This work which has no precedent / present this is where time becomes space This work prophesies no precedent but alltime when event
This work which has no event but the very event unconditional
The present pressing this is where time becomes space speeds a side serpent ritual (my handwriting slowly takes over the infrastructure of all books and languages, an insidious sigil seeping through an abominable alphabet) Present plays present time present space
Very truly, I tell you, we speak of what we know and testify to what we have seen, yet you do not receive our testimony. If I told you about earthly things and you do not believe, how can you believe if I tell you about heavenly things? No one has ascended into heaven except the one who has descended from heaven, the Son of Man. And just as Moses lifted up the serpent in the wilderness, so must the Son of Man be lifted up, that whoever believes in him may have eternal life.
This work something serpentine work this serpents
Something the earthly wilderness to man
Work I speak up have seen in heaven
Where time becomes serpentine space
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Work this serpentine time (Serpent time becomes space) Testimony from had tell whoever serpent you lifted / Philip K. Dick prophesies to me:
The One grieves for this death, since the One loved both twins; therefore the information of the mind consists of a tragic tale of the death of a woman, the undertones of which generates anguish into all creatures of the hologrammatic universe without them knowing why. This grief will depart when the healthy twin undergoes mitosis and the “Kingdom of God” arrives…
I grieve and I grieve without knowing what (what grief twin gods myself twin and I thin twin Christina Marie). I twin Kindred. I twin speak of Man be lifted up and Kindred who descended into heaven. I twin the one who had ascended into heaven except the one have serpent. I twin Kindred and I only know Kindred.
Am I the healthy twin or sick twin? I am the serpent lifted up in the wilderness.
I copy Christina and Kindred (Philip Kindred Dick): From loss and grief the Mind had become deranged. Therefore, we as parts of the universe the Brain, are partly deranged… My deranged mind diverges no one knows how the wind blows. My deranged mind who to one about testify told earthly.
I shorten my brain with baking soda. I shorten tensor tangent tile power wires (I weapon serpent were to wire serpent. My deranged terrify testify only produced nonsense – stone madness. Stone of madness tent of meeting. Tent trepanation testifies Son Serpent).
We as parts of the universe are partly deranged
This work which has no precedent participates deranged Deranged work presents deranged: deranged this is where time becomes space pressed deranged Deranged work just descended in eternal into
This woman who died long ago was one of the primordial twins. She was one half of the divine syzygy. The purpose of the narrative is the recollection of her and her death. The mind does not wish to forget her.
Deranged, I do not wish to forget her. When Jesus saw his mother and the disciple whom he loved standing beside her, he said to his mother, Woman here is your son. Then he said to the disciple, Here is your mother. And from that hour the disciple took her into his own home. Deranged, I do not wish to forget her.
I do not wish to forget anyone but I forget. I forget too many and I write to remember
Dissect a trillion sighs away
Will you get this letter?
Jagged pulp sliced in my veins
I write to remember
I write to remember. I remember Christina and Kindred. I still remember Megan and Taylor despite not talking to them for years. Try not to forget but my mind works deranged, a present deranged and grieving.
I prophesy without precedent woman dream more divided filling my compact and delicious body (I listen to True Love Waits by Radiohead and I dedicate this listen to Christina).
Work serpentine time deranged space Peculiar twin space where Kindred time becomes space
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This work works no precedent / present this Present this the serpent in him Work this man be lifted up the one who descended
This work spikes side serpent sigil and I hand write serpent (my handwriting slowly invades all books and languages, an insidious serpentine sigil. I write Christina as an abominable alphabet: name fractal name: name work fractal names. Pronounce work Christina deranged names).
Christina you’re difficult to love. You’re difficult to love but someone has to love you. Christina arrives which of anguish all the tale woman. Some someone has to live love you and I do. I do one of the undertones God mitosis and I love you ungodly hovering. I love you unconditionally in suppose apostle. Deranged apostasy.
This work without precedent presses unconditional
Work just as Moses lifted up
Present that who descended
Testify Christina deranged
I love you dodo difficult to love and I love you got your you
How to spell zodiacal difficult you to love and I love you. Stone someone had to live you love anew I do ama so. Ama I do ama o do anna I do and I do.
Christly Christine Christina I pure you’re siding difficult love and o so
Both all death of which information their the death tragic
Generate without God
Hologrammatic and healthy without departs
Tale consists undertones of universe
This twins grieves this will twins since woman
I do so do I love you. Someone has to. Some has to had to I love you. I love you amen silver Albert Ayler and olive got I love you amen slow. I love you drum drink drink drunk.
The present where time becomes space hallucinates space. I hallucinate space hologrammatic mind. Work speeds a serpentine space and serpent grieves its twins. Serpent grieves the Son of Man lifted up in wilderness.
