Striptease Without Transition

I dance desert     I dance dawn desert draw     Draw dawn down ball gown gore

I dance desert horror the house of the low sound (Ichorous Pictures presents… If you are thinking of going into this house… If you are thinking of opening this door… If you think you are checking out this basements… DON’T  If you are thinking of seeing this film alone… DON’T)

Desert DON’T horror but I dance house     I dance triangle house house of long sound     Sound desert DON’T but body: human body don’t dose house

I dance desert     I belly dance desert behemoth: I belly dance desert baphomet     Ben bodies belly gehenna: ben hinnom house hosts     ben bodies slit belly burst earth / desert dance bahamut     Dance desert bahamut NEO bahamut bahamut ZERO: tera flare Taryn apocalypse

I peek at apocalypse unveils nude bodies     Peek apocalypse kiss porn bodies occult obscene (the veiling then revealing of my undressing)     Apocalypse reveals ben nude body visions and I unveil my eyes uneasy erotic (Ben Body reveals divine human body unveiled revelation of the divine     I AM Body and I AM material     I AM earth animal erotic tower of babel theopoetic bodies)

Apocalypse bodies beetle amber and an add tape with plastic bag attached to cloth with plate on skin

Apocalyptic bodies bebop place tectonic plate pluto nonlinear / unnumbered neural networks     Neural plural pleura nonlinear networks     Network no numbers but numbers NEW NAPALM

ben body mixed body splash head

ben body tints beetle spill head

Timed body desert time nude babel

I prophesy time trace to through time impact an extended instant

Time tent tower of babel deterritoralization reterritoralization my naked zebra body     Naked zebra body blinks wolverine revelation / approximate apocalypse porneia     Anarchic apocalypse porneia

Pliable bodies psalm porneia / stretches of Joseph Beuy’s writings combined with images traced from vintage gay pornography onto random pieces of paper     Pliable ben body prints play psalm porneia and horror / in the same way that pornographic movies reduce human interactions to the workings of genitals, Twitch of the death Nerve reduces cinematic thrills to little more than knives slicing through flesh

Ben body babel bethel beetles deterritoralized apocatastasis heaven and earth hypostasis

House leaves hypostasis hyperstasis kenotic hypomania

Homage, Taryn, in the house made of dawn     Homage, Taryn, in the house made of evening twilight     Homage Taryn in the house made of dark cloud     Homage, Taryn, in the house made of ruin and mist, of pollen and grasshopper (The grasshopper lies heavy    r-p-o-p-h-e-s-s-a-g-r looks up     Look rearrangements grasshopper GRASSHOPPER grasshopper gathering into leap     I reject my leap to faith: I reject my previous infinite resignation turned to knight of faith for a different kind of impossible passion)

(I obsess transitions: how do I transition from one section of the Book to another section of the Book     Study different kinds of musical modulations and steal and adapt to the Book     Study different kinds of modulation and their contexts: an each modulation and an each context     Texts contexts texts) (I stop obsessing transitions: I desire a more flexible and open Book     Porous sections and paragraphs)

I didn’t see that love in the church, says Asia.  The church is complicated, I say.  I don’t know – I’m second guessing a lot of things myself.  What sort of things are you second guessing? She says.  My writing, my prophecy, my encounters with the Divine.  What if I get on lithium and my mystical experiences disappear, I say.  Your prophecy comes from your heart, not from a chemical imbalance in your head, says Asia.

