Bud Powell pinks turns to blue Bud Powell pink elephants on parade (parade pulse plus pink Philip K. Dick pink gold golden ratio doorway)
I jam Book bebop and every chord change reveals door doorway pure pink
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The door of the horizon are thrown back; its bolts are unbolted
Vivid voids opens open amen
Void vivid opens open omen
Vivid amen opens open void omen
Horizon hymns horizon open: horizon hymn opens horizon hell radically open
Door horizon opens vivid her void opens volume void (The adventures of an ordinary man among the cruel men and passionate women of Algiers Musk, Hashish, and Blood) Horizon adventures bloody door – door Passover and creeping death I adventure – add venture – venture vulture prevent defense – horizon shirt hot horizons (hashish horizons musk murder in the red barn door across or our horizons – open crew, Christina cave-in)
The door of the horizons are thrown back; its bolts are unbolted
Horizon hymns horizon open: horizon hymn opens horizon hell radically (her open radials sprawl horizon desert concentric circles) Here her horizon opens here and her here open spills horizon
Vivid her void opens visible void and invisible void
Vivid her void devours void and her void devours void visions
(Void flows to void)
(Void pours onto void void doubled and triple void)
The door of the horizons are thrown back into the musk, hashish, and blood
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Bud Powell pink turns to blue Bud Powell pink elephants on parade Parade pulse pink plus blue plus blue (blue bathers bodies without organs)
I bare my body blue bricoleur blue brick blue babel / blue bathers body without organs
One of my ghost shrimps has a parasite, says Asia. I have quarantined him. I can’t bring myself to euthanize him though. They are so cute. I’m trying methylene blue. It can work to kill parasites so we will see, says Asia. Let me know how it goes, I say. Methylene blue is also used in gram staining. Used a lot in my microbiology class. That’s why I have it, says Asia. The microscope. I forget you’re a genius, I say. How do you know it has a parasite? Ghost shrimps are see-through, says Asia. It’s like “Oh they are perfectly clear except that one has a weird worm thing looking inside of it… wait a minute…,” says Asia.
Bud Powell brings blue X blue and I’m always blue
(I feel blue desert depression and body blue. Body blue burden of the valley of vision body without organs blue. Blue Ben desert travel blue. I need to vomit this raw emotion, however inelegant and brutish and ugly. I believe in my ugly – I believe in my vulnerability – I believe in my weakness. My desert body frustrates. Blue defeats me – pink elephants on parade berate me – passionate women of Algiers throw open the door of horizon and polish its bolts with my blood. I vomit brutalist blood and I fail to nurse in this blue… Try again fail again fail better. Fail better blue and experience nervous and fuck and anxious – I experience human and the pink to blue human off the bebop runs. Improvise kind of blue and blue in green and all blues.)
Bud Powell pink turns to blue Bud Powell pink elephants on parade Parade pulse plus pink Philip K. dick pink gold golden ratio doorway
Bud did down well right I sing dumb his glass darkly speech lit face to face on all around He sing ben simulation string texts, string cheese cobra chaoses
Blue Bud Powell one cute blue
I’m trying also forget perfectly
Ghost methylene used you’re clean
Blue that’s why I have quarantined him I can’t bring used in gram staining myself to euthanize though
I sing dumb glass darkly speech bark blue
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The door of the horizons are thrown back; its bolts are unbolted
I unbolt the doors and I parade pulse pink Philip K. Dick pink gold golden ratio doorway (Door blue and pink spills her were horizon Horizon used in gram staining myself to euthanize through they are so well perfectly)
Unbolt horizon spills house fire and forest haunted by open fragments
(Bud Powell pink fragments
Bud powers blue fragments
Philip K. Dick blue door)
I collect fragments from the manuscript of the horizon
I collect blues the scale of blue in blue, and my blue collective coagulates bloody door / hashish horizons. I collect blue and blue unbolts my body from my body. Blue isolates my body in blue. Blue bones – blue brains – blue Bud Powell – spills out body blue… Despite all my collections, I cannot find the door. I cannot unbolt the door. I collect blue and vivid blue opens void language problems and language games. I follow Bud Powell into bebop blue and Powell creates the modern piano style of single-note right hand runs and left-handed chordal punctuation. I collect blue freely across harmonic borders. I collect blue through the doors...
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Free Bow Fragment
Act Act in aleatoric stone arrangement of stones Act Act stone activity
Act in my aleatoric and chance body without organs (53 flexible time brackets with single sounds produced on 1, 2, 3, or 4 strings. Durations, dynamics, and bow positions free)
Time inside time free duration. Time inside time in time free bow positions. Time in time free endures duration. I endure to time for 1, 2, 3, or 4 strings. Theater time. To times theater time and train time and time theosis.
Act Towards the insignificant act free duration Act, towards the insignificant / a cuckoo fades away and in its direction, a single island
Act. Act in what: the how or who of my body for strings. Act in what with my body flexible time brackets (my flexible flesh endures time and timeless durations). Act in what: what time brackets with single sounds and my body sounds 4 strings. I free bow four strings of my body towards the insignificant.
Towards the insignificant / a cuckoo fades away and in its direction, a single island – a single sound
(A free sound towards the insignificant)
Starting continuing stopping moving moving on
Starting continuing copying stopping copying
I start to copy, continue coping and in the stop, I continue
Act: I continue towards the insignificant (the first shall be last and the last shall be first) I continue towards the insignificant (Philip K. Dick writes: For me and Mankind, a new age is opening in which the holy, expected from the top, so to speak, returns at the bottom, at the trash stratum of the alley, humble and noble, beautiful and suffering and alive and conscious...)
