body red. I read my body red in the thread and I tight-rope walk with twin rabbits. In the red, twin threads and I thread my body to through. In the thread, red rabbit. In the thread, red rabbit (rabbit reveals repetitions and repetition reveal the rabbit. I draw the rabbit line in line into. Rabbit drifts red. Rabbit drifts red drawing (rabbit reveals repetitions and repetitions reveal rabbit).
In the thread red rabbit In the thread, red rabbit In the read red rabbit thunder In the red thread rabbit taryn tape thunder Cassette tape thunder tinkers human skeleton skipping stone / I skip human bone as shadow stones wrote (I adore language sound and sounding languages. I listen for the language music and the melody grows rubato rabbits rabbits batarang. Rabbits bring a certain melodic quality to the language. I adore the music of the language / systemically derange the language. Systemically derange the language: write a work consisting only of prepositional phrases, or add a gerund to every line of an already existing work.) (The rabbit on time The rabbit with that beautiful woman The rabbit before going home) In the thread red rabbit In the red thread rabbit taryn records volcanic activity I record rabbit thunder theater and theater tape pivots from human bone to hale bone I skip whale bone shadow wilderness
I tinker with the sounds, the sounding language of the word but I should destroy the language (systemically deranging the language). I tinker with with word with with rabbits, the rabbit on time. I tinker the rabbits on time but there rabbit with that beautiful woman destroys. The rabbit destroys the language more with the Book weld. I respect the Book too much and its form and processes ossify me. I draw a straight line and I follow the rabbit.
Would you consider me a master of my craft? I say. The craft of writing? says Asia. I think you could be more well-rounded. You do change up your style and techniques but you still only really write a very particular kind of style, says Asia. What can I do to become more well-rounded? I say. Write other forms of writing, says Asia. Write narratives, essays, poems. That all has to be in one Book? I say. No, she says. It’s not that I don’t think the Book contains those things but there is something to be said about creating those things to be a work to themselves instead of a work that contributes to the Book. You aren’t writing them as isolated pieces and while I think you have a pretty good grasp on poetry, I’ve never seen you write a complete narrative story. The reason I say that is because there is a certain intentionality that comes with making something that has an end. I see, I say. You don’t think the blog posts are ends in themselves? They can be but they aren’t, says Asia. And the narrative element you add are not a complete story either. I think the nature of the Book can cause you to go in lots of different directions without ever finishing one thing all the way through. Plenty of people like what you do but I think you won’t really know the limits of what you are capable of unless you branch out a bit. Just get out of your comfort zone. Challenge yourself, says Asia.
In the thread red rabbit In the thread, red rabbit (I draw a straight line and I follow the rabbit. I read about the Miles Davis Quintet and their live recording The Complete Live At The Plugged Nickel 1965, a 7 hour plus collection recorded on December 22nd and 23rd 1965. Herbie Hancock stated: “We’d gotten so cohesive as a band that it became easy to play together. We had figured out a formula for making it work, but of course playing a formula was exactly the opposite of what we wanted to do. We needed to put the challenge back, to figure out ways to take more risks…” Tony Williams proposed making “anti-music”. “Whatever someone expects you to play, that’s the last thing you play.” The group agreed but didn’t tell Miles Davis. Herbie Hancock said: “Some people have suggested that Tony was trying to sabotage the band by doing this, but he was only really trying to sabotage our comfort level, to break us open again. It was just another step in trying to push our boundaries as musicians and as a band.” I retell this story about the Plugged Nickel 1965 because I create and write at a similar junction: I write the Book with proficiency and I know how to make the Book work. The Book has become a formula, albeit a formula that works and a formula I can still stretch and expand, but even the subtle shifts and gradual evolution of the Book's current forms is not enough to stave off the feeling of comfort and even stagnation. First, I follow Asia’s advice: challenge myself, get out of my comfort zone, and write forms that don’t belong to the Book. I plan on working in traditional poetry forms: villanelles, sestinas, sonnets, as well as light verse. I also plan to work on writing short stories: microfiction at first and slowly building up to longer and longer self-contained narratives. I also plan to write essays. I will experiment in these forms and prophesy a vision necessary and unavoidable in my creative spirit, but like Albert Ayler, I work on improvising free by putting more form in the free form. As for the Book, I take an example from The Complete Live At The Plugged Nickel 1965: Herbie Hancock states, “From the moment Miles counted off the first song, I started focusing on how I would play against expectation. Whenever a song would build up, getting to that natural peak, the natural inclination would be to push it over the top – but instead I would suddenly bring it down to one quiet note. Tony did the same, building up his playing in volume and intensity, but then, instead of hitting the bass drum, he’d gently tap the cymbal. He did the opposite, too, suddenly ratcheting up intensity just as a tune was winding down.” I go against my instincts and betray my own expectations. I become a Judas Iscariot to the Book. I favor heavy assonance and alliteration and euphony: I now explore dissonance and clashes and cacophony. Utilize wider varieties of sounds, contrasts, shadows, chiaroscuro – accumulate and add to my repertoire of techniques. Then go onto the next thing to betray and sabotage my comfort and break me open again. I go forth to experiment and make big messes and spectacular failures.
I write IN THE THIRD RED RABBIT; my initial creative instincts involve repetition and alliteration to expand and rearrange it. Instead, I try dissonance and sharp contrasting accents: in the thread red rabbit attack but warble thread
Miles Davis said: Don’t play the first thing you hear. Wait and play the next thing.