Christina you you’re suspected to love and asked lot topic less love you and I do I do math I do tarry you marry o I do devout difficult to love and a love amen and and amen I love you cool and stupid and olive I love you increasingly craft Love Ch X creating creating I love you Marie Marie
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I Draw Maw Mer Magma
I draw maw mer magma I draw mer more maw game magma
Draw down quartet for the end of time Draw ray ray double draw
Draw and I draw claw message / draw mad messenger (Draw wave desert swerve Draw Waverace 64 simulated chop / combine water chop and desert)
I draw you won’t have and I enter the moon printed shadows
Movement interchange between horizontal melodies and vertical chords manipulate material
Before he has finished speaking, there was Rebekah, who was born to Betheul Son of Milcah, the wife of Nahor, Abraham’s brother, coming out with her water jar on her shoulder. The young woman was very fair to look upon, a virgin whom no man had known. She went down to the spring, filled her jar and came up. Then the servant ran to meet her and said, “Please let me sip a little water from your jar.” “Drink, my lord,” she said, and quickly lowered her jar upon her hand and gave him a drink. When she had finished giving him a drink, she said, “I will draw for your camels also, until they have finished drinking.” So she quickly emptied her jar into the trough and ran again to the well to draw, and she drew for all his camels. The man gazed at her in silence to learn whether or not the LORD had made his journey successful.
Movements interchange between horizontal melodies and vertical chords / manipulate his materials She manipulates my materials
Movement interchange interchange changes movement languages
Movement machines mer or magma materials. Movement interchange machine and machine and movement draws up waters. I water languages. Move failure languages interchange experiments.
Young her she to
Before woman and she the
He had said finished well
Movement manipulates material. I draw up magma water and mer up maw. Manipulate magma material and its waves interchange vertical changes. I draw your won’t have me I enter the moon painted shadows.
Shadow finished fair let his draw
Drawing look sip drink
Movement interchange interchange changes movement in language.
I draw maw mer magma I draw more maw game magma Draw man gates at her jar and ran to look upon (I look upon magma maw saw mint mer look)
I draw spirit Christina and ghost Christina Castlevania and in vain I channel vane sisters / Christina my sister Christina, my and Philip K. Dick’s sister Sister was Rebekah who was Rebekah Sister who was Rebekah whom no man gazed at her jar
Philip K. Dick writes about our sister:
But my search in this world, in all worlds, is for my sister, my female counterpart whom I have lost – been separated from. Still, she exists, and finally I will be reunited with her. She is very close to me and the AI voice, the singing woman (psychopomp) and the sibyl. And ultimately, holy wisdom herself (v. Prv 8: “my darling and delight.”).
Movement towers manipulate material materials towers movement
Towers she exists and the AI voice
Materia l I will be reunited with herself
Woman psychopomp search in this world
Movement towers manipulate materials
Movement hints horizontal body horror horizons (I collectively perform the melody) I draw spirit Christina / this I be voice herself This voice herself world have reunited)
I draw spirit Christina the singing woman (psychopomp) My darling woman (psychopomp) and the singer and finally I will be reunited from I draw still she exists and delights Christina: my and Philip K. Dick’s sister
I collectively perform the melody. I perform vertical planing melodies (god melody collect melodies collective concerto transposed towers). Collection melodies modulate mode modes medium collections. I keep collecting the melodies and I draw melodies upon upward. Draw melodies up and down my sister by magmas. When she had finished giving her a drink, she said, “I will draw for your camel also, until they have finished drinking.” I draw drinking melodies and vertical melodies drink.
I was thinking today I could wear a big T-shirt as a covert pseudo-dress, I say. Day 163 of Ben sounding like an egg, says Asia. Not egg, I say. Genderqueer… I don’t know what I am. Like what Ben even means, not just gender. What Ben exists really? All of them, says Asia. And none of them. By the time you figure out which one is now, you are onto the next one. Which one are you Pando Friends with? All of them, says Asia. Don’t waste your time drawing chalk outlines. It’s good to know yourself but also know that yourself grows and changes. That’s a good thing. You change and stay the same. Because what’s true to you stays, says Asia.
I do not draw chalk outlines but I draw water for the camels I draw her draw outline into the trough and she spring filled her water jar and quickly emptied her water
I draw maw mer magma I draw mer more water and I quickly pour her water in magma I pour Christina psychopomp play haunted
Kiss ghost Christina hauntological
Her matador machine body kicks Christ’s passion
Movements interchange the singing woman and sibyl always outline Christina
Her molotov cocktail machine body cold crucifies Christina crucifies cold ben hinnom black blizzards
I outline in all worlds and Christina my sister draws my female counterpart whom I have lost. I outline Christina melodies and vertical ghosts, and Biblical narrative transforms into Kindred narrative. Christina lowers her jar and gives the Bible the drink, and Kindred quickly empties as outlines. Kindred transforms horizontal to vertical, and melody stares at Kindred in silence. I draw Kindred waves desert swerve.
I draw maw mer Kindred I draw my chalk outlines You won’t have me enter but Kindred paints moon shadow
Abyss Utters Underneath
An anarchic abyss utters underneath Anarchic abyss utters serpent underneath and snake talisman subterranean (night snake transforms the ocean ostinato into night train)
Anarchic abyss and abyss ancient of ancients utters her first word logos: she lights the lights logos She lights the lights leviathan
Seated woman holding a mirror; Ancient Greek Attic red-figure lekythos by the Sabournoff Painter, C. 470-460 BCE. I seat unsettled abyss and underneath my body duplicated by abyss. Abyss duplicates my body abyssal and mirrors continue abyss. Mirrors further abyss and mirrors continue my body abysses. I hold the abyss and mirror and mirror dyed all blue then red then red-black-blue. Red vertebrae mirror configures body oddities.