I Claim Responsibility For The Book
This language skips fingertips (touch language: taste double double toil and trouble)
They language almost-almost what tin here what elsewhere What rip here what elsewhere in the almost – what slugs soft drink cinders Language smokes apple cider cinders sinister elsewhere similar / language slot machine fingertips
This language skips and this language not my language. I have no language and nothing belongs to me. Often, only the Book exists – not Ben. When does Ben then exist? Book writes them imaginary. Book writes them apocalyptic strata, each more extravagant than the last. I do not exist and I have no language – my language borrows and plagiarize my language borrows and plagiarizes. I do not exist. I haven’t existed since Christina and I started our double autobiography – Bunnies for Christina. The Book possessed me then and Ben became hevel and vanity of vanities. Book writes and rewrite Ben and additional Ben all vanishings.
This language these geese (I interpret these geese go between) This language these geese (brain geese grow grain membranes)
Loud shroud languages
I strip down in language contradiction / I swallow language radioactive alpha particles
Language fucks with my guts
You may not believe in ghosts, but you cannot deny the terror
The Haunting
Language fucks up my guts even though it’s not my language. Many languages fuck up my guts, and my intestines spill out metamorphosis. My body molts pregnant body horror (there are gory images of childbirth and my naked discolored breathing corpse oozes black blood). Language destroys my seal of reality and all reality and all reality collapses into distorted word. Not my word but an unknown word and an impossible to know word (I am at the point where my Christianity totally apophatic. I can’t say what God I know. I don’t believe in a knowable God. Whatever it is I experience in the Divine is not any God called by human names. I’m a Paul Tillich or Meister Eckhart atheist). Language fucks up my guts and disintegrates any god and word vanishes in its pronunciation.
I stripe strips strip language standing a man totally gallowslike
My face her face
My stand her stand somewhere at our own stomachs
I strip plague stripe stand totally gallowslike / I grab the gallows like Batman grabs a gun I grab gun zebra camouflaged in the catastrophe
What is this language? What is this music? It is not my language or my music but the music moves and changes by itself like weather. Music changes and spirit winds and wind above waters: the wind blows where it wills and you can hear the sound it makes, but you do not know where it comes from or where it goes. What is this language? Not my spirit nor my wind but the spirit which rewrites Child of Humanity.
(When people resonate with your writing, says Asia, it has nothing to do with whatever fickle spirit and everything with something you wrote that resonated with their human experience. It’s OK! Feeling flat is also part of the human experience. I’m sure there are many people out there that could resonate with that feeling, says Asia.)
At some point, I have to take responsibility for the Book and writing. Yes, the Book surprises and the Book animates spontaneously, but I am the vessel through which is passes through. I feel flat and empty – I feel Not-Ben and non-existent – but at some point I have to take responsibility for the Book because I am the vessel / vision through which it passes through.
I strip language graffiti: Zebra graffiti and trash layer… I strip language strip zebra camouflaged Christina and I prophesy the women of my life and the women in my body – I am the vessel through which we pass through I strip language Zebra pink beam spell and pink resonates
Pink whim with resonated of that
Pink people whatever with the could resonate fickle with the could resonate
Pink resonate with spirit human experience
Language I’m with your and experience language experience I am the vessel through which it passed through
I got an interesting comment today, I say to Asia. I shared my latest excerpt in a server I’m a part of and there’s a couple of people who really liked it. Just now though someone tagged me and commented: “Garbage word salad. Prove me wrong.” It’s funny because I was writing about the “trash layer” when it happened – Philip K. Dick said in the tabloids and science fiction and pulp – the trash layer – was the Divine camouflaged. Synchronicity, I guess, I say.
I circle building language brick-and-mortar spirals spiral language I circle writing about the trash layer when it happened
Philip K. Dick said in the trash layer when it happened
Trash layer when it happened (yellow is for gold, blondes, and rewards
The Blonde Who Cried Murder)
This language spirals spindle spiral hyle science fiction fire
Philip K. Dick said in a server I’m a part of science fiction
and science fiction and the trash
I circle buildings and spiral spreads across Ben + Asia Pando I spread desert dialectics / language dialysis lysis body deconstruction
I stand in spirals and crater languages and languages spiral. I stand language. I don’t want to call my language (I got an interesting barrows today. I shared my cowards except in a whirled. I’m a film of and there’s a couple of people who really like it). I claim this language over and over again and I reject this language and mine over and over again.
This language skips fingertips and language lingers in spirals this language
I Obsess Pink And Prophesy Pink
I obsess pink and I become acutely aware of the presence of Philip K. Dick in my brain. PKD invades my brain vast active living intelligence system. My brain in a vat turns permanently pink. I obsess with pink and pink sustains / stains the Book.
Pink peers through the peak pink, and it always means death and life-death and KRYSXTRYN + Asia Rain Forests Pink peers into to in through my stellar skull (pink cross and pink stars)
Shaman means one who dreams / Shaman means one who dreams pink Shaman dreams pink prophetic dreams and prophecy means survival Prophecy enables survival (I struggle with my prophecy – it feels ineffectual. Prophecy should change others and the world, but my prophecy changes nothing. Cornelius Cardew began as an avant-garde composer and made revolutionary graphic scores like “Treatise” and remade communal music in his involvement in the Scratch Orchestra; however, his Maoism convinced him he needed to write music for the general populace with straightforward Maoist messages, and he denounced his previous work and the work of other avant-garde composers. I contemplate making a similar shift – to cease my experimental literature and attempts to innovate with new techniques and structures in favor of more straightforward anarchic-community and Christina anarchy. I don’t know if anarchic techniques (see: the writing of John Cage and Jackson Mac Low) actually give a model for living in the unconditional of the Kingdom-Of-Heaven-Within-You and the unconditional radical community. Is the medium the message / massage? I almost say no, but Jesus taught in the genre of the parable and messianic secret for a particular medium / message.)