In the thread red rabbit, play the next thing In thread the black barbs snap barbarian I skip human stone curlicue perpetrators Rabbits prod carbuncle habits hit barnacles: thread to thread barnacle manual labor Red barnacles boast a light in the attic hoedown
Diamond Dogs Deliver The Dead With Jazz
Diamond dogs deliver denim doorway: wave way her demiurge Demiurge urgent as the desert dream city destroyer deconstructed syntax Dog draws drawl syntax syntax doublets Diamond dog divorces dogma and demiurge disappears but I drive still urgent desert Diamond dogs syntax trace deconstruct syntax dizzy up the girl Diamond dogs dizzy up the girl decry demiurge earthworks I work the earth firedogs slow flame syntax Earthworks wallop word demiurge doorway winged whalebone Earthworks wyrd woman walking bass earthworks / water dog diamond dogs Diamond dogs din digs Francis Bacon a performing dog
Diamond dog degas drags benjamin ballerina desert ballrooms
Their dogs drop dodgeballs: their dogs drop large iron spheres from skyscrapers
I dislike dogs – no, I like dogs, but I could never befriend a dog I cannot walk the dog as a yo-yo trick and I cannot walk the dog as a dachshund or german shepherd I do not telephone dogs and the dial drops dead I steal the phrase diamond dog from the David Bowie album (conceived during a period of uncertainty over where his career was headed, Diamond Dogs is the result of multiple projects Bowie envisioned at the time: a scrapped musical based on Ziggy Stardust (1972); an adaptation of George Orwell’s novel Nineteen Eighty-Four (1949); and an urban apocalyptic scenario based on the writings of William S. Burroughs) I adore David Bowie and his willingness to shift and experiment I do not feel uncertainty in my future creativity but I do feel a drive towards rhizome and multiplicities: I realize the rhizome in John Coltrane’s dictum of both direction at once and in the Oblique Strategies suggestion of when faced with a choice do both I write rhizome multidirection I write multidirection expansive time drums Rashied Ali multidirectional I motion and gesture motion painting multidirectional diamond dogs with no distance I explore no distance dog star rhythm rubato rhizome multidirectional
I do not telephone dogs and the dial drones dead Rotate rotary phone rancid robbery / Pink Floyd’s Dogs as the dial tone Dogs drift digital darkness at the edge of town Their dogs drive snow idiosyncratic iditarod / my idiopathic dog brain blushes blast processing
Brain blast processes arkanoid blast processing Brain cedar beam balance bark film One recurring theme of the film: many objects seen vibrate such as forks and bells Brain bells blast processing arkanoid blast processing vibrates Brain blast vibrates processing summa incisors /brain bites brain fine dog scissor cuts Fine dog forks vibrate David Gilmour vibrato
One recurring theme of the film many objects seen vibrating such as forks and bells This film blends yakuza stories with ghost stories, bizarre vignettes, and urban legends
My brain bells ghost dogs and black dogs vibrations in black forests I find forks stabbed into oak / a witch’s silhouette in chalk
I burned bodies that I buried in the backyard
Black dogs appear as superimposed ghosts on the film film bizarre vignettes
In the backwards, I listen to Rumble by Link Wray and His Ray Men It has a rough sound and sounds like a street fight Black dogs devour my body Ghost dogs devour my body bizarre vignettes
I visit more phrases from Jean-Michel Basquiat’s notebook / semantic field: Milling in crowd Today he admitted to being foolish Ran into the train beat out the flames They fallen asleep and were inhaling the smoke Slight crack in the gas line
A tedious aspect of my method of writing: every line and even every word I want to explore and rewrite and reinterpret through every possible permutation and combination In this way, my method has similarities to John Coltrane’s method of improvisation, and Coltrane details this in the April 12, 1962 article in Downbeat titled “John Coltrane and Eric Dolphy Answer the Jazz Critics”: “They're long because all the soloists try to explore all the avenues that the tune offers. They try to use all their resources in their solos. Everybody has quite a bit to work on…”
I try to explore all the avenues the tune (text) offers Sometimes the text overwhelms me and I can only offer tedious variations or repetitions that stall and stagnate rather than express and surprise rhizome breakers For the time being, I put working with these Jean-Michel Basquiat phrases on hold, and record them in another notebook to revisit them later
Miles Davis used to tell his musicians, when you play the music, don’t play the idea that’s there, play the next idea. Wait. Wait another beat, maybe two, and maybe you’ll have something that’s more fresh. Don’t just play from the top of your head, but listen and try to play a little deeper…
When I write diamond dogs, I try not to resort to my well-used word-images such as desert or my well-trodden verbs of dig and dream unless done in a manner that surprises me or reveals a deep connection that disturbs me Sometimes I get stuck and rely on cliches and past vocabulary but I hope I can combine my cliches into something like the way Charlie Parker fit and refit his motifs into new contexts I desire to invent anew but sometimes my long-exhausted languages wont’ stay dead (They won’t stay dead! NIGHT OF THE LIVING DEAD They keep coming back in a blood-thirsty lust for human flesh! Pits the dead against the living for a struggle for survival!)
Don’t play what’s there, play what’s not there (diamond dogs devour my body) Don't listen to what’s there, listen to what’s not there (diamond dogs divide my body prayer parcels for demiurges)
Write real ghost dogs / ghosts there and not there but waits words
Ghost lights illuminate black dogs and abandoned boom towns Ghost light calcium night light lines black dog mothlight Ghost light assorted diatoms drum distant dogs (Assorted diatoms as seen through a microscope. These specimens were living between crystals of annual sea ice in McMurdo Sound, Antarctica. The image digitized from original 35mm ektachrome slide. These phyloplankton are encased within a silicate cell wall)
I play rhizome ghosts and ghost rhizome I play root of an unfocus / fixed point tossed as if it is untroubled I play ghost dog spontaneous earth (I sometimes forget in the exploration and experiment, the element of PLAY) (What are your experiences reading my Book? I ask Asia. How do you engage with it and how do you feel afterwards? I like how your work experiments with language and associations, says Asia. Reading your work is like walking into an antique store – I don’t know what I’m going to find or stumble on, says Asia)
I write the Bacchanale quickly and with the excitement continual discovery provided (three or four days to invent a new instrument) (three or four pages to invent a new language) (I inverse dogs god language ben adam invention / inverse ben inverted dome dogs) (so much repetition) (so much repetition but I invent I rid myself of the first 10,000 drawings I write John Cage Ten Thousand Things)
I try to write diamond dogs sound ghosts and ghost drawings copper mine
I manipulate similar musical time into time multiplied by ghosts I machine an arbitrary ghost time tremor amber ambient and I fill the orange glow ambient with sound and movement I fill each page with a different kind of sound and continuity