An anarchic abyss utters underwater
I bathe in the brine lakes
I bathe magick mirror lady of the lake
Bathe burning brimstone abyss with red figures
Anarchic abyss utters serpent submerges serpent talisman (night shake transforms ocean ostinato into night train)
Could it get some wind for the sail boat and it could get those for it is
It could set the railroad for these workers it could be a balloon
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Eating right evident abyss Abyss ant ant alien after ask ask an we’ve thou poverty
Eating abyss deeds mine ask of YH Sun Ra keep
The you trawling pinging deviate summon
Abyss beach break crack crack zeal Abyss with zeal lamp beach beach break taxi hear abyss
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Anarchic abyss utters her first word logos: she lights the lights leviathan Logos she lights the light liquid bridal chamber (lights leviathan bridal chamber molts abyss bodies / lego block legato babel metamorphoses)
I’m in pain, I say. Hell overtakes me. I don’t know what I’m doing. Are you OK? says Asia. I don’t know, I say. What happened? I am in the void, I guess. I have nothing to hold me up, I say. Ben, promise me that when you go back into the abyss, that you do so with love for yourself, says Asia. I don’t know why, but a part of me thinks that you believe you deserve to be punished and I hope you aren’t trying to torture yourself. Today is all souls day, I say. We pray for the souls of the dead and for those in purgatory. Who are you praying for? The totality of the dead, I say. CG Jung had a vision of the dead coming to him asking him for gnosis. He concludes one must converse with the dead, with their dead, and bring back that dialogue to the land of the living. I like that, says Asia. It reminded me of something Philip K. Dick said, I say. “I have discovered a new religion, and it is 2,000 years old.” – referring to gnosticism. We have no breadth if we do not converse with our ancestors. We have no depths if we do not dialogue with the totality of our past, I say. I think that we, as a culture, have an unhealthy fear of death, says Asia.
Anarchic abyss utters serpentine bridal chamber Legato leviathan bridal chamber molts a boundless liquid expanse of indefinite recombination
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Arche alast almond abyssal abyssal arche
Apeiron porous point plot point psalm serpentine
Abyss. Chaos stanzas. Strophic choruses. Apartment prima material. Primary materials.
Abyss substrates. Arche substrates. Substratums. Saturn substitute. Arche soft aloft.
In abyss, rarefied air becomes fire, condensed it becomes first wind, then cloud, water, earth, and stone in order. Abyss in order.
Condensing chaos. Ocean rarefied. Arche waves. Perfect river. I glow apeiron light I flow back into myself – deep-swirling, deep-flowing. Flow flow full arche abyss – fullrene Eileen idle idle initial ignition imitation.
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Anarchic abyss and abyss ancient of ancients utters prayers for the dead
Dead so souls their no in so of dead breadth
Fear of dead hell love dead bring we overtakes
I don’t those dialogue converge abyss know why purgatory
Abyss utters serpent underneath only mirror and only ocean (Bronze mirror, New Kingdom of Egypt, Eighteenth Dynasty. 1540-1296 BCE)
Mirror only ocean
I am in purgatory I am who aren’t know why but a part of the death
One used to find, especially in country towns, cafes where two walls with mirrors ran parallel. And when you entered these cafes, you saw yourself into infinity; but if you took one mirror away, you saw only one reflection.
Abyss utters mirror echolocation and provide me when you go back into the abyss Abyss utters mirror most echolocation location loft lateral littoral only ocean
I’m on pain – hell overtakes me – I don’t know what I’m hearth Are you you I don’t know What happened Abyss uttered
Bud Powell Pinks Turn To Blue, Part 1
Bud Powell pinks turns to blue Bud Powell pink elephants on parade (parade pulse plus pink Philip K. Dick pink gold golden ratio doorway)
I jam Book bebop and every chord change reveals door doorway pure pink
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The door of the horizon are thrown back; its bolts are unbolted
Vivid voids opens open amen
Void vivid opens open omen
Vivid amen opens open void omen
Horizon hymns horizon open: horizon hymn opens horizon hell radically open
Door horizon opens vivid her void opens volume void (The adventures of an ordinary man among the cruel men and passionate women of Algiers Musk, Hashish, and Blood) Horizon adventures bloody door – door Passover and creeping death I adventure – add venture – venture vulture prevent defense – horizon shirt hot horizons (hashish horizons musk murder in the red barn door across or our horizons – open crew, Christina cave-in)
The door of the horizons are thrown back; its bolts are unbolted
Horizon hymns horizon open: horizon hymn opens horizon hell radically (her open radials sprawl horizon desert concentric circles) Here her horizon opens here and her here open spills horizon
Vivid her void opens visible void and invisible void
Vivid her void devours void and her void devours void visions
(Void flows to void)
(Void pours onto void void doubled and triple void)
The door of the horizons are thrown back into the musk, hashish, and blood
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Bud Powell pink turns to blue Bud Powell pink elephants on parade Parade pulse pink plus blue plus blue (blue bathers bodies without organs)
I bare my body blue bricoleur blue brick blue babel / blue bathers body without organs
One of my ghost shrimps has a parasite, says Asia. I have quarantined him. I can’t bring myself to euthanize him though. They are so cute. I’m trying methylene blue. It can work to kill parasites so we will see, says Asia. Let me know how it goes, I say. Methylene blue is also used in gram staining. Used a lot in my microbiology class. That’s why I have it, says Asia. The microscope. I forget you’re a genius, I say. How do you know it has a parasite? Ghost shrimps are see-through, says Asia. It’s like “Oh they are perfectly clear except that one has a weird worm thing looking inside of it… wait a minute…,” says Asia.