Shaman means one who dreams and I dream pink anarchy Prophetic dreams engage essential survival / creative anarchy Prophetic dreams engage essential survival / creative activity I prophesy pink diamonds in the dark: hard-edged square-cut diamonds (these gems do not always have upside and downside)
I wrote in my notes app today: “How do I prophesy in a way that radically transforms others and the earth?” I say to Asia. I write about myself and relationships and experiments with poetry and literature. Should I write political pamphlets instead? Anarchist zines? Slogans and songs to mobilize others? I say. Nah, probably not, says Asia. […] I’m worried that you would end up falling into despair if you immerse yourself in the news. My advice if you do, start small and build a network of people to help. That sort of thing isn’t done by individuals, says Asia.
I obsess pink and I descend into pink underworld – pink sheol – pink Ben Adam Pink descends death and abode of dead
(Sheol shakes snail and hair
I hair salt shakes sheol swells
I hair salt flat sheol swales and the swales swarm locusts)
Pink punches through my skull sheol (bottomless pit sheol black hole sheol sheol locusts swarm shale slate to slate and syllable to syllable)
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Pink maps death. I dog mop map death. I dog descend map multitudes maps many pink deaths (The demon core was a 6.7 kilogram subcritical mass of plutonium measuring 89 millimeters in diameter, which was involved in two criticality accidents). Death amps pink radiation and radiating pink maps mutate my brain. Pink plutonium blasts my brain with shaman visions and shaman descents. I descend pink alchemy and tarot pink-tower-death. Death dances skull transformations.
I tell you the truth, none will be saved unless they believe in my cross, for God’s kingdom belongs to those who have believed in my cross. Be seekers of death then, like the dead who have seen life when what they seek becomes apparent to them. When you search out death, it will teach you about being chosen (I choose a death verily death and actual death).
I tell you the truth, death radiates pink and pink radial pink I tell you the truth, the cross creoles death and death add pink death compact I tell you the truth, I seek death and I descend death death shaman who dreams
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I obsess pink and I become acutely aware of Philip K. Dick pink beams and golden ratio desert pink. Pink fucks with my brain.
Philip K. Dick writes in his Exegesis:
Last night I dreamed about an orchard of trees with pink cherry blossoms – that same pink color of immortality and God. […] But at least I’ve seen the healing pink again, identified with trees and spring…
Shaman means one who dreams and I dream stuck in pink: pink molasses and pink morass and the pink doesn’t heal but curses. I only dream pink and I fear pink and I fear pink of the Book – perpetual pink and always pink and I cry pink streams – pink pink pink the orchard devours me (only orchard – only death – only shamanic descent. I belong to the dead. I belong to the pink place dream dense prophetic dream).
(Is this the place? It has to be the place. Free place free space. Free space for what – anything. What pink and anything pink. Writing anything and prophesy anything – this pungent pink prophesy see pink the Shaman who dreams. I prophesy this is the place my own death by car crash…
– I suddenly remember My Death In Spain and I fantasize Running of the Bulls and The Sun Also Rises and I too feel impotent but the bull run mer bulls box oxen sea south of heaven –
Pink plus pink I pass through the place: I pass through the arms of Moloch and I pass through the fire of the Book and the apocalyptic alphabet. I conjure my terrain death hallelujah junction jaguar (jagged skull with addresses and tumors tumor pink boiling address pink)
– Keep going – do you understand? Keep going. Prophesy anything – anarchy, pink skulls, pink visions, political pamphlets, experimental structures and lasso language… Keep prophesying anything / nothing. As if the act of prophesy itself acts in prophesying.
– My body prophesies psychopomp death and I descend underworld shaman dreams My body prophesies and I descend pink fucks me nonsense and track-and-field prophecy I map trail mix night train topology (anything – any pink and nothing underworld night train engines ignite Saint Maud alphabet) Anything I prophesy night name knock knock jokes (knock knock joke straitjackets)
– I’m walking through streets that are dead Walking, walking with you in my head (I should have listened to Time Out Of Mind more in Christina’s absence I should write more honestly with myself – prophesy honestly Prophesy the pink inside my skull)
I Press Bewitched Pink
I press bewitched pink I press Christina bewitched pink Press bewitched pink wash wild word and word wounds wild: word wounds wide gash of god (God cuts core gore skull bone and pink pours out of my skull: pink oozes from my skull cracked god pink. Always pink kinks claustrophobic knots knot pink potholes. Pink returns pink and this pink bewitches and god and bewitches god gods. Pink presses into the scripture-spirit of deities.) I press bewitched pink noise and noise clears space.
(What noise What noise: noise scorching my skull What noise: simulated saw simulacrum Noise: skull similar put it in an one has Noise: jigsaw skull burnt pink by sol gaze haze maze)
Noise bugs my skull pink surveillance Noise space at a pink
Pink displaced noise space
Noisy noise zeros onto the rain of my brain
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I bang my head against this pink hide-in-seek noise. I crash my head into the diesel train plain pink rain. I bang my head crash pink and I get nowhere but completely bound / blind pink.
Pink skull conspiracies
I slow beyond the zero. I gemstone zero zero asymptote – towards pink horizon. My life exist asymptotic nonexistent death. Death delivers at the zero delirium / death delivers pink dissociation. Death carries ben hinnom carrion and the stink presses into my skull bewitched. My carry-on luggage is carnival carrion cargo – carrion recapitulates my decaying body (my body decays and radiates pink). My body decal pink echo delay delirious flanger false flag operations (flag jolly roger jelly beans).