I continue between dog sound and ghost sound sensual son of man I mime time trail tail haunted: minimal monochrome, deliberately shifting lines of color, moto perpetuo complex rhythms created by the interplay of timbres (Timbre Taryn troubles time tossed trickster timber timbres)
I teeter twisted timbers Taryn Trickster / twirling optic rotor reliefs I float flat expanses of music matching plotless and actionless cinema I simmer cinema vibrating forks and bells and I die from the emptiness of cautious and clever people Often I trick the language too clever and it lacks creative play Play furious fluxus and a text score scraped trickster palimpsest / illuminated manuscript
Diamond dogs twist door doe timbre and multiplied ghosts modulate antler sentence hangar
I start with sentence sentence fragment incomplete sentence ore or ore start sentence stranger: sentence stay starcade world wrestling championship starcade Nick Arcade arcades project people Das Passagenwerk earthwork my monumental rain My monumental rain ruin rain circular ruins and I rain theater starcade Starcade theater struggles Cosmia pyralina pirouette pyralina passagenwork wall walk woman walking bass I play walking bass line little linen loops and my sentences press play cassette tape Taryn Trickster
I read this sentence and the next sentence diamond dogs das passagenwork Ghost dog dirk das passagenwerk lunar-spotted pinion (forewing dull or bight red brown or pinker ground; generally darkened with olive fuscous; first line blackish, oblique, not white-edged, angled outwards between and inwards on the veins…)
Diamond dogs dust diamond wings wig butterfly powder and word hourglasses
I love words that function as adverbs and prepositions A long term project involved studying all these words that make up this category and using them in a new and confidently inventive manner
I plan to incorporate more insects and more insect facts and descriptions into the Book because Asia loves insects: the difficult part involves making facts and descriptions into an inventive improvisational language and a novel language that renames gods into darkling beetles and diamond dogs
Bright red brown or a pinker ground jumps outward dark dog word ghosts (a red brown diamond dog a pinker ground diamond dog)
Bright red brown dog ben body blast processes on a pinker ground (a pinker ground diamond dog bulldoze outward diamond dog sentence)
Bright red brown rhizome jets red baron ben hinnom tao hum (dogs hum ghosts wire tonality diamond)
Stars appear as diamond dogs and gestural paintbrush strokes
Sentence stone structureless star stratas stars strange dogs Sentence stone stars stalactites my flesh magma and meteor (my magma blackish angles outwards between and inwards) Sentences sandsnow signs dog gospel Sentences stink flesh funk dark diamond dogs / ben body decays and dances Michael Jackson’s Thriller Sentence salts stars staggered sentences / out line preceded by darker shade serpents Serpent sentence edged with white white light bright brown red
Sentences appear as diamond dogs and gestural paintbrush strokes a pinker ground
Sentence salts cobalt bomb ben body Sentence salts spirals staircase cast bone bone spirals into my diamond forehead (Sentences speak in spirals and diamond dog dialectics Dialectics edge dog white, the white diffused on costa and joined to the whiter streak before the submarginal line line spirals pinker sentences)
Sentences spiral last supper calcium strange light / ben body stretched owl light between dog stars
Relaxing At The Camarillo
Relaxing at the Camarillo 1946 Dial records sax solo 1032 – A BIRD OF PARADISE CHARLIE PARKER
I realized by using the high notes of the chords as a melodic line, and by the right harmonic progression, I could play what I heard inside me. That's when I was born.
I mouth melody marrow longer lunar line I mesh melody monophonic mist mythologies: mire myth nonlinear line longer myth I mouth relaxing and the camarillo bow cross melody microphone morpheme I morpheme pharmaceutical myth entheogen lepton generations generations / I generate groundless loss gods tenor saxophone
I also dream nonlinear melody I dream melody carbon monoxide charge Christina stations of the cross checkers I dream melody cageless witches’ coven Christ the carpenter Christ carpenters cageless careless whisper guilty feet got no rhythm Dream calcium light light look hook aporia Aporia paw points my brain punctured (two turntables, an audio mixer, and an amplifier)
I search for a new melody and a longer line I feel my approach to the line – this arrangement of fragments in constellations – has become too rigid and inflexible I search for a new line: a more beautiful line and a more melodic line
Around this time, I was trying for a sweeping sound, says John Coltrane. I started experimenting because I was striving for more individual development […] I haven’t completely abandoned this approach, but it wasn’t broad enough. I’m trying to play these progressions in a more flexible manner now.
I search for a new sheets of sound I search for a new long line sheets of sound sound nonlinear solar anus
Search loner sound sheets of sound sounds search body and soul Search longer sound melody solo tenor saxophone improvisations / improvisations languages longer body and soul I search sheets of sound soultrane traces serpents taryns
My melodic meander My melodies meaner manic mural motion sickness and the melodic line sprawls actions action paintings the long melodic line and the language music long melody Like John Coltrane, I do not abandon my approaches but I try to broaden my approach and create and improvise with great flexibility and openness
Relaxing at the Camarillo 1946 Dial Record sax solo 1032-A BIRD OF PARADISE CHARLIE PARKER
I relax the refrain and I repeat the melody railway rhizome I relax the rhizome rain refrain marginal emendation run amok Amok abyss I sit bright bay blood My body emerges immerse melody margins marguerite I relax the refrain and repeat my mistakes I repeat the Book revised river copies copy water women look between I mend melody long line garments and I have to put notes in uneven groups like fives and sevens in order to get them all in
I diminish the letter size paper sizing diminished sevenths I sing sevenths seventh inversion sober sabbaths / symmetrical edits I rewrite luna and lunar lush light human hazards and the road hazards stop-and-go go go dancers
I rewrite luna and lunar constant structures / free and shifting tonal center
I hope I prophesy you and our friendship well, I say. In the past you have said that, that I prophesy you and us appropriately and you haven’t had any indication you changed your mind on that. Yeah, I think I can still say that I still agree with that, says Asia. This week has been hard for me, I say. But I think overall I’m healthier mentally than I’ve ever been. My friendships are the strongest they’ve ever been. Yeah, says Asia. Like you still spiral but even in the spiral you don’t go to old toxic behaviors. Shit, just a year ago you were doing things like purposely violating boundaries to make me want to leave, says Asia. That’s true, I say. It’s kind of painful even to edit conversations from 5 months ago. Although there’s a lot of improvement from then too. Thank you for letting me grow, I say. And I meant what I said, says Asia. There have been at least two examples recently that you told me about that mid-spiral you corrected yourself. Like when you said regretted sending the text about me sending you a reassuring message on a blackout day, or you driving home from work telling yourself that you wrote a lot and your patient was still happy. You didn't used to do stuff like that, says Asia.