Bud Powell brings blue X blue and I’m always blue
(I feel blue desert depression and body blue. Body blue burden of the valley of vision body without organs blue. Blue Ben desert travel blue. I need to vomit this raw emotion, however inelegant and brutish and ugly. I believe in my ugly – I believe in my vulnerability – I believe in my weakness. My desert body frustrates. Blue defeats me – pink elephants on parade berate me – passionate women of Algiers throw open the door of horizon and polish its bolts with my blood. I vomit brutalist blood and I fail to nurse in this blue… Try again fail again fail better. Fail better blue and experience nervous and fuck and anxious – I experience human and the pink to blue human off the bebop runs. Improvise kind of blue and blue in green and all blues.)
Bud Powell pink turns to blue Bud Powell pink elephants on parade Parade pulse plus pink Philip K. dick pink gold golden ratio doorway
Bud did down well right I sing dumb his glass darkly speech lit face to face on all around He sing ben simulation string texts, string cheese cobra chaoses
Blue Bud Powell one cute blue
I’m trying also forget perfectly
Ghost methylene used you’re clean
Blue that’s why I have quarantined him I can’t bring used in gram staining myself to euthanize though
I sing dumb glass darkly speech bark blue
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The door of the horizons are thrown back; its bolts are unbolted
I unbolt the doors and I parade pulse pink Philip K. Dick pink gold golden ratio doorway (Door blue and pink spills her were horizon Horizon used in gram staining myself to euthanize through they are so well perfectly)
Unbolt horizon spills house fire and forest haunted by open fragments
(Bud Powell pink fragments
Bud powers blue fragments
Philip K. Dick blue door)
I collect fragments from the manuscript of the horizon
I collect blues the scale of blue in blue, and my blue collective coagulates bloody door / hashish horizons. I collect blue and blue unbolts my body from my body. Blue isolates my body in blue. Blue bones – blue brains – blue Bud Powell – spills out body blue… Despite all my collections, I cannot find the door. I cannot unbolt the door. I collect blue and vivid blue opens void language problems and language games. I follow Bud Powell into bebop blue and Powell creates the modern piano style of single-note right hand runs and left-handed chordal punctuation. I collect blue freely across harmonic borders. I collect blue through the doors...
Free Bow Fragment
Act Act in aleatoric stone arrangement of stones Act Act stone activity
Act in my aleatoric and chance body without organs (53 flexible time brackets with single sounds produced on 1, 2, 3, or 4 strings. Durations, dynamics, and bow positions free)
Time inside time free duration. Time inside time in time free bow positions. Time in time free endures duration. I endure to time for 1, 2, 3, or 4 strings. Theater time. To times theater time and train time and time theosis.
Act Towards the insignificant act free duration Act, towards the insignificant / a cuckoo fades away and in its direction, a single island
Act. Act in what: the how or who of my body for strings. Act in what with my body flexible time brackets (my flexible flesh endures time and timeless durations). Act in what: what time brackets with single sounds and my body sounds 4 strings. I free bow four strings of my body towards the insignificant.
Towards the insignificant / a cuckoo fades away and in its direction, a single island – a single sound
(A free sound towards the insignificant)
Starting continuing stopping moving moving on
Starting continuing copying stopping copying
I start to copy, continue coping and in the stop, I continue
Act: I continue towards the insignificant (the first shall be last and the last shall be first) I continue towards the insignificant (Philip K. Dick writes: For me and Mankind, a new age is opening in which the holy, expected from the top, so to speak, returns at the bottom, at the trash stratum of the alley, humble and noble, beautiful and suffering and alive and conscious...)
I Claim Responsibility For The Book
This language skips fingertips (touch language: taste double double toil and trouble)
They language almost-almost what tin here what elsewhere What rip here what elsewhere in the almost – what slugs soft drink cinders Language smokes apple cider cinders sinister elsewhere similar / language slot machine fingertips
This language skips and this language not my language. I have no language and nothing belongs to me. Often, only the Book exists – not Ben. When does Ben then exist? Book writes them imaginary. Book writes them apocalyptic strata, each more extravagant than the last. I do not exist and I have no language – my language borrows and plagiarize my language borrows and plagiarizes. I do not exist. I haven’t existed since Christina and I started our double autobiography – Bunnies for Christina. The Book possessed me then and Ben became hevel and vanity of vanities. Book writes and rewrite Ben and additional Ben all vanishings.
