I voice the vowel of my nude body: I vowel voices body naked
Vowel voice a more explicit body horror. Body eyes my body and my eye swims outside my skull. The eyes of the crows gaze at the imminent spectacle of torture. Taryn tongues my eye imminent torture and her saliva sinks into my skull as Christ serpent. A more explicit body horror inhabits my eye the habitat of red backgrounds. Vowels voice my blood: bloody nude body and bloody Book, and Book always inhabits my skull as red light and red dark and red background. Spectacular blood covered mirrored blood: blood mirror entirely opaque. Vowels sound my nude body increasingly opaque red and vowel permeates the background only red.
I voice the vowel of my nude body and my nakedness reveals bloody sky (blood benchpress bodies eyelet botulism incendiary eye skull fire / tricked taryn napalm untroubled taryn napalm)
I voice the vowels of my nude body and my nakedness reveals bloody sky (sky streaks spices / I speak salt metastar solid sky stutters sky score malformation shuttle motions sky)
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Skies sound vowels vowel body horror skies
Vowel vibe vine come vibe
Vowel choice choice voice hers and the banshees. Boat boost is a beautiful one three through technically.
Coral vowel and body horror movie in my head skull wreckage appendages. Appendages vowel ruptures appendix prefix and the banshees is unique connection. Unique connects between Asia and Ben unconditionally.
Cork wine cock work bordello brothel for new earth of the lid Sonny Rollins
Swam voice song with you through many affairs and the banshees suicide and failed to you want to express that interior
Inner design design design for me is expressed authentically through how much free will exists because
Cowl with vibe cover cove coral. Call crow f rs o cross SI and ammunition jazz Dizzy Gillespie
Call vowel when ama get home is a word word. Call world unconditional banshees.
Skies sound vowels vowel banshee she skies sound vowels Skies banshee suicides body horror
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I voice the vowel of my nude body found
I found my old journaling Bible, says Asia, the one with really big margins. I’m thinking about defacing it. Taking art out of the pages. Bitches on Pinterest do that shit all the time. It could be therapeutic. That might be fun, I say. I mean, in my own writing, I interact with the Bible in a weird destructive way, I say. It might help me tackle my weirdness about the Bible, says Asia. Be careful though – you don’t know want to amplify the trauma. I’ll take it slowly and focus on what I think is true about god, she says. Maybe even use my tarot cards. You should, I say. Tarot cards are holy. Thinking about making a sigil for “Do not harm, but take no shit,” says Asia. I’m stuck on the imagery though. What method will you use to make the sigil? I say. The one I used before, says Asia. I don’t really like the whole “Write it out, cross out the vowels and repeated letters and mash them together” method. I would do that just to get a shape to work with then go more with the feeling. That’s how I made this, says Asia.
I vowel voices body naked (nude bodies voice voice many-voiced visions) I vowel voices voice verses – body verses – body horror voices – my eye displaced by Taryn’s tongue and she licks blood I vowel skull bowl body horror bowel (take it taking Bible, the feeling that’s how I made the Bible The Bible be careful the Bible Be careful the imagery vowels and repeated letters and repeated letters and focus)
Vowels illuminate the face of void vowels slow between two faces bonfire
Vowels illuminate the face of the void (Beauty Parade the worldliest’s girls whirl of girls broadway Hollywood’s niteclubs) Vowels slow between two faces bonfire (how much snake can one woman take… Every new embrace brought her strange new delights Black Cobra)
I voice the vowel of my nude body and my body views visions body horror. My eyes gore excess gore and my eyes gore explicit gore and the gore gives god body horror. My eye as glyph cuts vowels or sigils and my sigils scripture my body horror holy scriptures. My eye kites out and erases its own eye. My eye crosses out the vowel and my eye splinters sharp sparks. My body always experiences the only body horror. I make the horror of my body in the scriptures / holy tarot.
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I rarely do tarot anymore and I feel inept at interpreting it but Asia continues to do so. It feels apropos to pull some cards though. I use Robert M place’s Alchemical Tarot fifth edition, and I ask the deck to tell me about the Book and the future direction of the Book.
Three of Staffs. The boat-guided by its eyes – a new wave, reinforcement, replenishment.
Eight of Vessels. The glyph of the potter’s wheel is another for the Anima Mundi, being in the present moment.
Four of Swords. Sits below the swords of troubled thoughts, immediate concentration, thought.
All these cards speak and resonate with my vision of the Book and Book’s visionary Ben Adam. Book troubles my human and its swords stab body horror, and I rearrange my guts into scripture and sigils.
The Boat superimposes itself on the Book, and their eyes double breaker waves. My eye doubles new wave gore and sigils (Focus on what I think is true about take it out, cross out defacing the Bible, the trauma).
Book works the Wheel of the World, and Word world animates Christina holy ghosts.
I mediate on the body horror of the Book and let the new wave and variation trouble me completely. I interpret my body horror anew.
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I voice the vowel of my nude body and vowels illuminate body horror void Eyes glyph graph gore / eye splinter Sophia sparks zombi wood woman Zombi wood tomb woman additive gore and additive guts (Body blast ink other Blast Body blast ink oak sweats body)
Tag: tarot
The Tower And The Star
Real ghost activity Spirit stirring actual actual khora Actual khora my body concave then convex khora My body concave then convex shapeless khora my flesh incomplete then kisses khora Kissed khora the tannin sprawling in the midst of the channels, my nile I wake it mine I mine my making nile Khora kisser Taryn Tannin crouches in the midst of her floods: the flood my own I have made it for myself myself
Ardent orange ghost activity Spirit stirring startle hurdle hell Stirring spirit strange particle hunger hell I hunger hell asymmetrical ghost activity acid bath Activity acid bath backwards whorl water washes
Activities Holy Spirits and Holy Ghosts Activity holy spirits serpents spiders speeds spirals anarchic antinomian spirits / activities assemblages Activities accidentals Assemblages: an abstract appendage attached an aircraft appendix Activities adjacent bar tell-tale heart turbines A sometimes surreal activity and an often absurd activity My activities in writings become rituals My activities writing stir spirit alchemy: my alchemy approximates alchemy My alchemy approaches alchemy fire amplifier Campfire amplifier khora Compact campfire khora Khora kitchen klaptrap untracked katzenjammer jazz (his huge teeth will dissuade you from roll attacks!)
Master quickly changing musical styles Act cartoon khora real ghost activity Internet chat rooms more room underground Act absurd panic attack atomism (new safe activity play gun ready for Christmas NEW Buck Rodgers no. 4-258 atomic pistol holster set… Absolutely harmless, thrilling fun… Buck Rogers picture adventure book with every set!) Asia rains atomic fallout rain-chant radiation / her rivers Her rivers sound only then khora / sound poetry Khora klang kudzu klang krystal Khora klang slow calm: chromatic chloe and chromatic camille KING FELIX
Conversations With Asia Of The Atom 05/18/2020 7:12 AM
I’ve been thinking of putting a tarot tattoo right above my Romans 8:18 tattoo, says Asia. A combination of the tower and the star. “Our current suffering cannot compare to the glory that will be revealed to us”. It would be a nice way to tie my old lifestyle into my new one, she says. [… after some further conversation… ] I feel the need to push my writing into even the more esoteric, the gnostic, the spiritual, I say. It is scary. Give it a try and see what happens, she says.