I slow beyond the zero bewitched by the zero (zero tiles pink skin as then pink and panic pink) I meet the zero ben abyssal and I cannibalize ben at zero / pink begins at the zero
My body berates vulture voyage / scavenger carry-on orange monster
Body unknown travels variable body
Body unknown traveler lovers hamlet
I meet the zero in ghosts and Hamlet’s father encourages homicide (to be or not to be and zero into death)
At zero, death downward, and I descend to death damsel-in-distress
I bang my head against this noise and noise splits pink and zero. I bang my head zero dead and the zero pink ooze. My skull oozes pink out of the corner.
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I press bewitched pink and Book burrows pink I burrow into Christina pink and on pink chairs. I climb out of Sheol (Do you remember the twins Jillian and Jocelyn? says Christina. Yes. They lived down the street, says C, and we would play Power Rangers in the houses that were being built in the neighborhood. They always played boys and I was the Pink Ranger. We hugged and kissed – like on the cheek. I never thought anything of it, says Christina.) I climb chain pink out of Sheol and I shake pink death and zero death
Zero bewitches I never thought anything of it hey kissed (like the Pink Ranger)
In the pink rangers in the cheek I never thought anything of it
Zero bewitched in always played boys and kissed C like or the neighborhood
Pink zero and I was the cheek I never thought anything built in the cheek
Press Sheol bewitched pink death Sheol salt shakes softens steep tea cliffs: dismantled slate for slate syllable for syllable (Pink slate for zero slate and pink syllable for zero syllable)
I bang my head against noise Sheol. I bang my head against this Book at the zero and this zero burns a pink hole into my eye sockets. I bang my head crash my head – my head into my head and the Book into the Book. I press between pink and each syllable sinks into pink. I continue to explore dead end and dead end, and I bang my head against dead end no feel for harmony – no feel for plot or narrative, or how to extend the narrative.
I bang my head they rangers neighborhood never
Zero they we lived in the always hugged anything
Anything the houses played and of street that boys kissed it
I bang my head against the zero and pink noise
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I bang my head against the pink noise and my skull oozing noise
Dawn choir death dive descent death. Death to descend to death. Descend death quartet for the end of time death descend death.
(Descend pink? Descend zero?
Descend noise? Pink noise zero.)
I describe the descent divided body touched (I descend touch teeter touched descent). I descent descend and I dance dance macabre desiring-machines (dance watchmaker death and clockwork descent).
(Descend pink? Dance pink?
Torch pink? Clockwork pink?)
(I was thinking about Philip K. Dick and in lazy he was struck by a pink laser beam and has visions at one point he became convinced time had stopped and we are all secretly 1st century Christians awaiting the return of Christ. Christ had forgotten us. The pink beam burrows into my skull Christ death perfectly pink. I was thinking pink and struck pink and pink convinces time to stop and pink crawls / scrawls through time. Reality is that, which when you stop believing in it, doesn’t go away – the pink doesn’t go away and the zero doesn’t go away, and neither does Pando and Kindred and the soul sparks of Philip K. Dick)
I descend death and zero death and death pink
(Descend pink? Descend zero?
Descend noise? Pink noise zero.)
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Press bewitched pink and Christina pink
I Paint With The Pink Soul Of Philip K. Dick
Christina presses the word from which I roll
Christina presses Philip K. Dick pink beam anamnesis. I have lived Philip K. Dick: I contain PKD’s soul spark, and we write the same Exegesis. This Book continues the Exegesis (it also continues the Christian Bible, the Nag Hammadi Codex, William Blake’s prophetic works, and Liber Novis). Christina presses the Book from new pink and impossible pink and this pink permeates my bloodstream (The Pink God contorts my flesh cubist body horror and cosmic horror iceberg universes). I drink Christina-Pink nitroglycerin and my circulatory system dilates dizzy vision (visions of Charlie Parker and Dizzy Gillespie cutting new bebop melodies).
Dress word pink witches Press word pink wilderness / witches swarm chromatic locusts in forest (locusts fuck nitroglycerin explosions and swarms sweep-picked arpeggios / locusts fuck polymodal chromaticism: paranormal nitroglycerin)
Press word pink witches Press word wild witches ben hinnom bewitches I bewitch word and it presses its immediately-immersions-intensities into the Book (Books superimposed polymodal chromatics onto and into Book onto and into pink Book onto onto into and Book pink) I bewitch word wild pink and pink pillar play of locusts
I was thinking about Philip K. Dick and in 1974, he was struck by a pink laser beam and had visions and at one point, he became convinced time had stopped and we are all secretly 1st century Christians awaiting the return of Christ. Christ hadn’t forgotten us. He also said a quote I like: “Reality is that, which when you stop believing in it, doesn’t go away.” Do you know what’s not going away? You. You and me and our friendship. Pando is still here whether I believe it or not.
Christina presses the word from which I roll Word press pink with war water color washes
Pink Christian away
Witch was had Christina that you
Word thinking visions awaiting
Press about and the when as
Word Philip at return you me K. point of stop and Christian
Christina presses word and I wash word pressed pink watercolors
I press bewitched pink wash wild word and word wounds wild
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I paint pink. I paint pink avant-garde and Philip K. Dick staircase. I paint asymmetrical pink (Really is that, which when you stop believing the return Christians and in lazy he was that. I paint Christians and had visions and in 1974 he was that which when you stopped and in it, doesn’t go awaiting the return of Christians).