This language these geese (I interpret these geese go between) This language these geese (brain geese grow grain membranes)
Loud shroud languages
I strip down in language contradiction / I swallow language radioactive alpha particles
Language fucks with my guts
You may not believe in ghosts, but you cannot deny the terror
The Haunting
Language fucks up my guts even though it’s not my language. Many languages fuck up my guts, and my intestines spill out metamorphosis. My body molts pregnant body horror (there are gory images of childbirth and my naked discolored breathing corpse oozes black blood). Language destroys my seal of reality and all reality and all reality collapses into distorted word. Not my word but an unknown word and an impossible to know word (I am at the point where my Christianity totally apophatic. I can’t say what God I know. I don’t believe in a knowable God. Whatever it is I experience in the Divine is not any God called by human names. I’m a Paul Tillich or Meister Eckhart atheist). Language fucks up my guts and disintegrates any god and word vanishes in its pronunciation.
I stripe strips strip language standing a man totally gallowslike
My face her face
My stand her stand somewhere at our own stomachs
I strip plague stripe stand totally gallowslike / I grab the gallows like Batman grabs a gun I grab gun zebra camouflaged in the catastrophe
What is this language? What is this music? It is not my language or my music but the music moves and changes by itself like weather. Music changes and spirit winds and wind above waters: the wind blows where it wills and you can hear the sound it makes, but you do not know where it comes from or where it goes. What is this language? Not my spirit nor my wind but the spirit which rewrites Child of Humanity.
(When people resonate with your writing, says Asia, it has nothing to do with whatever fickle spirit and everything with something you wrote that resonated with their human experience. It’s OK! Feeling flat is also part of the human experience. I’m sure there are many people out there that could resonate with that feeling, says Asia.)
At some point, I have to take responsibility for the Book and writing. Yes, the Book surprises and the Book animates spontaneously, but I am the vessel through which is passes through. I feel flat and empty – I feel Not-Ben and non-existent – but at some point I have to take responsibility for the Book because I am the vessel / vision through which it passes through.
I strip language graffiti: Zebra graffiti and trash layer… I strip language strip zebra camouflaged Christina and I prophesy the women of my life and the women in my body – I am the vessel through which we pass through I strip language Zebra pink beam spell and pink resonates
Pink whim with resonated of that
Pink people whatever with the could resonate fickle with the could resonate
Pink resonate with spirit human experience
Language I’m with your and experience language experience I am the vessel through which it passed through
I got an interesting comment today, I say to Asia. I shared my latest excerpt in a server I’m a part of and there’s a couple of people who really liked it. Just now though someone tagged me and commented: “Garbage word salad. Prove me wrong.” It’s funny because I was writing about the “trash layer” when it happened – Philip K. Dick said in the tabloids and science fiction and pulp – the trash layer – was the Divine camouflaged. Synchronicity, I guess, I say.
I circle building language brick-and-mortar spirals spiral language I circle writing about the trash layer when it happened
Philip K. Dick said in the trash layer when it happened
Trash layer when it happened (yellow is for gold, blondes, and rewards
The Blonde Who Cried Murder)
This language spirals spindle spiral hyle science fiction fire
Philip K. Dick said in a server I’m a part of science fiction
and science fiction and the trash
I circle buildings and spiral spreads across Ben + Asia Pando I spread desert dialectics / language dialysis lysis body deconstruction
I stand in spirals and crater languages and languages spiral. I stand language. I don’t want to call my language (I got an interesting barrows today. I shared my cowards except in a whirled. I’m a film of and there’s a couple of people who really like it). I claim this language over and over again and I reject this language and mine over and over again.
This language skips fingertips and language lingers in spirals this language
I Obsess Pink And Prophesy Pink
I obsess pink and I become acutely aware of the presence of Philip K. Dick in my brain. PKD invades my brain vast active living intelligence system. My brain in a vat turns permanently pink. I obsess with pink and pink sustains / stains the Book.
Pink peers through the peak pink, and it always means death and life-death and KRYSXTRYN + Asia Rain Forests Pink peers into to in through my stellar skull (pink cross and pink stars)
Shaman means one who dreams / Shaman means one who dreams pink Shaman dreams pink prophetic dreams and prophecy means survival Prophecy enables survival (I struggle with my prophecy – it feels ineffectual. Prophecy should change others and the world, but my prophecy changes nothing. Cornelius Cardew began as an avant-garde composer and made revolutionary graphic scores like “Treatise” and remade communal music in his involvement in the Scratch Orchestra; however, his Maoism convinced him he needed to write music for the general populace with straightforward Maoist messages, and he denounced his previous work and the work of other avant-garde composers. I contemplate making a similar shift – to cease my experimental literature and attempts to innovate with new techniques and structures in favor of more straightforward anarchic-community and Christina anarchy. I don’t know if anarchic techniques (see: the writing of John Cage and Jackson Mac Low) actually give a model for living in the unconditional of the Kingdom-Of-Heaven-Within-You and the unconditional radical community. Is the medium the message / massage? I almost say no, but Jesus taught in the genre of the parable and messianic secret for a particular medium / message.)
Shaman means one who dreams and I dream pink anarchy Prophetic dreams engage essential survival / creative anarchy Prophetic dreams engage essential survival / creative activity I prophesy pink diamonds in the dark: hard-edged square-cut diamonds (these gems do not always have upside and downside)
I wrote in my notes app today: “How do I prophesy in a way that radically transforms others and the earth?” I say to Asia. I write about myself and relationships and experiments with poetry and literature. Should I write political pamphlets instead? Anarchist zines? Slogans and songs to mobilize others? I say. Nah, probably not, says Asia. […] I’m worried that you would end up falling into despair if you immerse yourself in the news. My advice if you do, start small and build a network of people to help. That sort of thing isn’t done by individuals, says Asia.