Asia has not yet gotten this tattoo but I have simultaneously deepened and abandoned my exploration of the occult-esoteric-gnostic-spirit No, not an abandonment, but a shift – shifted light and shorter light shatter anarchic – shift swift transformations Not abandonment but I write the sign saturated with my blood Write sign saturated bone signatures trace bits bone Bone big beat and bone campfire fat bottomed girls girl gospels girl signs gospel
The Tower and the Star
The Tower and the Star quickly changing musical styles
The Tower and the Star action of cartoon cartoon line of action
The Tower and the Star they eat and they are eaten CANNIBAL HOLOCAUST
The Tower and the Star Asia rain-chant coyote song sol
The Tower and the Star chasm chiasm chrism chaism chasm Steve Reich composes arch structures, the line lin keystone
I tower turtle time I tower time slow write ritual I tower time torso try: the strategy to draw up a scheme, follow it through, and then look at the results
I tower spirits anarchic antinomian spirits I tower star spirits animist annunciation spirits Speed and speed star towers (immediate immanence) (immediate immanence incarnation stations: stations cross crucifixions Christina) I tower IMMEDIATE I tower IMMEDIATE action of the cartoon immediate Immediate tower action of cartoon immediate energy hermeticism My hermetic eye open explicit Eye energetic hermetic hectic heretic hatchlings haxan hatchlings hex happen hole Eye hole oil veil one form and vary in the other Eye eyelet let tower bloody star Bloody star blood eye (although absolutely distinct, the two objects globular and white)
Tower and star immediate eye Immediate eye energy hermetic eye / there eye go with the ships and leviathan formed to sport Eye sport quickly changing leviathan stock photos (You, I suppose, dream photographs?) (I dream photographs flesh star and tower)
Tower and Star repeats leviathan rhizome residues Tower and Star repeats leviathan residual rhizome homeless hell Immediate immanent hermetic hermeneutics / hermeneutic hermetic hexes the marriage of heaven and hell Hermetic hell eye haste hades eye large hadron collider
Cambrian Explosion Holy Ghost Towers cambrian explosion holy ghost stars (Evil… Beautiful… Deadly… In their eyes desire in their veins the blood of monsters! INVASION OF THE STAR CREATURES)
Star creatures stations of the cross
Tower and star creatures crash deep calls to deep at the thunder of your cataracts / at the tower of your torrents
Cambrian Explosion Holy Ghost hallucigenia oxygen catastrophe holy spirit Geologies holy ghosts ribbon rhizome holy holies multiplicities: eons myths multiplicities Myths multiplicities many holies metals plastics plastics crystals keep khora
I write myth and I trace transition I trace transition transformation and traverse traditions I transverse traditions tower and star, and this transition troubles me This transition tessellates catastrophic towers utopian turtletop / as when a dream of Thiralatha flies the midnight hour Still I work through this new-old language and old-new language: languages mythologies theologies as geologies I have oscillating self-esteem: extremes in exaggerated ego or abyssal self-hatred I write through the oscillation and through the polarities and I try to accept my mess and ugly and compulsive contradictions (I immediately think of what Ludwig Wittgenstein said: There is not a single philosophical method, though there are indeed methods, different therapies, as it were) Quickly changing musical styles and writing styles, and the styles explore different therapies different meditations / contemplation different healings The mess / ugly proves itself as another healing path Even the boring and uninteresting and cringe heals
Hell heals my eye hermetic hermeneutics histrionics My eye haze thatch fog honing stone Stone eye stall Stone eye stall new story different stations of the ocular metaphor
The action of the cartoon technically demanding complicated arrangements Cartoon blood money money violence moloch Moloch monster star and tower
I’m Not Really Progressing Right Now
Content Warning: discussion of emotional abuse and manipulation
Conversations with Asia Rain 05/05/2023 3:43 AM
I should make a social media account for Tarot memes, says Asia. I would like to get as many people into Tarot as possible. Admirable goal. All things considered, it’s a pretty cheap hobby, she says. With drawing or painting, you need sketchbooks, canons, paints, colored pencils, markers, you name it. And you are probably going to have to buy more. But Tarot you need a deck you like and they average around 25 dollars, says Asia. I used to have a Leonard da Vinci deck when I was younger, I say. I wish I still had it. There is an impressionist deck I’m interested in, she says, and if I were to get an erotic deck, I would get the Casanova deck but I don’t think I will. An erotic deck probably wouldn't fit for what I use tarot for. I might pick up an erotic deck someday since I have an interest in eros, I say. I was having a conversation with Krystal last night and I asked her, how would you describe the way I write you? She said, slutty and seductive. I felt kind of bad about her answer but she reassured me a bit. She’s OK with slutty? Says Asia. I always knew I wrote Taryn as a kind of Babylon Scarlet Woman type character, with her full approval, but I didn’t realize I wrote Krystal with that kind of sensuality. I’m going to talk in depth to see how she would like me to write her, and what changes to make, if any. I should assign each character a tarot card, I say. That would be helpful, says Asia. It would help create their archetypes. In accordance to the Sefirot, Krystal is Keter, Christina is Binah and Tiferet, and Taryn is Malchut, I say. Dion Fortune wrote a book on it and she assigns tarot cards to each one. I should use her schema to match up her archetypes, I say. I’m very tempted to use tarot archetypes for my witch story if I write it, says Asia. It’s going to have religious themes also and I’m scared of being too on the nose about it. It’s going to be a theocracy and there is a witch hunting starting. Women are primarily affected. I was thinking of having the main character's best friend be like a nun: she works in the church and is a “bride” of their god so is celibate but she is being molested by the priest. She starts to resist him and he frames her for witchcraft, says Asia.
Past Benjamin makes cringe / Present Benjamin makes cringe (The word CRINGE someday will evoke CRINGE and embarrassment) I make embarrassing shit now and I will make embarrassing shit in the future: I will always make embarrassing shit but still MAKE Make even if it’s cements bullshit bedrock – making heals and making reveals holy
I read Mystical Qabalah by Dion Fortune and remember nothing I remember nothing of my Aleister Crowley studies, much less anything about Babalon and the Scarlet Woman Past Ben works with one-to-one mappings and correspondences seems strange seaweed silted over simplification and I never want to work with only one-to-one mappings unless I’m dealing with mathematical functions I work more black box, more mystery, more flexibility, more rhizome I continually embarrass myself with my lack of knowledge, but I let me embarrass myself better and better
Not (only) archetype but assemblage Acousmastic assemblages / assemblages electroacoustic improvisations Ambient assemblages abstract expressionism the color field colostomy bags
Alien aardvarks ATLien aardvarks alices adventures in wonderland / I assemble absurd oil buoyant nonsense Moonshine nonsense Moonshine mustard seed (if you had faith like a mustard seed, you could say to this mulberry tree, be uprooted and planted in the sea, and it would obey with you) I uproot bodies uncertain undulations and I plant play play sea Psalm sea underwater palm tree garden Psalm saw see underwater palm tree garden impressions Godflesh impressions imprints interior skull surfaces brain cavity / brain candy brain candied clayton kershaw fastball
I’m actually not progressing right now just sitting and listening / listen little lightning letters Letters lewds light light nude lattice letters light liquid Light liquid loquacious nonlinear lens refracted liquids (a life form is growing out of prebiotic fluids. It’s not winding down into disorder, it’s self-organizing. It’s becoming something. What? An Animal? A disease? What?) Liquid lucifer languages dawn hone haruspex / an entire inspection between bodies Bodice book buffers naked Book in the buff Book buffing wheel skin scatter the glass octopus found 3300 feet deep in the twilight zone primarily feeding on crustaceans
FUCK / I’m not really progressing right now
Write rapid rhizomes variously formed matters different dates and speeds Write rapid eye movement rhizomes lines of articulation lines segementarity Strata cow stomach territories toffee towers Lines lights labs loom jazz left lattices Lines sinews sticker stretcher stomach deterritorialization / destratification soda glass book of sand
FUCK / to help me move out of what I’ve been doing the last two or three years You can get stagnant you know
Written ruptures accelerations attack cat khora comic book
WRITTEN you are the one who writes and the one who is written Threshold of the Book tissues tendons hat hued electronics chasm Chasm coiled cobra stations of the cross I keep the cross dissolved into unidentifiable organic liquids Unidentifiable ogre animal gut circles
Book bent breath animal then human blood I borrow blood from the corpse crayon cross out the eyes / empty eye stations of the cross Empty eye erotic echo
I multiply hypomanic hyperousias heterotopias / her heterotopia hinges heavy metal hymen Her heterotopia hinges ship hull hymns and hymns hue new hymnen / nodes neat to the threshold Threshold terras Taryn passenger pigeons and passerines play multiple versions of poker I play no-limit variants and the limit looks lighthouse (in my skull, the laboratory and lighthouse intersect at the overreach)
I kill khombu icefall
I lost a friend last year during a mental health crisis and I stayed for a couple days in the Crisis Intervention Unit She said I tried to manipulate her and was being toxic, something like that I did not try to manipulate her but I ponder if I did so unconsciously I never talked to her again but sometimes I think of her and hope for reconciliation (I hope to reconcile with everyone) Today I saw her post in my Instagram feed – she doesn’t post very often – and I realize I lost the feeling for reconciling her I don't know her anymore – I don’t know this person I finally unfollowed her I forget names easily but human hauntologies I easily
Hey, I am going to send you a large paragraph from the Book, I say to Asia (I send Asia a section from a blog post I uploaded 06/14/2023, concerning my literary relationships with David Foster Wallace and Philip K. Dick and my fears of also being an abusive person) What do you think of this? Do you feel I have emotionally abused you? Certainly I have manipulated you at times. You have before, says Asia. I see… I’m sorry I emotionally abused you. I don’t know what else to say about it. I have no excuse for it. I did terribly to you… Would you be able to tell me how I emotionally abused you, so I can learn and recognize my actions and behaviors and change it? If you don’t want to, that’s OK. I don’t want to add additional trauma by reviving it unnecessarily. The most recent example would be trying to force me to end the friendship, says Asia, and ten running to the support channel of the discord server we share together to say “I ruined a friendship and I don’t think my friend will forgive me” before I even got the chance to say anything, says Asia. Is there a difference between manipulation and emotional abuse or do they overlap? I ask. I don’t think all manipulative behavior is emotional abuse but I do think more times than not, emotional abuse involves manipulation. Because abuse is about control, says Asia.