One interpretation for incorporating conversations and other collage techniques in the Book: to teach myself and also remember my growth individually and my growth within my friendships One interpretation of incorporating conversations and different styles of writing in the Book: it fucks up time and syntax and wrestles unrest process into new languages One interpretation for incorporating conversations and collage techniques into the Book: the proliferation of multiplicities and rains rhizomes that reflect the totality of human experience (ben adam son of man child of humanity)
I rewrite luna and lunar look lightning loot languages Luna and lunar reflect lighthouse lenient littoral and sea shifts shift sift leviathan (I recently went to Monterey Bay Aquarium again and my favorite experience this time involved the giant sea bass – I took excellent photos of two grumpy looking giant sea bass, one in the Kelp Forest and the other in the Monterey Bay Habitats)
I relax the refrain slick in the boxing ring head movement I dream repeated dreams draws ram boxing ben carbon Carbon cool jazz chain cageless caravan carbon: body carbon dial records sax solo I dream repeated calcium light night levee’s going to break ben carbon and I sample the rings claustrophobic counterpoint (two turntables, an audio mixer, and an amplifier)
I amplify sample skeleton bare bones bobcat cranked up beat box
I dream the wall drawings water repetition and the tenth point is located equidistant from the ninth point, the third point, and the midpoint on the topside
Topside I strip topless topsoil silly putty I play putty nude horror body boxer (There are certain rules that one must abide by in order to successfully survive a horror movie! For instance, number one: you can never have sex. Sex equals death, OK?) (I masturbate metropolis melody I masturbate metronome and arouse rubato aleph atempo)
The twenty-first point is located at the center of the wall
Point pierces wall Point pierces wall post punctures wall wild waters Point points from wall to wall and word to word / I masturbate common chord modulations Point punctures wall home hook achromatic lament ground bass book aporia Chromatic lament looks lunar or luna Chromatic lament light basso profundo fumato wall wallop strappado world serpent / she found them in the desert region in the empty housing waste Point parodies parrot exposition (metal gear?!) I protect points plane lunar or luna stampede languages stampede pick point solar anus taryn passages peculiar
From this point to this point, passages: passages I imbue sexual antinomianism with eschatologies and mystical meaning I open my appetite serpent kind (my anaconda don't want none unless you got buns hun) I transform nihilism into greater zero and greater zebra I translate nihilism to a different death of god and my death of god theologies (thanos thanatos taryn thunder the agony) plane train line dune death melody / melodic erotic desert death drinking guard gods gods gem gall long circular ruins rock and stone twelve tone rows ben blood bar bastard basket basking shark shell gun orgasms / my breasts blood suck body horror My breasts bite bare body eschaton bone (Nothing so appalling in the annals of horror! You’ll recoil and shudder as you witness the slaughter and mutilation of nubile young girls – in a weird and horrendous ancient rite! BLOOD FEAST More grisly, even in blood color) I feast on the blood of gods gore horns chromatic ground bass lunar melodies I feast on the blood of girlish gods rite of spring louisiana lamp ghost light lights (Alan Moore’s Swamp Thing Grant Morrison’s Animal Man)
My body bruise blur boomerang blood / my blood clot batarang rain taryn antinomianism My body arc absurd bodies comic comic extremely long bones Long beetles swarm in and out of my body orifices over disorder chew many holes whole flesh tunnels Beetles tunnel relaxing at the camarillo and bomb birds of paradise lunar or luna
I Explore All The Avenues The Tune Offers
No tunes, just a sonic storming of the heavens, the sound of longing unbound
Push sound Push sound prayer sound prayer search serpent: sow serpents take the horn out of your mouth but I mouth horn constant My mouth machines blue bull horns liturgy of the hours You have to use some imagination to hear the song inside of it
No tunes but turn touch Taryn twice touch twice trace taste Taryn Taryn theme tower twist trick tempo No tunes I count tempo
Push pure sound performance art Push sound pulse impulse play performance Push sound seer process prophecy and I pursue prophecy sound scripture sound poetry Sound prayer search serpents: sow serpent now sound and I sound horned moon I sound lunar horns take the horn out of your mouth but I do not take the horn out of my mouth I mouth sound motion water mechanics mechanical bull mixed multitudes I mix sound sound mixture ben begins the beach I sound mix sounds sign jazz improvised gospel and I let the sound blend body body bow blood sound Sound bow bay of blood ben beach blonde and sound steeps lunar horn horned steppe
I do not take the horn out of my mouth but mouth mixture mixtures top soil tetragrammaton
I do not take the horn out of my mouth but I mouth moon hell high mine sea Sea slow sword sound mouth tenor saxophone serpent paw print tone row My mouth machine mines moorland moor mother moon My mouth moon mirror silver bull horn hell liturgy of the hours I hear hours cave mouth and moon mouth map ship imagination ink sons
Push sound cross klang Cross klang autoclave collage collage chymistry Cross collage car chymistry coin-operated arcade machines / push sound Ms. Pac-Man
Push sound cross klang Cross klang hang bang classic quartet I quick klang classic quartet first great quintet second great quintet Cross klang sang rain sheets of sound rain Sheets of sound spell sprawl calls bird bell yardbird yahweh / yahweh klang reed waters water redshift Waters redshift rhizome room roma cross I roam cross as camera or human photograph and I photograph accidental bodies
(Boulevard du Temple, Paris, 3rd arrondissement, Daguerreotype. Made in 1838 by inventor Louis Daguerre, this is believed to be the earliest photograph showing a living person. It is a view of a busy street, but because the exposure lasted for 4 to 5 minutes the moving traffic left no trace. Only the two men near the bottom left corner, one apparently having his boots polished by the other, stayed in one place long enough to be visible. As with most daguerreotypes, the image is a mirror image.)
I sound cross as accidental cameras and incident bodies: bodied ink flesh sink bone bowl
Sound human body blow overtones / heart harmonics klang camera harmolodics
Klang defanged chain gang mustangs Klang chain gang cross ape out sine wave oscillator Beat ‘em up top down perspective aporia desert desert drift / drift camera exposure naked I drift gnarled camera rack body much wrench exposed ben naked
Cross klang clean it’s about that time Cross klang clean camera capture call it anything Camera drift desert directions directions Desert clang cross orangutan boomerang Klang catch hang claustrophobic cloisters cloud cross changes Cloud cross collects con man tone clusters / catwoman tenor saxophone phantom camera Cross klang cloud clock edit splice midwife Midwife myriad cross klang sound matrix: material sound sessions on the corner I sound session on the corner hi-hat pulse big fun Cross klang boomerang overhang hag strum and drang Cross camera draws desert drag plains mustangs
Also, I had an idea for your blog, says Asia. In the future, if you publish your book, it’s not going to look like your blog at all. So you should think about your blog as a place where you post book fodder or book seeds but the blog is not the book. I say all this to say that you should expand your idea of the book and the blog. I also think that people might enjoy it if you posted a few essays about your writing process and your own personal struggles with your writing and your sense of identity, says Asia.