I obsess pink and I descend into pink underworld – pink sheol – pink Ben Adam Pink descends death and abode of dead
(Sheol shakes snail and hair
I hair salt shakes sheol swells
I hair salt flat sheol swales and the swales swarm locusts)
Pink punches through my skull sheol (bottomless pit sheol black hole sheol sheol locusts swarm shale slate to slate and syllable to syllable)
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Pink maps death. I dog mop map death. I dog descend map multitudes maps many pink deaths (The demon core was a 6.7 kilogram subcritical mass of plutonium measuring 89 millimeters in diameter, which was involved in two criticality accidents). Death amps pink radiation and radiating pink maps mutate my brain. Pink plutonium blasts my brain with shaman visions and shaman descents. I descend pink alchemy and tarot pink-tower-death. Death dances skull transformations.
I tell you the truth, none will be saved unless they believe in my cross, for God’s kingdom belongs to those who have believed in my cross. Be seekers of death then, like the dead who have seen life when what they seek becomes apparent to them. When you search out death, it will teach you about being chosen (I choose a death verily death and actual death).
I tell you the truth, death radiates pink and pink radial pink I tell you the truth, the cross creoles death and death add pink death compact I tell you the truth, I seek death and I descend death death shaman who dreams
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I obsess pink and I become acutely aware of Philip K. Dick pink beams and golden ratio desert pink. Pink fucks with my brain.
Philip K. Dick writes in his Exegesis:
Last night I dreamed about an orchard of trees with pink cherry blossoms – that same pink color of immortality and God. […] But at least I’ve seen the healing pink again, identified with trees and spring…
Shaman means one who dreams and I dream stuck in pink: pink molasses and pink morass and the pink doesn’t heal but curses. I only dream pink and I fear pink and I fear pink of the Book – perpetual pink and always pink and I cry pink streams – pink pink pink the orchard devours me (only orchard – only death – only shamanic descent. I belong to the dead. I belong to the pink place dream dense prophetic dream).
(Is this the place? It has to be the place. Free place free space. Free space for what – anything. What pink and anything pink. Writing anything and prophesy anything – this pungent pink prophesy see pink the Shaman who dreams. I prophesy this is the place my own death by car crash…
– I suddenly remember My Death In Spain and I fantasize Running of the Bulls and The Sun Also Rises and I too feel impotent but the bull run mer bulls box oxen sea south of heaven –
Pink plus pink I pass through the place: I pass through the arms of Moloch and I pass through the fire of the Book and the apocalyptic alphabet. I conjure my terrain death hallelujah junction jaguar (jagged skull with addresses and tumors tumor pink boiling address pink)
– Keep going – do you understand? Keep going. Prophesy anything – anarchy, pink skulls, pink visions, political pamphlets, experimental structures and lasso language… Keep prophesying anything / nothing. As if the act of prophesy itself acts in prophesying.
– My body prophesies psychopomp death and I descend underworld shaman dreams My body prophesies and I descend pink fucks me nonsense and track-and-field prophecy I map trail mix night train topology (anything – any pink and nothing underworld night train engines ignite Saint Maud alphabet) Anything I prophesy night name knock knock jokes (knock knock joke straitjackets)
– I’m walking through streets that are dead Walking, walking with you in my head (I should have listened to Time Out Of Mind more in Christina’s absence I should write more honestly with myself – prophesy honestly Prophesy the pink inside my skull)
I Press Bewitched Pink
I press bewitched pink I press Christina bewitched pink Press bewitched pink wash wild word and word wounds wild: word wounds wide gash of god (God cuts core gore skull bone and pink pours out of my skull: pink oozes from my skull cracked god pink. Always pink kinks claustrophobic knots knot pink potholes. Pink returns pink and this pink bewitches and god and bewitches god gods. Pink presses into the scripture-spirit of deities.) I press bewitched pink noise and noise clears space.
(What noise What noise: noise scorching my skull What noise: simulated saw simulacrum Noise: skull similar put it in an one has Noise: jigsaw skull burnt pink by sol gaze haze maze)
Noise bugs my skull pink surveillance Noise space at a pink
Pink displaced noise space
Noisy noise zeros onto the rain of my brain
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I bang my head against this pink hide-in-seek noise. I crash my head into the diesel train plain pink rain. I bang my head crash pink and I get nowhere but completely bound / blind pink.
Pink skull conspiracies
I slow beyond the zero. I gemstone zero zero asymptote – towards pink horizon. My life exist asymptotic nonexistent death. Death delivers at the zero delirium / death delivers pink dissociation. Death carries ben hinnom carrion and the stink presses into my skull bewitched. My carry-on luggage is carnival carrion cargo – carrion recapitulates my decaying body (my body decays and radiates pink). My body decal pink echo delay delirious flanger false flag operations (flag jolly roger jelly beans).