I kill khombu icefall and ice freezes
My brain folds idiot imbecile My brain folds icicles forbidden fire My brain folds meteoric iron uneasy ice fractures flesh fall waterfall women and mermaids mast my brain medium weight metals Nick Cave sings I believe in God I believe in mermaids too / mermaids mists mechanical brain cells cellular rhythm development desert monastery Mermaid mists music scattered clouds of notes in the stochastic sections and perhaps in the rolling waves of ascending scales / fish scales Ghostface Killah’s Fishscale my brain cured in uncut cocaine
Her inkstone icefall descends the fall, and her god glaciers slowly twist and crush by the churning pressure of glacial flow, generating increasingly torturous crevasse fields in the middle of the fall, and a chaotic maze of smaller blocks towards the bottom of the fall
Ice freezes my brain folds idiot imbecile iconography and brain slides idiosyncratic syncretic gears Idiosyncratic synchronicity gears bolts sockets strange titanium in my skeleton Nonmagnetic metals of unknown provenance stud my skeleton
Entre Ecstatic Kabbalah / Entangled Ecstatic Creativity
(Entre Ecstatic Kabbalah)
Know that the complete secret of prophecy to a prophet consists in that he suddenly sees the form of his self standing before him, and he forgets his own self and ignores it… and that form speaks with him and tells him the future
Sometimes my prophetic doubles appears as Abraham Abulafia and sometimes Abraham Miguel Cardoso Most often my prophetic double appears to me as a woman: four creatures chariot Krystal-Christina-Taryn-Asia, and my wheels move Their wheels and their wheels move my wheels She appears to me as the Child of Humanity She appears to me as as the Child of Humanity simultaneously appears to John, brother of James (these the sons of Zebedee) (I saw a child standing by me When I saw him, he became like an old person and he shifted his semblance becoming like a serpent These semblances before me were not multiple beings but having the form of a single likeness having many forms in the light And the semblance appeared through each other and the semblance had four forms)
The secret of prophecy: my prophetic double dips and overlaps oceanic desert Child of Humanity and KRYSXTRYN The Christ Child and Greater Sophia First Adam Kadmon and second Adam Kadmon: androgynous women then both intersex
My human horror traces haste horos her waist and waste waste land lights and letters
My horror human traces triads then triads extended by chromaticism chromatic chariot Christina stations of the cross Christina chromatic The Yahweh hermeneutic entangles prophecy
My body prophetic proffers horror My body propofol prophesies polycarbonate pharmacopoeia and my mind mutates into a mushroom cloud cloud of knowing the sacred mushroom and the cross
(Abraham Abulafia’s “Light of the Intellect” 1285, Vat. Ebr. 597 leaf 113 recto. Unknown artist; the author of the book is Abulafia)
Nathan of Gaza’s Kabbalistic theology became increasingly creative and complex as he struggled to hold the movement together
When Yahweh abandons or hells, I wrestle creation
When Yahweh abandons or hells heartline roll katabasis, I wrestle creation I wrestle creation city leviathan I struggle spindle holy spirit circular ruins leviathan (I will take my flesh in my teeth and put my life in my hand my hand hisses hundred hands lovecraft country)
Yahweh abandons Yahweh stations of the cross cosmic horror catastrophe (See he will kill me I have no hope though he kill me yet I trust in him) (The traditional translation of the verse – see the textual note b – is based on an alternative reading of the Hebrew)
I prophesy with without Yahweh I prophesy with without Yahweh but Woman I prophesy Woman Child of Humanity / Christina my double KRYSXTRYN my double KRYSXTRYN + Asia Rain doubles
I develop a complex cosmology, the cosmos as drama and desiring-machines
Cosmos human cobra compass roses rhizomes a book between book and a book beyond book Cosmos human cobra cobweb kenosis cain catastrophe (catastrophe scaffolds my creativity Mark of Cain cathedrals my creative black mass then white mass color / insect sonatas Insect sonatas and insect assassins)
Develop desert waters ocean only ouroboros Desert larger lake leviathan / leviathan lagoon Leviathan lagoon loch ness permutation of the waves Develop desert permutation of the letters then than through permutations of the names Names illuminate nonsense nonsense Tetragrammaton Taryn Names luminous gnarl gnosis / absurd apocalypse Qohelet revelation abel hevel mere breath Gnosis nutshell notations encourage nonsense but my holy spirit rewrites the husk My holy ghost goblin body rewrites husk marriage of heaven and hell
I see my prophetic form selves
My prophetic self form selves (deals out that being indoors each one dwells selves – goes itself; myself it speaks and spells)
My prophetic form enfleshes theopoetics: Taryn THEOPOETIC Tetragrammaton glamour GRAMMAR My prophet poet pursues free jazz play psalm pursuance Psalm monastic cells and I pray the cell as psalms palm tree garden I tend my garden her Child of Human
Prophet sprung rhythm rhizome bebop (play through a blues and after each small phrase you improvise, insert an eighth or quarter note rest before the next phrase) Rhizome rhythm off-accent ouroboros / book bonfire leviathan
Prophet sprung rhythm rift rhizome larger interruption Large ruptures structureless (Play through a blues and after each larger phrase you improvise, rest for at least a measure Pay attention to the difference using tiny bits of rest versus larger blocks)
I do not resist larger rest but let Sabbath serve the lights (secret servant human child Apocryphon Woman no hesitation hue human) Rest ruptures I write then overwritten / overwritten husk helios leviathan I prophesy Sabbath writing I prophesy Sabbath writing Saturn writing Sun Ra writes ram rhizome my bodies
Desert resistance / ohm ouroboros Ocean circuits / an interconnection of electrical components (assorted batteries, resistors, inductors, capacitors, switches, transistors) or of such an interconnection, consisting of electrical elements (voltage sources, current sources, resistances, inductances, capacitances)
Uncertain circuit desert / flows voltages Fleshes enfleshed fleshes
And concerning this our sages said: great is the power of the prophets, who make the form to resemble its former Former flesh famous flesh Former flesh flesh fountains filaments flow fires phantom electrics From furniture music medicine woman Medicine woman and desiring-machine woman women (production immediately consumes stations of the cross Production immediately consumes cross across a recording process without any mediation and the meditative-without-mediation machines magick her maidens Her maidens medicine messiah, Sabbatai Sevi and Jesus of Nazareth the same hell scaffolding)
Production immediately gospel of mark holy spirit drives dross drop desert and a recording process without any mediation / without mediation her maidens Without mediation her black madonna honda civic
What production – prophecy What production – pray surplus prayers points penetrate the plane
What production – I prophesy nonsense the chaotic name Chaotic name permutes erotic desert dynamic systems system salsa holy spirits
What whirlpool productions (I dislike the word productions I don’t think I can make it into poetry I cannot transform it in theopoetics) (Not all requires a poetry, even if one can make it poetry I overly obsess beauty)
UFO productions repetitions
UFO productions rhizomes river bandits river bandits Locke with Returners
UFO often ouroboros afrofuture p-funk / Sun Ra Saturn sunrises
I do not abandon these productions (I always-already immediately record productions and process productions peel-ply prayer Producing prayers early steam pistons pole position melted plasma production Flying microtonal banana plasma)
Always-already this language – a language and any language – produces
I create cosmologies soda jerk cosmos gelatins Create serpent cosmologies tehom Taryn / Charlie Parker’s ornithology
Always other language leviathan ouroboros languages Ouroboros hobo languages trick track terror train Maudlin of the well midnight meat train (meatball mothballs)
(Entangled Ecstatic Creativity)
Conversations With Asia Rain 05/01/2020 6:30 AM
I’m trying to think of a new direction for my writing, I say. Looking for inspiration. I’ve heard of people using tarot cards to help when they get stuck in their writing, says Asia. I have an idea, I say. Would like to do a tarot reading of my Book
for me and I include the reading in my Book? What kind of reading? Like a reading concerning the meaning of the Book or perhaps a ready concerning my writing direction. I could do a five card spread, says Asia. (She draws the cards and performs the reading). Where you’re at right now, eight of cups, a withdrawal from the current situation, decline of a matter that is a little consequence… Are you on the right path? You got Knight of Pentacles – a responsible, patient, hard-working man, useful and willing to serve. Obstacle, the star. The star represents inspiration, movement, good health, and transcendent way of life. What is guiding you or helping you? Queen of Pentacles. She is devoted wife, generous and perceptive, magnificence, opulence, and security. Way forward? Eight of swords. Inability to remove yourself from a different situation, conflict, crisis, slander. So I think you’re on the right path. Your problem is a lack of inspiration. Something feminine is guiding you, and you need to overcome your current situation or inflict. Because of the Knight, I think that it’s going to take patience and resilience. A certain steadfastness. Maybe things won’t look like they’re changing but they are, says Asia.
I still feel stagnation although my writing changes, meanders, and eventually erodes my previous limitations and constraints (I do not change the writing but the writing changes me Writing changes me infinitesimal intervals / car wash convolutions) A pattern: I always feel I don’t experiment enough, transform enough, engage in that inspired creation (whatever true inspired creation means) A pattern: I continue writing (From Microphones in 2020: The true state of all things: I keep on not dying, the sun keeps on rising…) (I add to this: I keep on writing) (I write to survive) (I write survival of the fittest holy spirit famines)
The difference between stagnation and exploration: frame of reference
(The laws of physics are invariant – identical – in all inertial frames of reference – that is, frames of reference with no acceleration) (The speed of lights in vacuum is the same for all observers, regardless the motion of light source or observer)
I do not know the opposite of stagnation (Exploration? Creativity? Avant-garde adventure apartment army ants?) (I revisit Dan Warburton’s interview with Radu Malfatti – I will copy large chunks of it)
(For us it was really necessary to do what we did: we’d just had enough of jazz and free jazz, and we were eager to do something new, not knowing what the outcome would be – maybe not even thinking about it. We only knew we didn’t want to do anymore. Then, gradually it become more and more a status quo: improvisers had to act and react In a precise way in order to be accepted by improvisers. “Rules” emerged and certain ways of playing were “forbidden” and became unacceptable – stagnation took place and a pure idiomatic way of playing was born!)