I stain my body pink. I start with pink and outlive and solid extrapolation of the structure and material of objects. I place brilliant colored dots drifting across flat signs for still-life objects. I flatten chiaroscuro in planar contrasts of a monochromatic palette. This monochromaticism stains pink X pink (I was thinking about Clever K. Lily and in 1974, he was struck by a pink laser beam and fat reheats and at point he becomes botulism time has stopped and we were all subtexts 1st century. Christians awaits the moment of Christ. Christ had forgotten up. He also took a quote I like “Reeking is that, which when you stop believing in it, doesn’t go iron.” You so know swan’s not going away? You. You and me and our friendship. Pando is still here whether I believe or not). I stain my body pink and I simplify geometric structures, a blurriness of the distinction between subject matter and ground background. Pando still exists. Pink. You and me and our friendship. Pando. Pando stains my body pink.
I obscure or occult overlapping planar constructions, and the thunder tends away from equilibriums. I paint occult pink and obscure pink, and this impossible pink planes Christina geometry and Asia algebra.
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Christina presses the word from which I roll I press bewitches pink wash wild word and word wounds wild: words wounds wise gash of god (God gashes pink watercolor witches and noisy washing machines)
I Am So Unhappy But Christina Whispers To Me
I am so unhappy at present in my dream I am indescribably unhappy. I do not feel the writing on written and I write first downward. I write toward the girls with pink laser eyes and I do not record the vinyl record of their bodies.
These girls display themselves, caress themselves, alone or in company. Or we can guess they live in the nude, in the same room, in the same house.
I dream I am indescribably unhappy and I dream bloodied my bodies nude (Ben bodies bloody nude caress dream bodies without organs on display Undifferentiated ben bodies nude undertow)
I am so unhappy and in dreams I beam exceedingly unhappy I sleep nude the there is the there is there is the there is there the shaman death and the shaman prophet I feel different and there is Christina: Christina chapel chapel tree sap attic I feel Christina there difference – Christina charis seacharge sea nymphs (Christina there is sea and there is there is sea Christina sea nymphs exchange new model warp narcelles – narcelles accelerate amputations)
//
From the Exegesis of Philip K. Dick:
Who is the woman who whispers to me? “There’s someone else in my head and he’s not living in this century.” Another person injected into my brain – “Thomas”? But who is Thomas? One to whom the Holy Spirit came, Thomas with a single switch punch of the “needle” (Valis) the holy spirit is crossbonded to me and is here and a spatiotemporal locus injected into human history. Is the girl who whispers our daughter St. Sophia, who is her own grandparent Valis? Valis replicated in microform. Valis to Thomas to me equally Valis again (St. Sophia). Did the prophecy mean that St. Sophia would be born from me – me, impregnated by the Holy Spirit. But how? I hear her voice. She is in my head counseling me…
I return to the Exegesis of Philip K. Dick again, and I experience again the experiences and experiments of Philip K. Dick. I relieve and reexperience the Rumble in the Jungle mystery / divine annihilation / temporary theosis (I haven’t used the name Rumble in the Jungle in regards to my mystical experience in a very long time). Yes, the Woman whispers to me – Christina? Yes, Christina, but Asia too. KRYSXTRYN + Asia Rhizome. Asia whispers to me quiet word, from the warm of the word and the stillness of the word to Elijah (And went a day’s journey into the desert, until he came to a broom tree and sat beneath it. He prayed for death: This is enough O YHVH; take my life for I am no better than my fathers. He lay down and fell asleep under the broom tree, and then an angel touched him and ordered to get up and eat… And after the fires, a sound of sheer silence. When Elijah heard it, he wrapped his face in his mantle and went out and stood at the entrance of the cave. Then there came a voice to him that said, What are you doing here, Elijah?)
The girl who whispers to me and acts as my advocate – the girl with the pink flannel nightgown and slippers…
Christina whispers to the pink hauntologies and hermeneutics. Christina whispers to me and she displays herself in a nude quiet fire, fire in the same room at the same house.
Christina whispers to me there is the there is the shaman death and the shaman prophet.
The Woman counterpunches my spinal column, a crossbonding of Book and holy ghosts. Christina whispered pink ghosts and ghosts injected into human history and new hermeneutics.
Woman whispers St. Sophia word, the anarchic autogenes that simultaneously gives birth to the Book.
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I am so unhappy at present that in my dream I am exceeding unhappy. I do not write but Christ Christina curls I feel different shells / elephant trunks (elephant trunk electronics elephant trunk trappist/trumpet monks elephant trunk harmolodic funk elephant trunk panic attack a light in the attic)
I do not write but Book writes me. Book continually rewrites me into mixed multitudes and nude multiplicities, and the writing caresses my body always nude in the same house the same room. I do not feel like writing and I do not feel like writing, and the Book whispers to me St. Sophia pink beams (everything contaminates everything). I do not feel like writing and I do not feel like erasing, and I do not erase eating and drinking scripture. I do not erase eating and drinking texts, and texts congeal in my intestines (intestines sketch the there is and there is stone tumble textures). There is the there is turntable textures and tortoise textures stonehenge. I write Christina enters through closed doors and I do not erase the Christ but she rewrites me. Christina rewrites me and erases me (I never get tired around her).
I am so unhappy but the girl whispers in my ear quiet fires and secret fires. Fires burn bright pink quiet and keeps the sabbath.