I slow beyond the zero bewitched by the zero (zero tiles pink skin as then pink and panic pink) I meet the zero ben abyssal and I cannibalize ben at zero / pink begins at the zero
My body berates vulture voyage / scavenger carry-on orange monster
Body unknown travels variable body
Body unknown traveler lovers hamlet
I meet the zero in ghosts and Hamlet’s father encourages homicide (to be or not to be and zero into death)
At zero, death downward, and I descend to death damsel-in-distress
I bang my head against this noise and noise splits pink and zero. I bang my head zero dead and the zero pink ooze. My skull oozes pink out of the corner.
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I press bewitched pink and Book burrows pink I burrow into Christina pink and on pink chairs. I climb out of Sheol (Do you remember the twins Jillian and Jocelyn? says Christina. Yes. They lived down the street, says C, and we would play Power Rangers in the houses that were being built in the neighborhood. They always played boys and I was the Pink Ranger. We hugged and kissed – like on the cheek. I never thought anything of it, says Christina.) I climb chain pink out of Sheol and I shake pink death and zero death
Zero bewitches I never thought anything of it hey kissed (like the Pink Ranger)
In the pink rangers in the cheek I never thought anything of it
Zero bewitched in always played boys and kissed C like or the neighborhood
Pink zero and I was the cheek I never thought anything built in the cheek
Press Sheol bewitched pink death Sheol salt shakes softens steep tea cliffs: dismantled slate for slate syllable for syllable (Pink slate for zero slate and pink syllable for zero syllable)
I bang my head against noise Sheol. I bang my head against this Book at the zero and this zero burns a pink hole into my eye sockets. I bang my head crash my head – my head into my head and the Book into the Book. I press between pink and each syllable sinks into pink. I continue to explore dead end and dead end, and I bang my head against dead end no feel for harmony – no feel for plot or narrative, or how to extend the narrative.
I bang my head they rangers neighborhood never
Zero they we lived in the always hugged anything
Anything the houses played and of street that boys kissed it
I bang my head against the zero and pink noise
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I bang my head against the pink noise and my skull oozing noise
Dawn choir death dive descent death. Death to descend to death. Descend death quartet for the end of time death descend death.
(Descend pink? Descend zero?
Descend noise? Pink noise zero.)
I describe the descent divided body touched (I descend touch teeter touched descent). I descent descend and I dance dance macabre desiring-machines (dance watchmaker death and clockwork descent).
(Descend pink? Dance pink?
Torch pink? Clockwork pink?)
(I was thinking about Philip K. Dick and in lazy he was struck by a pink laser beam and has visions at one point he became convinced time had stopped and we are all secretly 1st century Christians awaiting the return of Christ. Christ had forgotten us. The pink beam burrows into my skull Christ death perfectly pink. I was thinking pink and struck pink and pink convinces time to stop and pink crawls / scrawls through time. Reality is that, which when you stop believing in it, doesn’t go away – the pink doesn’t go away and the zero doesn’t go away, and neither does Pando and Kindred and the soul sparks of Philip K. Dick)
I descend death and zero death and death pink
(Descend pink? Descend zero?
Descend noise? Pink noise zero.)
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Press bewitched pink and Christina pink
I Paint With The Pink Soul Of Philip K. Dick
Christina presses the word from which I roll
Christina presses Philip K. Dick pink beam anamnesis. I have lived Philip K. Dick: I contain PKD’s soul spark, and we write the same Exegesis. This Book continues the Exegesis (it also continues the Christian Bible, the Nag Hammadi Codex, William Blake’s prophetic works, and Liber Novis). Christina presses the Book from new pink and impossible pink and this pink permeates my bloodstream (The Pink God contorts my flesh cubist body horror and cosmic horror iceberg universes). I drink Christina-Pink nitroglycerin and my circulatory system dilates dizzy vision (visions of Charlie Parker and Dizzy Gillespie cutting new bebop melodies).
Dress word pink witches Press word pink wilderness / witches swarm chromatic locusts in forest (locusts fuck nitroglycerin explosions and swarms sweep-picked arpeggios / locusts fuck polymodal chromaticism: paranormal nitroglycerin)
Press word pink witches Press word wild witches ben hinnom bewitches I bewitch word and it presses its immediately-immersions-intensities into the Book (Books superimposed polymodal chromatics onto and into Book onto and into pink Book onto onto into and Book pink) I bewitch word wild pink and pink pillar play of locusts
I was thinking about Philip K. Dick and in 1974, he was struck by a pink laser beam and had visions and at one point, he became convinced time had stopped and we are all secretly 1st century Christians awaiting the return of Christ. Christ hadn’t forgotten us. He also said a quote I like: “Reality is that, which when you stop believing in it, doesn’t go away.” Do you know what’s not going away? You. You and me and our friendship. Pando is still here whether I believe it or not.
Christina presses the word from which I roll Word press pink with war water color washes
Pink Christian away
Witch was had Christina that you
Word thinking visions awaiting
Press about and the when as
Word Philip at return you me K. point of stop and Christian
Christina presses word and I wash word pressed pink watercolors
I press bewitched pink wash wild word and word wounds wild
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I paint pink. I paint pink avant-garde and Philip K. Dick staircase. I paint asymmetrical pink (Really is that, which when you stop believing the return Christians and in lazy he was that. I paint Christians and had visions and in 1974 he was that which when you stopped and in it, doesn’t go awaiting the return of Christians).