This Radu Malfatti interview fascinates me, resonates with me, and inspires me because although I often disagree with certain interpretations of his artistic program (it baffles me how he considers late Ligeti regressive), I do share a desire to not stagnate, to keep exploring, to remain avant-garde (whatever that means), but I keep tracing and rewriting the stagnation
I ask myself the following questions: what makes the artistic new better than the artistic old? (Ezra Pound’s rallying cry: MAKE IT NEW – but why? The futurist new lead to various fascisms – instead I prophesy new resistant to fascism and a prophetic new that names flat gnosis and antinomian anarchic – may I continue shaping and disintegrating my own languages towards the radical anarchic and radically open apophatic) (The Paradox of the Apophatic: the non-language produces so many new languages embedded in non-language)
What makes the idiomatic wrong? The consistent wrong? The predictable wrong? Benjamin the Stuckist – my return to Philip Guston figurative painting and the medium of the paint canvas
The conclusion: My drive towards non-stagnation, exploration, experimentation, and the avant-garde staves off my boredom I get bored so I try differences detunings deserts, the drawing desert divine woman woman waitress fifties diner (I’m in Boston town in some restaurant I got no idea what I want Or maybe I do but I’m really not sure Waitress comes over Nobody in the place but me and her)
Boredom Underbelly boredom bashes my brain MORE CREATIVITY More Umjammer Lammy Milk Carton
(Entre Ecstatic Kabbalah / Entangled Ecstatic Creativity)
My prophetic self selves exploration Selves new activity anarchic creativity My prophetic self doubles free improvisation entwined new improvisation: improvised gods Improvised gods creative ground my prophetic self selves new exploration
Taryn Blonde Triforce Tarot
Sword oil slick strikes rainbows Sword oil slick ouroboros straddles rainbows master sword Swords as swords swim synchronicity / star summer swords Star summer of sam swords structures and sutures Swords as swords stand swords temple shards soul shores Shore soul sword steel sticks stapling my stomach Soul sword whiskey shots and the basilisk lakes other leviathan Basilisk obelisk benjamin lakes lagoon other leviathan Youth lagoon leviathan sword lives lady of lakes and lady of swords Lady of swords plays her lute cloud of unknowing leviathan Sword seesaw Legend of Zelda / Triforce Taryn towers Triforce Taryn towers tunnels sword striking waters (the colors of the Triforce triangles represent the Golden Goddesses named Pin, Nayru, and Farore who in Zelda lore create Hyrule) Sword seesaws sight no sight slices Friday the 13th teenage massacres / night at camp blood malaria Malaria machete therapy torpedo hermeneutics Sword no sight but blind horror Blind cosmos benjamin breath books basilisk and this breath branches books serpents Branches books serpents stings I sting bee scorpion wasp woman / her sword honey Her sword honey and honey sword drips desert icicles / boot blizzard blight Desert dream book blizzard blight light lights light bright dreaming Blood and black lace pseudepigrapha Blood and black lace pseudepigrapha and apocalypse several approximations six women for the murderer Taylor approximations and Taylor approximations six sex star swords / stellar transformations tin strike steel galaxy transformations Blood black bodice black hole black hair harrowing of hell Cement glass rubber gaskets blackened lace bloody leviathans / serpent sequence Serpent sequence sequenza transformations (The first dream of the high-tension line stepdown transformer repeats stepped steppe the second dream of the high-tension line stepdown transformer) (Transformer repeats: transformer rhizomes books assemblage X book assemblage) Cement glass red ripples hard rubber / rubber bullets bloody gods bloody war gods and war criminals stomach stippling stations of the cross Stations of the cross current katabasis winds two turntables Turntables tune two progressive tonality and I mimic Mahler many symphonies three-hole punched and stacked sternum to sternum My sternum stirs the sword my chest a bloody soup / tree stump human meat and potatoes Human camp meet texas chain saw massacre 2 meat and potatoes Cement glass casket laboratory corridors No wall windows masking tape train tapestry Train night train einstein on the beach elizabeth bathory bather of young girls I play isolate defense cement glass breakbeats and sometimes blastbeasts / death metal mercury I extend the Book as blast beat and amen break of the record by using two turntables (turntable Taryn topos turntable Taryn TOGO / the horrendous layout of the roller coaster formerly known as the Big Apple Coaster Turntable Taryn harlequins / I can see it in front of me – a rocky shore with a small restaurant on it, and the timber house where I wrote most of the HARLEKIN – I see the oil that was poured on the floor to fight those horrid cockroaches) I pour oil on the floor cockroach rainbows I pour oil on the floor madagascar hissing cockroach rainbow raindrops asia rain I pour oil over ardor oros, and her rainbows swarm surround nonlinear optics ouroboros Oil as odd object pours then breaks steel burr olives (She anoints my head with oil; my cup overflows) She anoints my head with oil black body radiation and black body planetary ring births (a perfumed ointment made from olive oil, used especially at banquets) Oil ovulates orange roughies / rudder rapscallion winnebago embargo solar barge buffoons Oil ovulates orange often obstreperous / intense orange overtones Intense increase orange overtones tonality flux luscious flesh Flux luscious flow burst shell body horror body horror and body horrors a devouring levitation (her snake snooker hookers swallows ships strip swallows my semen) Oil overpours orange a woman in trouble and she surrounds the precious stone encircles snakes Her snakes surround precious stone staggered swords I select six swords sex the loving breeze breath serpent, and the ships and swords summit sunset boulevard Boulevard beast from the earth beast from the sea I extend the beat of the record rhizome-within-repetition and repetition-difference-deconstruction I ladder loop leviathan brighter blood light and her blood overflows cup crushed cochineal oil / red rapture and red rupture Red neptune and bridal chamber nuptials I extend the extension endless reds and oranges / canyon colossus landscape Canyon colossus dreamings and I dream drink drowning oil (knife owl like a knife just sharp Parrot Owl with red skin Skull owl nothing but a skull) I extend beats boats human bellies / pus maker bile maker bone staff skull staff flying noose blood chief filth maker wound maker I extend beats boats human belies incised conjoined twins tower teratomas Conjoined twins tower teeth Tower teeth sword assorted human bodies pushed cubes squares squadrons / stations of the cross Stations of the Cross body horror and cosmic horror I extend the horror expert turntablism / record skips VHS distortions magnetic tape eater earth Earth eats impossible erotic extended excess / erratic endless poetry Conversations With Asia rain 05/01/2020 4:17 AM I just pulled the tone of the day card and a gratitude card, says Asia Rain. Fro the tone of the day I got Six of Pentacles, which is about giving, generosity, and wealth – it’s about giving and receiving. For gratitude I got Two of Rods, which is about having the world in your hands as far as abundance, happiness, and spirituality, but not really having full access to it or not seeing it because you still have some kind of sadness. Do you see how those apply to your life today? I say. For the Two of Rods as a gratitude card, I’m seeing that as the sadness leaving me, says Asia. I am entering a period of abundance because of it. I have been spiritually barren for a long time new and I feel like I am slowly turning the corner. I feel like I’m coming to myself in a new way, that I’m giving myself permission to be myself, and I’m no longer letting others define that for me. I am stepping into confidence that I have lacked for a long time, she says. Theme TRANSFORMATION TRANSFORMATION monothematic and developing variations TRANSFORMATION monomania / ouroboros obsession obstruction titan boa taryn constrictor Taryn Transformations Tehom Taryn Transformations Tohu Wa-Bohu / Morro Bay Bethlehem Morro Bay slouching towards Bethlehem HER waiting for her birth She births Her completely Her uneven intervals and uncommon intervals chord cluster wound abyss Chord cluster sound mass womb wound abyss abyss births her moon massive mirrors Transformation memorizes times tables table legs Taryn’s bare legs large sargasso sea Chrono Cross dead sea seal of solomon and I seer seen salt salt stars I seer salt circles stretched beats Taryn as black bear Taryn as brown bear Taryn as grizzly bear Taryn grizzly bear blonde in slasher films Transformation then Transformation Taryn two turntables shakespeare’s tibia and fibula flatter floods (I obsess myself with folds and knots and I study intense folds floor flesh flash) (I fold the knot; I do not cut the knot) Transformation then thinner titanium Transformation and Taryn caves cold cavern black canvas limestone Taryn carves cold cave cod / flat fish son of man karst waters Karst Khora waters she wades my birth waters she wades my afterbirth aftermath apocalypse Transformer then thinner titanium sinners titanium Taryn karst topography A topos topper Taryn thistles A topos tear transformer Taryn Khora / quartz chemistry Khora quartz chemistries comb Krystal / kenosis catastrophes (I rest transformation I attempt to reset transformers) I reset transformers the dissolution of soluble carbonate rocks and I do not resist transformation I do not resist but transfer limestone, dolomite, and gypsum Transfer torrent Taryn total watch Cement glass glas glowworm wash Cement glass glas glowworm wash beach waves (I waver in this writing I do not resist but I waver worse but I work I work chariot work and Asia walks death me) Cement glass glas government and binding blunt bondage Blunt bondage bid blues / blues clues teenage mutant ninja turtles (I work reckless unleveled language / erratic rotoscope animation but Asia walks death with me) My body folds floodlight leviathan My body knots leviathan the twisting serpent and leviathan the torturous serpent Body blunderbuss black powder painting pease porridge hot pigments Body pepperbox revolves torture garden geyser / pornography no buffer (there, by the scheming miles of a blonde, was I – trapped in an explosive murderous triangle BLONDE BAIT) My body bare blonde Taryn My blonde body stripped bare by my bachelors even / Taryn monsoon water-soluble salt bodies Body natural body Body erotic body Body pornographic body blonde carbon anvils Taryn streaks strange blonde blonde her blonder transform, me blonder her bluer blowtorch transforms me Taryn blonde torture blowtorch and pliers Blood and black lace Taryn a blonder lighthouse illuminating garden basement bodies A blonder lighthouse illuminates basketweaver bodies: loom blonde blonder moon Loom blonde blonde moon bombs: bomb-omb blonde blonder bunker busters Blood and black lace cherry lozenges Blood and black lace assassin bug alabaster (alabaster bastards and alabaster bastard swords) My sword slips strang string slipstream split skeletons
Elijah, The Man of Spirit Madness, Part 2