The Materials Chosen
The materials chosen as one chooses shells walking on the beach
I only know material – that is, the materiality of texts. I collect texts material and the act of collecting creates performance art. Archive – whether library or catalogue or mixtape – interprets art and texts and is an art in itself. I adore the physicality of texts and the textuality of material. I live and prophesy material, and I inscribe material into my body and I transcribe my body into material. My body is always already physical text and textual archive.
The materials chosen manifest as art by the act of choosing Mass material moss material matterhorn sprawl Mass material moss material hatch holes enter exit bodies Enter exit body rose ram bramble gambit (I scribble along my body black pigment charcoal. I scribble along my body bundled charcoal: nervous charcoal nerve light. Body scribbles text onto and into body and body maps onto body mixed texts.) Material chosen maps onto my body Material alone a last a long browse body library Body browses library material derek bailey non-idiomatic improvisation My body scribbles material improvisation dark text in text
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I embody material and text I embody material and I grieve through the bodily archive I choose material from the Exegesis of Philip K. Dick
The changing information which we experience as world is an unfolding narrative. It tells about the death of a woman. This woman, who died long ago, was one of the primordial twins. She as one half of the divine syzygy. The purpose of the narrative is a recollection of her and of her death. The Mind does not wish to forget her. Thus the ratiocination of the Brain consists of a permanent record of her existence, and if read, will be understood in this way. All the information processed by the Brain – experienced by us as the arranging and rearranging of physical objects – is an attempt at this preservation of her: stones and rocks and sticks and amoebae are traces of her. The record of her existence and passing is ordered onto the meanest level of reality by the suffering Mind which is now alone.
I arrange and rearrange the Book as an attempt to preserve the records and archive of Christina and Kindred (this preservation performs art and grieves through art). I arrange other into other the collection of material – materiality – textures. I arrange the Kindred archive and library other into other: I arrange other text and material memory into the collective repetition-collection. I remember the arrangement differently.
The changing information which we experience as world is an unfolding narrative – it tells about the death of a woman (BIRD LIVES / KINDRED LIVES) (I arrange the information and transform the world and onto BIRD LIVES / KINDRED LIVES)
I feel certain I wrote the same phrase the last time the Kindred endured the first unexpected sabbatical – I now repeat the material BIRD LIVES / KINDRED LIVES and in this chaos terrain magic and tehom spells the tiamat text of the Book. Book changes information and Book processes information – the arranging and rearranging of language – the text and material BIRD LIVES/ KINDRED LIVES.
I embody changing information and the information manifests material I embody the material library and the textual archive I embody the material library and the textual archive
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The materials chosen as one chooses shells while walking on the beach I choose dark material – I choose the material of my body Darkly my body dark phoenix saga conjures magic material: I conjure myth and saga, and I too make the myth material (I make the myth library and archive)
I sing sagas and my flesh sagas fat-fueled fire I bird ben body spontaneous human combustion
Materials chosen / materials scribbled along my body get your kicks on route 66 Materials scribble body 66 unidentified flying objects Along my body get your kicks kick out the james jump motherfucker forked blues (Blue binary star stuck scar my body Boiler body biomass bastard scribbles Scriabin black mass and cicada scream insect sonatas)
I chose the material. One can think of using found objects and appropriation as a radical rescue of material from the cultural trash heap. I read an essay on Walter Benjamin and his ideas – the essay postulates that janitors and those who go through the trash heaps and refuse are a kind of messianic historian. They see the raw material and cultural material other people discard and redeem it and reveal it. They reveal a new kind of materialism in the refuse that opens the way to a radical community. I think the art too prophesies a kind of radical materialism. The artist uses material in a way to reclaim its simultaneous uselessness and usefulness. The art becomes a “Son of Man is the Lord of the Sabbath” – using principles antithetical to capitalism like rest, space, unproductivity – a different kind of creativity and anarchic community. One of kindness and compassion and the Kingdom of Heaven is within you. (Asia and Benjamin as pando friends stir a mystical creativity and an anarchic creativity. This creativity experiments rupture and rupture reveals the multiplicity of the rhizomic pando. We create multiple and rhizomic, material and messianic.)
The material chosen multiple and messianic The materials chosen as one chooses shells while watching on the beach Material closer multiple alphabets and messianic alphabets Body book balcony (an alphabet beneath the ground alphabet emerging from the work of hands) Write Asia Rainforest and steal the alphabet and invent alphabets anew ben bodies (open up your funky mind and your ass will follow the kingdom of heaven is within)
I choose material and I feel the funk blast bloated belly alphabet I walk along the beach beach let the salt water waters ben brackish waters Waters wave swerve wave shell materials: materials mix medicine medicine I feel the funk form flesh shadow figures fuck midnight fork morning
Alphabet scribbles along my body apocalypse quartet for the end of time Alphabet apocalypse embeds body and apocalypse / an alphabet and An alphabet and alphabet end body beach escalator
I choose the material messianic anew
I Have Cut Book Bamboo
I fall into the well awake or want work what / I have cut Book bamboo
I fall into the well awake and want work what what work worm who What works who winter wings (I wing lancet. I lancet wing two cent pieces sword breaker. Sword breaks bread with wings and the bread flies what.) I fall into well awake and I direct sword to night desert night
(Night new no nightmare. Night brass knuckles narrow natrium. Night natural saline holy spirit speculum.)
(Speculum that doesn’t sine shines night the very night)
(The night is on my mind The sun’ll still shine But now the night is on my mind)
I fall into the well awake and I direct sword to night desert night Night desert snow slow row
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I have cut Book bamboo
I have cut Book bamboo, the large leaves of grass of Christina’s body. Christina keeps watch and bends the tall grasses. Christina keeps watch over night sword and cave word. Christina watches the word cut cave desert wyrd.