Everything is purged from this painting but art: no ideas have entered this work (Everything is purged from this writing including art; no ideas have entered this book) (Everything is purged from this writing except the apparitions of the names of various women: Krystal, Christina, Taryn, Asia…) (Everything is purged from this writing except Asia; her ides envelope the work)
Yeah, you’re right: I should think about the blog more flexibly. I told you about the artist Tehching Hsieh before. He did year long pieces during the 1970s and 1980s – like for a year, he did not allow himself to enter a building effectively making him homeless, one year he spent tied to artist Linda Montano, one year he punched a time clock every hour… What he did is extensively document these performances. I saw a video recently on his work. For his time clock piece, he took a photograph every single time he did punch the clock. And he had friends come and document it and make it official. So even though the performance part was ephemera, the documentation and commentary on the piece still exists. I think your point about the blog is it’s not equivalent to the Book – it can be something different too, it can be a documentation and commentary and exploration of the Book too. Let me know if I’m interpreting you incorrectly. Yeah, that sounds like what I’m trying to say, says Asia. OK, I am curious about this then – what if I write an essay for the blog, but then incorporate it into the Book later as part of the Book? Would you approve of that kind of ambiguity and flexibility? Yeah, why not? Says Asia. Though you should know that it might lead you to editing less of your other writing and you might need to come to terms with that, says Asia.
The piece I referred to in the above conversation: One Year Performance 1980 to 1981 (Statement. I, SAM HSIEH, plan to do a one year performance piece. I shall punch a time clock in my studio every hour on the hour for one year. I shall immediately leave my time clock room, each time after I punch the Time Clock. The performance shall begin on April 11. 1980 at 7 PM and continue until April 11, 1981 at 6 PM…)
I write time taryn everything Time taryn theater traffic trillium time Time time taryn alternating static time rhizome telegram trim Tireless taryn time tips teaspoons spin snore taxonomy / Cornelius Cardew Treatise I tear time from text: the text which spirals counterpoise witch erotic (Any man could have her… But only the hardest was a match for SWEET GEORGIA She was ready, willing, and even hotter than the sun. She made play boys into play things!)
Text Taryn spirals counterclockwise cloud texts klang Klang push sound puns and palindromes / repetitive patterns of sounds that lead to scatological or obscene associations: to pulsating human activity
I eliminate ideas aisles inset insects apophatic acupuncture I deconstruct ideas eyeballs antlers unerased apophatic (pale face said to the eyeball kid she just go clank and boom and steam)
Klang clank crank Klang crank crank klang crank crank blood bang boomerangs Klang clank crank copulate crosses and crucifixions Crucifixions crank flank prank April Fool’s Day fakeout endings and parody slashers / slashers foreshadow my self-aware postmodernism Book parodies Book my bodys lashed film strip slasher striptease Clank clownfish tank escapade aquarium tank turrets: turret taryn tor mer stripper poles Crank outflanks snowbank ship shoelace solar windows Window body boat bone clank and boom and steam I scream steam stimmung cicada dada desert
Window body boom bloom witch broom blind book Book boom broom bloom music mushroom musics Book boom funeral doom door doppelganger god gods bell witch I ring bell witch boombox boardroom legumes ledger lights Boombox experiment perfume boombox experiment taproot rhema rhizome I experiment excess boombox waiting room (everybody’s moving moving moving please don’t leave me to remain in the waiting room) I experiment emergency root dynamics stream steam she’s such a scream She steam blood scream extreme jet pulse body propulsion Blood pulses ben body slashes boombox screams
I’m trying to approach my writing more flexibly, I say. I’m trying to count pages less in my “official” final draft notebook and more just try to count making progress and brainstorming… I’m trying to change it to be about the whole creative process, not just final output. I’m lad to hear that, says Asia. You were too rigid. That’s why I said to put emphasis on the process. The process keeps going and going, she says. Yeah, you're right, I say. It just takes a long time to train my brain you know. I understand, says Asia.
I desert idea igor stravinsky les noces / nocturne frankenstein’s bride Frankenstein’s bride paints brush black bold strokes stroke my brain ischemic devoid ideas iguanodon
I scream steam morpheme morphine and grapheme graphite more myth / mainstream whipped cream wet dream
The aspect I find most challenging about the Book: transitions to transition from one stanza to the next, one section to the next, and utilize the connections and associations effectively and completely I study the word and the language of scream: I attempt to explore every permutation, combination, and association with scream What John Coltrane said: they’re long because all the soloists try to explore all the avenues that the tune offers… They try to use all their resources that the tune offers… Everybody has quite a bit to work on… I have quite a bit to work on I explore all the possibilities of scream or clank or clang, and use the word to create new language Once I explore and create new language – the challenge then – TRANSITION I write troublesome transition from language to another language (I think of the second superstring revolution: In the early 1990s, Edward Witten and others found strong evidence that the different superstring theories were different limits of an 11-dimensional theory that became known as M-Theory… The different versions of superstring theory were unified by new equivalences… These were known as S-duality, T-duality, and U-duality, mirror symmetry, and conifold transitions…) (I too would like to find creative and insightful transitions and translations and mappings between languages – not anywhere near as rigorous, but I hope still surprising, provocative, and evocative – give me that monstrous moonshine transitions and connections)
Instead of looking at things, look between things
I look lattice ladybug matrix Look last house on the left dagger taryn lapdance Christina through the looking glass glow sand camera cross human photograph / I have always been very interested in photography… I have looked at far more photographs than I have paintings I photograph afar body glass transition through a glass darkly
I look process sound no transition but volumes My interest in the instrument: a sound-making device, not a note-making device
I look Christina through the looking glass bell body Ben and Christina BELLS TOGETHER Bells together bell witch window towers towers tone cluster towers I look between fingers and toes: empty space then transition I chop off fingers and toes with a heavy cleaver / clever clearer cross garlic cloves empty space Body always spaces space a starward space open star wars Star wars strut space storm trooper implode cyclops ideas idiot wind benjamin Idiot wind katzenjammer kid benjamin we’re idiots babe it’s a wonder we still know how to breathe
She’s such a scream stabs habit blood on the tracks Blood clanks book body iron immense in marginal emendation run amok
Do you think the language in the Book is beautiful? I say. Sometimes, yeah, says Asia. What makes it beautiful to you? How it sounds or the association it creates. Do you I should try so you feel it’s beautiful all the time? I guess so. Is that really what you're going for all the time? says Asia. That’s why I wanted your feedback on it. Asked my friend Violet too. (Do you think I write beautiful sentences? I ask Violet. I wouldn’t say you write sentences but I think you write beautifully, says Violet. How would you describe my basic unit of length then? I don’t know if it fits into a category, she says. It just goes until it stops) I feel like making every line beautiful would contradict things that you are trying to do, says Asia.