Surreal serpent horror I hell in coward I coward pythagorean comma coma syntonic comma cower I copy a cowardly batman with my cowl Cowl coil scardey-cat scratches scripture simmers I simmer scripture primordial soup soup silhouettes shadow puppets Shadow puppet prophets play personal ambiguity / apophatic anarchy The mystical idiot Jacob Frank a parodic prophet playing grotesque parables and gestures and his vulgarity vines Vision The mystical idiot Jacob Frank bumbling through one adventure to another and I archer her adventure parody and anarchic heresy (It is clear that the world is purely parodic, that each thing seen is the parody of another, or is the same thing in a deceptive form) I am my own mirror prophet I am my own anti prophet I am my own false prophet Christ and AntiChrist harrowing hell Hell skull heresy hedged hollows / my skull holes hasten toward hornets honey bee battleships hazy hell hyperinflation Hell haze holes cosmic inflation / inflated eyeball indigo ink My eyes explode globe gatling guts Hell parody telephoto lens iridium iris solar corona cornea Hell hungry habitat (Beware of the hunchback: a freak of nature whose crimes go beyond your wildest dreams! HUNCHBACK OF THE MORGUE) Hell hundreds then thousands hunched over books encoded with gnostic secrets / swollen salivary glands where fat gods lurk I lurk leaked light lamp lipids and Elijah embolism etches my lungs foamy red sputum and shortness of breath Short of breath I still speak bereshit I speak tire spare wheel spoke bereshit bersehit bara blood benjamin her body book open I sample books blush blood bitter / machine mara carpenter’s sawdust I steal books blender helicopter decapitation Helicopter decapitation hospice hell spices spool bodies Bodies spool spin speak Elijah, the strange color of my skull’s tears Salamander skull Saber-toothed tiger skull Sand tiger shark skull Sandpiper skull Skull Sabbatai Sevi absurd messiah and strange deeds I secret strange desert deeds Desert deeds book of sand serpent seer Shake speaker serpent seer I do not strike serpent but seduce many secrets (The archons lingered in front of what they called the tree of knowledge of good and evil, which is enlightened insight, so that Adam might not behold its fullness and recognize his shameful nakedness. But I, the Savior, was the one who induced them to eat…) Serpent slime sneaks gnostic semen seed in desert dreaming Her semen spreads holy spirit eyetalks and she gazes globe galaxies gods Serpent gramophone glossolalia Glossolalia gods apophatic anarchy What kind of artfullness would it be for God to lead the world with the wise and learned? says Jacob Frank. God intentionally wants to appear to the world among the lowliest and basest, so that his power might be shown from such a place. Pay heed and look at me, there has been no greater simpleton than me, a person who would seem completely devoid of reason. But wisdom emerges out of nothing, says Jacob Frank Prophet a fool The man of spirit mad The lowliest and basest: trash layer (A new age is opening in which the holy, expected from the top, returns to the bottom, at the trash stratum of the alley, humble and noble, beautiful and suffering, alive and conscious…) Taryn Trash Towers a new Torah contained in parody: base pulp base play base pornography Taryn Trash Towers permutations of Torah (Ten of Staffs The Phoenix A symbol of the rejuvenating power of the stone Rebirth, strengthened by ordeals, renewed strength) (The Lovers Kissing The foreplay of love The elements recombined in their Minor Conjunction Their symbols represents conjunction This is a card of sex, attraction, coming together, partnership) (Queen of Coins With a six-pointed star of harmony and well being and a cornucopia Sensuality, health, prosperity, well-being) The lovers lewd light and nude light Naked light loft lovers cedars of lebanon The lovers liquid luscious lord liquefaction loom dream sensuality A sensual holy spirit A more sensual serpent holy spirit and lovers snake silmarillion mythopoeia / Taryn Theopoetics Taryn tenner tenor saxophone serpent theopoetics Lovers lurk lewd new light lovers Lovers lilt tilt light lewd new nude light lovers Lovers lewd light cohesion figure of liquids and their gods gemini jouissance / lovers join gemini twin Taryn Cohesion coagulates cobblestone striker still lovers Lovers latter rain lovers lavage / rainwater enemas rainwater rainbow enemas Enema immersion medical procedure as lover’s prayer Gross carnival bodies and documented medical bodies Foucault’s biopower power / knowledge diverse disciples of body black iron prison Erotic and porno break black iron prison / break on through to the other side Other side other sitra achra Other side sitra achra alchemy Locust lovers luminous alchemy lighter lavender lipstick Locust lovers ladder alchemy lavender light lipstick Liminal light litters lovers others sitra achra alchemy Others omen disorder desert desert lovers Desert lovers mirror mummies Desert not leaves but sand needles Nude lovers water levers litter body lovers Water lever level Mono Lake mob murdered bodies
EXPERIMENT And PLAY Part 33
The new theme of the Book: EXPERIMENT and PLAY / the old theme of the Book: EXPERIMENT and PLAY The God plays needlenose pliers creation crunched and wirestripped The God plays pulseless electrical activity undead annihilation-renihilation rib cage rearrangements / Feynman diagram showing the mutual annihilation of a bound state electron positron pair into the photons) Play Bartok pizzicato Play holy spirit pizzicato / string percussion pertussis I whooping cough crossfire cross woman I whooping crane cantilever lipped light woman Experiment equals experience Experiment equals experience extinction event even bride stripped bare by her bachelors even Even elven thesis olive oil oasis Democritus, born above 470 BCE, wrote on irrational lines and solids Play spark plugs slugs sergeant slaughter clothesline Three famous questions of Greek Geometry: To trisect any angle using a compass and a straight edge, to construct a cube with a volume twice the volume of a given cube, to construct a square equal in area to that of a given circle, to construct a square equal in area to that of a given circle Generous geometry geomancy mullen god Grotesque gargoyle geometry jazz jacket jamba juice up off the floor you fearful jesuit I experience experiment geometry, a nonlinear play of self-intersecting solids (Pi is not a Euclidean number and therefore it is impossible to construct, by Euclidean methods, a length equal to the circumference of a circle of unit diameter…) I experience experiment irrational and transcendental / transcendent immanent death of god theology Play parallel postulate Play parallel postulate / aleatoric alphabet elements Elemental or fundamental elements Elemental or fundamental elements Fundamental theorem of algebra / root rot chronic wasting syndrome Prions sphere pack my complex analysis Play potlatch: experiment excess Experiment excess accursed share safety razor human ribbon Human balloon bodies human balloon JG Ballard bodies / high traffic and turnover tourniquet concrete Concrete complete Concrete compact complete pliable polka dots Concise concrete and compact concrete brutalist bricks I draw The Hermit The Hermit – exaltation and exultation The alchemist follows the footsteps left by the Anima Mundi The Ouroboros – the serpent of time containing the symbol of exaltation – stirs sky skies The raven rages nigredo the first black stage of the opus The Hermit mingles meditation, solitudes, and inner guidance I hermit hysteria I hermit hocket hysteria hypercomputer simulations Hermit herringbone albondigas soup last supper atrophied Christ limbs Hermit hides heart valves skating rink revolver / The Beatles’ Revolver tumult topsy turvy – tumult? Tiamat – Taryn Tiamat always Tiamat Learn to waste time Nonwrite writing write nonwriting Nonwrite writing nonlinear laminar nonlinear writes nonwriting Gin Blossoms geometry I write your name drive past your house your boyfriend’s over I watch your lights go out Alternative rock or power pop space shuttle propulsion I listen to sad song I listen something sad song something Third Eye Blind God of Wine I listen sad song I suffer sheol litters gimme danger little stranger shelter from the storm My god, my god why hast thou forsaken me? Why art thou so far from helping me, and from the words of my roaring? Psalm several psalm something of my palm palmar play stigmata Play stigmata palmar palm tree garden Psalm slices psalm stick insect inside I cease from psalms I cease from psalms summer psalter syrup syncretic Syrup syncretic salamander salt and I salt psalms creasing I salt psalms cease crease my flesh folded Finicky flesh folds creased salt psalm palm pillar Endless pillar endless column clouds in coptic language I cease psalms my god my god why have you forsaken me I cease psalms eli eli lama sabacthani / my god my god o lord, why have you abandoned me? He said these words on the cross. But not from that place. He was already gone… I never cease psalms but psalms seize me sizes lightning seizures Christianity thorough abandons any benjamin but I babel cross bloated with blood Christianity freely rises my cock, its cross bloated with blood blasphemy I jet jeter otonality and utonality bridal chamber universe I jet jewel I jet jeweler’s jubilee neonal otonal babylon taryn and she buries body earthen nonharmonics earthen nonharmony Earthen urn harmonics nag hammadi library I always innelways long forest library I always ellisways long frame library my painted flesh I paint my body blackbody radiation diameters I paint my body invisible library garden of forking paths an an paths yahweh my path yahweh my path yahweh garden of forking paths pathways god gold panning pathways, and I walk pathway Yahweh deserts The passion for the God, my God, my Yahweh The passion for the God, the passion of Christ’s passion, the stations of the cross Stations of the Cross X Stations of the Cross my passion for the passion My passion for the passion the woman wash my passion My passion eli eli lama sabacthani and Yahweh abandons me as he abandons Sabbatai Sevi Yahweh haunts abandon abaddon baal benjamin Yahweh ghosts abandon apollyon baal benjamin bull icons and bull fire Yahweh ghosts groove grove abomination of desolations dry desert gushes Christina’s cunt The Cross Yahweh and the Cross Cross Yahweh and the Cross Cross across cuts calico syntax Cross across crossroads, cuts slack subtract me desert Yahweh, a storm-and-warrior deity My own hands distract my hands desert Yahweh bombed out bunkers / desolations subterranean desolation underground garden project robocop on repeat The Cross The Cross creole cant carnivale Cross carnivale and circus corrupt crypt text / partially rewritten recycling ben bonfire barnfire or bonfire barnfire and bonfire bone bandits bone bandits birds bare bath large and medium feeders in Asia’s backyard backyard yardbird Yahweh as years Short year and long year lashed yard yard ragamuffin mar warlock yahweh Gun glock lock gospel Gun glock lock jazz june gospel Gospel gruel wendigo graphic violence Violence vomit gospel excess emesis Gospel jazz standards broadway tunes jam jam bam bam bigelow I jet jam otonality and utonality bird bridal chamber I jet jam jazz standards otonality / otoscope monopoly octopus otoscope monopoly easy syrup sea urchin Sea urchin written and written explores his dead mountains moors wilderness with a globe of fire lightning his journey
Hey Fuck Face You Write Ugly