I sleep with ghosts. She cuts the bamboo word and I sleep with ghosts. Ghosts sleep living room crickets. I sleep with ghosts living room locusts and their wings project haunted castle Christina. Locusts project haunted cattle longhorn languages. Haunted cattle mourn hot hostages and hot hostage pantyhose theater. I sleep with ghosts imaginary pantyhose (pantyhose haunted piñatas).
I have cut Book bamboo
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I fall into the well awake and I direct sword to night desert Sword sweeps ship wreck snow: snow snow reveals anus is night Now night knocks strange body stars (My face complex builds night. My face spirals and nautilus shell fractals repeat night. Night complicates by my face surfaces surface night. My face surfaces night of a rose and the rose of circular ruins.)
Night now knocks strange body stars Stars stick canned guts body undermining umbrella (Ben body face night whooping crane Ben body crane night cataclysms ben body Body cataract eye music museum cataclysm) Nude night knocks nude body nude stars Stars direct sword to night desert and in desert mummified guts Under night now nest bulletproof veil full proof moonshine night
I fall into the well awake or want work what / I have cut Book Bamboo
I cut into the body of the Book: I cut raw interior interiors of the Book or pen. I cut quick into the Book – quick, quicker this what. I fall into the cut of the Book. I fall into the open well of the Book, itself a night and itself a body: Book radically body and sometimes the only body (This body holding me reminding me that I’m not alone). I fall into into to the what and the what weirds my body.
I have cut Book bamboo: I have cut Book bone steel bar I cut cant carnal language canal coffin collarbone (I cut can’t cane cane car cross car bamboo bamboo bicycle black iron prison)
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I have cut Book bamboo and Black Iron Prison pours out The Exegesis of Philip K. Dick and his novel VALIS prophesy Christina and the Kindred:
The changing information which we experience as world is an unfolding narrative. It tells about his death of a woman. This woman, who died long ago, was one of the primordial twins. She was one half of the divine syzygy. The purpose of the narrative is the recollection of her and of her death. The Mind does not wish to forget her. Thus the ratiocination of the Brain consists of a permanent record of her existence, and if read, will be understood this way. All the information processed by the Brain – experienced by us as the arranging and rearranging of physical objects – is an attempt at this preservation of her; stones and rocks and sticks and amoebae are traces of her. The record of her existence and passing is ordered onto the meanest level of reality by the suffering Mind which is now alone…
The novel VALIS goes on to say: If in reading this, you cannot see that Fat is writing about himself, you understand nothing [Horselover Fat – author surrogate sometimes identical and sometimes not-identical to Philip K. Dick]
I copy this passage because I too am a suffering Mind experiencing loss – loss of her, Christina my primordial twin and the other half of my divine syzygy. I miss Christina. Although she lives, I imagine if I die I will end up in the same absence she exists in for me now. I want to meet her absence with my absence, and the imaginary absence would combine and arrange-rearrange the information we perceive as the world. Our absences combine absurd and useless and impossible, and the existence and nonexistence proves equally absurd.
I copy this passage as changing information and Christina Coltrane Changes. I copy changing passage and changing passion the pursuing absence of Christina (The changing information always constructs the narrative and myth revelation Christina and revelation Kindred).
I copy the myth of the woman: Christina and Christina and Christina sleeping with ghosts. I recall Christina and I do not wish to forget her.
I have cut the Book bamboo and Christina grows the Palm Tree Garden within Black Iron Prison
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I have cut the Book bamboo and I grow bamboo black iron prison I keep the cut and although I cut, the cut keeps the cut (I want your opinion or something, I say to Asia. You know my Book mixes both experimental types of writing but also our conversations as well and metacommentary about the direction of the Book. Do you find the conversations embarrassing or non-literary? I say. How can a conversation be non-literary? says Asia. Today I was copying this long message I sent you several months ago, I say. It was me struggling with my doubts in our friendship but coming to the realization that despite my doubts and anxiety, our actions continue to show unconditional love in our friendship. I made a note to myself to leave it in the Book but cut it out from the blog post. I felt it was embarrassing to express open doubt publicly and that me talking about unconditional love and doubt and action didn’t make for beautiful prose. I guess what I mean by nonliterary I mean open, exposed, no metaphor or flowery language, I say. Wow, OK, says Asia. Art is human, Ben. You have to embrace it. There’s going to be ugly bits. You can’t separate art from the messiness of being human, says Asia.)
I fall into the well awake or want work what (I have cut Book bamboo)
Rupture Is A Natural Part Of Growth
My wife whose hair birds brush fire number without what
What was between Big Sur whale bone What was between seen sur where whale bone Whale bone hone red hill and her camera clay hem what between
Between what between ben adam. Ben adam between what and without number hones whale bone sharpening stone. Between what stone. Between what between stone ben hinnom. Between what where and number ben adam. Ben between trim when Book: Book language the very human. Between human numberless book and my wife the Book.
I dream the Book as a human figure. I dream the canvas of the Book as a haunted human figure: figure fork fuck shadows curtain syntax. I dream the Book additive ben adam and Adam Christina, a Book cross drift rift dreams.
My wife whose hair birds brush fire number without what Her number without what bird cave mouth moth word (mouth number without what: millipede without what numbers) Taryn tongue twins what numbers and number amber and polished slabs Number without what she takes off on a motorcycle with a Super 8 camera Her numbers neck crane camera radio long delayed echoes
I dream the Book as a human figure: her figure. Her figure floods the flesh of the Book, a book shaped canvas and a book human body. Her figure revives my figure in Book (And the spirit-endowed woman came to me and spoke, saying, Arise, Ben Adam. And when I saw her, I said: It is you who have given me life; you will be called ‘Mother of the Living’. For it is she who is my mother. It is she who is the physician, and the woman, and she has given birth.) I dream the Book additive ben hinnom and Adam Asia: Adam Asia Among Rivers and Adam Asia Among Rhizomes Book drift rift dreams.