I stain my body pink. I start with pink and outlive and solid extrapolation of the structure and material of objects. I place brilliant colored dots drifting across flat signs for still-life objects. I flatten chiaroscuro in planar contrasts of a monochromatic palette. This monochromaticism stains pink X pink (I was thinking about Clever K. Lily and in 1974, he was struck by a pink laser beam and fat reheats and at point he becomes botulism time has stopped and we were all subtexts 1st century. Christians awaits the moment of Christ. Christ had forgotten up. He also took a quote I like “Reeking is that, which when you stop believing in it, doesn’t go iron.” You so know swan’s not going away? You. You and me and our friendship. Pando is still here whether I believe or not). I stain my body pink and I simplify geometric structures, a blurriness of the distinction between subject matter and ground background. Pando still exists. Pink. You and me and our friendship. Pando. Pando stains my body pink.
I obscure or occult overlapping planar constructions, and the thunder tends away from equilibriums. I paint occult pink and obscure pink, and this impossible pink planes Christina geometry and Asia algebra.
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Christina presses the word from which I roll I press bewitches pink wash wild word and word wounds wild: words wounds wise gash of god (God gashes pink watercolor witches and noisy washing machines)
I Am So Unhappy But Christina Whispers To Me
I am so unhappy at present in my dream I am indescribably unhappy. I do not feel the writing on written and I write first downward. I write toward the girls with pink laser eyes and I do not record the vinyl record of their bodies.
These girls display themselves, caress themselves, alone or in company. Or we can guess they live in the nude, in the same room, in the same house.
I dream I am indescribably unhappy and I dream bloodied my bodies nude (Ben bodies bloody nude caress dream bodies without organs on display Undifferentiated ben bodies nude undertow)
I am so unhappy and in dreams I beam exceedingly unhappy I sleep nude the there is the there is there is the there is there the shaman death and the shaman prophet I feel different and there is Christina: Christina chapel chapel tree sap attic I feel Christina there difference – Christina charis seacharge sea nymphs (Christina there is sea and there is there is sea Christina sea nymphs exchange new model warp narcelles – narcelles accelerate amputations)
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From the Exegesis of Philip K. Dick:
Who is the woman who whispers to me? “There’s someone else in my head and he’s not living in this century.” Another person injected into my brain – “Thomas”? But who is Thomas? One to whom the Holy Spirit came, Thomas with a single switch punch of the “needle” (Valis) the holy spirit is crossbonded to me and is here and a spatiotemporal locus injected into human history. Is the girl who whispers our daughter St. Sophia, who is her own grandparent Valis? Valis replicated in microform. Valis to Thomas to me equally Valis again (St. Sophia). Did the prophecy mean that St. Sophia would be born from me – me, impregnated by the Holy Spirit. But how? I hear her voice. She is in my head counseling me…
I return to the Exegesis of Philip K. Dick again, and I experience again the experiences and experiments of Philip K. Dick. I relieve and reexperience the Rumble in the Jungle mystery / divine annihilation / temporary theosis (I haven’t used the name Rumble in the Jungle in regards to my mystical experience in a very long time). Yes, the Woman whispers to me – Christina? Yes, Christina, but Asia too. KRYSXTRYN + Asia Rhizome. Asia whispers to me quiet word, from the warm of the word and the stillness of the word to Elijah (And went a day’s journey into the desert, until he came to a broom tree and sat beneath it. He prayed for death: This is enough O YHVH; take my life for I am no better than my fathers. He lay down and fell asleep under the broom tree, and then an angel touched him and ordered to get up and eat… And after the fires, a sound of sheer silence. When Elijah heard it, he wrapped his face in his mantle and went out and stood at the entrance of the cave. Then there came a voice to him that said, What are you doing here, Elijah?)
The girl who whispers to me and acts as my advocate – the girl with the pink flannel nightgown and slippers…
Christina whispers to the pink hauntologies and hermeneutics. Christina whispers to me and she displays herself in a nude quiet fire, fire in the same room at the same house.
Christina whispers to me there is the there is the shaman death and the shaman prophet.
The Woman counterpunches my spinal column, a crossbonding of Book and holy ghosts. Christina whispered pink ghosts and ghosts injected into human history and new hermeneutics.
Woman whispers St. Sophia word, the anarchic autogenes that simultaneously gives birth to the Book.
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I am so unhappy at present that in my dream I am exceeding unhappy. I do not write but Christ Christina curls I feel different shells / elephant trunks (elephant trunk electronics elephant trunk trappist/trumpet monks elephant trunk harmolodic funk elephant trunk panic attack a light in the attic)
I do not write but Book writes me. Book continually rewrites me into mixed multitudes and nude multiplicities, and the writing caresses my body always nude in the same house the same room. I do not feel like writing and I do not feel like writing, and the Book whispers to me St. Sophia pink beams (everything contaminates everything). I do not feel like writing and I do not feel like erasing, and I do not erase eating and drinking scripture. I do not erase eating and drinking texts, and texts congeal in my intestines (intestines sketch the there is and there is stone tumble textures). There is the there is turntable textures and tortoise textures stonehenge. I write Christina enters through closed doors and I do not erase the Christ but she rewrites me. Christina rewrites me and erases me (I never get tired around her).
I am so unhappy but the girl whispers in my ear quiet fires and secret fires. Fires burn bright pink quiet and keeps the sabbath.