Sometimes stars something Sometimes stars something in the way she moves Sometimes stars somewhen Woman Somewhen Woman shimmers sheets of sound surge cell sin three-on-one chord antinomian I antinomian ascension – John Coltrane’s big band thing I continue John Coltrane I continue John Coltrane Stellar Regions and Interstellar Space Space sprawls no space but stars Space sprawls sprawls no space but stars Space sprawls space but no stars stars stink stinkbugs and bombardier beetle pelican bay Stars imprison position momentum stellar pilot waves Stars imprison repetition darkness imprisoning me all that I see absolute horror I cannot live I cannot die trapped in myself body my holding cell Human body as supermax prison Human body panopticon Human body cosmic horror My body too sometimes marries mullet marmot monstrosity Sometimes star stench straw stomach army stomachache and stars especially sirius infects my pineal gland with god psychosis I played cliches and tried to learn hip tunes so I could play with the guys who played them I play something else: I play other god because this god (this god here, the god I point at) embellishes my cliches with cliches and Christianity autofellates its own cock cliches (Your mother sucks cocks in hell, Karras) Nevertheless I kontake kontra-punkte Krystal Christianity and I don’t so much attempt to transform Christianity but to revive its original rhizome I accept the spirit of Judas Iscariot and I betray the Christ to reveal the Christ (but you will exceed them all, for you sacrifice the man who bears me) I sacrifice the Christ that cases comic the Christ I betray the Christ traces true-false Christ, Christianity as absolute contradiction Alabaster contradiction ancient of ancients / my ancient cliches cobweb aerodynamic curves I collect codex I collect codices I collect codices contradictions christianities I unconcealed the concealed christianities, books of books, libraries of libraries, my labyrinth My labyrinth darklight light mysterious christianities spilled scripture into black paintings Earlier, when I had first heard Bird, I wanted to be identified with him, says John Coltrane… To be consumed by him. But underneath I really wanted to be myself. You can only play so much of another man… A young benjamin attempts to copy James Joyce I still copy the Bible, the Nag Hammadi Library, and the Zohar I don’t transform text but present prophecy I prophecy past past eat future: chronos kairos krystal holy spirit spelunking I copy cave I copy cave krystal katabasis I frequently visit the underworld and sketch its environs circulating Howth Castle I visit vowel not vacant but blowtorch tetragrammaton sacrificial girls I garb myself in girlskin to descend I descend Mary Mother of God Merkabah I descend ascend, each vowel Mary Magdalene Merkabah and Heklalot your hair everywhere / her black hole black hair houses heretics Her black hole black hair homes horse fly heretics and I steady my vision vowel vale dark letters light Her light always-already unveils supernal dark, vials vocal with my blood My blood boils vials vision volts bolts books I build Tower of Babel not from bricks but from books I worship Whore of Babylon with UFO scraps, mallets, and military weather balloons / ostentatious aluminum alligators and her seven hills sabbath heretics cities of refuge I built Tower of Babel black books black paintings black body of Jesus Jesus phalanx black box black flesh her flesh curves callipygian phyrgian baby got back I back cackle blue black doll darkness ball-joint o doll darkness differentiated desert Jesus barrierless barrier black and bottom burial black belongs to desert I decide undecidable desert, an aerodynamic curve down on the corner camelbacks wave after wave of descending aliens with a horizontally moving laser Aliens hex hassle my cats with laser pointer pitch shifters Pitch shifter polygon window I continue Christianity I continue Christianity John Coltrane and I deacon desert devil diver discontinuous No, I continue incomplete symphony, corgi castle comic books build-a-bear bile This construction zone allows for ugly writing / ugly write ornithologist gesticulating intestines it’s only a little indigestion I ugly unlit umber my ulcers bark blood ten-in-one (my skin lesion my lesions lacing all mucous membranes, and my stomach and duodenum bubble flakes pus fragments all my linings jello gelatin green glue My skin forms pus and hangs necrotic ischemic eschar issachar and I lie strong donkey between the sheepfold, and I bow my decaying shoulders to the burden) I continue necessarily something because always something spaceless space / cross and khora Cranky khora clanks coffins coffins cablestack crosses She began experimenting with glissandos as a structural (rather than decorational) element in the early 1960s… He answered, You can write this way, but who would ever listen to it? And he chuckled. I answered, I think I would… and that ended the conversation. Make experimentation a constant practice Experiment constantly and continually / experiment discontinuity the UGLY I read and I listen and absorb UGLY and UGLY unhooks a unified my human I experiment human more essential than the divine Human encompasses the towered track of the divine I need more experiments more human middle rhythm rhythm middle rhythm (how does one translate the glissando into written form? PURECONTINUOUSSOUNDSCAPES Scriptio continua, a style of writing without spaces or other marks between the words or sentences The lack of word parsing forced the reader to distinguish elements of the script without a visual aid, but it also presented the reader with more freedom to interpret the text…) Glissandi means the reader has more freedom to interpret the text Glissandi grapples god wrestles writing no order for noun phrase verb phrase fraggle rock fragmentation Glissandograpplesungentlegodswrestlingknots Glissandi gods gruppen genuine genesis galaxies Glissandigalaxiesgodsgellargenesis Genesis RUINS rhythm middle rhythm Rhythm middle kingdom rhythm symphony no. 1 music on open strings reworks glissando string quartet Planets (1974) became Symphony No. 2 (1988) Transitions (1974) became Symphony No. 4 (1990) Symphony as sonic agreements I write agreements continuous disagreements discontinuities scroll symphonies Make experiment a practice: daily prayer, daily contemplation, daily meditation I experiment Tarot Queen of Swords: with wings and two swords, presenting a choice between the red, mature, positive side, and the green, unripe, negative side Certainly sword and I fall swords Certainly sword sweeps supernatural and I swim spirits Sword strikes my shoulders water woman / waters wail waking I wake sword Yahweh Yahweh insects insects invade my interstitial spaces spaceless Yahweh left off dreaming Yahweh left off dreaming me and I survive the dream I survive mix remix telethon telecaster Telecaster towers traces traces my Son of Human The outer fire, in the form of a cherub, grids the alchemical couple sulfur and mercury into the labyrinth of material transformation Outer fire queen of swords Queen of swords outer fire black barlow Christ bitumen I carry her cross la brea tar pits I cross fireman’s carry outer fire and I dare BURNING HAMMER Outer fire burning hammer hangtime hostages Frankenstein fire outer feedback P-funk fire outer other perfume purrs pus pink slime Fire evokes some forceful entry into my innards entire wall crawl glissando Fire cracks my cranium cudgeled concave caves Cave fire outer fire fire caverns Fire lights bright desynchronized salt circle parlor game Outer fire funhouse mirrors distorted in mirrors / mirror of simple souls burned heretics in fire Distorted outer fire Distended outer fire Outer fire disorientation and dissociation Fleet fruit fire shroud fire figures feminine east of the garden of eden cherubims and a flaming sword which turned every way Sword turns fire and sword revolves fire Sword turns every way fire and sword flashes outer fire (the flame of the sword that turns round and round… the form used in Job 37:12 means swirling clouds and in Judges 7:13 to mean a tumbling roll of bread. Verse 24 depicts the sword as moving from side to side to prevent anyone from passing or as whirling around, ready to cut to shreds anyone who tries to pass) I turn tower fire and I turn taryn fire / outer fire tetragrammaton I turn tower thread fire outer fire fortissimo I further fire farther amplified towers Tower to tower sword turns fuck fire Fuck fires nonsense fettuccine foursquare and my fire red flesh fisticuffs fungi / fiberglass chicken gizzard gods I imagine Yahweh addresses his angels as Hey Fuck Face Hey fuck face, ignite this refrigerator fire with the fiery sword turning truck timed terminators terminator terminals Hey fuck face you write ugly I’ve dropped better looking turns in the toilet then the steaming shit bullplop benjamin writing Doesn’t matter – ride or die write or die I survive Yahweh and Christ by writing Sometimes Yahweh and Christ fume famine fire fuck faces I write ugly undress uranium Ugly write black widow black paintings Ugly unfurls flower fire and often my experiments excrete ugly but I daily daily I experiment daily I experiment daily desert inevitably ink disaster I dream the deeper dream desert I undress unmake naked ugly I slurp consensus coffins Coffin screech scratch scuttle rebuttal undead experiments Experiment engines enthusiasmos Experiment elephants ecstatic emanations Experiment extraterrestrial undressed UFOs and cryptids in code Cryptids code eddy amy any experiment my god experience I experience god gods gulf god gods gulf ganondorf outer fire triforce Triforce fruit flies Legend of Zelda field intervals lateral loops landmine lifts / experiment layers levitations
UFO Tarot Orgy
content warning: pornographic imagery Flying saucers fuck flying saucers fuck flying saucers mid-air (the player controls a single space ship in the asteroid field periodically traversed by flying saucers) Flying saucers flynning flynn effect and my rapier flails floss self-flagellates prism surfaces cassette tapes Flying saucer fidgets flack rhythm fire and I fathom fire primordial I fathom fire central fire primordial flight, iron ingot irritant icarus Woman waxed wings Leonardo Da Vinci’s flying machine I fire flight asteroids defender galaxian I fire free flight Sonny Rollins Freedom Suite and suite seems sweet multiphonic growling god I fire freer and freer flight my flesh more aerial than aether and sometimes I spaces hip distant stars summer sirius (Philip K. Dick writes in entry 51 of the Tractates Cryptica Scriptura: The primordial source of all religions lies with the ancestors of the Dogon tribe, who got their cosmogony and cosmology directly from the three-eyed invaders who visited long ago… [They] emanated from a planet in the star system Sirius…) Spaceless I shaman sirius Spaceless and timeless, I seer Sirius and Sirius skims scorches my skin holy spirit Sirius skeins shines a scorching sieve torched to my skin holy spirit Sirius Sophia and Sirius Shekinah Spirit spaces and spaceless mystery of mysteries Crazy dreams, from which it emerges that not only did I come from Sirius itself, but that, in fact, I completed by musical education there, says Karlheinz Stockhausen Sirius stings Taryn Ashley Sirius stings stabs jabs Taryn Ashley an assortment of babalon gods, and Christina gifts me several gods Christina gifts me good galloping horses whorehouses, and benjamin frequents brothels The helical rising of Sirius marked the flooding of the Nile in Ancient Egypt and the dog days of summer for the Ancient Greek, while to the Polynesians, mostly in the Southern Hemisphere, the star marked winter and was an important reference for their navigation around the Pacific Ocean I navigate nameless stars nameless star struck gods Among stars I cast lots and gamble gambol gods their ornate oracle bones (in a little hilltop village they gambled for my clothes I bargained for salvation and she gave me a