I want to write the beautiful line all the time I want to write the walls of my skull bend backwards and in like labyrinth all the time Labyrinth looks ladybug marginal emendation run amok I inlay two cone copies of the Book into longer sheets to make room for all the revisions My scrawling alterations cover all the generous white space and insert the marginalia into three different locations into the original text
I Write The Going God Jazz
I work jazz as the Book happens I work jazz join jazz Book jigsaw last supper and I take my place at the table Taryn terrapin and terraplane blues I work jazz and I have ardently longed to eat this Passover with you before I suffer I suffer cross and jazz Albert Ayler’s raw river map suicide I jazz jawbone suicide columns holy ghost Jaw bone jawbox harp jazz human organs
I work jazz and the Book happens body hooks hang last supper I improvise jazz work wheel and I take this and share it cross cup kingdom of god
God jazz Book happens Book happens Taryn jargon jaguar
I don’t know where’s going and I don’t know where I’m going, says John Coltrane on Eric Dolphy and his own playing I don’t know where I go but I write the going I write the going god jazz / where do we come from what are we where are we going I don’t know where I go except jazz gospel I improvise logia and logos and Jesus says, Know what is in front of your face and what is hidden from you will be disclosed to you I improvise jasper jazz gospel and I juggle jazz and gospel the Magician and the Juggler I simplify Gospel and I elaborate Gospel book and body baroque
You will simply painting but you won’t simplify nature to that extent, to reduce it that… If you did, painting would no longer exist… Don’t listen to me, what you are doing is more important than anything I’m telling you… I am a mere teacher, I understand nothing…
I simplify writing I simplify writing by engaging in a kind of polyphonic serial complexity, the amassed masses of texts, strata stochastic and this noise surprises The noise noise surprises open noise surprise human body serpent abrupt apophatic My name noise nullifies name stretched stochastic stereo static I invent noise noise name my body ben hinnom Noise nihils upper and lower nail negates Noise nihils rail gun uppercut additional noise negates: noise negates additional zero hour Zero hour irrational hell hourglass waist: waist waste land zero hour infinite crisis final crisis I simplify the writing through the paradoxical movement complexity and density (it’s not complex, it’s complicated) (it’s not musics, but noises) Simplify the writing by writing / simplify the writing through the continual process of copying
Simplify the writing by writing monothema and monomania: crass Christina cross Christina Christina crucifixions Feminine noise always newly female (noise abyssal female non-binary female female serpent noise) I write Yahweh Woman and Christ Woman and I experience woman word desert divine KRYSXTRYN Jimi Hendrix Experience Christina Jimi Hendrix Gypsy Sun and Rainbows / Band of Gypsys
I wrap my bone as a tenor saxophone and I improvise indirect desert and indirect dusk dust Improvise ikon idol inferno Wrap bone tenor saxophone ink instrument idempotent iris ionization: bone ionization isle iced ibis Impossible ice cat-o-nine tail tart noise: noise whip and body Impossible ice ice nine cat cradle string figure noise: my flesh knot noise pale red pleroma
Red pleroma gospel sphinx riddle rhizome Pleroma gospel girl from the red river shore shadows I string shadow cat’s cradle invisible noise Noise incense and peppermint meaningless nouns noise I noun noise brass knuckle nonsense I noun no not noise gnostic nonsense I noun no not noise gnostic nonsense and god ghost: gar gap frost giant green jelly jam jelly maximum carnage and total carnage
I simply and do not simply holy spirit noise I make musical nonsense peddled in the name of jazz and I unlure noise horrifying demonstration of antijazz (I don’t know where he’s going and I don’t know where I’m going) I set the tempo and go I start full intensity and do not deflate or peak: I plow intense plateau I plow intense lines nonlinear palm tree garden I disregard the bars and explore the textures: I fool around with short sweet melodies I fool around fragments and fractals
Fragment noise every fragment found flesh: my flesh infinite crisis final crisis Noise fragment finds ben flesh ben adam: fragments fold in fold all human experience He didn’t have enough hearts, which is currency for Holy Water, to optimize beating the cookie monster / castlevania cook food fragments Castlevania crepes pancakes silver dollar silver dollar city outlaw run time traveler Taryn bootlegger (some of these bootleggers they make pretty good stuff) I time travel whiskey woman bourbon baphomet biofilm I film my body biofilm microbial mats musk molding meats and I squirm earth horror Raleigh Sewer Monster (large masses of tubifex worms) I write body horror Christian icons mink midnights milk Meat moss milk of magnesia…
No, Asia asks me the same thing, I say. But I don’t know how to divorce my creative doings from ben being. Ben is, says Christina. Are you interested in divorcing creative doing with Ben being? I don’t know how, I say. I’m not sure if I’m fully devoted to not wanting to create either I admit, I say. I just don’t want to push this idea if you already know you have no interest in the divorce. Maybe I need prodding – I’m open to the idea of changing. It sounds to me like you could benefit from small doses to discovery, says C. Getting to know who you are. You’re not your writing. At least, in my worldview. I don’t think humans are one thing. I had to do some work around this and being a mother. It was really helpful and let me give myself grace when I sucked at mothering. You defined your being by mothering? I say. I did. I still do sometimes. And when I do, it makes my failures more catastrophic. Or like imagining one of them dying is enough to make me suicidal when I got tied to my identity as mother. I was bitching to my therapist about my OA sponsor telling me my identity as mother was holding me back. I expected the therapist to berate my sponsor – my therapist doesn’t like 12 step – but she defended the sponsor. She agreed that I didn’t have a good handle on my own identity and that I used mother as a shortcut to having an identity, says Christina.