My mystical experiences disappear – not from any connection to a chemical imbalance to my brain, and I currently remain unmediated unmedicated – but what the grasshopper Philip K. Dick described as the Spirit of Elijah leaving     Nevertheless, I continue to prophesy     I prophesy open: open often oil and oil overflows     I prophesy open: open optics open orbits excess olive oil     I prophesy until I die

I prophesy time spore speed time flesh an extended instant     Time different shapes in the same, all-pervading light / I write simultaneous same shapes in changing lights and different shapes in the same all-pervading light

I prophesy add tape serpent skin all-pervading light     Add add tape puff adder eyeball orgiastic black market organs / bring me the head of Alfredo Garcia

Add tape skin scars palimpsest compressed in cold hell in thicket     I work miracles from manuscripts: I manuscript narwhal bone oracle bone scriptures     Tortoiseshell scriptures strut or wing polytopes

I pray pornographic polytopes / train taryn heterotopias

My body KHORA strips more real and divine than any scripture or any name     My KHORA body nude strips void more vision than any imaginable god     ben body khora bellies desert dance nameless city of the accursed more holy and whole than Yahweh

(My body holes phallic     My body whole whore her whore of babylon)

ben body burden of the valley of vision     ben body dumah desert oracle and pornographic proclamation     Play porno gospel of philip

The Lord said to the disciples, […] from every house.  Bring into the house of the Father.  But do not take anything in the house of the Father.  Nor carry it off…

Her house     Her house hall her hair

I keep thinking that we live in a progressive world, says Asia, and then I get a rude awakening with little things, like people or students or parents being thrown off by my haircut, she says.  Your haircut is awesome though, I say.  Because you look like Asia with your short hair.  They are like “why is her hair so short?”.  I guess teachers tend to be very traditional careers so that anything out of the norm is off-putting.  People assume I’m gay.  Last year a parent asked their kid about why my hair was so short, a student this year asked the social studies teacher why my hair was so short, and when I wore my “everyone welcome hoodie” one of the students asked if I was gay.  He didn’t mean anything by it, eh was just curious but I wouldn’t feel comfortable saying anything other than “I'm married to a man”, says Asia.

Her house     Her house hide hair     Her house houses serpents     Her hair haunted / my hands hold holes     My ahnds hole house host heat

Lacunae lights house     Lights from evening house

(Mati Hari: the most celebrated segment of her stage act was the progressive shedding of her clothing until she wore just jeweled bra and some ornaments over her arms and head)

I strip bare to film     I strip film bare unbordered black paintings     I strip bare bastard and bosom blossoms breasts hang cannons

(I listen to an interview with Michael Pisaro-Liu conducted by Irene Kurka and published on October 2, 2018, and he says something that strikes me:  “I have no sense that I need to be stylistically consistent – I think that’s actually an artificial construction.  We can do it in retrospect with people who are dead… The artist doesn’t have to concern themselves with that”     To let myself – to allow myself – to be stylistically inconsistent or let myself be contaminated by what I previously considered verboten or contra-ben     to let myself write Philip Glass Part 12 of Music In Twelve Parts:  I had broken the rules of of modernism and so I thought it was time to break some of my own rules, says Philip Glass.  And this I did, with the shifts in harmony in Part XI and then in Part XII, where for the first and only time in my mature music, I actually threw in a twelve-tone row.  This was the end of minimalism for me.  I had worked for eight or nine years, inventing a system, and now I’d written through it and come out the other side, he says.)

I strip bare to film     I strip film bare unbordered black paintings     I strip bare bastard my bosom blossom my breasts hand cannons     I strip film bride stripped by her bachelors bare even (Parisian shows such as Moulin Rouge and Folies Bergère featured scantily clad women dancing and tableaux vivants… An act in the 1890s featured a woman who slowly removed her clothes in a vain search for a flea crawling on her body… The People’s Almanac credits the act as the origin of the modern striptease)

Striptease towers to towers fly-by-wire striptease     Striptease towers than towers tlön uqbar orbis tertius     Striptease towers tertius towers stacked Taryn tetriminos (the conjunction of mirror and encyclopedia) (Mirror doubles the depths of the counting side corridor / house hollow houses hand haze) 

I film film stringent string theory body (striptease as a mystifying spectacle and reassuring ritual where evil is advertised the better to impede and exorcise it)