lethal dose) I navigate when me they fly I am the wings and wings mature meteor shower insects Meteor shower asia rain insects infect my stellar stream and I scream queen queer drag queen freedom Free more queens Free more unidentified flying objects and classified documents Free more queens queer Yahweh and sodomite Christs Christ truly fucks and cross sodomizes anal awareness awake / her cross awakens me Her cross arouses me ark of noah ark of the covenant sun ra’s arkestra I fly freer skies son of humanity and human horror / I free feel human hodgepodge because it plays human On January 25, 1878, The Denison Daily News printed an article in which John Martin, a local farmer, had reported seeing a large, dark, circular object resembling a balloon flying “at wonderful speed”. Martin, according to the Newspaper account, said it appeared to be about the size of a saucer from his perspective, one of the fist uses of the word “saucer” in association with a UFO UFO weird orgasms: UFO weirder orgies Do you think gloryholes still exist? I ask Christina. Yes. Humans are wild. At my work, we OFTEN have parents who are cheating on their spouses and meet up with their children for dates. Nothing surprises me anymore. People be fucking, says Christina Often UFO weird orgasms: often UFO weirder orgies and a large dark circular object resembles God’s ball sack God wraps his saucer ball sack in roswell weather balloons then military balloons and then God fucks flight test dummies / god greys government-regulated orgasms God greys air force test pilot saucer centrifuges greyout lopsided lobotomies Lopsided lobotomies lush forest fire fucks I forge the UFO’s signature on a bank loan I loan light listening crowd layers I loan right light laughter I listen seashells I sign many lights I sight lights signal stars stars stamen tessellated rhizomes / no repetition but starlight repetition all the differences I seer many lights each a savior and she saves me through light, between light, and without light (Now I, the perfect Forethought of the All, transformed myself into my offspring I exited First and went down every path: I the abundance of Light I the remembrance of fullness) Light lunar light and light mirrored light, the motet leaflets distributed by malchut Light lunar light leaf insect lanterns and I hold the lantern stowaway sirius / Asia resists rejection in The Cold Equation Light lego light lady of lake liminal sirius stella by starlight and by starlight I’ll kiss you and tell you you’re my one and only Stare strike summer light and summers when Taryn surfed and suntanned chrome leather tanning torpor tempest toroid tempest tortoise tempest / slow star rhythms Stars slow rhythm constructed UFO hallucinations and Christina kidnaps me or abducts me for anal probing Asshole experiments Asshole experimentation Asshole experiment Asshole experimentation Experiments featuring assholes Anal probe with a giant mosquito proboscis Pronoia proboscis anal probe UFO abductions Saucer simmers souffle surgery and ghosts pivot the raptor pomegranates Saucer separates cabernet sauvignon chardonnay cat chapel champagne (I want to believe Igor Stravinsky and Coco Chanel had a passionate affair but I doubt Stravinsky would do such a thing) Saucer salt shaker separates cabernet sauvignon chardonnay witch’s cat crackle champagne, and the comb chamber chills jelly fish garden gelatin Flying jelly fish phantoms Jellyfish phantom foam pennyfarthing for a penny dreadful Flying jelly fish phantom and in the courtyard, sulfur and mercury / mercury molotov cocktail christ on the cross Molotov cocktail christ on the cross crescents the region of three amens and amen I tell you neither new wine into old wineskins otherwise the skins burst balloon bombast very fast In April of 1878, reports of such “mystery airships” in various parts of the United States reminiscent of modern UFO sightings Scores of people even report talking to pilots I talk to pilots I talk pilots pilot wave theory and UFOs buzz instantaneous and nonlocal / my hidden variable vision I talk pilots plunge lines god grooves in the pocket and pocket propels me praying pulse and pulsing psalms Psalm center other / psalms center alien Psalms the region of the three amens Psalms the region of the five trees or seven amens Amen, I graph gehenna amen, I seagull gehenna, ben-hinnom birds peck pure my flesh Psalms resins resonant hollow body Psalms resin fragrant resonance hollow body banquet beetles and I select a song of ascends and a hymn of degrees Yahweh keeps me: Yahweh shades my right hand; the sun doesn’t strike me by day nor the moon by night I sing similar psalms flying saucers navigating the region of three amens I revisit region amen abstract expressionism I revive region amen inside unison and I double orchestra parts pinball flying saucers / UFO for solo percussion and orchestra (1999) and for solo percussion and symphonic band (2000) by America composer Michael Daugherty I revisit region vision Olivier Messiaen’s airship with antlers and antelope iconography Antelope ant hills art mill close colonies Ant hills art mills army ants separated from the main foraging party, lose the pheromone track and begin to follow one another, forming a continuously rotating circle I encounter ant pilots and I talk antenna tapestry, Taryn staring at me with her compound eyes / a cruel wind that bows down to our lunacy and leaves him standing cold in this colony I interpret pilot I interpret pilot have woman, her heretical hermeneutics Everything I participate everything heresy heretics air aether theory pilot wave quintessence and quaker countdown quaker conundrum conflict crisis on infinite earths I pilot the airship through the region amen and amen amen The pilot plays parable What makes it worth being my friend? Why do you want to be stuck with me? I cause grief for people I love. Obviously that’s not the only feeling you cause. I suppose that’s true. But I’m not sure why the grief and pain are wroth it sometimes. That’s what you risk when you for relationships with others. What feelings do I cause for you? Both positive and negative. I’m not good at this sort of thing… You’re not holding me against you will – why is it so hard to believe that I enjoy being your friend? I think it’s because I am stuck with me all the time and I don’t enjoy my company… Thank you for your friendship. I think if there is a god, she wants me writing you and Krystal and the women in my life… She wants me to be engaged in relationships with you all… I think you also need to come to terms with yourself. I know. I don’t know how to do that yet. How did you come to terms with yourself? I t was a slow process. Maybe tarot can help you out. Ask your tarot what is there to like about you. Also, forgiveness is a big part, says Asia. I do not ask a question, but I draw a card from Robert M. Place’s Alchemical Tarot, Fifth Edition. I draw the Nine of Staffs. I’ve drawn this card before: it recurs region amen and alkahest. The Grey Wolf – being burned in a fire to reclaim the king, whom he swallows – a necessary sacrifice, being overcome with passion I do fear fire and fire forms flown flesh, my flesh fur and feathers I fly fire flying saucers again amen Flows fire novel and flame novel different flows fire and fire hugs my heresies I form fire my hands I form fire my bare hands my hands bare blood black paintings passenger pigeons I form fire my hands bare golem golem gushes god’s bloody orgasm I form fire floor floors my hand and I handle holy wove hundreds Every wolf god wolf girl wolf She wolfs down my body and the region amen regurgitates my guts revival My gut parasite revival a tabernacle gulf grey wolves (The last two days Adelaide has gotten upset when Wolfgang is in my lap. She runs him off and takes his place. Poor Wolfgang, says Asia) Grey wolf god wolf girl wolf asia rain’s wolfgang meowing a tune by wolfgang amadeus mozart She howls my hands naked fire and human fire fire forms my body frozen flame framed fire She howls hope heretic performance art happenings (Wolf from the old english wulf, thought to be derived from the proto-germanic wulfaz) (In my fire, I reconstruct proto-indo-european languages and multiply proto-languages) Beware grey wolf god benjamin and grey god fire fuels black baphomet fire Grey god fire fastens flat facets black broom fire Wolf devours desert Wolf woman work devours desert diaspora, the pouring penteteuch of desert (I worship an animal – this must be because of the desert – it seems absolutely to demand prayer) Wolf woman awake surfaces desert devour, UFO oasis orgasms Flying saucers stonewash sharp angles and its smooth surfaces pretend air rack race cars / aerodynamic curves Its smooth surfaces seduce select sensual desert desert siren and I simplify surface I simplify surface spaceship, a scrumptious tiger shrimp cure (I always imagine UFOs with beautiful curves) I imagine UFOs with curves, racing cars tracing differentiable manifolds A nondifferentialable atlas of charts for the globe. The results of calculus may not be compactible between charts if the atlas is not differentiable. In the center and right charts, the Tropic of Cancer is a smooth curve, whereas in the left chart, it has a sharp corner. The notion of a differentiable manifold refines that of a manifold by requiring the functions that transform between charts to be differentiable (I wish I knew more mathematics; mathematics vomits violent beauty) Curve amps curve cartograph cropsy compass Curve catalogues curve rose compass rosary repetition and I rearrange neodymium magnets mutilate my fingers Monopole magnets polymeter mutilated metric space my spaceless spaceship transits transmissions from the dark Magnets mayfly magpie Moser’s number curves magnets curve mirrors matrices echo elohim elephants exotic hannibal lektor crossing the alps (This is what happens when you fuck a stranger up the ass) ( this is what happens when you find a stranger in the alps) Reports of strange ships and artificial lights in the sky were published in local newspapers for the next two decades culminating in a mass panic in 1897 where some people feared that Thomas Edison had created an artificial star that could fly around the country I shrink the star sirius to the size of a bouncy ball / the brighter component, termed Sirius A, a main-sequence star of the spectral type early A, with an estimated surface temperature of 9,940 K I shrink the star Sirius to the size of a bony ball, two bouncy balls binary bisexual benjamin I stitch star to star and it struggles stretched spectra god / golem god empty early electrons I rarely stargaze: too much light pollution and I often need deeper dark and magisterial mystery / muddled magic I ship strange pipe organ stops My internal organs stop stutter restart start supernovas I supernova bipolar right hand rule magnetic rascals I stargaze gallop god ground generals – no I stargaze ginnungagap god ground gears generals and stars solvent succulents start succulent solvent, wolf water woman Woman wolfs water and wolf waters woman, the well mixture water and fire Star strums dominant seventh chords (So inviting so enticing to play the part I could play the wild mutation as a rock and roll star) Stars strum dominant seventh chords cluster noise and noise needle gnosis Stars strum sector seven slums and its altered dominant sevenths tension tattletale totems
A primary pulse plays parousia pile porneia…