Mother mix microbial mat map Mother meat matter mixolydian mode matter: erotic matter migration canon menstruation Mother menstruation moon blood butter Blood ballast balloon hot pot pagan pillow books I bury blood god graveyards and sheol itself colonies king corpses corpse King Felix / flesh strip synchronous television skeleton Her grave noise assembles she sheol assemblages asteroids pyramids Pyramid noise nothing body horror Mario Bava bodies I mother ben body blood matter: mat meat meat pyramids (“In The Hills, In The Cities” from the Books of Blood by Clive barker / mad machine body of bodies A line from this story “stale incense, old sweat and lies” appears in the song “Sin” on the album Pretty Hate Machine by Nine Inch Nails)
Being a writer or prophet is a shortcut for identity? I say. Perhaps, says Christina. Or you’ve spent so much time in those areas (not a bad thing!) that there are other areas left unexplored. What areas would you suggest remain unexplored? Your self – Ben. Do you know Ben? I say. That’s what you need to discover, says C. There are depths to you that I can’t even begin to know until you start knowing, says Christina.
Ben adam assembles gospels graveyards Yahweh bodies bodice rippers Ben Adam ada or ardor assemble quicktime alchemy I blood material taking mercury thrust it into the body of magnesia Alchemy ben adam assemble antimonies luna hauntologies Ben, the caller is in the house the calls are coming from the house! / We’ve met before haven’t we? At your house. Don’t you remember? Of course. As a matter of act, I’m there right now. At your house. Call me. Dial your number, go ahead. I told you I was here.
Television skeleton telephone cellophane monastic cell minotaur Minotaur black iron prison have you checked the children Telephone telemetry floor function fast fourier transform flag flat flesh: ben flesh wire flattens steam roller holy spirit Holy spirit spike haunts telephone calls / listen to me… We’ve tracked the call… It’s coming from inside the house
What's my relationship with you? I say. You have to answer the question! says C. But start smaller. No, I’m asking you how you perceive me or how you experience the Kindred. That’s a big question, says C. If you wanted to do some self discovering around it, I would start by asking simpler questions about the nature of the thing. In what contexts do I interact with the Kindred? When I interact with the Kindred, how do I typically feel? Does it change? If the Kindred never existed, how would my life be different? If the Kindred were suddenly gone knowing all I know now, how would my life be different? But really, some of those are too deep for a first dive, I say. I know. I’m demonstrating how difficult a question that is to answer. There isn’t a simple answer, she says.
What is your lot To open the book Are you in the book My place is at the threshold
Book questions and never answers / canonical gospels evoke questions and never answers Resurrection ruptures restlessly restless rhizome
I don’t know any answers to the Book for questions and the questions of the Book, but I continue to assemble these fragments I phrase fragments miniature fires and partial undead / rain red viscera resurrections My youth sleeps in the lake of the book
Then at one point, I did not need to translate the notes; they went directly to my hands
My hands hang hell hint heat My hands miss hell hula hoop feral hog flying saucers You off on flesh phonetic fragments or flesh flippant photographs of queer bodies My hands hint heat fragment ferocious noise fang body negate Body noise magnetic monopole Hand pan gold gush porno god / fragment hell graveyard Eloah Hand jazz noise my name eunuch improvisation-deconstruction Hand noise hot jazz marriage heaven and hell fragments I hand my flesh over to gospel my flesh physical frottage unknown unknown / noise cartilage cryobank semen My hands happen: you can’t make anything so anywhere it just happens My hands happen: I don’t know where he’s going and I don’t know where I’m going My hands happen jazz hazard body horror (human zombies rise from their coffins as living corpses BLOOD OF GHASTLY HORROR)
I disregard the bard and I explore the textures: I fool around with short sweet melodies My hands search for melody My hands hunt for refrain and repetition but I word fragments (What are the roots that clutch, what branches grow out of this stony rubbish? Son of Man, you cannot say or guess, for you only know a heap of broken images…) My hands heap image icon iron insist inferno: I write heap of hell handstand body horror (Batman… My skin is sick…) I fool around hell fractals and fragments
Then at one point, I did not need to translate the notes; they went directly to my hands
Hands hint heat Hands hiss hula hoop halo / hoop skirt hands scratch (I was in hell… I don’t want to die Louie) Hoop skirt hands hell a heap of broken images (Eckhart saw hell too…) Feral hand heap hospital hacksaw feral hog flying saucer / you eff oh flesh fuck fragment Hands hazard horror: horn husk haunted habitat permute porno photographs
And I had forgotten how to read music
I could no longer play I could not play by instinct
Then at one point I did not need to translate the notes; they went directly to my hands
Music migrates Music migrates unreliable narrator momentum Momentum mother mathematics Music mask male and my male emerges mist mess secret gospel of mark Secret gospel of mark music migrates mean made (resonance of spaces, phrase interference between closely tuned pitches, the transmission of sound through physical media)
Music migrates transmigration of the soul Music migrates spontaneous mutations Music mode mad traffic: semitruck tetragrammaton traffic Music traffic jam session loft jazz
Music migrates hypomanic bone marrow monomania
Music migrates let the midnight special shine her light on me Midnight music night train melody traffic I mention music and music migrates allwhere word everywhen (listen to them, the children of the night what music they make)
Music fragments frag horror splinter holy spirit bone spiral fracture Body fragment bone music: struck bone or blown bone blown bone blonde blouse bone blue bonnet soda bottle (a blood bath of horror SCREAM BLOODY MURDER) Music misleads monstrous and music migrates minotaur taryn tar mucosa
I Sketch Leviathan Data Corruption
The One a realm that gives a realm life that gives life A blessed one that gives blessedness gnosis that gives gnosis A good that gives goodness mercy that gives mercy and redemption Grace that gives grace
Grace that gives grace the grave but up from the grave he rose with a mighty triumph over his fores
Give god giving god givenness the generous graven the gulping grave / grids gustatory gravities gastronomic geometries gut generators cycle gods time gumstick stick rubber rib Time gumstick gumshoe postmodern detective novels novel / make everything new New names new gods numinous gloom I gloom gloam within god geometries Geometries give realm to a realm, Relm’s sketch corrupting game data (In her pictures, she captures everything: forests, water, light… the very essence of the things she paints…) (The bug can have various effects, such as filling the player’s inventory to the brim with items such as dirks and gem boxes, causing the game to freeze, or erasing all data, although the most common effects are graphical errors and game freezes)