I film my body striptease collage     I film my body striptease tannin catastrophe   tannin cannon catastrophe taryn     Taryn pornographic palindromes uninhabited houses     House haunt film strip sprockets people walking slowly back and forth across the object-filled stage at individually calculated paces through mass objects

(ben bodies mass of objects     ben bodies massive glow assassin)

I strip mothlight mourners     I strip mothlight softly as the morning sunrise     I strip silent film collage real world elements inside earth instant earth     Inside invisible vertical earth and sometimes I write rewrite an ordinarily essential difference between making a piece and hearing one)

I strip film fog without a camera     Strip hedgehog in the fog / my blood floods naked (striptease dancer at the end of her performance   she is fully nude except for her high heeled black shoes)

I’m trying to slowly swap some of my cosmetics for zero waste swaps and I’m low on toothpaste and shampoo, says Asia.  I got a bulk bag of toothpaste tablets and two shampoo bars.  That's cool, I say.  I admire your commitment to your values.  Technically the shampoo bar is a lot cheaper than normal shampoo, especially if you get nice shampoo because it’s easy to spend 30 dollars or more on a bottle of shampoo, she says.  I use this big bottle of Head and Shoulders, I say.  Pfft, that’s the most man thing you have ever said, she says.  Is Head and Shoulders bad?  No, not particularly, says Asia.  It works well for some people.  Better than Suave or whatever.  Just tell me that you use conditioner.  No, I say.  But you have curly hair: it needs nourishment.  My bottle says 2 in 1.  Green apple and goji berry shampoo and conditioner.  I don’t believe in two in one, says Asia.  At least get a leave-in conditioner or a hair mask.  Of course you don’t, I say.  That's why you don’t believe in the Christian Trinity either – slippery slope, I say.  

Modulation varies one or more properties of a periodic waveform

Bodies feel felt forms waves word     ben body fleets forms flat waves / desiring-machine modulations     Machine modulates maps map word wave warp word     Machine word ben body flat fleet bare feet (heels of greater or lesser light distract from the foot’s low and flat character)

My mouth modulates mirrors     My mouth metals mazes head flint bare shoulders     My mouth models intermedia: film mirrors camera mirror music retrogresses     My mouth retrogrades glossolalia galaga inversions

Mouth move mud     Mouths modulate earthworks and chariotwork wings people walk slowly back and forth across the object-filled stage

Mouths modulate beach light leech light she lights the lights mouth torches

The difference between this notebook and that notebook – no difference, except the direction in which one copies

I copy a whole new film technique: moth wings, flower petals, and blades of grass pressed between two strips of 16mm splicing tape

My moth medicines maple syrup mix moth wings     My mouth marshes messy muted moth wings but wings hinge light swing     My arms walk swing insects

My mouth modulates moth wings vary up and down swing thing     Moth wings swivel it don’t mean a thing unless it’s got that swing

Splice tape strip cinema naked: direct cinema direct bodies

I speak my naked body spliced blood spills stereo sodium     Nude ben body slices human steak vampire stake silk stockings     My body directs undressed desert body diluted soap surge saucer bodies     My body slows nude space deserts

Splice film space khora     Splice blood spurt from pulsing artery     Splice slice blood spit split space archery / aimless arrow archons

My flesh nude without camera     My flesh produced naked without the use of a camera     ben body tetra a whole new film technique     ben body blocked-out black black-out shades

I do not shield my body from shade and shadow and I doubt drift borderless black     Cut to black or fade to black

I prophesy wrestle long logos logorrhea     Logorrhea wing woman repetition incoherent vision     I witness incoherent choir cellophane body without camera     Called sawed cells stripped cellophane flowers of yellow and green towering over Taryn’s head     I look for the girl with the sun in her eyes and she’s gone     She’s gone orthogonal often stream of unchecked nonsense often under pressure and the lack of self-correction

I correct camera striptease direct bodies and naked bodies: ben body absolute mothwings