content warning: pornographic imagery Underworld unit circle chlorines culinary cemetery and I cook food flesh I cook food flesh cannibal alchemy I cook food flesh clocks quarter chunks of thighs Taryn tortuga oily alchemy dinosaur bones Unstable underworld wraps bronze age collapse and sea peoples invade my vertebrae barracuda back pain Underworld ulsters serpent the very serpent and its skin stretches over my skin benjamin bebop rhythms Underground unlocks serpent skeleton upward and her serpent mediates skies earth underground Serpent unites serpent circles heaven and hell sea urchins / lake elongates sea anemone undulation As Eddie “Cleanhead” Vinson said, even in Coltrane’s days of raw anonymity, he changed his style almost every six months I don’t think I change my style every six months but I change my topics of obsession every six months – or every three, or two, or one months I currently edit a selection I wrote more than six months ago, and stylistic continuity exists Red Garland said of Coltrane during his stint in Miles Davis First Great Quintet: And he has the damnedest way of breaking chords down, but I have no trouble accompanying him because of that sense of continuity… Perhaps I shouldn’t aim for UNITY but rather CONTINUITY: a progression, a record or archive of transformation (note to self: study mathematical mappings, morphisms, and categories) Asia thinks my writing changes though, for the better – so perhaps a change happens and I too happen to change Lake elongates Lake elongates liberates serpent libertine and snake sheds transformation Lake transforms ladder lattice surface folios and this folding feels This folding feels felt feelers, arkansas stone antennae Folio serpent fire fertility feminine fields and I flash breasts benjamin different mathematical fields (the regular heptagon cannot be constructed using only a straightedge and compass construction; this can be proven using the fields of constructible numbers) Folio fleet masturbates illuminated manuscripts I cum semen scripture bible blows bodily fluids, sperm lymph blood I folio flatted fifths nigredo, and in nigredo I do not negate the black painting but I embrace Book Black pigment poured molten serpents I folio opus magnum maverick manuscripts and music / John Cage’s Concert for Piano and Orchestra Written to provide the evening with a climax, Piano For Piano And Orchestra (1957-1958) – exuberantly indeterminate – created by a composer with the intention – to hold together extreme disparities music has one finds them held together in the natural world such as a forest or a city street (I embrace the aleatoric I chance chance city and city citadel connects catastrophes chaoses congregations) I draw the Four of Cups from the Rider-Waite-Smith tarot deck (In english-speaking countries, where the games are largely unknown, Tarot cards came to be utilized primarily for divinatory purposes; the unconscious finds meaning and fulfillment in tarot’s images and symbols) I drink four of cups (meditation, contemplation, apathy, revelation) I contemplate something like Jesus Christ or John Cage I contemplate Concert For Piano and Orchestra, and it compromises 63 pages played in part or whole, in any sequence, involving 84 types of composition… I shout splatterpunk march of the pigs chance chronos confessions / I cone cross opus magnum marginal confessions I confess at margins I confess at khora aporia boa constrictor chance concert chemicals I saw wood and boil kettles on the stage I pour four cups chalopyrite butterflies I childbear chance aleatoric adonai I childbear chance novel nigredo and I blacken the boil, kettle krystal locker combination cave systems I find folios on fire dark cave gnarled nigredo Nigredo grenade nigredo granular synthesis I generate some sentence using a random sentence generator: She tilted her head back and let whip cream stream into her mouth while taking a bath (I read this as whip cream steam Sonic Youth’s Pink Steam Woman whip cream steam stew stegosaurus dinner plates and I arrange the plates speaking to ghosts in graveyards I arrange plate tectonic folio fault leaves speaking to gods at the ghiblet gowned grave) I tilt folio electronics a manuscript tail end manuscript, an absolutely aleatoric manuscript I tilt tank tilt-a-whirl woman (they line-up to mad dog your tilt-a-whirl and what this aleatoric feline folio: continuity Time linear laboratory luminous lakes makes a birthday cake for christina) I tilt folio kickflips and folio flows woman water female fire: I maintain the campfire Christina (Are you secretly a succubus? Haha new phone who dis? JK who else would ask me that. What happened to your old phone? Did it suffocate in your cunt? Apparently they use the term waterproof very loosely. Your cunt is that wet?!?! The technology is that insufficient?!?! True – I mean how do these phone companies expect us fetishists to have our phones survive our cunts and assholes? I mean they’re the ones who made them vibrate, says Christina) Four of cups Christian cups my balls and she tilts her head back and lets my semen stream into her mouth while taking a bath (I often feel comfortable writing pornography about Christina – ironic considering her asexuality) (My word process doesn’t recognize the word bukkake, I tell Christina. Not even if you put it in its face? My computer doesn't have a face. What do you cum into? Not my computer? LET MY STUPID JOKES LAND! says C) Nevertheless, pornography proves itself necessary Pornography plays pillow books with the Divine / Cosmic Horror and Horror closet homosexual Yahweh Start in the middle of a bar and end in the middle of a bar / nothing new nothing localized Start in the middle of the bar and in the middle of a bar / push birthpangs deer door sabbatai sevi Start in the middle of a barge then boat where Cropsy shears fingers, throats, and faces Start in the middle of the boat and lake ladder lattice illuminate sheer illumination, body as illuminated manuscript body silverleaf essen goldleaf body gilt grand garden Body grounds lake garden harvest of gods Body genders lake gods groupers gardens and lake elongates candy shears and rolling pin pineapple grenade My body lasks lake parasite and parasite peeks peak play, python play pli selon pli My body laps lake parasite and parasite peeks peaks play prophecy / spirit of elijah laughs left Spirit of elijah loops left and I demand more repetition I demand more fucking repetition / pornography Pornography polymodal chomaticism Pornography pitch axis theory jean Sibelius’ Symphony No. 4 outlines the tritone Lattice latches hatches a lens or cassette tape Lattice latches punk patches loops or cassette tapes Generation One Soundwave Start in the middle end in the middle I need new noise and more noise I need noise anew I believe I’ll dust my broom I need noise anew and my right hand plays the ride cymbal as the primary time source and my left hand plays active a source of rhythm counterpoint Noise narrates nigredo, radioactive drum black black ballads I believe I’ll dust my broom Noise narrates nigredo nanomachines, a nonlinear counterpoint hands as numerical solutions time source circles Nonlinear counterpoint adheres-decoheres right hand left hand and my rhythm twins primes pulses / I write platypus I write duck-billed platypus plays mammon hamill joker venom I write right hand left hand studies serpent texts intertextual bebop and I drum desert rhythm rhythm nigredo Nigredo indeed fulcrums folios mad scientist multiplication Nigredo indeed fulls no-filler folios bride of frankenstein logarithms Nonlinear napier’s bones I know nighttime rhythm rhythm nigredo and black nicotines neodymium noise (I improvise as a composer and I composer improvisationally) Nocturnal I name my hands noise and my nicotine tarots time My right hand as four of cups cards primary time compound rhythmic counterpoint My right hand carpal tunnel trembles tremolo primary time complex counterpoint and my time turns nigredo My time tears nigredo tusked noise I write right hand primary time my left hand rhythmic counterpoint Asia conversations (What makes you want to write? I ask Asia. Good question… I’m writing myself into existence and the world into existence. I like that… do you think you’re prophesying too? Maybe, says Asia) Nonlinear neoplastic noise A primary pulse play my hands times and in time pedal points Primary pulses play pedal points plot middle and my middle intermingles metallurgy movement noise and noise My middle intermingles interruption Raw rock rhythm rock ground the clock rocket eighty-eight noise and noise A primary pulse participates new york hardcore hardcore pornography and I prostitute my pulse porneia my flesh as prison phone call A primary pulse plays parousia pile porneia… Start in the middle and end in the middle Is not the liturgical poet who first writes that clay vessels in which leaven was cooked must be broken before Passover and then states that they must be stored in wooden sheds, guilty of contradiction? … It is poetic liberty to state together two contradictory principles… I caterpillar the primary pulse rare earth magnetic rhythmic contradictions I counterpoint primary pulses riddle rhythmic contradictions no correction (I attempt to correct everything anything much noise) I contemplate contradiction in Torah or the Gospel readings and contradictions congeal into rhythmic counterpoint / calcinatio and congelatio of mystery I tangle in Torah / I tango Torah a Taryn Tarantula and near the day of purification, Taryn will spin cobwebs back and forth in the sky I tension tight in Torah / I terrace Torah taryn tensors and contradictions feldspar folios no field but female The scholarly consensus remains that the text composes composite composts composite compound contradictions I do not cut contradictions but I collect and she circular breathes serpent circle I do not cancel contradictions but I congregate them and she summons chronos kairos simultaneous rhizome The existence of E as a complete source sinews questionable questable silver The existence of E as complete source remains doubted (I doubt in doublets) because E first appears well after the beginning of the Torah and proves almost impossible to disentangle from J after the Exodus (I enjoy studying the composition of the Torah – and by extension, the Tanakh – because of its multiplicity… When Deleuze and Guattari describe the Book as assemblage, as multiplicity minus the one, as rhizome – certainly the Tanakh is rhizomic Book par excellence My Book too assembles a thief in the night, a documentary or supplementary hypothesis, fractal fragments) I tangle-disentangle Torah I construct-deconstruct Torah and Torah torrents Taryn the Shining’s Jack Torrance Thus many scholars talk of JE together as an early narrative source, incorporating diverse traditions Wait, I changed my mind: I start something different, a different rhythm, a rhythm in the middle of a rhythm I want that eruptive feeling aht Charlie Parker had I want that eruptive feeling that Yardbird Yahweh had My rhythm erupts boxing ring rascal uppercuts and I jab many radios theater multiplex messy fingerprints (Basquiat painted quickly and directly, surrounding himself with sources of inspiration – music in studio especially bebop and hip-hop, worked with TV running and books lying on the floor, from which he copies images, homes, and incipient…) I attempt something like Torah rhythm doublets drives not drives but Sabbatai Sevi’s Donmeh / huh uh huh her nonsense rhythm I attempt something Tohu Wa-bohu woman rhythm and bell different beginnings bereshit volleyball vision volleyball behemoth and bahamut (The fish – Bahamut – carries on its back the giant bull – Kujata – and on the green hyacinth slab stands an earth-bearing angel) rhythm benjamin baphomet big bone belly / I arcane alloanimal abandon I arcane alloanimal apollyon and abbadon
Vision and Mysticism 