I was watching this video about cutting off family members and such, says Asia. I sent it to you not because this is relevant to you but because she brings up this really interesting point about how the natural flow of relationships is rupture and repair and the steps laid out to move forward show how the relationship is valued. I thought you would find that interesting and help you reframe things a bit. Rupture is a natural part of growth. She brought up another interesting point related to the cutting people off part saying that if there is a rupture in the relationship and one of the parties lays out a road map for how to move forward and the other one says “No, I’m not doing that,” the person who says no is the person cutting off the relationship, not the person who made the road map, says Asia.
Numbers without what rupture numbers without what Numbers without what rupture my wife whose hair birds brush fire number without what
Natural flow rupture repair the repair Natural flow rupture the repair steps move forward
Without number flow rupture repair the repair
Without number flow my wife hair birds rupture the steps laid
Rupture is a natural part of growth
Rupture flow camera radio long delay echoes Brain echo long lunar swirls sweat high albedo (high rupture flow delay the steps laid out road map cutting)
What was rupture between: between Big Sur bewilders what (What ruptures bone hone her camera what between) I beware what body cosmic sabbath I begin begin sabbath what habitat her hair turtle whir / Taryn hair whirlpool pack wolves What was body cosmic sabbath and what let the waters swarm with the swarm of living creatures (What let the light the boat grows larger with the Book The boat ruptures large Book without numbers What wet let the light sabbath and I fulfill the sabbath by breaking the sabbath)
Numbers without what ruptures what cosmic sabbath and sabbath antinomian rupture I fulfill the sabbath by breaking the sabbath
I fulfill the sabbath by breaking the sabbath. I fulfill the sabbath by the rupture of the sabbath. Sabbath rupture sabbath without number numberless sabbath. Ruptured sabbath seeds sabbath human one. I human sabbath her turtle hair her wild tortoise hair (be my husband and I’ll be your wife love you for the rest of my life). I fill fulfill full sabbath ruptures the sabbath made for man and not man for the sabbath and I fulfill the sabbath by breaking the sabbath.
I work with the whir of word and it uproots numberless Word uproots and reveals rhizomes and her rhizome wraps inseparable wire from word tree of life and word tree of knowledge
I work with the what of the Book and its blossoms appear on the earth / I work earth surge the waters swarm with the swarm of living creatures
I have a question for you, says Asia. How can an artist be anti-consumerist? Would it be using trash and thrifted items? Would it be making paint and pigment from scratch? she says. One can think of using found objects and appropriation as a radical resource of material from the cultural trash heap, I say. There’s an interesting essay I read awhile ago. It was on Walter Benjamin and his ideas. It postulates that the janitors and those who go through the trash heaps and refuse are a kind of messianic historian. They see raw material and cultural material other people discard and redeem it and reveal it. They reveal a new kind of materialism in the refuse that opens the way to a radical community. So I think of the artist maybe too as a radical materialist. Using material in a way to reclaim its uselessness and simultaneous usefulness. The artist in a way is the “son of man is the lord of the sabbath” – using the principles antithetical to capitalism like rest, space, unproductivity, to show a useless productivity. One of kindness and compassion perhaps. Rupture reveals the multiplicity of the rhizome. Our friendship is multiple and rhizomic, I say. I agree with what you said, says Asia. I think it’s good to think of everything around you as a medium instead of only the things you buy at a craft store. I could probably get gesso and make reclaimed canvases. Using reclaimed fabrics, says Asia.
Philip K. Dick often spoke about trash and the discarded and the ordinary as the secretly holy and divine:
“For me and for mankind a new age is opening in which the holy, expected from the top, so to speak, returns at the bottom, at the trash stratum of the alley, humble and noble, beautiful and suffering and alive and conscious…”
“Christ moves lower and lower, deeper and deeper into the decomposing cosmos, down layer by layer, starting with man. Thus the vision of Christ at and in the trash layer (stratum) is a vision of ultimate and final repair.”
“What I call the “trash stratum” or “debris discarded”; Christ enters world, penetrated it and now is camouflaged as it, dispersed throughout in and becoming steadily stronger.”
I fulfill the sabbath by sorting and receiving sabbath debris: debris discarded and revealed as trash stratum holy spirit
Rupture Rupture radical rescue Rupture go through the trash heaps and refuse (I thought you would find that interesting and help you reframe things a bit, says Asia. Rupture is a natural part of growth. Reframe my own relationships? I say. In our friendship? All relationships including ours, says Asia. A conflict isn’t a flaw or evidence of a mistake, but growing pains, she says.) Rupture radical refuse and residue
My wife whose hair birds brush fire number without what What ruptures what birds trash and refuse
Rupture radios long delay echoes Brain echo lunar swirls sweat high albedo / rupture sweat oil alchemy In rupture and repair, I clothe the stone pit with a bear humerus, a scraper, a core, and some flakes: I offer the grave I offer the grave the grave of human refuse I offer the grave the grave human bone / hollow bone vision and hollow bone rupture (I work with the what of the Book and its blossoms appear on earth / I work earth surge the waters swarm with the swarm of living creatures)
I desecrate the sabbath and destroy its plantings and I plant plain nude rhizome / wire word Tree of Life and Tree of Death metrics in cosmic sabbath
My wife whose hair birds brush fire number without what