I sketch the invisible god and the game tries to load god’s sprite data but uses an incorrect pathway / volatile junk data
She lights the lights looped funk lopped and cut dance bodies / blood on the dance floor ghosts on the dance floor Floor flings flesh I flatten prom and opera smashed blood bottles Blood bottles birth death metal afterbirth Brutal death metal bereshit shit on a single free funk Free funk unfixed genesis creation myths I free myth multiplicity I free myth minutemen funk-punk multiplicities
She lights the lights lag-bolt lag-screw holy spirit scurries / I scurry language music long melody I scrutinize desert detectives metafiction language music long melody
I stretch melody melodies forecasting cells / harmonies marriage of heaven and hell
Mutate melodies melody mutant sewer alligators Mutant melodies Guillermo Del Toro’s Mimic (I have a sort of fetish for insects, clockwork, monsters, dark places, and unborn things) Mimic mutant melodies the pit and Yahweh makes the new thing horror of the body and horror in the body
Insect colony melody catastrophes Catastrophic termite counterpoint cooked clay alchemy Counterpoint catastrophes creations: creations craters and cinders smoke sinister abyss
Abyss ships spins thread thrust again Abyss Her Abyss adjacent to Abyss stirs threaded waters spider sprawl Spiders span steer waters leviathan / there go the ships and leviathan formed fire to sport with Steady abyss stinks dark flesh my flesh fumes black paintings pigment pin and needles termite narcotic colonies
Abyss faster ships free funk leviathan, the Great Dragon crouching in the midst of the Nile who says I made the Nile it belongs to me (Hebrew, jackals, but many medieval manuscripts read “the serpent”) (Tannim, byproduct of tannin, the mythical dragon or sea monsters representing chaos and the crocodile native to the Nile / the many rivulets of the Nile that branch out into the Delta)
Taryn Tannim Tannin Termite Colonies / crocodile counterpoint catastrophes Crocodile stations of the cross Saltwater crocodile Lot’s Wife salt pillar / I remember Lot’s Wife as Christina Crocodile
I want more of the sense of the expansion of time / I’m not sure what I’m looking for except it’ll be something that hasn’t been played before
I play time I play time times texts and time X texts I play time expanded times, texts troubled by her waters Her waters whip Yahweh from the whirlwind, musical variations on hell Hell variations hell visions I dream obscure time and occult time Strange time video game soundtracks influenced by city pop and japanese jazz fusion
I take the unusual approach of abandoning the traditional “soloist / accompaniment” demarcation of straight-ahead jazz and feature opportunities for continuous improvisation by every member of the band
Away from all that eight bars shit and then you go to the bridge
An avoidance of head-and-chorus composition in favor of continuous rhythm and movement / music beyond category
Writing beyond beyond abyss Beyond abyss between abyss Book Abyss Book bursts bone machine desiring-machines towards an uneasy pure Body Without Organs (The Body Without Organs is what remains after you take everything away)
A more open Book and more mobile Book Book formless form but its bones just enough flesh jagged edges edgeless and I walk through the surface of the paintings I wall paintings water walk whalefall, more bone for water More Book Bone for her waters
I wake Book Bone dreaming, the dream drift desert and drip desert Desert dip drip dream bone ripped into Book / Flesh with torn edges Torn flesh fresh
I wake awake aleatoric alchemy Chromatic alchemy / the player free to choose any dynamic at any entrance but must maintain sameness of volume Vertigo volumes visions slide stone vapor porous rock stream / glass volcanoes
Am I the sea, or the dragon that you place a watch over me (an allusion to the personification of primeval chaos as a monstrous ocean vanquished by god)
Am I a monster of the deep or a sea serpent, that you place me under guard (This is a very poetic and Semitic way of representing the dominion of God over the forces of the universe)
Am I a sea or a whalefish, that thou keepest me in hand (Am I not a poor wretch? What needest thou then to lay so much pain on me?)
Seascape scrapes salt shells Seascape scrapes sound south salts / circles sift unsettles surfaces Salt circles shift unsettled surfaces: surface seaweed surface coral skeletons Surface shark teeth and other fossils filtered through kelp forest
A previously celibate sea satiated by sea sex serpent hair tangles
Do you love me? I ask Christina. Yep! Why? Lots of reasons, says C. One is the whole you’re a human thing. But that’s just one. We've been through a lot together since a young age. I appreciate the role you've played throughout a lot together since a young age. I appreciate the role you’ve played throughout my adolescence and into my adulthood. You’re also a part of me. I love you like I love myself, including grace for all the flaws and hope for growth. Shallowly, you’re a comfort to me. I enjoy spending time with you even if it’s just through texting and we are kindred. Why do you love me? says C. do I love you? I say. Maybe I’m just a butthead who exploits you for the Book/ I think I love you though. I often feel like I fail in that love though, I say. I don’t think that matters when talking about loving someone, says C. I think you just get to love people. They don’t come into it, says C.
A previously celibate sea satiated by sea sex serpent hair tangles / the strangles will take me down deep in their brine the mischievous braingels down into the endless blue wine
Ocean bag of ob divines dead Sea shaman shakes bag of ob summons undead spirits Dead ocean dead sea salt structures stretches ocean over ocean Ocean overlaps ocean salt searches or surges circuit currents / dead currents cycle still seas ghost waves Host waves ghost notes my name nests in her name numerous dead
Seascape scrapes seed salt secret snow in slime slime surfeit surfaces Slime surfaces with fat and flesh, sea with skin Sea skin son of man shipwreck Radio wreckages seaweed seaward wretch wrench / tool steal vomit Steal tool steel slime stored in cylinders / secret of the ooze ocean prince of darkness (a life form is growing out of pre-biotic fluids. It’s not winding down into disorder, it’s self-organizing. It’s becoming something. What? An animal? A disease? What?)
Slack seascape stretches sound sidewinders Slack seascape slime sound sweeps spiders radar sonar / Ornette Coleman’s science fiction sessions Science fiction ocean stripes salts salt strobes two-stroke engine A motorcycle engine ejected into an eye My eye injects then ejects ship engines / ocean oil catapults Ocean oil siege-works salt scraped from tyre tire swing swung triplets a triple-headed serpent
Sea separates city sand shells sound Sound swells in time time saltwater crocodiles crow teeth Sea separates city last supper salt tremolo in the upper room Rooms rest open sea full and heavy in the heart of the seas I room open tower of the seas into the mighty water the rowers bring me / the east wind breakers against me hearts sea hisses